Why did I get myself into this mess? I don't want to go to Medda's if Spots there. I don't care if he isn't going to recognize me. I know that if Im put into the same room as him I will explode. I don't know why, but I probably hate Spot more then I hate my own self. If thats possible.
"Youse ready?" I nodded and Race's question. He held out his arm for me that I gladly took. We walked down the stairs and right when we were going to walk out a couple of boys came in. One I recognized as Spot Conlon.
"Youse gotta new goil Race?" He asked Race and took my hand and gave it a kiss.
"No she's just me friend."
"Well she sure is a doll face." Most of the boys were down there and they didn't know I could talk. But I had to say something here.
"Ger yer lazy ass away from me you stupid womanizer!" I let go of Race and pushed Spot back and walked out. On my way I could hear him say,
"What's up her ass?" I just walked faster. I knew I should have said anything, I knew it. God damn you Sami. You had to open your freaking mouth. And especially in front of Spot. Race came running up to me and put his arm around my shoulders.
"Youse okay?"
"No. Now everybody knows Ise can talk."
"Ise don't tink dats da woise of yer problems. What do youse have against Conlon?"
"He's a freaking womanizer and Ise don't wanna be near him. Gotta problem wit it?"
"No actually Ise glad. Ise don't want youse getting hoit by him. And Ise especially don't want youse ta be one of his one night stands." OH how he didn't know. I wanted to tell Race, you gotta believe me. I just can't always have someone there for me.
"Ise hate im soo much and Ise don't wanna ever be near him."
"I really don't understand."
"Youse know how youse said dat youse don't want me ta be one of da goils he used."
"Yea. It aint dat hard ta forget since Ise said it like two minutes ago." I rolled my eyes at him.
"Well da truth is.....he did use me." He stopped and I looked back at him.
"What did youse say?"
"Nutting. Now lets get ta Medda's." I started walking and he grabbed my arm and looked at me. I looked into his eyes and I saw anger and disappointment all in one.
"How could youse?"
"Ise wasn't tinking."
"Dats no excuse. How? When? Why? WHAT?"
"Ise am soo sorry."
"No yer not. And youse have da right ta treat Spot dat way in dere? He doesn't deserve dat."
"How could youse say dat? He sleeps wit every goil he sees. Promises each one of dem da Woild, says dat dey are da only one fer him. And he doesn't deserve it. Ise deserve shit fer actually believing him."
"Ise.....Ise just so disappointed in youse. Ise tought youse were different. But yer like every other whore." He walked off into the darkness where the lamps weren't lit. Why did I tell him that? I lost my friend, my only friend. I was so stupid. HOw could I do this? What was I thinking. I quickly ran into an alley and curled myself into a ball and I let the tears fall silently down my cheeks. How could I let myself do this over and over? I can't keep getting hurt and hurt over and over again because of my stupidity....when am I going to learn not to trust anyone? I pulled out my pocket knife from my pocket. I looked at my wrists and saw the scars from before. I didn't want to die, cutting just relieves my stress and stuff for the moment. I slowly cut myself, letting myself feel the pain and I cut myself deeper and wider. I stopped when I could feel the blood dripping from my arm to the concrete. I took out my bandana and wrapped it tightly around my cut and put some pressure on it. I was tired from crying soo much so I decided to sleep there.
I woke up the next morning with a pretty sore back. It was pretty bright out so I guessed it was near lunch time. I looked at my wrists and the blood had seeped through the bandana. I took off the bandana, it was a little painful since it healed with the bandana on. SO now parts of the scab were bleeding. Now if I only go back to the Lodging House without no one seeing and grab a long sleeve shirt. I got up. I walked out of the alley and I could see the Lodging House from where I was standing. I quickly walked into the Lodging House ignoring the questions from the Kloppmann. I quickly changed my shirt and my money bag underneath my pillow. I knew that I would have to work for extra money just in case I couldn't get the morning edition. I took 50 cents out of the bag and replaced the bag underneath my mattress. I ran downstairs and out the door without talking to the Kloppmann. I quickly ran to Tibby's because I knew some people would wonder where I was. I silently stepped into Tibby's and walked over to the table with Jack, Race, Spot, and Blink.
"Can ISe sit here?" Jack nodded moving in so I could sit down.
"Where youse been?"
"Places." I am trying so hard to change the topic by showing that I had no interest in where I was.
"What are youse doing wearing a long sleeved shoit when its 90* out?" Blink asked and I just shrugged. "How come wese didn't know youse could talk?"
"Didn't feel like talking ta anyone Ise guess."
"Youse talked ta Race." Jack stated.
"Whats wit all da questions?" I stood up and walked out of Tibby's. I don't need to be asked 20 questions. And plus, I hate that game. I walked for a little bit, not knowing where I was going. I didn't care anymore. I just needed to be by myself.
