She's been disowned by her mother, her sister was murdered, her heart was broken by a fuzzy demon, and now she's living with the Brotherhood, can life get any worse? or any better? Thanks so much for the help Lyssa, you know who you are..

Hi all!! Ok, I've had Writers block!! Tailfeather, Kietro_lover and Rogue151 have been really helpful during this hard time and I would like it a lot if you'd all review and give my lots of Ideas.

Disclaimer: Now little marvel people. I do not own X-men no matter how much I pray and write angry letters. But I own apirl,ok?

Dear Diary,

Today was the worst day ever! Jean found out it was my birthday. Yeah you're probably thinking, "what's so sad about your birthday?" I'll tell you what's wrong, The first of April is the day that Amy was killed...My own twin, killed on our birthday. April

Dear Diary,

Memories of Amy are coming back to me like daggers, our first day of school, the first time she won a dancing competition, the day she run off, the day a policeman came to our door and told us Amy had been murdered....I will kill the person who done that to her. I will kill them. April

Dear Diary,

Today I told Jean everything, my worries, my hopes, my sister.I told her everything. I wish I hadn't. She must have told someone who told the whole house about my problems. I hate her and I am going to leave this place. I'll go live on the street or something. April

Dear Dairy,

I am so scared. I just had a nightmare but this time no demon for me to hold, no demon to share with, no demon to hug. I only have a small book to confide in. I feel so alone. I will tell you my dream: I am 4 years old and I'm lying on a bed in a hospital. I look to the side and they're in mother. I look to my left and see people staining to put needles in my hands as I struggle. I twist I turn but my hands are pinned down to the table. I cry and shout but they won't let go. I look to my mother but she shouts at me.....she shouts at a small child going through pain...and then I wake up.alone. April

Dear Diary,

I am finally on my to the brotherhood house. I have left the mansion and now walking there. Kurt stopped me half way. Here's the conversation.. Kurt: Vhere are you going?

Me: Um.a glass of water

Kurt: Fully dressed vith all your posesions?

Me: Why not?

Kurt: Look I know your angry vith me bu-

Me: Look Kurt. You have no idea how much you have hurt me! Imagine you think you've found the right person and then that person is taken away from you like everything else you've ever loved!

Kurt: I-

Me: No Kurt. I'm sick of this.being expected to do everything.. expected to survive.expected to live for the rest of my life as a FREAK!

Kurt: April just listen.

Me: No Kurt. You listen. Leave me alone, ok?

Kurt:Ok

That's where I kinda run of crying. I know I shouldn't pay any attention to him but it's hard ya know? I think that's enough moaning for tonight. April

Dear Diary

Lance is so sweet. When I came in kinda all wet and he's letting me live with the brotherhood! This is going to be so fun. Only one drawback. I have to share a room with pietro. Don't ask how. Ok I'll tell you how. Lance said his room was messy, I didn't want the sofa/floor, Toad is like icky, Fred's room is too small for us both, and mystiques room is locked, ditto with the other rooms. Great. Bloody Great. April

Dear Diary,

I had another nightmare. I woke up to find a hand over my mouth and pietro telling me to A. shut up B. calm down C. Stop screaming or Lance will think I've murdered you. I did calm down, no help to Pietro. Anyhow here's my dream: I am a small child and beneath me a girl crying. She looks up at me and she is cut and bleeding. I do not help her. A teacher comes and helps the girl up. Dragging me beside her She makes me stand in the corner. I cry whilst in the corner and my teacher tells me off whilst the girl is now smirking. She knows something. April

Dear Diary,

Pietro found me crying when he woke up. He kinda was nice saying whatever was wrong would be over. I didn't believe him. The pain I am going through will never be over. I thought Pietro was really sweet until I went downstairs: Me: Hey

Pietro: Hey April showers!

Me: Not Funny, I hate being called that!

Pietro: Being called what, April showers?

Me: Grrrr

Lance: How'd ya sleep April Sho-..I mean April?

Me: Fine. Though I have a massive headache

Lance: Poor you.

Me: yeah poor me That's where I just grabbed some toast. I'm now outside the school writing in this. I got to go thou, bell has just gone. April

Dear Diary,

School was Hell. The x-men kept trying to bring me back to the institute. I kept saying no but its so tempting.Kurt being there and all. Anyhow I have a load of homework off Mrs Davies and I have a whole page of maths of Mr James. I hate maths. April

Dear Diary,

So hungry, this place has no food. I think I'd just go shopping for food.

April

Dear Diary,

Note to self: Never ask Todd to help cook. I think I have food poisoning. I have been throwing up all day..I think I might throw up now.. April

Dear Diary,

Awe, the guys rented (or stole) some films to make me feel better. We've just watched Titanic, Stepmom, Wuthering heights and some of the saddest eps of friends ever. Even Lance was crying at some point. They all tried to hide it, but when Rose let Jack go.that was enough to send us all off. What is worse, Mystique walked through the door at that moment, looked from me to the boys and walked out, muttering something. Poor women. April

Hi, Sorry about that short chap but I am really running low on Ideas. I need help! Maybe you review and help me??? *hint hint* If you do review you get a cookie! If you don't review I will bring all my video games (Die Hard, Police cop, Demons, Resident Evil, Spryo, Harry Potter!) to life and make them attack you in your dreams!! MUAHAHAHAHA!

Have a nice day!