Face your Fears
By
Hannio
Chapter One
If you want something that much you've gotta go for it
DISCLAIMER: None of the characters belong to me nope not one of the buggers
AUTHOR NOTE: Ok here we go my first Final Fantasy fics, this is a day of first for me all right. I've never attempted to even get into the characters before which is strange actually since I adore the game to the point of obsession, come on over a hundred hours and I'm only on disc 3.
Anyway it starts off Squall/ Riona and will end of Zell / Squall so I hope you enjoy, I'll try and update soon ok.
DEDICATION: For Jenihenpen for subtly telling me she wanted this fic and when that failed point blank telling me she wanted this fic. So here you go. Tic for tac
Zell Dincht POV
I couldn't believe it when they casually told me, well when Selphie casually told me. Those two… It just wasn't possible I mean had Squall completely lost his mind, wasn't he supposed to be intelligent? If he was then what on earth has made him turn round lock himself in a cage with a hungry lion and throw the key away.
Perhaps I'm getting ahead of myself again, that often happens with me, it's not my fault exactly, there's so many different things running through my head all the time from whether I should go training in the training centre? Should I go and get some hotdogs? Should I become an instructor now that I've passed? Could I live with any kind of life style now that I've truly experienced life on the battle field? See what I mean? And I've done it again, off the subject.
It was yesterday I found out, I'd been seating in the canteen staring at 4 jumbo hotdogs which just seemed to talk to me, I could hear them all right. Eat me Zell, eat me, we'll be good in your stomach. Damn right they would be. I picked on up and took a massive bite allowing my eyes to close in ecstasy. I know hotdogs are filled with loads and loads of crap that is bad for me and that I shouldn't even think about but damn they tasted good, just how do the cooks here do it? They are so going on my Christmas card list. I could see it now. To the greatest cooks ever merry Christmas from your favourite guy Zell They'd probably make millions more hotdogs just for me.
At that moment of thinking a bag had plopped down on the table opposite me and the chair scraped out indicating someone was going to sit down. My eyes opened and I found myself looking into a pair of pine green eyes belonging to no one else bar Selphie Tilmitt
"Hello" I remarked suspiciously after I had swallowed, she had that glint in her eyes, The one that said she had either joined yet another social club and was desperate for us to join or she had a huge piece of news that she was desperate to tell someone before she exploded from it all.
"Guess what, guess what" she remarked excitedly, I looked at her, I was going to take a large guess and say that it was the second reason, she had some news
"Err what's it to do with?" I questioned, she gave me a look of annoyance before continuing to jump up and down in a hyper fashion, I grinned so that's what I looked like when I was hyper.
"The garden silly" my eyes had widened it could actually be a club, I looked around what were my best options of escape, jump over the table and run as fast as my legs would carry me? Naw that wouldn't work… Grab the plate of hotdogs, jumps over the table and run as fast as my legs could take me… that was a much better idea, can't leave my babies for anything, I had waited 20 minutes for these things.
"They're creating more" I said taking a wild guess as I once again took a huge bite of the hotdog, I grinned smothered with ketchup and mustard this was gorgeous.
"Nope threes enough, it something to do with this one so guess again, you have two more to go" I brought up one hand and framed my face. Something to do with this place.
"The training centre is finally getting upgraded?" I asked hopefully I was getting so bored of fighting grats and t-rexes they were no challenge anymore, I needed something harder like a like a… erm… well something harder anyhow.
"No" she replied, she looked about ready to shake me and her hands were linked together so tightly her knuckles were right, I shot them an uneasy look. A hyper Selphie was scary enough but a hyper Selphie who is ready to explode now that's a lot more scary. I thought hard
"They're bringing a new type of hotdog here" I asked eagerly, perhaps they had finally paid attention to the suggestion I placed in the suggestion box last week… and the week before that… I think I put one in the week before that as well, I can't remember though to be frank. Selphie's slim hands tangled themselves into her short blond-brown hair.
"No" she burst out "I can't believe you didn't get it Zell, didn't even get closed" I shrugged and bit into my hotdog again.
"What is it then?" I demanded narrowly avoiding spraying food everywhere
"Squall and Riona finally got together" I nodded then the words sank in and my throat and mouth stopped working as my eyes widened, unfortunately my throat stopped working just as I swallowed. My body jerked up as I realised in a panic that I couldn't breathe. Ok ok what did they always see don't panic and relax…. Fuck that I'm going to die. Two muscular arms went round my waist and pushed in painfully causing my stomach to cramp painfully one more time and the hotdog came out of my mouth allowing me to take some much needed fresh air, I think I was trembling slightly from the look of it. A worried look was on Selphie's face as she looked at me. She obviously didn't expect her piece of news to be the near death of me. I smiled to reassure her that I was fine and turned round to thank the person who had helped me.
