Title: Reflection 1/1
Author: Laura Crandall
E-mail: c/o AngelStarrZ@earthlink.net
Distribution: UCSL, Fanfiction, if you want it, ask me.
Rating: It's PG.
Classification: Willow Angst.
Spoilers: "Doppelganger"
Summary: Willow reflects on Evil Willow's visit, Xander/Faith and more...
Feedback: If you don't like it, that's fine, but please no flaming. If
you do like it, it would be nice, but you don't have to.

Disclaimer/Author's Note: The song is "Once in a Blue Moon" as performed
by Sydney Forest. The song can be found on the "Simply Irresistible"
soundtrack. DISCLAIMER: These characters aren't mine, they're Joss
Whedon, Warner Brothers, Twentieth Century Fox, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar,
and Kuzui Productions. No Copyright Infringement intended.

~ Laura

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Willow sat sadly at the computer in her room in her pj's. Usually checking her email and chatting was fun, but it just didn't cheer her up today.

"Gosh, I had a long day today."

Oh great, she thought. Now I am talking to myself. Next I will start answering. Willow chuckled quietly as she shut her computer off and walked over to the french doors that led outside her room. Sighing softly she gazed out at the stars. It was a nice night out. She could see the full moon shining brightly.

Willow had her radio on, but didn't even notice till the song started playing.

The room is empty
The lights are dead
And my heart wonders
If I'll ever see you again

My tears are hungry
For an open door
When your arms held me
I never felt that way before

I'll be waiting and I'll be watching
Under a full moon
A taste of heaven will only happen
Once in a full moon

Instantly she started thinking. Different people entered her mind. She thought of * Her * other self as a vampire. It scared her that there was a vampire out there that was her. It also made her feel strangely safe, knowing that out there, somewhere was a person just like her. Someone she could kind of relate to.

And Oz. She really loved him. She couldn't be with him tonight, but she hoped he was thinking about her too. Being with him felt so perfect, so right.

Do you remember
When the wind blew free
We fit together
So naturally

I'll be waiting and I'll be watching
Under a full moon
A taste of heaven can only happen
Once in a full moon

If the wind closes a door
It will open another

Xander. One simple word. She had known him so long. She had loved him as long as she could remember. Then, when she finally thought she was over him, he returned her feelings. It felt so good to kiss him and feel him kiss back. It felt almost right, but something was missing. She remembered seeing Oz's face when he found her with Xander. He was so hurt.

Then Faith showed up! Faith was a slayer. Like Buffy. She had to be nice to her, but she couldn't. How could Xander do that to her. Knowing Xander was with her just made her think of Oz more.

" I Love Him. "

Willow sighed as she slowly got into bed, the image of Oz and that song lingering in her mind as she fell asleep.

And I'll be waiting and I'll be watching
Under a full moon
A taste of heaven can only happen
Once in a blue moon

Once in a blue moon...