Title: The Black Vixen
Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade or any of its characters. But I do own my made up characters.
Chapter Eight: Self hatred and broken teams
Author note: ok quick note:
Ravensta692003, could you please calm down and keep reading. The only reason she snogged Kai was so that I could make this chapter work. Please don't stop reading this story. You should know by now that my stories are like this and no I'm not writing Yaoi in this story. As much as I think Kai suits Rei I'd rather keep them straight in this story ok? Please still read! You're one of my favourite reviewers. If you are still reading then I'm sorry for the last chapter, but if you can hack it then stop complaining. Ok that's the end of my quick note; let the next chapter get started
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Kim was sitting on her bed, it was around midnight by now, she didn't really seem to care, she'd been writing for the past 5 hours.
Her note book was full of poems and quickly drawn pictures, most of the pictures were of herself being stabbed by three daggers/knives/swords.
She sighed and threw the notebook at the wall; it fell to heap on the floor, she knew Oliver was up, and he was painting. He'd been painting for the past 6 hours. He had paused for a few seconds as he heard the book slam against the wall.
"Why does any one even bother with me? I can't fucking make up my mind, I'm not even sure if I'm worth this!?" she muttered to herself while staring up at the ceiling. She hated herself.
How could she have put Rei, Kai and Oliver through this? If they still liked her then it would a miracle. She covered her face, as tears began to run down her face.
"I'm a stupid whore, I've probably broken Oliver's heart, Rei will hate me forever and Kai...." she trailed off. Sitting up and climbing off of her bed she walked over to a drawer and pulled out some scissors. She walked back over to her bed and placed the scissors down.
"Do I really want to do this?" she muttered.
'Yes you deserve the pain' her mind answered.
She took a deep breath and picked up the scissors. She held out her right arm, and positioned the scissors about 5 centimetres away from her veins and closed her eyes as she made a deep cut, biting her lip in pain.
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"Rei, Rei don't be angry at me" Kai said about an hour after they had got home.
"Why not? You know how much I like her!" Rei snapped back, glaring at his fellow team mate. "You know how much I love her"
"I said I was sorry, she sorta kissed me!" Kai said, before Rei punched him.
"Yeah right, you could have stopped her!" Rei said before walking upstairs towards his own room.
Tyson looked at Kai shaking his head slightly.
"What the hell are you shaking your head at?" Kai snapped, holding the side of his face where Rei had punched him.
"You're both fighting over some stupid girl" Tyson answered.
"She's not stupid!" Kai snapped again, but Tyson just sighed.
"Is she worth fighting over?"
"She...." Kai trailed off....was she worth this? He wasn't really sure, he thought she was cute, but then Rei did know her more than him. Hadn't Rei been depressed once Kim had gone back to Europe? She seemed to like him, so he was just getting in the way. He sighed and walked upstairs knocking on Reis door.
"Who ever it is go away!" Rei yelled through the door.
"Rei don't ignore me, I have to ask you a question!" Kai yelled.
The door opened "What?" Rei snapped.
"Do you love her?"
"What?" Rei stepped back slightly
"Do you love Kim?"
"Err I err....." he stuttered, yeah he loved her, but he some how found it hard to say.
"Rei answer me"
"Piss of Kai!" Rei snapped slamming his door shut, Kai glared and said, just loud enough for Rei to hear.
"Well if you don't like her then maybe I should go see her and finish our kiss" it was just an attempt to get Rei to admit his feelings, but it did worse; Rei opened the door and punched Kai again
"Shut up you ass hole!" Rei snapped, as Kai punched him back.
"Then admit you love her!" Kai said through gritted teeth, Rei punched Kai again.
"Why are you asking me that question, this is some sick joke Kai now piss off!" Rei said shoving Kai roughly into one of the doors before slamming his own door shut and sitting down on a chair some where, wondering why Kim meant so much to him.
"It's not just because she's cute, I know that for one thing it's got to be more than that, I mean she's a stupid slut, she was kissing Kai full out in public, it was more than kissing, they were frenching for god sake!" he was muttering quite quickly, and he kept going over this in his mind.
Kai however had gone to his own room and was listening to the song 'Numb' by Linkin Park through his CD walkman.
'Just because I try to help him I end up with a bruised face. How is Kim even worth this?' he thought to himself 'yeah she's cute an all but she just seems I dunno different'
Kai sighed and turned the volume up and carried on listening.
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Back at the mansion, Oliver had stopped painting, because he'd run out of paint, about 50 different paintings stood leaning against his walls. A few of them were of Kim; the others were just weird morbid pictures that were of a heart that was broken or bleeding or blackened.
He had loved Kim since the moment he'd first set eyes on her, and he'd started to love her even more over the years, he didn't know why she meant so much to him, it was too hard to describe. But he knew she'd never like him back, since he was like a friend to her.
"And that's all I'll ever be" he murmured before he started to drift off to sleep.
Back in Kim's room, Kim was sitting on her bed, blood still slowly dripping from her cut, she was holding the locket that Oliver had given her when she had come out of hospital, she looked at it, tears falling from her eyes.
She'd have to choose one of the boys, but she could decide between two of them. Life was hell for her and it was all her fault.
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Note to my other readers, if you haven't all left coz Kim kissed Kai, I hope you liked this chapter a lot off stuff was going on. If your all wondering who the two boys are then please keep reading. What do you think of Kim cutting herself? And Oliver's paintings? And Rei and Kai arguing? Please R+R bye
~*~Phoenix147~*~
Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade or any of its characters. But I do own my made up characters.
