Face your Fears
By
Hannio
Chapter Two
You want me to be what…
Zell Dintch POV
DISCLAIMER – None of the characters belong to me but the people who made the game. If I had made it then Squall would so not of been called that!
AUTHOR NOTE – Here we go with chapter Two. I'm not to sure on it but I got a few plans for future chapters so it could be worse I guess. It's written in Zell's Point of View because I just relate to him more he's so easy to get into the head of.
Hope you enjoy and I'll see if I can update soon
DEDICATION – To Jenihenpen who loves Zell and stories of him and Squall together which is how this story was born!
I groaned as the bell clanged through the silence bringing me to a state of semi awareness. God I hated getting up in the morning, I just can't understand why some people like getting up early in the morning, especially in winter. I mean who the hell wants to leave the warm enclosed area to be greeted by frigid air? It's beyond me.
I guess that's why I'm still in my bed, head resting nicely on my blue pillow and the duvet wrapped as much round me as they can. Yep if you haven't of guessed yet I'm not exactly what you would call a morning person. Not even an afternoon person. I only come to life in the evening.
There was a banging on my door and another groan left me. Like hell I was going to wake up at… I looked up quickly to see 6.50 blaring at me in red light… 6.50 their out of their mind there isn't a chance in hell that I'm getting up when it's not even 7 yet. I snuggled down as the banging continued.
"Get Lost" I suddenly yelled out surprising myself, so much for the faint idea in my head of ignoring the buggers.
"Zell get up" I smirked at my lock door. Not on their lives was I getting up before I was personally ready. What were they going to do break the door down? No they're all too sensible for that. Of course if it was someone else then I would break down the door just to see the look of shock "Zell I mean get up"
"Go away Quistis" I yelled back. Why do they always send her, she should know by now that it will never work.
"Fine if you won't get up then I'll get someone who will get you up" she threatened. I laughed out loud; she was so bluffing it was stupid I decided to bless her with a response
"You do that" I heard her boots stomp up and my smirk erupted into a grin. Once again Zell triumphs as it should be. I was nearly asleep when a sound alerted to me that something was happening outside my door. I looked up in time to see the lock on my door, my safeguard for sleep blown away and the door being opened revealing a smirking Quistis and a grinning Irvine holding a smoking gun. I glared at them "You can't do that" I said through gritted teeth. Quistis smiled
"I can I'm afraid. I went to Squall who said I could do anything I wanted to get you up and Irvine here and his gun came in very handy.
"Morning Zell" Irvine said in his deep lazy voice as he tipped his cowboy hat at me, he chuckled as I gave him the finger. Trust him to find it amusing. I sighed I guess this once I'd have to admit defeat but only this once.
"Fine I'm up" I muttered throwing the covers off of me. I shivered as I stood up, man I hate mornings. I went to my wardrobe and opened the door than looked towards the other door where they were both still standing. "Do you mind" I said stalking towards them, they back away slightly out the door. I smiled and slammed it in their faces and stalked back to the wardrobe picking out my clothes.
What was I going to do today? I wondered as I made my way down the corridor towards the cafeteria the others were all teachers so they'd be in lessons, really I'm the only one out of us all who didn't immediately become a teacher. Even Squall's a teacher, never thought I'd see the day that would happen but then again I've seen a hell of a lot of things that I never thought I would see in the past year. Maybe I should go and visit the girl in the library; she's always good company when I'm feeling down. There's bound to be something on in the Quad tonight. It's a Friday after all and normally they'd be entertainment on. Ok so my plan for the day is sorted. I'll get the food and then I'll visit library girl. Perhaps a vigorous session in the training centre as well. It's all good.
"Could Zell Dintch please come to the Commanders office immediately" the voice came over the intercom "I repeat could Zell Dintch please come to the Commanders office immediately, Thank you" I groaned, or perhaps not. I slowly turned round and began to walk towards the elevator. A run in with Squall was not something I wanted right now… yep so you can stop beating so fast heart right now… and those bloody butterflies can just flutter away from my stomach. I wonder whether he was going to have a go at me about the incident this morning. Bloody better not, it's not as if it was my thought or anything. I waited as the elevator opened and I entered, dark thoughts going round my head. I thought of my promise I made the night before about flirting and everything I must be mad. In the harsh daylight I know it's not going to happen I just can't do it.
