Title: Longing for Love Ch. 5
Author: FallenAngel
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Chapter 5
Driving around was getting pretty boring, as I came around the corner near Hector's house, I noticed all the cars lined up. Hmm, Hector must be having another party. I said to myself. Let's just see who all is here. I pulled up to an empty spot near the house and got out. I walked passed the house and into the back, all you could hear was loud music and girls wooing. When I reached the crowd I heard a familiar voice yell my name.
"Angel!, Over here!" Jesse yelled while waving his hands in the air to get my attention.
I walked over to where Jesse and Hector were, before I could say 'hi', Jesse attacked me with a huge hug.
"Um, drunk much Jess?" I asked smiling at him.
"Ah ya got me, busted!" he said before telling everyone that 'his Angel' had arrived.
"Jess, sweetie, how long have you been drinkin'?" I asked.
"Oh he's been here quite a while girl" Hector answered as he gave a big hug.
"Hey Hector, how are ya?" I asked as I returned the hug.
"Ah not bad girl, how 'bout you? You're lookin' mighty tasty tonight" he said with a sly grin.
"Same sh*t, diff day hun, thanks for the compliment" I said giving him my 'don't go there' look.
"Where is everyone tonight?" Jesse slurred.
"I dunno sweetie, I think they're all at home, except for V, he went lookin' for some action" I said rolling my eyes.
"If he was smart, he would have looked your way. I swear that guy needs to open his damn eyes and see what he could have right in front of him" Hector added.
"Yeah, well, we won't go there now will we" I said hanging my head.
"Hey! You look like you need a drink Angel, how 'bout it?" Jesse asked.
"Hell yeah Jess, maybe I can get as drunk as you real quick" I said with a wink.
Hector and Jesse spent the next 3 hours pouring drinks into me, I was well on my way to being wasted and I loved it, the pain Vince had put me through earlier was nearly gone until I heard Jesse whisper 'sh*t' to himself.
"Girl where the hell have you been!" Leon screamed at me.
"Uh, driving, thinking and partying with someone who gives a damn" I said as I glared at Vince.
"Angel, it's time to go home, we need to talk" Vince demanded as he took hold of my hand.
"What's there to talk about Vince? You haven't cared to talk in the past, why now?" I said as tears welled up in my eyes.
"Please Angel, let's go" Vince pleaded.
"Hey Angel, I think he's right, you're pretty wasted girl" Hector said "You need some sleep" he added as he gave me a hug goodbye.
"C'mon Jess, you too, I'll drive you home" Leon said putting an arm around Jesse's neck leading him to his car.
"Oh hell no, Im not leaving my ride here, she comes with me or Im sleepin' in her" I said pulling away from Vince.
"Then I'll drive you home in YOUR car" Vince said through gritted teeth.
"FINE!" I yelled.
"Hector man, you keep my car here? I'll pick it up tomorrow" Vince asked.
"No problem bro, I'll pull it into the garage for ya" Hector said taking the keys Vince was handing him.
"Thanks bro" Vince added.
Leon and Jesse road home in Leon's car, which left me in my car with Vince. As he turned the key, the speakers blared , causing Vince to cover his ears.
"Damn girl, loud enough for ya?" He asked.
"No, turn it back up and drive, I wanna hear it, not you" I said as I curled up in the seat and stared out the window.
The entire ride home Vince didn't say a word, he turned up the music and drove like I told him to. The song I had been playing when I reached the party was set on repeat. The words were hitting me hard again and I could feel the tears running down my face. Why can't he love me the way I love him? What's so bad about me that he has to treat me like sh*t? I thought. The ride home seemed to take forever, when we finally pulled into the driveway, I jumped out and ran inside to my room. I slammed the door behind me and slid down to the floor, crying. Please God, my head is killing me, help me stop crying.PLEASE! I begged to myself.
Vince sat in the car and listened to the words pouring out of the speakers. He knew why she had set it to repeat. I had no idea she felt the way she does. He thought to himself. Maybe it is time to let her know how I feel, but how? Vince let the thoughts run through his head while listening to the song. After sitting there, thinking for about a half hour, he went inside.
"What the hell is your problem V!" Jesse yelled. "Do you even care the slightest bit that Angel loves you and doesn't wanna live without you!?"
"JESSE! That's enough ok" I yelled from the top of the stairs. No one had noticed me standing there 'til I opened my mouth, should have kept it shut.
"NO, it's not enough Angel, someone needs to tell him to quit his sh*t with you before you end up dead!" Jesse said with tears in his eyes.
