Three's a Crowd
Lonely
Author: Kamikazee Email: neo_kamikazee@hotmail.com Rating: PG-13, for some swearing and some hard to describe content Series/Sequel: Third in the Three's a Crowd series. (4 part series) Warnings: Swearing, infidelity, angst, Hunter being an ass Category: WWE Spoilers: Let's see, Lita is returned in this fic. I'm also using the real- life wedding of Paul Levesque (HHH) and Stephanie McMahon, but I'm using wrestling names. Archive: HLA, Personal Space, Fanfiction.net, Inspired by Song. If you want it, please e-mail me the URL. Summary: An affair comes to an end. First person POV Author's Notes: Third part of the Three's a Crowd, sequel to It's Over and Need. Notes 2: The song used is Back 2 Good by Matchbox 20 Notes 3: I'm going to try to get the last part out in the next couple of days, muses permitting. Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or storylines created by the WWE, nor is this a reflection on the real life people who portray them. This is simply a piece of non-profit fiction. The song 'Back 2 Good' by Matchbox 20 is used without permission of the band.
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//It's nothing, it's so normal you Just stand there I could say so much But I don't go there cuz I don't want to I was thinking if you were lonely Maybe we could leave here and no one would now At least not to the point that we would think so//
I'm lonely.
I hate to admit it, even to myself, but I am. I'm so used to seeing you, to being near you, that being by myself is totally alien to me now. Even when we didn't talk, you had this presence around you; I could simply know that you were there.
I shouldn't be going there. I know you were just using me. You never cared about me, I was just something to keep you occupied. Something to keep your mind off Stephanie when she wasn't around. Something to stop you from being lonely.
I think that's the reason you did what you did, loneliness. You hate being alone just as much as me, I bet. You just hide it better. For a while, we helped each other with the loneliness, until I got tired of it. Now, I guess you'll find someone new for when she's not around. I was just a tool to you.
I guess part of me always thought that you might choose me over her; that you might leave her and run away with me. No one would know, and we could live happily ever after. I was hoping for a fairytale. You're not Prince Charming, though, and no one's going to rescue me but myself.
I'm lonely.
//Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about Somebody else It's best if we all keep it under our heads I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how To get it back to good//
I'm lonely.
I was warned when I came into the business. Warned about getting involved with another wrestler. Told that it never worked out, that nobody could make it work. They all cautioned me about it, tried to discourage me.
I saw it myself as well. I saw relationship after relationship fall apart. Everyone in this business is thinking about someone, and usually it's not the person they're with. Still, it happens over and over again. Nobody thinks that it'll happen to them.
I suppose a lot of people are feeling the way I'm feeling, but I don't know. It seems impossible that anyone else can feel this slow burning in their chest. Can feel this pain that never stops. I can't imagine anyone else waking up in tears like I do.
I just want things to go back to good. I want to go back to my fairytale world, Hunter. I want you to come save me from my monsters. Lift me off my feet Hunter. Can't you even pretend to be my hero?
I'm lonely.
//This don't mean that you own me This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell But things worked out just like you wanted too If you see me out you don't know me Try to turn your head, try to give me some room To figure out just what I'm going to do//
I'm lonely.
I hate myself for this pain I'm feeling. I hate myself for wanting you, when all you want from me is control. I hate myself for needing you to save me. Everything you ever told me was a lie, but I still wake up whispering your name.
I won't go back to you, though. I won't let myself. Things always seem to work out the way you want them to, so I'm going to end that. I won't let myself be another notch on your belt. No more laying down and accepting fate.
You don't know me, Hunter. You think you do, but you really don't. All you know is basic facts, but there's more to Lita then that. I know you, though. I know how you manipulate, I know how you seduce, I know how you control, and I know how you eventually discard. I won't be discarded; I'll do the discarding.
I'm going to do something, Hunter. You might know that, but even if you do, you'll have no idea what it is exactly. You can try to figure it out, you are the Cerebral Assassin, but I'm no slouch either. You can try to distance yourself, but it's my move now.
I'm lonely.
//And everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like They do It's best if we all keep this quiet instead And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like They do But I'm sorry now, but I don't know how To get it back to good//
I'm lonely.
