Disclaimer: None of the characters of Rurouni Kenshin are mine, although the storyline as well as the words are mine.
Nightmares and You
'I'm sorry, he's gone.'
Gone?
The words reverberated through my mind, tossing and turning like the sea in troubled weather.
No, it can't be true. He's not gone, he's not gone. I just saw him then. He was smiling at me, laughing at a joke, as was I. Our joke. Our own private joke. no. No. NO.
"NO!"
I woke up with a start.
-I was just dreaming?
-Did you...?
Wanting to reassure myself, my hand shot out next to my body, searching for the form that should have been lying somewhere in the midst of the darkness, where you should be.
Touching your sleeping body, I sighed in relief as sounds of your quiet breathing reached my ears.
Untangling myself from my tired muscles, I staggered into the washroom. It was only then, when I was faced with my reflection that I noticed my blood-shot, red-rimmed eyes.
'He's gone.'
"No!" I whispered softly yet vehemently. "He's not. He's just..."
Shaking my head of my mobid thoughts, I bent down to splash some water on my face.
Smiling at my slightly decent visage in the mirror, I reassured myself.
"Get a hold of yourself Tomoe, at least you have him until tomorrow."
Giving myself a shake, I whispered to my image.
"Kenshin's not gone."
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"I'm sorry, there's nothing I can do, not when there's a war outside... we don't have sufficient supplies... he's gone."
The words held no more meaning as I crumpled onto the floor. My strength, sapped from my pain-filled body as each cry broke through me. Feelings held no more meaning as I tried to keep the agony at bay.
no. No. NO!
"No!"
My body jerked up as I attempted to still myself, my hear beating so quickly its thumping drowned out all other nocturnal sounds.
Thump.
-I'm-
Thump.
-sorry-
Thump.
-He's-
Thump.
-Gone-
Turning to my left, my hand unconciously reached out for that gentle assurance.
Groping in the darkness, and only meeting air, I curled into a ball as I recalled those haunting words.
"... He's gone..."
Sobs wrecked through my body once more, this time, in reality, knowing that he was truly gone. No more warm glances, no more joy now that my last source of happiness is gone, no more chances to smile... I would have smiled for him, only Kenshin.
"GIVE HIM BACK TO ME!!!!"
AN: Alright, before you slaughter me for completely changing the storyline, I have not. This is just part of a trilogy, so please please bear with me until the final chapter where all will be revealed. I originally wrote this for myself, penning my feelings on something that happened to me earlier, and I revised it to fit RK, although the inspiration came from reading Michiru Kashyuuno's 'Take a Bow'.
As usual, please review!
~Haruko