The elevator pinged and I walked out of the door and towards Squall's office. He must hate having it but Cid insisted and even Squall's glares couldn't deter him from the fact that the Commander needed a desk of operations. It was the only time I ever seen Squall give in and that was only because Riona promised to help him decorate. A smile came to my face and I'm guessing it was bitter. I should have seen the sign then and there and saved myself a lot of trouble. At least there was no humiliation involved for me.
I looked at the two tall oak doors and took a deep breath and knocked. My stomach rumbled as I waited, this had so better be good because I was not going to miss breakfast any longer then I must.
"Come in" he called out, well he raised his voice slightly but I heard it. I sighed and opened one door and entered going to stand in front of him
"Alright mate what can I do for you?" I said cheerfully bringing one foot up to rub the back of the other. Ok I admit it I'm slightly nervous it's rare to hear one of us summoned and it just happened to be me didn't it. Squall sat there staring at me through stormy grey eyes. Dear God I loved those eyes. There wasn't even a glimmer of emotion in them. Looks like he's finally gotten control of them, before you could always tell how he felt by his eyes.
"Sit down" he said finally and as usual a shiver went through me at the sound of his smooth voice, I swear Squall knows the power that voice has on people. I've pinpointed it down to an Irish accent I think, could be wrong though. While I'm thinking this I find myself in the leather chair opposite staring into his eyes and as usual pinpointing the little flecks of violet in them. At least I wasn't standing anymore that was a bit of a relief I guess.
"Why have I been summoned" I asked him "I mean I'm missing breakfast for this, hope you appreciate it Squall there's not too many people I'd miss breakfast to see" A slight glimmer of a smile showed in his eyes at my comment but he ignored it when he spoke
"I wanted to know what you've decided to do" a silence hung in the air as I tried to take in exactly what he had said. What I wanted to do? How the hell did I know? And why the hell did he summon me to ask me that? Couldn't he ask me at lunch, he often has it with us anyway.
"What do you mean?" I demanded finally, there's only one thing I hate more than missing food and that would be silences oh and a day that didn't give me a glimpse of Squall those days suck in general.
"What I said, what do you want to do? Do you want to join SEEDS again?" I shrugged at him
"Maybe, it's not something I've really considered" I admitted, I was only 18 and I had done enough fighting for everyone. Part of me just didn't want to do it again. After all if you can't be honest with yourself who can you be honest with? Squall looked at me for a moment as he seemed to take in my words. Strange I would of thought that he would of immediately brushed them off
"I want to offer you a job here as a teacher" he said suddenly my mouth gaped open at those words. He wanted me to teach in a class, to be responsible for others. Did that mean that he finally trusted me after all this time? A grin came to my face. He trusted me; if he didn't then they'd be no way I would be allowed to teach the other student. He seemed slightly taken back by the smile that came over my face
"Me, a teacher" I said "What would I teach? I've thought about it but man…" I trailed off as Squall tilted his head ever so slightly as he answered me
"What do you think?" I think that I could actually detect sarcasm in his voice. Could this day get any stranger for me? "Advanced physical fighting… perhaps tutor some kids on GF you did have a lot of them don't you?"
"Still do" I replied thinking of them; I still had them with me all the time as did the others. I don't think I could ever really be rid of them.
"So what do you think?" he asked me. I shrugged
"I'll give it a go I guess my mum will be happy at least she's been having a go at me to do something with my life" he looked at me then those kissable lips curved into a smile. Squall was smiling at me; I wanted to melt there and then.
"You'll have a lesson this afternoon then" he said turning away.
"This afternoon, so soon" I spluttered I couldn't believe it. Squall nodded then shrugged
"You do, find Quistis and ask her to run through it with you. You can go now" he turned away and I grinned as I stood up
"I won't let you done mate" I said, he nodded at me still not looking at me and replied
"I know you won't" I grinned even more at that admission and bounded out the room, I was definitely not going to make him regret this if it's the last thing I did.
There you go, hope you enjoyed it and remember I'm still new at writing this kind of fic with these characters. Please review but no flames. Next chapter will be up as soon as I can. Cheers xxx