You've been on my mind a lot lately, Hunter. I've gone through phases. There's been anger, hurt, depression, happiness, every emotion you could imagine. I've gone through them all. The emotion that's always been there has been loneliness.
If I think about it, it's quite obvious this has happened before. I never told you, but Molly saw me leave your room one morning. She didn't say anything. She just looked at me and sighed, shaking her head. There was pity in her eyes. I suppose she was another one of your conquests. I guess it explains her change of style.
You took something from her, just like you took something from me. I suppose it might be innocence. I wish with all my might that I could give Molly back her innocence. I can't though, no more then I can take back my own.
I'm lonely.
//Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with Somebody else Everyone here's to blame, everyone here
Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're The same And we're all grown now, but we don't know how To get it back to good//
I'm lonely.
This game we're playing is getting old; this back and forth, who can hurt the other more game. I'm not going to give up though; I'm going to win. I won't let you beat me, and I won't show you pain. You get off on my pain; well it's about time I got off on yours.
I guess were similar that way, maybe in a lot of ways. Maybe some part of you even cares for me on a deeper level, not that it matters. I'll show you. I can be ruthless, I can be devious, and I can play dirty. I'm not a child, Hunter; I'm all grown up now.
When I saw the letter in the mail, I knew just what to do with it. I did just the opposite you expected me to. So, I guess I'll be seeing you. I can't wait.
I'm lonely.
//Everyone here, know everyone here is thinking 'bout Somebody else It's best if we all keep this under our heads I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do But it's over now, and I don't know how, it's over now There's no getting back to good//
I'm lonely.
You thought you made the right move, sending me the invitation. You thought it would break me. You thought I wouldn't be able to stomach the idea. That's where you were wrong. This is the best possible thing you could have done for me.
I'll be there. I'll be in the chapel as you stand at the alter, next to your ticket to continued fame in the business. You can look between her, and me, and you'll have to make your choice. You'll have to make the final decision.
It's your move, Hunter, what are you going to do?
This is to confirm that
Lita Dumas
Will be attending the wedding of
Hunter Helmsley and Stephanie McMahon
Lonely
Author: Kamikazee Email: neo_kamikazee@hotmail.com Rating: PG-13, for some swearing and some hard to describe content Series/Sequel: Third in the Three's a Crowd series. (4 part series) Warnings: Swearing, infidelity, angst, Hunter being an ass Category: WWE Spoilers: Let's see, Lita is returned in this fic. I'm also using the real- life wedding of Paul Levesque (HHH) and Stephanie McMahon, but I'm using wrestling names. Archive: HLA, Personal Space, Fanfiction.net, Inspired by Song. If you want it, please e-mail me the URL. Summary: An affair comes to an end. First person POV Author's Notes: Third part of the Three's a Crowd, sequel to It's Over and Need. Notes 2: The song used is Back 2 Good by Matchbox 20 Notes 3: I'm going to try to get the last part out in the next couple of days, muses permitting. Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or storylines created by the WWE, nor is this a reflection on the real life people who portray them. This is simply a piece of non-profit fiction. The song 'Back 2 Good' by Matchbox 20 is used without permission of the band.
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//It's nothing, it's so normal you Just stand there I could say so much But I don't go there cuz I don't want to I was thinking if you were lonely Maybe we could leave here and no one would now At least not to the point that we would think so//
I'm lonely.
I hate to admit it, even to myself, but I am. I'm so used to seeing you, to being near you, that being by myself is totally alien to me now. Even when we didn't talk, you had this presence around you; I could simply know that you were there.
I shouldn't be going there. I know you were just using me. You never cared about me, I was just something to keep you occupied. Something to keep your mind off Stephanie when she wasn't around. Something to stop you from being lonely.
I think that's the reason you did what you did, loneliness. You hate being alone just as much as me, I bet. You just hide it better. For a while, we helped each other with the loneliness, until I got tired of it. Now, I guess you'll find someone new for when she's not around. I was just a tool to you.
I guess part of me always thought that you might choose me over her; that you might leave her and run away with me. No one would know, and we could live happily ever after. I was hoping for a fairytale. You're not Prince Charming, though, and no one's going to rescue me but myself.
