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Chapter 3: There a life
The Hotel Kitchen,
"Angel I'm getting worried, she hasn't eaten in four days and she hasn't even left the room, she just sits there staring into nothing, And I don't even know when was the last time she's seen the sun," Dawn explained setting the tray of food down on the table, the food she was going to being up to Buffy.
Angel could tell Dawn was worried about her sister, it was like she shut herself to anything and everyone and no one could reach her.
"Has anyone tried… I mean, to talk to her," he asked.
"Giles went in there but she kept screaming and screaming at him, so hefinally took the hint and left, it was pretty bad," Dawn frowned.
"Okay what about… Xander and Willow, have they tried?"
"Well Xander is kind of in the same boat, he stays in his room and he just listens to country music, he won't talk to Willow and only Andrew got him to say a few words and that was it," she explained what was happening to the other.
"Hey guys," Faith said as she entered the kitchen where Angel and Dawn were sitting, "I'm guessing you're talking about B not leaving her room. Poor thing every night I hear her scream, every night's the same thing."
"Faith how's Principal Woods doing?" Dawn asked.
"He's okay, he is healing pretty good. Soon he's gonna be 100%," she answered taking a can of juice out of the cooler and opening and drinking it.
"So Faith, have you tried talking to Buffy, I mean I know you aren't best of friends but maybe you could reach her," Angel asked.
"What about you Angel, I mean she was your lover for Pete's sake, I mean she trusts you," Faith replied taking another sip of her juice.
"That isn't wise I mean Buffy blames me for Spike's death and I think she'll react worse to me than she did to Giles," Angel whispered with a sad look on his face knowing that the woman he loved blamed him for the death of her special someone.
"Don't worry Angel," Dawn said putting her hand on his shoulder. "She's still grieving."
"You're right," Angel nod, "anyways, I'm gonna head out I have a few things to do. If you need me you know where to find me," he smiled a little and exit the room.
"Well Faith, I'll catch you later I'm going to take some food up to Buffy," Dawn pointed out carrying the tray.
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"Buffy it's me, Dawn," she heard no answer and she open the door slightly and came into the room, it was very dark inside, all the curtains were closed and there were no lights on.
"O Buffy," she whispered,
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Buffy was standing on top of the hotel roof, the darkness had fallen over L.A., she knew the others would be hunting for demons so no one would even miss her.
"It's beautiful, isn't it Sweet Cakes? I mean the stars seem so close out here a great American writer once said. There comes a moment, when one has to move forward, when it is impossible to stay in the same place without moving back and till this day I have no idea what she meant, But that's a long fall down
"I jumped once but I didn't feel any pain, then I came back and that was painful, but then the person I hated, that made me feel disgusted, made me feel so alive, now he's gone and it's my fault, I killed him."
"No Sugar, you didn't kill him, the amulet killed him."
"I killed him when I didn't let him go when he had the chance, I made him stay because I wasn't ready for him not to be there."
"Are you going to jump? I mean it would be easy, I guess all the pain that you're feeling now would come to an end and it would be so simple, but did you ever think about Spike? I mean he died saving the world and he died so that you could live, so if you do go for a jump then you're saying Spike died for no reason, then I guess you really did kill him."
She turned around to face him, "Why are you here?"
"Because I like you Sweet Cakes and plus I saw you leaving your room and I
knew you were planning something. Plus what about your friends? I mean all of you have had some hard years and there's a lot to come still. I mean Willow lost Tara, okay maybe she tried to end the world, so what? When you lose someone you love people tend to do crazy things. When Angel thought you died he left to places unknown and what about Xander he just lost Anya and he loved her like the dickens, but you know what? They made it Buffy and you can too."
"I don't want to; I don't think I can, I'm not strong enough, I'm so tired of living day by day. The days seem so long and everyone says I should forget him and move on, I don't want to, I want him in my life," she cried.
"And now he's gone, I saw him die, I saw the flames take him, I was there when he turned into dust but then I wasn't there it was just a dream."
"I don't know what to say to make the pain go away, but I can help you through those moments when you need a friend."
She moved a little closer to the edge. Lorne eyes widen, he took a step closer, "Do you think this is going to make him happy? You offing yourself because you couldn't deal. No, it won't help, it won't bring him back because he's gone and you have to understand that, you can't do anything about it. And if you do this his death would be for nothing. I know this isn't the woman he fell in love with, I bet she was strong and she fought
Every day, I'm sure the woman he fell in love with faced death upfront."
She turned around to face him. "It's really amazing how close the stars
seem," she frowned. She walked towards him. "He is really gone."
"He's not really gone as long as you keep him here," he pointed towards her head and here he pointed towards her heart. "This is where he will always stay."
She couldn't keep it in anymore, she finally let all the tears that were inside her come out. Lorne brought Buffy into a warm embrace. "Let it all out," he whispered and that's what she did. I bet Spike wanted you safe no matter what happen to him he whispered.
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"I think I got your shirt wet, I'm sorry," she whispered.
"Hey it's okay, it's just a shirt I have about a million others, so are you ready to face your fears first hand?"
"Not tonight, in the morning. I'm feeling a little tired and weak now," she gave him a little smile and he smiled back.
"I'll help you to your room."
"Thank you Lorne… for being here, I know we just met but thank you," she whispered.
"Any time."