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"Youse ready?" I nodded and Race's question. He held out his arm for me that I gladly took. We walked down the stairs and right when we were going to walk out a couple of boys came in. One I recognized as Spot Conlon.
"Youse gotta new goil Race?" He asked Race and took my hand and gave it a kiss.
"No she's just me friend."
"Well she sure is a doll face." Most of the boys were down there and they didn't know I could talk. But I had to say something here.
"Ger yer lazy ass away from me you stupid womanizer!" I let go of Race and pushed Spot back and walked out. On my way I could hear him say,
"What's up her ass?" I just walked faster. I knew I should have said anything, I knew it. God damn you Sami. You had to open your freaking mouth. And especially in front of Spot. Race came running up to me and put his arm around my shoulders.
"Youse okay?"
"No. Now everybody knows Ise can talk."
"Ise don't tink dats da woise of yer problems. What do youse have against Conlon?"
"He's a freaking womanizer and Ise don't wanna be near him. Gotta problem wit it?"
"No actually Ise glad. Ise don't want youse getting hoit by him. And Ise especially don't want youse ta be one of his one night stands." OH how he didn't know. I wanted to tell Race, you gotta believe me. I just can't always have someone there for me.
"Ise hate im soo much and Ise don't wanna ever be near him."
"I really don't understand."
"Youse know how youse said dat youse don't want me ta be one of da goils he used."
"Yea. It aint dat hard ta forget since Ise said it like two minutes ago." I rolled my eyes at him.
"Well da truth is.....he did use me." He stopped and I looked back at him.
"What did youse say?"
"Nutting. Now lets get ta Medda's." I started walking and he grabbed my arm and looked at me. I looked into his eyes and I saw anger and disappointment all in one.
"How could youse?"
"Ise wasn't tinking."
"Dats no excuse. How? When? Why? WHAT?"
"Ise am soo sorry."
"No yer not. And youse have da right ta treat Spot dat way in dere? He doesn't deserve dat."
"How could youse say dat? He sleeps wit every goil he sees. Promises each one of dem da Woild, says dat dey are da only one fer him. And he doesn't deserve it. Ise deserve shit fer actually believing him."
"Ise.....Ise just so disappointed in youse. Ise tought youse were different. But yer like every other whore." He walked off into the darkness where the lamps weren't lit. Why did I tell him that? I lost my friend, my only friend. I was so stupid. HOw could I do this? What was I thinking. I quickly ran into an alley and curled myself into a ball and I let the tears fall silently down my cheeks. How could I let myself do this over and over? I can't keep getting hurt and hurt over and over again because of my stupidity....when am I going to learn not to trust anyone? I pulled out my pocket knife from my pocket. I looked at my wrists and saw the scars from before. I didn't want to die, cutting just relieves my stress and stuff for the moment. I slowly cut myself, letting myself feel the pain and I cut myself deeper and wider. I stopped when I could feel the blood dripping from my arm to the concrete. I took out my bandana and wrapped it tightly around my cut and put some pressure on it. I was tired from crying soo much so I decided to sleep there.
I woke up the next morning with a pretty sore back. It was pretty bright out so I guessed it was near lunch time. I looked at my wrists and the blood had seeped through the bandana. I took off the bandana, it was a little painful since it healed with the bandana on. SO now parts of the scab were bleeding. Now if I only go back to the Lodging House without no one seeing and grab a long sleeve shirt. I got up. I walked out of the alley and I could see the Lodging House from where I was standing. I quickly walked into the Lodging House ignoring the questions from the Kloppmann. I quickly changed my shirt and my money bag underneath my pillow. I knew that I would have to work for extra money just in case I couldn't get the morning edition. I took 50 cents out of the bag and replaced the bag underneath my mattress. I ran downstairs and out the door without talking to the Kloppmann. I quickly ran to Tibby's because I knew some people would wonder where I was. I silently stepped into Tibby's and walked over to the table with Jack, Race, Spot, and Blink.
"Can ISe sit here?" Jack nodded moving in so I could sit down.
"Where youse been?"
"Places." I am trying so hard to change the topic by showing that I had no interest in where I was.
"What are youse doing wearing a long sleeved shoit when its 90* out?" Blink asked and I just shrugged. "How come wese didn't know youse could talk?"
"Didn't feel like talking ta anyone Ise guess."
"Youse talked ta Race." Jack stated.
"Whats wit all da questions?" I stood up and walked out of Tibby's. I don't need to be asked 20 questions. And plus, I hate that game. I walked for a little bit, not knowing where I was going. I didn't care anymore. I just needed to be by myself.
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Thanks for reviewing people, now you gotta do it again, and if you review you get a.......
GRAPE CAKE!!!!
ok so i like grapes.....so?
SaMi~!