I'm lonely.
//Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about Somebody else It's best if we all keep it under our heads I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how To get it back to good//
I'm lonely.
I was warned when I came into the business. Warned about getting involved with another wrestler. Told that it never worked out, that nobody could make it work. They all cautioned me about it, tried to discourage me.
I saw it myself as well. I saw relationship after relationship fall apart. Everyone in this business is thinking about someone, and usually it's not the person they're with. Still, it happens over and over again. Nobody thinks that it'll happen to them.
I suppose a lot of people are feeling the way I'm feeling, but I don't know. It seems impossible that anyone else can feel this slow burning in their chest. Can feel this pain that never stops. I can't imagine anyone else waking up in tears like I do.
I just want things to go back to good. I want to go back to my fairytale world, Hunter. I want you to come save me from my monsters. Lift me off my feet Hunter. Can't you even pretend to be my hero?
I'm lonely.
//This don't mean that you own me This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell But things worked out just like you wanted too If you see me out you don't know me Try to turn your head, try to give me some room To figure out just what I'm going to do//
I'm lonely.
I hate myself for this pain I'm feeling. I hate myself for wanting you, when all you want from me is control. I hate myself for needing you to save me. Everything you ever told me was a lie, but I still wake up whispering your name.
I won't go back to you, though. I won't let myself. Things always seem to work out the way you want them to, so I'm going to end that. I won't let myself be another notch on your belt. No more laying down and accepting fate.
You don't know me, Hunter. You think you do, but you really don't. All you know is basic facts, but there's more to Lita then that. I know you, though. I know how you manipulate, I know how you seduce, I know how you control, and I know how you eventually discard. I won't be discarded; I'll do the discarding.
I'm going to do something, Hunter. You might know that, but even if you do, you'll have no idea what it is exactly. You can try to figure it out, you are the Cerebral Assassin, but I'm no slouch either. You can try to distance yourself, but it's my move now.
I'm lonely.
//And everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like They do It's best if we all keep this quiet instead And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like They do But I'm sorry now, but I don't know how To get it back to good//
I'm lonely.
You've been on my mind a lot lately, Hunter. I've gone through phases. There's been anger, hurt, depression, happiness, every emotion you could imagine. I've gone through them all. The emotion that's always been there has been loneliness.
If I think about it, it's quite obvious this has happened before. I never told you, but Molly saw me leave your room one morning. She didn't say anything. She just looked at me and sighed, shaking her head. There was pity in her eyes. I suppose she was another one of your conquests. I guess it explains her change of style.
You took something from her, just like you took something from me. I suppose it might be innocence. I wish with all my might that I could give Molly back her innocence. I can't though, no more then I can take back my own.
I'm lonely.
//Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with Somebody else Everyone here's to blame, everyone here
Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're The same And we're all grown now, but we don't know how To get it back to good//
I'm lonely.
This game we're playing is getting old; this back and forth, who can hurt the other more game. I'm not going to give up though; I'm going to win. I won't let you beat me, and I won't show you pain. You get off on my pain; well it's about time I got off on yours.
I guess were similar that way, maybe in a lot of ways. Maybe some part of you even cares for me on a deeper level, not that it matters. I'll show you. I can be ruthless, I can be devious, and I can play dirty. I'm not a child, Hunter; I'm all grown up now.
When I saw the letter in the mail, I knew just what to do with it. I did just the opposite you expected me to. So, I guess I'll be seeing you. I can't wait.
I'm lonely.
//Everyone here, know everyone here is thinking 'bout Somebody else It's best if we all keep this under our heads I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do But it's over now, and I don't know how, it's over now There's no getting back to good//
I'm lonely.
You thought you made the right move, sending me the invitation. You thought it would break me. You thought I wouldn't be able to stomach the idea. That's where you were wrong. This is the best possible thing you could have done for me.
I'll be there. I'll be in the chapel as you stand at the alter, next to your ticket to continued fame in the business. You can look between her, and me, and you'll have to make your choice. You'll have to make the final decision.
It's your move, Hunter, what are you going to do?
This is to confirm that
Lita Dumas
Will be attending the wedding of
Hunter Helmsley and Stephanie McMahon