Disclaimer: I still don't own anything.
Note: I've decided that, between each section of Homunculus' story there will be short chapter's called "Interlude's", which will basically be showing Eike's reactions to what Homunculus tells him and the introduction to the next part of Homunculus' past. It also means that Eike/Homunculus fans get a bit of romance. I don't think there'll be any objections to that right? ^_^
Resurrecting the Shadow of Memories
A Shadow of Destiny Fanfic
Eike listened in spellbound horror as Homunculus related only the beginnings of his terrible life-story. It was not so much the cold-hearted way in which he had allowed his creator to be killed, or the merciless way he had disposed of the other man. It was the extreme mental torment that he seemed to have undergone. It was like seeing a whole different side to the djinn. Innocent and used, he had been deceived into servitude from the beginning of his existence among humans.
No wonder he seemed to hate them so much, and no wonder he regarded them with such utter contempt.
The long silence that followed was wrought with tension. Homunculus was waiting for Eike's inevitable, disgusted response to his story. Never before had Homunculus regretted the death of his master, or that other man, until that moment. And it was all because of Eike, or rather, Homunculus' feelings for Eike. He was filled with self-loathing suddenly, because he knew that Eike would despise him for what he had done. How could the human feel anything for him after listening to that? He was a killer. How could Eike love a killer? He waited for the young man to push him away and leave.
It never happened. Instead Eike's grip on him tightened ever so slightly, reassuringly, as though sensing Homunculus' worry. But he didn't push him away.
Homunculus turned his head upward to look at the young man. When he saw no horror or revulsion in his eyes, he only became more confused.
"You don't hate me for what I did?" Eike shook his head. "Why not?"
"I don't think I could ever hate you," Eike said simply. "Listening to you, I felt... well I could only feel sorry."
"Sorry?"
"That you were driven to that. I'm sorry that you were made to become what you are now."
"How can you..."
Homunculus' voice had started as shaky, and now it trailed off completely. There were no wild sobs this time, but Eike was certain the djinn was crying, though whether from thankfulness or self-loathing he wasn't sure.
"It's okay," he said softly, "I'm not going anywhere."
"Why..." he heard Homunculus' muffled voice begin to ask.
"'Why' what?"
"Why... every time I think I understand you... you turn everything around? I don't understand how you can't hate me. You, with all your morals and your sense of what's right and wrong. How can you not hate me?"
"It sounds like you want me to hate you," Eike said. He meant it as a joke, but the response it evoked was anything but amusement. Homunculus' grip around Eike tightened, and the young man was suddenly afraid that the djinn would damage himself in his desperation not to be separated from him.
Eventually Homunculus spoke. "No, I don't want you to hate me. I just... I though you would."
"Well no, I don't."
Homunculus turned his head up to look at the young human he loved so dearly. "Really?" he asked.
"How can I hate you because someone betrayed you and lied to you? It's not your fault your creator treated you that way."
Now Homunculus shook his head, shutting his eyes to hold back tears of gratitude and despair. "It was not only him who shaped me into... what I am now."
Warm lips on his forehead made Homunculus open his eyes to look at the young man again.
"There's nothing wrong with what you are /now/."
"With what I /was/ then," he said, but he smiled nevertheless. "But I am aware that I've changed. Especially since I've known you. In the last week I've changed so much."
"For the better."
"I have you to thank for that, Eike."
"Your welcome," Eike said, grinning.
They kissed again, and neither said a word for a long time, savouring their individual discoveries as well as their happiness at being together. Eike cradled the fragile djinn against his chest, smiling contentedly, and Homunculus nestled in his arms, with only the sense that there was more to be revealed plaguing his thoughts. Eike must have more questions for him.
He did not have long to wait.
"Homunculus. You said that he wasn't the only one who made you what you were. Who else made you so cold and bitter?"
Homunculus was silent for a moment. Then he began to speak in a voice that shook. "Yes. My next 'master' was... he..." There was another silence.
"We can wait," Eike said suddenly, not wanting to make Homunculus any more upset than he was. Of course he wanted to know more about the djinn's past, but he didn't want to push him too far too fast. He was willing to be patient now that Homunculus was willing to be open. "You can tell me more another time if you want."
He was surprised when Homunculus shook his head. "No I... I think I would rather tell all of it now. I don't want this to be drawn out. That would be worse."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'll tell you..."