Chapter Eight: Self hatred and broken teams
Author note: ok quick note:
Ravensta692003, could you please calm down and keep reading. The only reason she snogged Kai was so that I could make this chapter work. Please don't stop reading this story. You should know by now that my stories are like this and no I'm not writing Yaoi in this story. As much as I think Kai suits Rei I'd rather keep them straight in this story ok? Please still read! You're one of my favourite reviewers. If you are still reading then I'm sorry for the last chapter, but if you can hack it then stop complaining. Ok that's the end of my quick note; let the next chapter get started
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Kim was sitting on her bed, it was around midnight by now, she didn't really seem to care, she'd been writing for the past 5 hours.
Her note book was full of poems and quickly drawn pictures, most of the pictures were of herself being stabbed by three daggers/knives/swords.
She sighed and threw the notebook at the wall; it fell to heap on the floor, she knew Oliver was up, and he was painting. He'd been painting for the past 6 hours. He had paused for a few seconds as he heard the book slam against the wall.
"Why does any one even bother with me? I can't fucking make up my mind, I'm not even sure if I'm worth this!?" she muttered to herself while staring up at the ceiling. She hated herself.
How could she have put Rei, Kai and Oliver through this? If they still liked her then it would a miracle. She covered her face, as tears began to run down her face.
"I'm a stupid whore, I've probably broken Oliver's heart, Rei will hate me forever and Kai...." she trailed off. Sitting up and climbing off of her bed she walked over to a drawer and pulled out some scissors. She walked back over to her bed and placed the scissors down.
"Do I really want to do this?" she muttered.
'Yes you deserve the pain' her mind answered.
She took a deep breath and picked up the scissors. She held out her right arm, and positioned the scissors about 5 centimetres away from her veins and closed her eyes as she made a deep cut, biting her lip in pain.
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"Rei, Rei don't be angry at me" Kai said about an hour after they had got home.
"Why not? You know how much I like her!" Rei snapped back, glaring at his fellow team mate. "You know how much I love her"
"I said I was sorry, she sorta kissed me!" Kai said, before Rei punched him.
"Yeah right, you could have stopped her!" Rei said before walking upstairs towards his own room.
Tyson looked at Kai shaking his head slightly.
"What the hell are you shaking your head at?" Kai snapped, holding the side of his face where Rei had punched him.
"You're both fighting over some stupid girl" Tyson answered.
"She's not stupid!" Kai snapped again, but Tyson just sighed.
"Is she worth fighting over?"
"She...." Kai trailed off....was she worth this? He wasn't really sure, he thought she was cute, but then Rei did know her more than him. Hadn't Rei been depressed once Kim had gone back to Europe? She seemed to like him, so he was just getting in the way. He sighed and walked upstairs knocking on Reis door.
"Who ever it is go away!" Rei yelled through the door.
"Rei don't ignore me, I have to ask you a question!" Kai yelled.
The door opened "What?" Rei snapped.
"Do you love her?"
"What?" Rei stepped back slightly
"Do you love Kim?"
"Err I err....." he stuttered, yeah he loved her, but he some how found it hard to say.
"Rei answer me"
"Piss of Kai!" Rei snapped slamming his door shut, Kai glared and said, just loud enough for Rei to hear.
"Well if you don't like her then maybe I should go see her and finish our kiss" it was just an attempt to get Rei to admit his feelings, but it did worse; Rei opened the door and punched Kai again
"Shut up you ass hole!" Rei snapped, as Kai punched him back.
"Then admit you love her!" Kai said through gritted teeth, Rei punched Kai again.
"Why are you asking me that question, this is some sick joke Kai now piss off!" Rei said shoving Kai roughly into one of the doors before slamming his own door shut and sitting down on a chair some where, wondering why Kim meant so much to him.
"It's not just because she's cute, I know that for one thing it's got to be more than that, I mean she's a stupid slut, she was kissing Kai full out in public, it was more than kissing, they were frenching for god sake!" he was muttering quite quickly, and he kept going over this in his mind.
Kai however had gone to his own room and was listening to the song 'Numb' by Linkin Park through his CD walkman.
'Just because I try to help him I end up with a bruised face. How is Kim even worth this?' he thought to himself 'yeah she's cute an all but she just seems I dunno different'
Kai sighed and turned the volume up and carried on listening.
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Back at the mansion, Oliver had stopped painting, because he'd run out of paint, about 50 different paintings stood leaning against his walls. A few of them were of Kim; the others were just weird morbid pictures that were of a heart that was broken or bleeding or blackened.
He had loved Kim since the moment he'd first set eyes on her, and he'd started to love her even more over the years, he didn't know why she meant so much to him, it was too hard to describe. But he knew she'd never like him back, since he was like a friend to her.
"And that's all I'll ever be" he murmured before he started to drift off to sleep.
Back in Kim's room, Kim was sitting on her bed, blood still slowly dripping from her cut, she was holding the locket that Oliver had given her when she had come out of hospital, she looked at it, tears falling from her eyes.
She'd have to choose one of the boys, but she could decide between two of them. Life was hell for her and it was all her fault.
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Note to my other readers, if you haven't all left coz Kim kissed Kai, I hope you liked this chapter a lot off stuff was going on. If your all wondering who the two boys are then please keep reading. What do you think of Kim cutting herself? And Oliver's paintings? And Rei and Kai arguing? Please R+R bye
~*~Phoenix147~*~