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Please tell me what you think, I love to know what you think,
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Chapter 3: There a life
The Hotel Kitchen,
"Angel I'm getting worried, she hasn't eaten in four days and she hasn't even left the room, she just sits there staring into nothing, And I don't even know when was the last time she's seen the sun," Dawn explained setting the tray of food down on the table, the food she was going to being up to Buffy.
Angel could tell Dawn was worried about her sister, it was like she shut herself to anything and everyone and no one could reach her.
"Has anyone tried… I mean, to talk to her," he asked.
"Giles went in there but she kept screaming and screaming at him, so hefinally took the hint and left, it was pretty bad," Dawn frowned.
"Okay what about… Xander and Willow, have they tried?"
"Well Xander is kind of in the same boat, he stays in his room and he just listens to country music, he won't talk to Willow and only Andrew got him to say a few words and that was it," she explained what was happening to the other.
"Hey guys," Faith said as she entered the kitchen where Angel and Dawn were sitting, "I'm guessing you're talking about B not leaving her room. Poor thing every night I hear her scream, every night's the same thing."
"Faith how's Principal Woods doing?" Dawn asked.
"He's okay, he is healing pretty good. Soon he's gonna be 100%," she answered taking a can of juice out of the cooler and opening and drinking it.
"So Faith, have you tried talking to Buffy, I mean I know you aren't best of friends but maybe you could reach her," Angel asked.
"What about you Angel, I mean she was your lover for Pete's sake, I mean she trusts you," Faith replied taking another sip of her juice.
"That isn't wise I mean Buffy blames me for Spike's death and I think she'll react worse to me than she did to Giles," Angel whispered with a sad look on his face knowing that the woman he loved blamed him for the death of her special someone.
"Don't worry Angel," Dawn said putting her hand on his shoulder. "She's still grieving."
"You're right," Angel nod, "anyways, I'm gonna head out I have a few things to do. If you need me you know where to find me," he smiled a little and exit the room.
"Well Faith, I'll catch you later I'm going to take some food up to Buffy," Dawn pointed out carrying the tray.
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"Buffy it's me, Dawn," she heard no answer and she open the door slightly and came into the room, it was very dark inside, all the curtains were closed and there were no lights on.
"O Buffy," she whispered,
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Buffy was standing on top of the hotel roof, the darkness had fallen over L.A., she knew the others would be hunting for demons so no one would even miss her.
"It's beautiful, isn't it Sweet Cakes? I mean the stars seem so close out here a great American writer once said. There comes a moment, when one has to move forward, when it is impossible to stay in the same place without moving back and till this day I have no idea what she meant, But that's a long fall down
"I jumped once but I didn't feel any pain, then I came back and that was painful, but then the person I hated, that made me feel disgusted, made me feel so alive, now he's gone and it's my fault, I killed him."
"No Sugar, you didn't kill him, the amulet killed him."
"I killed him when I didn't let him go when he had the chance, I made him stay because I wasn't ready for him not to be there."
"Are you going to jump? I mean it would be easy, I guess all the pain that you're feeling now would come to an end and it would be so simple, but did you ever think about Spike? I mean he died saving the world and he died so that you could live, so if you do go for a jump then you're saying Spike died for no reason, then I guess you really did kill him."
She turned around to face him, "Why are you here?"
"Because I like you Sweet Cakes and plus I saw you leaving your room and I
knew you were planning something. Plus what about your friends? I mean all of you have had some hard years and there's a lot to come still. I mean Willow lost Tara, okay maybe she tried to end the world, so what? When you lose someone you love people tend to do crazy things. When Angel thought you died he left to places unknown and what about Xander he just lost Anya and he loved her like the dickens, but you know what? They made it Buffy and you can too."
"I don't want to; I don't think I can, I'm not strong enough, I'm so tired of living day by day. The days seem so long and everyone says I should forget him and move on, I don't want to, I want him in my life," she cried.
"And now he's gone, I saw him die, I saw the flames take him, I was there when he turned into dust but then I wasn't there it was just a dream."
"I don't know what to say to make the pain go away, but I can help you through those moments when you need a friend."
She moved a little closer to the edge. Lorne eyes widen, he took a step closer, "Do you think this is going to make him happy? You offing yourself because you couldn't deal. No, it won't help, it won't bring him back because he's gone and you have to understand that, you can't do anything about it. And if you do this his death would be for nothing. I know this isn't the woman he fell in love with, I bet she was strong and she fought
Every day, I'm sure the woman he fell in love with faced death upfront."
She turned around to face him. "It's really amazing how close the stars
seem," she frowned. She walked towards him. "He is really gone."
"He's not really gone as long as you keep him here," he pointed towards her head and here he pointed towards her heart. "This is where he will always stay."
She couldn't keep it in anymore, she finally let all the tears that were inside her come out. Lorne brought Buffy into a warm embrace. "Let it all out," he whispered and that's what she did. I bet Spike wanted you safe no matter what happen to him he whispered.
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"I think I got your shirt wet, I'm sorry," she whispered.
"Hey it's okay, it's just a shirt I have about a million others, so are you ready to face your fears first hand?"
"Not tonight, in the morning. I'm feeling a little tired and weak now," she gave him a little smile and he smiled back.
"I'll help you to your room."
"Thank you Lorne… for being here, I know we just met but thank you," she whispered.
"Any time."
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Next Chapter
It's open to you, Give me so idea that you would like to see.