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Note: I've decided that, between each section of Homunculus' story there will be short chapter's called "Interlude's", which will basically be showing Eike's reactions to what Homunculus tells him and the introduction to the next part of Homunculus' past. It also means that Eike/Homunculus fans get a bit of romance. I don't think there'll be any objections to that right? ^_^
Resurrecting the Shadow of Memories
A Shadow of Destiny Fanfic
Eike listened in spellbound horror as Homunculus related only the beginnings of his terrible life-story. It was not so much the cold-hearted way in which he had allowed his creator to be killed, or the merciless way he had disposed of the other man. It was the extreme mental torment that he seemed to have undergone. It was like seeing a whole different side to the djinn. Innocent and used, he had been deceived into servitude from the beginning of his existence among humans.
No wonder he seemed to hate them so much, and no wonder he regarded them with such utter contempt.
The long silence that followed was wrought with tension. Homunculus was waiting for Eike's inevitable, disgusted response to his story. Never before had Homunculus regretted the death of his master, or that other man, until that moment. And it was all because of Eike, or rather, Homunculus' feelings for Eike. He was filled with self-loathing suddenly, because he knew that Eike would despise him for what he had done. How could the human feel anything for him after listening to that? He was a killer. How could Eike love a killer? He waited for the young man to push him away and leave.
It never happened. Instead Eike's grip on him tightened ever so slightly, reassuringly, as though sensing Homunculus' worry. But he didn't push him away.
Homunculus turned his head upward to look at the young man. When he saw no horror or revulsion in his eyes, he only became more confused.
"You don't hate me for what I did?" Eike shook his head. "Why not?"
"I don't think I could ever hate you," Eike said simply. "Listening to you, I felt... well I could only feel sorry."
"Sorry?"
"That you were driven to that. I'm sorry that you were made to become what you are now."
"How can you..."
Homunculus' voice had started as shaky, and now it trailed off completely. There were no wild sobs this time, but Eike was certain the djinn was crying, though whether from thankfulness or self-loathing he wasn't sure.
"It's okay," he said softly, "I'm not going anywhere."
"Why..." he heard Homunculus' muffled voice begin to ask.
"'Why' what?"
"Why... every time I think I understand you... you turn everything around? I don't understand how you can't hate me. You, with all your morals and your sense of what's right and wrong. How can you not hate me?"
"It sounds like you want me to hate you," Eike said. He meant it as a joke, but the response it evoked was anything but amusement. Homunculus' grip around Eike tightened, and the young man was suddenly afraid that the djinn would damage himself in his desperation not to be separated from him.
Eventually Homunculus spoke. "No, I don't want you to hate me. I just... I though you would."
"Well no, I don't."
Homunculus turned his head up to look at the young human he loved so dearly. "Really?" he asked.
"How can I hate you because someone betrayed you and lied to you? It's not your fault your creator treated you that way."
Now Homunculus shook his head, shutting his eyes to hold back tears of gratitude and despair. "It was not only him who shaped me into... what I am now."
Warm lips on his forehead made Homunculus open his eyes to look at the young man again.
"There's nothing wrong with what you are /now/."
"With what I /was/ then," he said, but he smiled nevertheless. "But I am aware that I've changed. Especially since I've known you. In the last week I've changed so much."
"For the better."
"I have you to thank for that, Eike."
"Your welcome," Eike said, grinning.
They kissed again, and neither said a word for a long time, savouring their individual discoveries as well as their happiness at being together. Eike cradled the fragile djinn against his chest, smiling contentedly, and Homunculus nestled in his arms, with only the sense that there was more to be revealed plaguing his thoughts. Eike must have more questions for him.
He did not have long to wait.
"Homunculus. You said that he wasn't the only one who made you what you were. Who else made you so cold and bitter?"
Homunculus was silent for a moment. Then he began to speak in a voice that shook. "Yes. My next 'master' was... he..." There was another silence.
"We can wait," Eike said suddenly, not wanting to make Homunculus any more upset than he was. Of course he wanted to know more about the djinn's past, but he didn't want to push him too far too fast. He was willing to be patient now that Homunculus was willing to be open. "You can tell me more another time if you want."
He was surprised when Homunculus shook his head. "No I... I think I would rather tell all of it now. I don't want this to be drawn out. That would be worse."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. I'll tell you..."
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