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"The Love of Sayonara"
by Chiisana Anisa
Part 1
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Maybe you'll say that you want me
Maybe you''ll say that you don't
Maybe we said it was over
But baby I won't let you go...
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She had to leave. That was for sure. Now that she knows how much... She just had to leave. Simple as that. All of her things were already stuffed in her big yellow bag, and she had only on more thing to do.
In that instant, as a thought ran trough her mind reminding her of something, she dropped the bag and ran turning around, out of the hut. She passed by Kaede, the old miko looking at her in surprise, but not stopping her. With all her strength put in running she followed the path by memory well-known, almost out of breath.
But upon reaching her finish line of this short quest it took her strong will not to turn around and walk away. She wanted to see the Goshinboku tree one last time, but he was already there.
By now he must have picked up her presence with his always alert senses, but he didn't face her nor acknowledge her standing there. Taking in a deep breath she sighed and only then he looked at her with somewhat happy expression on his face. However, meeting with her eyes changed that expression into one of sadness or even regret. He didn't want to see her, it was that much obvious because she reminded him of... Kikyo.
He, himself felt horrible. Until last night, he lived in a world full of tricks, lies, danger of constant attacks.. deaths... he was lost in it like in a labyrinth without no way out. He found it once, but soon after lost it, although it seemed safe to have and hold for the rest of his life. Or so he thought. Now that he had it once again... the past was repeating itself.
Finally he broke his gaze of the tree, lovering his head in the process also turning to her. He knew the truth. She had to go. Or... she wanted to get away?
"All set?"
She was a bit startled by his question and hearing him speak at all, but she responded. "Yes, it is. I just thought it would be a good idea to see this place one more time, but I wasn't expecting you to be here..."
He snickered and glanced over to the tree. "Yeah.. just thought to come..."
A sad smile appeared on her face. "Right.."
At the loss of words, they both disappeared into the silence. There was something in the air, something almost touchable, making all of this so final. They both stood searching for secondary words just to fill this void within them, but it was the opposite.. The gap of silence between them grew even more.
Inuyasha kept his stubborn look back on the tree, not noticing her looking at him intensely. He didn't know that her eyes hold a question her lips could and would not form. But it was only because he didn't have the necessary strength to look in those brown-gray eyes like so many times before, and send it all directly to Hell! He, just as Kagome, wasn't afraid of saying goodbye, no, they were petrified by what was awaiting after it.
Their troublesome silence was broken by Shippo's voice, telling them that Kaede wanted the group to gather for the last time before Kagome leaves. Inuyasha turned to Kagome, bending slightly down to pick her up on his back, but she didn't budge from her place.
"Go Inuyasha. I'll come... just give me one more minute." - she said in an almost pleading voice. So how could he refuse? The hanyou nodded, and leapt into the sky landing in the nearby tree, retreating.
Kagome's entire being shook with the thought that this is all just a dream and that she would maybe wake up any minute now. But her mind knew better. With slow steps she approached the Goshinboku tree, touching its ancient skin and slowly letting some of her power flow into it. Then the surface under her hand glowed in a bright, blue light, reflecting what was there, and died down soon after. Kagome took two steps back and bowed respectfully to this Tree that meant a lot not only to her... but to Inuyasha as well.
She started walking away, dragging her movements, as if trying to delay it all as long as possible. But then, she quickened her walk, her will screaming at her to leave from this terrible and unknown world.
She didn't belong here.
With that, her steps broke into a run, leaving a few shining droplets in the air behind her, flowing lightly on the soft wind. The trees danced, humming with the wind, and one red-white blur moved in the same direction, following the running girl and her legacy consisted of tears on the wind.
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By the time she got to the hut, Inuyasha was there and so were the others. She begged them before not to say goodbye by the well. She wished to got alone. With multiple arguments they finally let her, although Inuyasha's favourite replay 'Feh!' said he wouldn't do that.
Kagome let her mind drift away remebering all the events in the two past weeks. For the long journey which lasted four years was finally over.
The End.
Yes... Naraku was out of their lives - for good. In a battle, with a little help from Sesshoumaru, Inuyasha managed to weaken him to that point that her arrow did its job perfectly. But to remember thouse traumatizing scenes in her head, to hear the screams of her friends ... the battle ones and the ones full of losing pain.
Like Sango's after losing her brother to his final rest forever.. or Miroku's when one of the youkai's got Sango to close to death ... Inuyasha's whille cuting Naraku repeatedely.. Kikyou's dreching voice troughout her descending to Hell ... even her own while taking in all the energy from Shikon no Tama.
Now all of this colected in her head, making a preasure point that begged to be released. So she stubornly refused to show it and bother them with her pain... again. Sango and Miroku finally got together, now with his Kazaana gone; Kikyou was no longer in this world, this past; Inuyasha had no more debts to repay and even his 'big' brother decided to leave him alone for the time being.
The Shikon no Tama was now complete, the last purifiying ceremony finished last night. It was now glowing in a beautiful pure pink light - proving it was free of all the hatred that was once in it. Last night also one decision was made . . . there will be no wish.