As I walked down the steps to kneel by Jesse, everyone looked at me with puzzled expressions. Jesse knew how bad I had it for Vince and it scared him, he knew I couldn't take much more.
"Jess, sweetie, Im ok, really I am" I said kneeling next to him on the floor.
"No Angel, you're not, I may be drunk but remember who you were with tonight. You don't drink like you did at Hector's, you were on a death mission and if Vince and Leon hadn't shown up you would have lost control and we would have lost you" he said , tears streaming down his face.
"Jess, Im not going anywhere, I told you Im here to stay. Don't worry little brother, you're stuck with me" I said holding him in my arms.
"Angel, did you try to harm yourself tonight?" Brian asked
"Um..No, why do you ask that??" I said trying to hide my face.
"After that comment from Jesse, I think we all would like to know the answer to that one!" Dom demanded.
"Dom, not now, ok, Im too tired to argue" I said as I headed for the stairs. "Jesse, we'll talk tomorrow sweetie, get some sleep"
"We're all gonna have a LONG talk tomorrow" Dom said. "Get some rest Angel" he added then took a seat on the couch.
"G'night all" I said and went back to my room. "This crying has got to stop, my head is gonna explode!" I said in a whisper to myself, then closed my door.
Vince and Leon had gone into the kitchen and talked about the events of the evening, neither of them could get Jesse's comment out of their heads.
"Leon, she wouldn't hurt herself would she?" Vince asked with concern.
"I'm not sure V, she's fallen hard for you, she's never felt this way about anyone, ever!" Leon said. "I know if something bugs her for too long she does lose control, but I've never seen her try to hurt herself or anyone else, she hits the heavy bag in the basement though"
"Does it help when she's done?" V asked.
"I guess so, but she's never dealt with anything like this before. She told me that she got her tats to feel a different kind of pain, instead of what was in her heart" Leon said hanging his head.
"F*ck, Im such an idiot! How can I tell her how I feel bro? She'll never believe me, not after what I've put her through" Vince said
"Maybe you should just tell her how you feel and deal with her reaction when she gives it to you" Leon said "She deserves to know"
Leon left Vince at the table to think about how he was going to reveal his true feelings for Angel. The longer Vince sat there, the more irritated he got, so he went up to Angel's room and knocked on her door.
Chapter 5
Driving around was getting pretty boring, as I came around the corner near Hector's house, I noticed all the cars lined up. Hmm, Hector must be having another party. I said to myself. Let's just see who all is here. I pulled up to an empty spot near the house and got out. I walked passed the house and into the back, all you could hear was loud music and girls wooing. When I reached the crowd I heard a familiar voice yell my name.
"Angel!, Over here!" Jesse yelled while waving his hands in the air to get my attention.
I walked over to where Jesse and Hector were, before I could say 'hi', Jesse attacked me with a huge hug.
"Um, drunk much Jess?" I asked smiling at him.
"Ah ya got me, busted!" he said before telling everyone that 'his Angel' had arrived.
"Jess, sweetie, how long have you been drinkin'?" I asked.
"Oh he's been here quite a while girl" Hector answered as he gave a big hug.
"Hey Hector, how are ya?" I asked as I returned the hug.
"Ah not bad girl, how 'bout you? You're lookin' mighty tasty tonight" he said with a sly grin.
"Same sh*t, diff day hun, thanks for the compliment" I said giving him my 'don't go there' look.
"Where is everyone tonight?" Jesse slurred.
"I dunno sweetie, I think they're all at home, except for V, he went lookin' for some action" I said rolling my eyes.
"If he was smart, he would have looked your way. I swear that guy needs to open his damn eyes and see what he could have right in front of him" Hector added.
"Yeah, well, we won't go there now will we" I said hanging my head.
"Hey! You look like you need a drink Angel, how 'bout it?" Jesse asked.
"Hell yeah Jess, maybe I can get as drunk as you real quick" I said with a wink.
Hector and Jesse spent the next 3 hours pouring drinks into me, I was well on my way to being wasted and I loved it, the pain Vince had put me through earlier was nearly gone until I heard Jesse whisper 'sh*t' to himself.
"Girl where the hell have you been!" Leon screamed at me.
"Uh, driving, thinking and partying with someone who gives a damn" I said as I glared at Vince.
"Angel, it's time to go home, we need to talk" Vince demanded as he took hold of my hand.
"What's there to talk about Vince? You haven't cared to talk in the past, why now?" I said as tears welled up in my eyes.
