I guess I stopped trusting people after I was used. Many people know the man that took my virginity and just ran off the next morning, The next thing I knew was that he was with another girl.
I guess he's a womanizer and I couldn't believe that I couldn't see it before. WHy did he have to use me like that?
Well, I guess because I was in an alleyway and he offered a place to stay, but i didn't know that it meant his bed. I walked into that building right next to the Brooklyn Bridge, and faces were looking at me like I was scum of the Earth. Was I? I guess that's when I was taken to his bedroom.
~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"So whats' your name sweetface?"
"My names Sami and yours?"
"Me name is Spot Conlon and dis here is my lodging house."
"Well, nice to meet you i guess." Spot came up to me and put his hand on my cheek and leaned in to kiss me. I guess I wasn't thinking because I kissed him back. And that kiss led to something that I will always regret.
~~~~~~~~~End of Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I felt a shiver go down my spine as I thought of that night. It was filled with so much passion and yet, i regretted it. The day after, I guess is when I lost all trust in guys. Because when I had awaken Spot was no where to be seen. So i searched Brooklyn for him, and as soon as I found him he told me that it was a one night thing and that he didn't settle down with anyone.
So I ran to Manhattan and found a newsie on the streets who offered a bunk at their lodging house. As long as they didn't know that i was one of Spots 'whores' then I guess i'd be all right.
I guess the boys here got used to me because they weren't mean to me. They kept their distance but also tried to get me to open up to them. The one person who I've opened up to a little bit was Racetrack. I don't know why, but I felt like he's dealt with crap before so he can handle me. No one knew that i could talk but Racetrack. He was the one that had brought me to the Lodging House.
I looked up. It must've been around 7 at night because the guys were getting ready to head out to Medda's. I loved Irving Hall, it was my favorite place to go. I loved watching Medda walk across the stage and hypnotize each person with the lyrics that came out of her mouth. Medda was another person I could talk to. I came to her one day and we talked for awhile. The next thing I knew I was singing on stage with Medda in front of an empty hall. I'm glad no one saw me sing, because I wouldn't be able to take it with all the questions on why i've been so quiet.
"Heya Sami, can Ise talk ta yas?" I looked to my left and saw Racetrack. I nodded and we both walked out to the fire escape. It was June so it was quite warm out. I was wearing a blue button up shirt and some pants that i rolled up to my knees. I had a few other pairs of clothing but they were either long sleeved or shirts that i wear to Medda's only.
"What do yas want Race?"
"Youse going ta Medda's?"
"Ise didn't know youse could talk." Both of our heads turned to the window and saw Jack come out. He quietly closed the window and walked over to us on the stairs.
"What do yas want Jackey boy, don't yas see dat Ise talking ta Sami?"
"Yea but Ise didn't know she could talk or Ise would have asked her to talk ta her me self."
"You knows dat Ise still here, so youse two can stop talking like Ise aint here."
"Why'd youse keep it a secret?"
"Cause Ise don't feel like talking much."
"Can youse leave us be fer awhile Jack, Ise gotta talk ta er." Jack nodded and left and both me and Race checked to make sure he closed the window all the way. "Like Ise was saying-"
"Youse weren't saying anytin."
"Oh...well now Ise am. Youse want ta go ta Medda's wit me den tomorrow sell wit me at SheepsHead?"
"Whyse youse asking now?"
"Well because Conlon's coming in tonight and he always asks da goil newsies." I felt myself tense up to that last name.
"Spot Conlon?"
"Yea youse know im?"
"Ise don't wanna talk bout it. But can youse do me a favor?"
"Yea sure, anytin."
"Can youse make sure he doesn't come near me. Ise got problems wit him, and make sure none of da boys talk bout me."
"Yea sure. But whyse youse keeping stuff away from me."
"Cause its stuff dat no one needs ta know." Racetrack nodded and we both went back inside and got ready for Meddas. I knew deep down that this was going to be a night that I would never forget.....
I guess he's a womanizer and I couldn't believe that I couldn't see it before. WHy did he have to use me like that?
Well, I guess because I was in an alleyway and he offered a place to stay, but i didn't know that it meant his bed. I walked into that building right next to the Brooklyn Bridge, and faces were looking at me like I was scum of the Earth. Was I? I guess that's when I was taken to his bedroom.
~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"So whats' your name sweetface?"
"My names Sami and yours?"
"Me name is Spot Conlon and dis here is my lodging house."
"Well, nice to meet you i guess." Spot came up to me and put his hand on my cheek and leaned in to kiss me. I guess I wasn't thinking because I kissed him back. And that kiss led to something that I will always regret.
~~~~~~~~~End of Flashback~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I felt a shiver go down my spine as I thought of that night. It was filled with so much passion and yet, i regretted it. The day after, I guess is when I lost all trust in guys. Because when I had awaken Spot was no where to be seen. So i searched Brooklyn for him, and as soon as I found him he told me that it was a one night thing and that he didn't settle down with anyone.
So I ran to Manhattan and found a newsie on the streets who offered a bunk at their lodging house. As long as they didn't know that i was one of Spots 'whores' then I guess i'd be all right.
I guess the boys here got used to me because they weren't mean to me. They kept their distance but also tried to get me to open up to them. The one person who I've opened up to a little bit was Racetrack. I don't know why, but I felt like he's dealt with crap before so he can handle me. No one knew that i could talk but Racetrack. He was the one that had brought me to the Lodging House.
I looked up. It must've been around 7 at night because the guys were getting ready to head out to Medda's. I loved Irving Hall, it was my favorite place to go. I loved watching Medda walk across the stage and hypnotize each person with the lyrics that came out of her mouth. Medda was another person I could talk to. I came to her one day and we talked for awhile. The next thing I knew I was singing on stage with Medda in front of an empty hall. I'm glad no one saw me sing, because I wouldn't be able to take it with all the questions on why i've been so quiet.
"Heya Sami, can Ise talk ta yas?" I looked to my left and saw Racetrack. I nodded and we both walked out to the fire escape. It was June so it was quite warm out. I was wearing a blue button up shirt and some pants that i rolled up to my knees. I had a few other pairs of clothing but they were either long sleeved or shirts that i wear to Medda's only.
"What do yas want Race?"
"Youse going ta Medda's?"
"Ise didn't know youse could talk." Both of our heads turned to the window and saw Jack come out. He quietly closed the window and walked over to us on the stairs.
"What do yas want Jackey boy, don't yas see dat Ise talking ta Sami?"
"Yea but Ise didn't know she could talk or Ise would have asked her to talk ta her me self."
"You knows dat Ise still here, so youse two can stop talking like Ise aint here."
"Why'd youse keep it a secret?"
"Cause Ise don't feel like talking much."
"Can youse leave us be fer awhile Jack, Ise gotta talk ta er." Jack nodded and left and both me and Race checked to make sure he closed the window all the way. "Like Ise was saying-"
"Youse weren't saying anytin."
"Oh...well now Ise am. Youse want ta go ta Medda's wit me den tomorrow sell wit me at SheepsHead?"
"Whyse youse asking now?"
"Well because Conlon's coming in tonight and he always asks da goil newsies." I felt myself tense up to that last name.
"Spot Conlon?"
"Yea youse know im?"
"Ise don't wanna talk bout it. But can youse do me a favor?"
"Yea sure, anytin."
"Can youse make sure he doesn't come near me. Ise got problems wit him, and make sure none of da boys talk bout me."
"Yea sure. But whyse youse keeping stuff away from me."
"Cause its stuff dat no one needs ta know." Racetrack nodded and we both went back inside and got ready for Meddas. I knew deep down that this was going to be a night that I would never forget.....