Title- All Alone
Author- Jarodsangel33, aka Charmingchick33 -Katelyn
Email- Charmingchick33@netscape.net
Category- drama
Rating- PG
Spoilers- Takes place after 9x02
Archive-Anyone's free to read... if they want to link to this, or add it to
their pages... email me first for verification and permission. ^.^
Author's Note- This is a fic... dedicated to one of my best friends,
Dillon... PS. Thanks for the nickle.
Disclaimer- I don't own ER or any of the characters, they belong to NBC,
and their writers and creators. Just using them for the story. I also do
not own the song "Sand and Water" it belongs to Beth Neilsen Chapman and
the other people who created it. FYI... I am doing it a bit differently...
I am using the verse she wrote for Elton John's version for the third lines
for the fourth because the fourth don't really fit the characters in this
particular songfic....
Summary- Songfic using the song "Sand and Water" by Beth Neilsen Chapman
~*~*~
County General- Kerry sat at the admit desk. She'd just received a phone
call from her private investigator. Once again, he thought he had a lead on
Kerry's case. She decided to have him email her the information so she
could get it in a more private area. She decided to go into the lounge and
check it out.
The Lounge- Kerry flipped on the light and headed towards the computer. She, Carter, and Elizabeth were the only ones covering the ER on this particularly dead afternoon shift so she figured she had some time. She logged into her account and opened the newest email in her box from her investigator.
Kerry,
The information below contains the whereabouts of someone who might be your birth-mother, this lists an address, phone number, and workplace. I hope this will help you.
Sincerely,
Investigator Morris
Mrs. Glenda Clarkson
1260 West Pine St.
Chicago, IL.
Workplace- owns small convenient store on corner of Duke and Jackson Streets.
Phone Number- 900-2295
Home number- 915-7767
"Oh good, I actually know where that is," Kerry said as she printed the email and folded it. She placed it into her jacket pocket and turned off the computer. She left the Lounge just as she had found it and headed towards the desk area to find Carter.
Front Desk- Kerry approached the desk and noticed the board was empty. "Must be a slow night," she thought. Randi had been doodling on the board. She had what appeared to be a sketch of a cartoon girl with a cartoon dog. She was just drawing a stick like thing coming off the girl's arm when Kerry tapped her on the shoulder.
"Having a fun time Randi?" She asked.
"Ohhh hi Dr. Weaver," She said trying to cover her artwork.
"Where's Carter?" Kerry asked saying nothing of the artwork.
"He's in curtain area 3," Randi said and turned back towards the board.
"Oh yea and Randi, if any patients come in, I want that drawing gone." She said and limped off to find Carter.
Curtain Area 3- "John?" Kerry asked. Carter and the patient both answered with a "yes?" "I meant the Dr." she said politely and asked Carter to step outside.
"What do you need Kerry?" He asked.
"Can you cover for me?" She asked.
"Um I guess so, what's up?" He asked concern in his voice.
"I just got an interesting phone call about some family information is all." Kerry said.
"Well I can cover, go... if u want to talk, I'm here." John said.
"Thanks John," she said as she walked away. She felt as though she could cry. Even after all those times she'd taken days from Carter, and had him do other people's work, he'd still been nice. Always, he was always a nice person.
As Kerry walked away, Carter noticed a slip of paper fall out of her pocket, he tried to call her but she didn't hear him as she left the ER.
"I guess I'll just hold on to it for a while then," He said as he unfolded it to see what it was. He quickly read over the paper and realized what Kerry was going to do. He went to the front desk and grabbed the phone.
"Hey Susan.... Susan??" He talked into her machine.
"What is it..." She mumbled as she picked up the phone.
"Hey, did I wake you?"
"Yes.... I was taking a nap... it's okay though, I have to be at work in an hour and a half." she said.
"Susan, can you cover for me?" He asked.
"Uh... sure, but what's in it for me?" She asked.
"Umm I'll take your shift for you when I come back, and I'll work one other shift this week," Carter said.
"Done... I'll be there in ten minutes." Susan said and with that hung up the phone.
Kerry's Car- She decided to drive with some music on. She turned the radio on and after realizing nothing good was on, she turned it off. She reached into her pocket and realized the piece of paper had fallen out somewhere.