"Please Angel, let's go" Vince pleaded.
"Hey Angel, I think he's right, you're pretty wasted girl" Hector said "You need some sleep" he added as he gave me a hug goodbye.
"C'mon Jess, you too, I'll drive you home" Leon said putting an arm around Jesse's neck leading him to his car.
"Oh hell no, Im not leaving my ride here, she comes with me or Im sleepin' in her" I said pulling away from Vince.
"Then I'll drive you home in YOUR car" Vince said through gritted teeth.
"FINE!" I yelled.
"Hector man, you keep my car here? I'll pick it up tomorrow" Vince asked.
"No problem bro, I'll pull it into the garage for ya" Hector said taking the keys Vince was handing him.
"Thanks bro" Vince added.
Leon and Jesse road home in Leon's car, which left me in my car with Vince. As he turned the key, the speakers blared , causing Vince to cover his ears.
"Damn girl, loud enough for ya?" He asked.
"No, turn it back up and drive, I wanna hear it, not you" I said as I curled up in the seat and stared out the window.
The entire ride home Vince didn't say a word, he turned up the music and drove like I told him to. The song I had been playing when I reached the party was set on repeat. The words were hitting me hard again and I could feel the tears running down my face. Why can't he love me the way I love him? What's so bad about me that he has to treat me like sh*t? I thought. The ride home seemed to take forever, when we finally pulled into the driveway, I jumped out and ran inside to my room. I slammed the door behind me and slid down to the floor, crying. Please God, my head is killing me, help me stop crying.PLEASE! I begged to myself.
Vince sat in the car and listened to the words pouring out of the speakers. He knew why she had set it to repeat. I had no idea she felt the way she does. He thought to himself. Maybe it is time to let her know how I feel, but how? Vince let the thoughts run through his head while listening to the song. After sitting there, thinking for about a half hour, he went inside.
"What the hell is your problem V!" Jesse yelled. "Do you even care the slightest bit that Angel loves you and doesn't wanna live without you!?"
"JESSE! That's enough ok" I yelled from the top of the stairs. No one had noticed me standing there 'til I opened my mouth, should have kept it shut.
"NO, it's not enough Angel, someone needs to tell him to quit his sh*t with you before you end up dead!" Jesse said with tears in his eyes.
As I walked down the steps to kneel by Jesse, everyone looked at me with puzzled expressions. Jesse knew how bad I had it for Vince and it scared him, he knew I couldn't take much more.
"Jess, sweetie, Im ok, really I am" I said kneeling next to him on the floor.
"No Angel, you're not, I may be drunk but remember who you were with tonight. You don't drink like you did at Hector's, you were on a death mission and if Vince and Leon hadn't shown up you would have lost control and we would have lost you" he said , tears streaming down his face.
"Jess, Im not going anywhere, I told you Im here to stay. Don't worry little brother, you're stuck with me" I said holding him in my arms.
"Angel, did you try to harm yourself tonight?" Brian asked
"Um..No, why do you ask that??" I said trying to hide my face.
"After that comment from Jesse, I think we all would like to know the answer to that one!" Dom demanded.
"Dom, not now, ok, Im too tired to argue" I said as I headed for the stairs. "Jesse, we'll talk tomorrow sweetie, get some sleep"
"We're all gonna have a LONG talk tomorrow" Dom said. "Get some rest Angel" he added then took a seat on the couch.
"G'night all" I said and went back to my room. "This crying has got to stop, my head is gonna explode!" I said in a whisper to myself, then closed my door.
Vince and Leon had gone into the kitchen and talked about the events of the evening, neither of them could get Jesse's comment out of their heads.
"Leon, she wouldn't hurt herself would she?" Vince asked with concern.
"I'm not sure V, she's fallen hard for you, she's never felt this way about anyone, ever!" Leon said. "I know if something bugs her for too long she does lose control, but I've never seen her try to hurt herself or anyone else, she hits the heavy bag in the basement though"
"Does it help when she's done?" V asked.
"I guess so, but she's never dealt with anything like this before. She told me that she got her tats to feel a different kind of pain, instead of what was in her heart" Leon said hanging his head.
"F*ck, Im such an idiot! How can I tell her how I feel bro? She'll never believe me, not after what I've put her through" Vince said
"Maybe you should just tell her how you feel and deal with her reaction when she gives it to you" Leon said "She deserves to know"
Leon left Vince at the table to think about how he was going to reveal his true feelings for Angel. The longer Vince sat there, the more irritated he got, so he went up to Angel's room and knocked on her door.