tITLE: LITTLE GIFT FROM HEAVEN
Diclamer: i dont own them
Rated PG-13
BACK THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT REVIEW I'LL TRY TO UPDATE SOON,
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(It's Really Good-Bye)
Buffy stood in front of the mirror. She modeled for herself, she had only a couple of outfits that Dawn had brought for her. She found the only black dress she had.
"You can do this Buffy." She whispered to herself taking a few breaths, she looked at the clock, it read 5:57.
She felt herself getting an upset stomach, then she felt something coming up, suddenly she ran towards the bathroom and started throwing up over and over again. "I miss you Spike," she whispered. She fixed herself up and walked downstairs.
Buffy walked downstairs, the hotel was filled with candles all over the place, the lights were off. The candles were the only source of light.
Willow and Fred were standing in front of everyone, all the other slayers were standing on their side, Andrew was standing next to Xander and Kennedy and Gunn were standing next to Wesley and Giles and on the other side, Faith was standing next Woods and Dawn was standing next to Vi and Rona and she saw Angel leaning against the wall, Lorne walked over to Buffy side.
"I'm glad you decided to come," he whispered.
"Me too."
"I see you decided to get a little dressy," he asked looking at her dress giving her a smile.
"Yea, felt it's like paying respect" she replied.
"Okay everyone, can you please light your candles," Fred asked. Lorne handed Buffy a red candle, she smiled softly.
"Hi, I'm Willow, I'm guessing you know that already," she smiled. "But tonight isn't about me though, it's about a Memorial for all of those that we lost in the battle against evil. There are so many. And I believe Andrew has something to say."
Andrew walked up to stand in front of everyone. "Hi everyone, I just wanted to say something about Anya, she was a wonderful woman, I mean… she died saving my life and I just wanted to thank her and I hope that wherever she is, she's happy," he whispered. "Thank you.," he said walking back to where Xander
Was standing.
"Xander do you want say anything about her?" Willow asked.
"I loved her and a part of me will always love her," he whispered.
"Buffy, would you like to same something about Spike? You don't have to," Willow replied.
"What's there to say about Spike? I mean not that many people liked him, they thought he was nothing but a heartless monster, I used to think that to, I didn't really thought of him as a man but as a killer, but I was wrong he wasn't a monster, he was a warrior and I'll never forget him." she felt herself get a little lightheaded then suddenly everything went dark.
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"She's waking up," she heard a voice say.
"Buffy are you alright?" she opened her eyes to see Dawn sitting next to her along with Faith and Lorne.
"What happened?" she asked.
"You fainted and you were out for a couple of minutes," Dawn explained placing the cold towel on her sister's forehead.
"Angel had to carry you upstairs," Lorne said.
"Yea, he was pretty worried about you, he was the first one that came rushing to your side," Dawn smiled.
"I'm sorry if I scared you, I just felt a little lightheaded," she said sitting up on the bed.
"Sweet cakes, maybe you should relax, get some rest," Lorne explained.
She threw her legs over the bed and stood up feeling a little weak.
"Everyone, I'm fine. Plus, why aren't you patrolling Faith?" she asked.
"Wanted to make sure you were okay," she smiled.
"Well I am, so please, I'm going to get some water."
"Buffy, I can get it for you," Dawn offered with a smile.
"Please guys I'm fine. Go do whatever you've been doing, I'm fine," she said leaving the room.
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Angel's Room
"You don't need to knock" A voice from the other side of the door said.Buffy slowly opened Angel's door to see him sitting on his bed wearing a silk black shirt, pants and no shoes. He was enjoying a good book.
"I can leave if you're busy," she said turning to leave, he got off the bed,
"No, don't leave, I'm not busy," he answered. "Is every thing okay?" he asked.
"Yea, I just had to come and see you," she answered.
"Are you feeling better? You gave us a good scare," he said concerned.
"Angel, I'm fine" she replied.
"So what's this about talking?" he said pulling out a chair to sat down on the chair letting Buffy take the bed.
"Angel, for the last couple of days I've been dealing with my pain away from everyone because I thought I could deal with it myself, I even tried to end it," she whispered feeling ashamed of what she'd almost done, of what she would have done if it weren't for Lorne
"Buffy," he whispered.