"Oh shoot," She muttered as she realized she remembered all of the information. She decided since it was 1 in the afternoon that she'd try the convenient store. She decided to phone first. She pulled out her cell phone and dialed the number.
"Hello?" a woman's voice asked.
"Hello, Mrs. Clarkson?" She asked.
"Yes, who's this, please don't tell me it's about Carol," the voice asked.
"No, my name is Kerry Weaver, I have a question for you," She said.
"Umm ok" the woman said.
"Did you give a daughter up for adoption?"
".... how did you get this number?" The woman asked a tone of annoyance lining her voice.
"I hired a private investigator, I've been looking for my-" she was cut off.
"I did give my daughter away. But I have no ties with her and I'd like to keep it that way." the woman hung up leaving Kerry alone once again. She could feel the tears starting to well up in her eyes. She pulled into the parking lot of a nearby gas station to calm herself down. She let the tears fall freely down her cheeks. She had been rejected once again.
All alone I didn't like the feeling
All alone I sat and cried
All alone I had to find some meaning
In the center of the pain I felt inside
She remembered being a baby, she'd been sent to an agency in New York, then a nice family adopted her, they took her to Africa. But even then, she and her family had been in an accident.... they'd been killed while she survived suffering severe leg trauma... once again leaving her alone. She remembered then being put into another African agency, then Milungsi taking her in.... After that, she grew up and came to America with Milungsi to enroll in medical school where she met a great man named Paul. They had gotten married and had a baby girl... she was two when she was in a car accident with Paul, the two had tragically died. She had always been alone now that she'd thought of it. She began to calm down realizing that nothing's changed. She decided to check out her mother's store just for kicks.
Convenient Store- Kerry pulled into the parking lot and got out of her car. She slid her crutch on her arm and entered the store. She headed to the back of the store where she fiddled with the candy in the isle. She looked to the woman at the counter. "That must be her," She thought. The woman had bright orange hair, flowing down past her elbows. She was relatively slender, and had blueish green eyes. Just then, she heard the doors open and in walked a little girl. "Mommy!!" She yelled and jumped into the woman's arms.
"Hey sweetie, you're home early!" She said and huggled the girl.
"Yes... look what I made today," She said happily as she showed the woman a finger painting.
"It's beautiful." The woman said and taped it up on the wall with some other artwork.
Kerry's heart sunk. She'd been given up at birth, for no apparent reason, the woman looked to be in her 50's, which means she would've been in her twenties when Kerry was born. She sighed and grabbed a package of life-savors and gum and headed to the registers.
"Will that be it?" the woman said without looking up.
"Yea, that's it." Kerry said fighting back her tears.
"Mommy, she looks like you," the little girl said, "She has a stick though,"
"Carol hunny, that isn't nice," the woman said.
"I'm Kerry," Kerry said and looked into the woman's eyes.
The woman didn't say anything, she just handed the bag to Kerry and told her to have a nice day.
"Figures," Kerry thought as she leaned heavily on her crutch as she exited the store.
Kerry got back into her car realizing her leg was really hurting. She noticed the woman coming towards her car.
"How dare you," She said to Kerry.
"What did I do, is the fact that I want to know you wrong?" Kerry said the tears beginning to form in her eyes.
"You shouldn't be here! You aren't a part of our family, I gave you up." She yelled.
"Yea that's right, you did.... You just don't understand what it's like growing up all alone.... you were lucky enough to have a family." Kerry said as she got into her car and stuck the keys in the ignition.
"I figured you'd be happy to know your daughter was alive but I guess you are too preoccupied with your own life that u could care less about mine." Kerry said.
"That's not true but while we're on the subject why are you using that crutch?" the woman asked.
"If it's any of your business I was in a terrible car accident with my adoptive parents... they were killed and I lived." Kerry retorted. "If that's all you needed to know about my 32 years of life, goodbye mom..." Kerry said the tears pouring down her cheeks as she drove away. She didn't notice Carter's jeep sitting in the parking lot observing the whole argument.
Kerry decided to go home.... She figured Sandy and her were over considering their recent argument... so she decided to just relax.