Inuyasha decleared he didn't want to change anymore, but upon asking he harsly refused to say why. Miroku and Sango were pleased as they were now and the young Shippou didn't have anything to wish for . . . yet.
So Kagome is taking the Jewel with her back into her time. Inuyasha did argue about that... but just as usual. She convinced him that the past was better of without it. The rest of the youkai's won't be chasing it and she highly doubted there will be a bigger threat in her time. So he agreed, but only after she promised to look after herself and it.
And now... it was time to go.
Kagome pressed a hand against her forhead, forcing the ache to go away and smiled weakly to Kaede.
"As yee all know, Lady Kagome it to leave this night.." - she was to continue but young kitsune didn't make it possible.
"But I don't want you to go, Kagome! Can't you stay?" - he asked in all his innosence.
"I'm sorry but I have to go back. My help here is no loner needed, the Shikon no Tama is completed and purified, right?" - Kagome responded, still smiling and picking Shippou up in her arms.
This time Sango butted in to answer. "But Kagome-chan, your help will always be needed. And do not think kept you here only for your help. No matter what certain . . . ahem . .. 'people' may say." - Sango amphised looking meaningly at Inuyasha.
"Feh!" - was all she got.
Kagome hugged Sango, with Shippou between them on the verge of tears. But she said - no crying. "Thank you Sango. And I know what you mean, but I have another home besides this which I must go back to..."
Kagome hugged Sango, with Shippou between them on the verge of tears. But she said - no crying. "Thank you Sango. And I know what you mean, but I have another home besides this which I must go back to..."
Slight tip of silence edged over their 'conversation' as everybody nodded, knowing she was right. But Shippou wasn't to put it to rest. "But aren't you happy here?"
Upon hearing this simple yet so complicated question, Inuyasha instantly turned to Kagome, and so did the others, only in a less noticing way. Kagome bit her lip vigorously, but didn't drew blood, not knowing how to answer properly. "Ano..."
"Let her be, Shippou. I mean that." Inuyasha jumped closer, catching the youngster for his tail and levelling his face with Shippou's just to show him how much her really meant it.
Kagome, surprised by his action, didn't "sit" him as usually, just stared at him. But she pulled out of it, ready to answer. "Ne, Shippou... I'm and I'm not happy here. Do you understand?"
"Um . . . no?"
"Well, I'm happy when I'm here with all of you, with my friends... but I'm also sad because my family is on the other side of the well. Do you understand now Shippou?"
"Keh, why do you even try - he won't understand . . ."
"But aren't we your family too?" - asked the little kitsune on the verge of tears again.
"Yes, you are Shippou, but..."
Shippou didn't seem to have the will to drop the whole thing. His young mind told him he is being left again and his sorrow increased with every unhappy thought. "Don't you love us? Me or Sango and Miroku? Don't you love Inuyasha?". By the end of his asking, Shippou's trembling voice grew into shrieking one, desperately searching for satisfying answers.
Now the full circle of silence ran around their group, leaving each one of them to ponder how will Kagome answer to the crying Shippou, who was now trembling in his sobs, but in a calmer way.
"Ano Shippou... listen..." Upon this plea, Shippou raised his head, and saw Kagome attempting to pick him up. Telling himself he would only hurt more, he jumped away, settling on Inuyasha's shoulder.
Inuyasha was about to protest but seeing the forming of mist in the young miko's eyes he closed him mouth in a strict, firm line. Kagome lowered her eyes to the ground, those forbidden tears walling up in the corners. She felt hurt by Shippou's action, and clenched her fists, deciding to give him an answer.
"Yes Shippou ... I love you all, very much. But I must go... I don't belong here. So please . . . let me go.."
Shippou getting the answer he didn't like, pulled one of Inuyasha's bangs, drawing his attention. "Make her stay, Inuyasha. Make her stay... like you always do..."
"I will not." - the replay came in a cold voice, one ridden of all emotions. Kagome's eyes quickly searched for his, but she was met with the say emotion like in the voice that had just spoken. Cold and unnerving. Almost uninterested.
"It is on her to decide this time Shippou. And she already has. And I won't make her step un her decision... So stop being such a whiner and say goodbye, dammit!" - that cold voice traded to a gentle one, but soon became and angry one while yelling on Shippou. No-one willed to speak, so Kaede cleaned her throat.
"Well then, say thy goodbye.."
"Yes, I must go before..." - Kagome started explaining to everyone and no-one at particular, but the sad end of her started sentence stopped her from saying it full.
So Inuyasha finished it for her, not noticing this time the pained look in Kagome's eyes.
"Before the well closes down for good."
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Dun dun dun!!! HEH... this is just the first part! You can all guess what pairing is in the game here... It's so obvious! Well.. tell me if you wish for me to continue and I will!!!
I mean if I get enough demands I'll post the second part soon. Just to warn you this could be only three-chaptered story, no more. I have it written down and so roughly looking at it I can say that... :))
I must apologise for any miswritten words or bad grammar! So sorry - English is not my native tounge! ~_~
Anyway I hope you liked it!!
Lots of love!!!
Chiisana Anisa