"I know, I just felt like no one understanded my pain, and I felt like I was all alone and I hated that feeling. I realized something Angel, you're not the reason Spike isn't here anymore, he made up his mind about what he was going to do and nothing I said was going to change that, I guess I couldn't deal with that fact and then I saw you and I remembered you giving me that amulet and I remembered seeing Spike and I just wanted someone to blame," she cried
Angel could see the tears falling from her face. He got off his chair and bought her into a hug she cried into his chest.
"I'm just hurting so much and I feel like this pain won't ever go away. I
know I'm being selfish and childlike but I can't help it," she cried even harder.
"No, it's okay. When I thought I lost you… I was empty, like a part of me died with you and that that part would never be filled again, but seeing you alive… that hole started getting full again."
"Did Cordelia help you fill that space?" she asked Angel pulled away from her.
"How did you know"?
"I knew, no one told me, I could see it, at the memorial I knew you were in pain and I felt like I could see inside you and she was floating around inside your head, color me weird but I always knew what's in your heart and you knew what's in mine," she explained.
"Things were different. She was different, she wasn't the same girl you, Xander and Willow grew up with, she changed for the better, she was caring and she was here for me when I needed a friend."
"Same thing with Spike, he was there when I came back from heaven and I treated him like crap," Buffy walked over toward Angel's window and looked outside. "If someone would have said that you'd fall in love with Cordelia and I would fall in love with Spike then, I would have thought they were nuts" she smiled.
"Funny how people change," Angel joked.
"Do you think I changed?" she asked turning to face him.
"No, I still think you're the same caring person I've always known and loved," he smiled. She smiled back.
"Angel I didn't mean those things I said to you when I first got here, because no matter what, you'll always have a part of my heart," she smiled.
"Same here, I'll always love you, don't forget."
Buffy started walking towards the door, "I hope when Cordelia wakes up,
she realizes what a great guy she's got."
"Good-night Buffy," Angel whispered.
"Night," she sighed leaving the room.
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Okay the next Chapter is a like a couple of months after this
Diclamer: i dont own them
Rated PG-13
BACK THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT REVIEW I'LL TRY TO UPDATE SOON,
************************
(It's Really Good-Bye)
Buffy stood in front of the mirror. She modeled for herself, she had only a couple of outfits that Dawn had brought for her. She found the only black dress she had.
"You can do this Buffy." She whispered to herself taking a few breaths, she looked at the clock, it read 5:57.
She felt herself getting an upset stomach, then she felt something coming up, suddenly she ran towards the bathroom and started throwing up over and over again. "I miss you Spike," she whispered. She fixed herself up and walked downstairs.
Buffy walked downstairs, the hotel was filled with candles all over the place, the lights were off. The candles were the only source of light.
Willow and Fred were standing in front of everyone, all the other slayers were standing on their side, Andrew was standing next to Xander and Kennedy and Gunn were standing next to Wesley and Giles and on the other side, Faith was standing next Woods and Dawn was standing next to Vi and Rona and she saw Angel leaning against the wall, Lorne walked over to Buffy side.
"I'm glad you decided to come," he whispered.
"Me too."
"I see you decided to get a little dressy," he asked looking at her dress giving her a smile.
"Yea, felt it's like paying respect" she replied.
"Okay everyone, can you please light your candles," Fred asked. Lorne handed Buffy a red candle, she smiled softly.
"Hi, I'm Willow, I'm guessing you know that already," she smiled. "But tonight isn't about me though, it's about a Memorial for all of those that we lost in the battle against evil. There are so many. And I believe Andrew has something to say."
Andrew walked up to stand in front of everyone. "Hi everyone, I just wanted to say something about Anya, she was a wonderful woman, I mean… she died saving my life and I just wanted to thank her and I hope that wherever she is, she's happy," he whispered. "Thank you.," he said walking back to where Xander
Was standing.
"Xander do you want say anything about her?" Willow asked.
"I loved her and a part of me will always love her," he whispered.
"Buffy, would you like to same something about Spike? You don't have to," Willow replied.