Kerry sighed. "Just great. I can be home alone now too...." She muttered as she slammed her car door and headed upstairs to her apartment. She threw her key on the counter when she got inside. She decided to go sit down and watch some tv. She took a seat on the couch and turned on one of the soaps. She began to think about the past days events and began to cry. She laid on her side and cried into the pillow. She began to drift off into sleep.
All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water, and a million years gone by Carter's Car- Carter decided to check on Kerry before interfering with her family. He slowly drove over to her apartment humming to the tune of the song playing in his car.
The Lounge- Kerry flipped on the light and headed towards the computer. She, Carter, and Elizabeth were the only ones covering the ER on this particularly dead afternoon shift so she figured she had some time. She logged into her account and opened the newest email in her box from her investigator.
Kerry,
The information below contains the whereabouts of someone who might be your birth-mother, this lists an address, phone number, and workplace. I hope this will help you.
Sincerely,
Investigator Morris
Mrs. Glenda Clarkson
1260 West Pine St.
Chicago, IL.
Workplace- owns small convenient store on corner of Duke and Jackson Streets.
Phone Number- 900-2295
Home number- 915-7767
"Oh good, I actually know where that is," Kerry said as she printed the email and folded it. She placed it into her jacket pocket and turned off the computer. She left the Lounge just as she had found it and headed towards the desk area to find Carter.
Front Desk- Kerry approached the desk and noticed the board was empty. "Must be a slow night," she thought. Randi had been doodling on the board. She had what appeared to be a sketch of a cartoon girl with a cartoon dog. She was just drawing a stick like thing coming off the girl's arm when Kerry tapped her on the shoulder.
"Having a fun time Randi?" She asked.
"Ohhh hi Dr. Weaver," She said trying to cover her artwork.
"Where's Carter?" Kerry asked saying nothing of the artwork.
"He's in curtain area 3," Randi said and turned back towards the board.
"Oh yea and Randi, if any patients come in, I want that drawing gone." She said and limped off to find Carter.
Curtain Area 3- "John?" Kerry asked. Carter and the patient both answered with a "yes?" "I meant the Dr." she said politely and asked Carter to step outside.
"What do you need Kerry?" He asked.
"Can you cover for me?" She asked.
"Um I guess so, what's up?" He asked concern in his voice.
"I just got an interesting phone call about some family information is all." Kerry said.
"Well I can cover, go... if u want to talk, I'm here." John said.
"Thanks John," she said as she walked away. She felt as though she could cry. Even after all those times she'd taken days from Carter, and had him do other people's work, he'd still been nice. Always, he was always a nice person.
As Kerry walked away, Carter noticed a slip of paper fall out of her pocket, he tried to call her but she didn't hear him as she left the ER.
"I guess I'll just hold on to it for a while then," He said as he unfolded it to see what it was. He quickly read over the paper and realized what Kerry was going to do. He went to the front desk and grabbed the phone.
"Hey Susan.... Susan??" He talked into her machine.
"What is it..." She mumbled as she picked up the phone.
"Hey, did I wake you?"
"Yes.... I was taking a nap... it's okay though, I have to be at work in an hour and a half." she said.
"Susan, can you cover for me?" He asked.
"Uh... sure, but what's in it for me?" She asked.
"Umm I'll take your shift for you when I come back, and I'll work one other shift this week," Carter said.
"Done... I'll be there in ten minutes." Susan said and with that hung up the phone.
Kerry's Car- She decided to drive with some music on. She turned the radio on and after realizing nothing good was on, she turned it off. She reached into her pocket and realized the piece of paper had fallen out somewhere.
"Oh shoot," She muttered as she realized she remembered all of the information. She decided since it was 1 in the afternoon that she'd try the convenient store. She decided to phone first. She pulled out her cell phone and dialed the number.
"Hello?" a woman's voice asked.
"Hello, Mrs. Clarkson?" She asked.
"Yes, who's this, please don't tell me it's about Carol," the voice asked.
"No, my name is Kerry Weaver, I have a question for you," She said.
"Umm ok" the woman said.
"Did you give a daughter up for adoption?"
".... how did you get this number?" The woman asked a tone of annoyance lining her voice.