I should have seen it coming really. Should have had an inkling. As you can guess I turned round to see myself staring into a pair of stormy grey eyes. If you look closely enough as in really stare into these eyes you can see small flecks of violet added making the colour more unique. Not that I've noticed though of course.
"Squall" I gasped perhaps the whole choking thing had shaken me up a bit more. Squall Leonheart, the commander of Balamb garden and the person I fought side by side with as we were exposed to our deaths. Looked at me. Actually looked at me. I pulled myself together and grinned slamming his arm, damn there was some muscle under that leather jacket. He glanced down at the hand then looked back to me as I spoke "Thanks a lot mate, I would have been a goner if it hadn't been for you" Squall shrugged
"You were just panicking that's all" did I mention he had one of the sexist voices I've ever heard. No? Well trust me when I say he does all rich and creamy with a kind of accent lacing it.
"Yeah well" I said cursing as my face went red "We all lose control sometimes" his dark eyebrow rose at that and then he nodded
"Hmmm" he replied, somehow I think he didn't "See you later" he turned and nodded at Selphie who happily waved back and went on his way leaving me nearly melting in a puddle of Zell on the floor. I turned and sat down looking at Selphie who was grinning at me
"What?" I demanded staring at my hotdogs. Damn things nearly killed me. I could have died. My eyes softened though as I picked one up. I could never stay mad with them though, they were my friends… my friends who I happened to eat.
"You went red" she stated at me. I stared back, had she gone mad?
"I did almost die, it could be because I had been choking" she nodded, her face making it clear she didn't believe my excuses.
"Can you believe Squall and Riona though?" she demanded reverting to the former topic "I mean they are so good together don't you think?" her eyes looked almost crafty to me at the question
"Never thought about it" I repeated honestly. Yep I could admit it to myself, in my bed when it's dark and no one else is around that I may… just may have a crush on Squall…. Ok a huge crush. The guy is gorgeous I mean those eyes and his perfect face and his hair, chocolate brown and long enough to make you want to run your fingers through it. His lips looked damn kissable as well. The man was some kind of sex God who had been placed on this earth to torture such poor souls as myself; it just wasn't fair I tell you. He'd walk by the whole garden stops and stares. So it was true I never thought of him with Riona because I had imagined him doing the naughty things to me. You know what they say it's always the quiet ones and I'd be damned if I could find anyone as quiet as Squall.
Riona though! There's nothing wrong with her, I mean don't for a minute think I hate her guts and stuff because I honestly don't. She's a gorgeous girl with her black hair with strips of brown and her brown caring eyes and pretty face. A good figure as well. It's just I never truly thought that opposite attracted but I was wrong because Riona is funny, open and wear her heart on her sleeves and Squall well he doesn't. Selphie spoke to me
"Really?" she stated surprise tingeing her voice "I thought everyone knew about it" she crossed her arms and leaned back in her chair "Didn't you see them together on the mission?" I shook my head. I had been far to pumped up with what we had to do. We were going to save the world. Us a bunch of 17 year olds it was wild and kind of scary. Squall's love life was the last thing that had been on my mind. Selphie looked at me "I suppose you had a lot on your mind at that time" she said softly and I nodded my head, I was the only one out of them to have parents and man I had spent most of my time worrying about them.
"I guess" I grinned but it was kind of put on, I was still in shock. "I'm a guy I'm not very good at these things?" a slightly probing look came to her face as she smiled.
"A lot of people will be broken hearted" she commented suddenly "I'm sure that nearly everyone in the garden had a crush on either Squall or Riona at one time. I definitely did. Squall's hot" I felt my face go slightly red. Damn cheeks are such a pain. I hid my face in my hotdog as I replied
"Really I haven't noticed"
"You must have had a crush on Riona?" she question I nodded slightly, it was easier
"I guess"
"There all crushes though, I mean if you really like someone and you want them you have to show them or they'll never know. Take Squall for instance, he's deep and can tell stuff a mile away like how people are feeling he's just not good at seeing if people like him or not so he has to be told" she stood up and picked her back up. "Seeya later Zell" she grinned and quick as lightening picked up one of my hotdogs and bit into it "Gorgeous" she winked at my face then turned and walked away still holding my hotdog.
"Hey that's mine" I yelled after her but just ignored me. I sat back down in a huff. This day had to suck.
Her words stuck with me throughout yesterday and today and here I was lying in my bed glaring at the ceiling. I needed to sort my feeling out then I needed to go and claim Squall once and for all. Yep that's what I'm going to do!
There you go I hope I got into Zell good enough for you all. Please Review but no flames. Chapter 2 will be up as soon as I can