"What's there to say about Spike? I mean not that many people liked him, they thought he was nothing but a heartless monster, I used to think that to, I didn't really thought of him as a man but as a killer, but I was wrong he wasn't a monster, he was a warrior and I'll never forget him." she felt herself get a little lightheaded then suddenly everything went dark.
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"She's waking up," she heard a voice say.
"Buffy are you alright?" she opened her eyes to see Dawn sitting next to her along with Faith and Lorne.
"What happened?" she asked.
"You fainted and you were out for a couple of minutes," Dawn explained placing the cold towel on her sister's forehead.
"Angel had to carry you upstairs," Lorne said.
"Yea, he was pretty worried about you, he was the first one that came rushing to your side," Dawn smiled.
"I'm sorry if I scared you, I just felt a little lightheaded," she said sitting up on the bed.
"Sweet cakes, maybe you should relax, get some rest," Lorne explained.
She threw her legs over the bed and stood up feeling a little weak.
"Everyone, I'm fine. Plus, why aren't you patrolling Faith?" she asked.
"Wanted to make sure you were okay," she smiled.
"Well I am, so please, I'm going to get some water."
"Buffy, I can get it for you," Dawn offered with a smile.
"Please guys I'm fine. Go do whatever you've been doing, I'm fine," she said leaving the room.
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Angel's Room
"You don't need to knock" A voice from the other side of the door said.Buffy slowly opened Angel's door to see him sitting on his bed wearing a silk black shirt, pants and no shoes. He was enjoying a good book.
"I can leave if you're busy," she said turning to leave, he got off the bed,
"No, don't leave, I'm not busy," he answered. "Is every thing okay?" he asked.
"Yea, I just had to come and see you," she answered.
"Are you feeling better? You gave us a good scare," he said concerned.
"Angel, I'm fine" she replied.
"So what's this about talking?" he said pulling out a chair to sat down on the chair letting Buffy take the bed.
"Angel, for the last couple of days I've been dealing with my pain away from everyone because I thought I could deal with it myself, I even tried to end it," she whispered feeling ashamed of what she'd almost done, of what she would have done if it weren't for Lorne
"Buffy," he whispered.
"I know, I just felt like no one understanded my pain, and I felt like I was all alone and I hated that feeling. I realized something Angel, you're not the reason Spike isn't here anymore, he made up his mind about what he was going to do and nothing I said was going to change that, I guess I couldn't deal with that fact and then I saw you and I remembered you giving me that amulet and I remembered seeing Spike and I just wanted someone to blame," she cried
Angel could see the tears falling from her face. He got off his chair and bought her into a hug she cried into his chest.
"I'm just hurting so much and I feel like this pain won't ever go away. I
know I'm being selfish and childlike but I can't help it," she cried even harder.
"No, it's okay. When I thought I lost you… I was empty, like a part of me died with you and that that part would never be filled again, but seeing you alive… that hole started getting full again."
"Did Cordelia help you fill that space?" she asked Angel pulled away from her.
"How did you know"?
"I knew, no one told me, I could see it, at the memorial I knew you were in pain and I felt like I could see inside you and she was floating around inside your head, color me weird but I always knew what's in your heart and you knew what's in mine," she explained.
"Things were different. She was different, she wasn't the same girl you, Xander and Willow grew up with, she changed for the better, she was caring and she was here for me when I needed a friend."
"Same thing with Spike, he was there when I came back from heaven and I treated him like crap," Buffy walked over toward Angel's window and looked outside. "If someone would have said that you'd fall in love with Cordelia and I would fall in love with Spike then, I would have thought they were nuts" she smiled.
"Funny how people change," Angel joked.
"Do you think I changed?" she asked turning to face him.
"No, I still think you're the same caring person I've always known and loved," he smiled. She smiled back.
"Angel I didn't mean those things I said to you when I first got here, because no matter what, you'll always have a part of my heart," she smiled.
"Same here, I'll always love you, don't forget."
Buffy started walking towards the door, "I hope when Cordelia wakes up,
she realizes what a great guy she's got."
"Good-night Buffy," Angel whispered.
"Night," she sighed leaving the room.
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Okay the next Chapter is a like a couple of months after this