"I hired a private investigator, I've been looking for my-" she was cut off.
"I did give my daughter away. But I have no ties with her and I'd like to keep it that way." the woman hung up leaving Kerry alone once again. She could feel the tears starting to well up in her eyes. She pulled into the parking lot of a nearby gas station to calm herself down. She let the tears fall freely down her cheeks. She had been rejected once again.
All alone I didn't like the feeling
All alone I sat and cried
All alone I had to find some meaning
In the center of the pain I felt inside
She remembered being a baby, she'd been sent to an agency in New York, then a nice family adopted her, they took her to Africa. But even then, she and her family had been in an accident.... they'd been killed while she survived suffering severe leg trauma... once again leaving her alone. She remembered then being put into another African agency, then Milungsi taking her in.... After that, she grew up and came to America with Milungsi to enroll in medical school where she met a great man named Paul. They had gotten married and had a baby girl... she was two when she was in a car accident with Paul, the two had tragically died. She had always been alone now that she'd thought of it. She began to calm down realizing that nothing's changed. She decided to check out her mother's store just for kicks.
Convenient Store- Kerry pulled into the parking lot and got out of her car. She slid her crutch on her arm and entered the store. She headed to the back of the store where she fiddled with the candy in the isle. She looked to the woman at the counter. "That must be her," She thought. The woman had bright orange hair, flowing down past her elbows. She was relatively slender, and had blueish green eyes. Just then, she heard the doors open and in walked a little girl. "Mommy!!" She yelled and jumped into the woman's arms.
"Hey sweetie, you're home early!" She said and huggled the girl.
"Yes... look what I made today," She said happily as she showed the woman a finger painting.
"It's beautiful." The woman said and taped it up on the wall with some other artwork.
Kerry's heart sunk. She'd been given up at birth, for no apparent reason, the woman looked to be in her 50's, which means she would've been in her twenties when Kerry was born. She sighed and grabbed a package of life-savors and gum and headed to the registers.
"Will that be it?" the woman said without looking up.
"Yea, that's it." Kerry said fighting back her tears.
"Mommy, she looks like you," the little girl said, "She has a stick though,"
"Carol hunny, that isn't nice," the woman said.
"I'm Kerry," Kerry said and looked into the woman's eyes.
The woman didn't say anything, she just handed the bag to Kerry and told her to have a nice day.
"Figures," Kerry thought as she leaned heavily on her crutch as she exited the store.
Kerry got back into her car realizing her leg was really hurting. She noticed the woman coming towards her car.
"How dare you," She said to Kerry.
"What did I do, is the fact that I want to know you wrong?" Kerry said the tears beginning to form in her eyes.
"You shouldn't be here! You aren't a part of our family, I gave you up." She yelled.
"Yea that's right, you did.... You just don't understand what it's like growing up all alone.... you were lucky enough to have a family." Kerry said as she got into her car and stuck the keys in the ignition.
"I figured you'd be happy to know your daughter was alive but I guess you are too preoccupied with your own life that u could care less about mine." Kerry said.
"That's not true but while we're on the subject why are you using that crutch?" the woman asked.
"If it's any of your business I was in a terrible car accident with my adoptive parents... they were killed and I lived." Kerry retorted. "If that's all you needed to know about my 32 years of life, goodbye mom..." Kerry said the tears pouring down her cheeks as she drove away. She didn't notice Carter's jeep sitting in the parking lot observing the whole argument.
Kerry decided to go home.... She figured Sandy and her were over considering their recent argument... so she decided to just relax.
Kerry sighed. "Just great. I can be home alone now too...." She muttered as she slammed her car door and headed upstairs to her apartment. She threw her key on the counter when she got inside. She decided to go sit down and watch some tv. She took a seat on the couch and turned on one of the soaps. She began to think about the past days events and began to cry. She laid on her side and cried into the pillow. She began to drift off into sleep.
All alone I came into this world
All alone I will someday die
Solid stone is just sand and water, baby
Sand and water, and a million years gone by Carter's Car- Carter decided to check on Kerry before interfering with her family. He slowly drove over to her apartment humming to the tune of the song playing in his car.