Disclaimer: Well as usual I own slam dunk!!!!!!!! Hahahahaha. Well we all
know I really don't own them but can't a girl dream.
Author's notes: I just wrote this out of boredom. Well this is just short so I
don't expect any comments about how short it is. This is just a simple
ficlet.well a POV actually but what the heck. hope you like it. I would
appreciate it if you would review and comment about my mistakes.
Arigatoo.
To Wait Is To Suffer
I stand here all alone watching you from afar. Your every move, your every
word, your smiles, and your foolish acts it bewilders me. I hide behind your
shadow waiting for the time you would eventually notice me, look at me
the way you look at her, protect me like you did her, yes I'm waiting and
waiting. for so long. But as the years gone by you never did yet I am still
waiting. All I am to you is just an ordinary friend. Friend yup maybe more
like a lover but no just a friend-a companion. Oh how I longed to feel your
touch, your lips against mine, your breath on my skin and for you to
whisper congenial and angelic words to my ears, promising me that you
would never leave and you would love me for eternity. But all this os just a
dream, a reverie, a vagary, a conceit, an illusion.
Don't you get the clues I've been giving you. Well of course you're still as
naïve as ever. You're a freaking bastard! How could you do this to me? I
had a simple life but just like that; you intrude in without even asking for
permission. Now you showed me something I want but will be forever out
of my reach. When you smile at me does it mean something? Do you also
have feeling for me? Does it mean that you like me too or even love me?
Tell me, tell me goddamn it! I write here in a corner still watching you. You
flirt too much with her. Do you have the slightest idea how much that hurts
me?
That bitch, one day I'll make her pay though I know I can never possibly do
that as it will hurt you. I do not want to hurt you even if it means my life.
I'm a lamentable loser, I know I could end my disgusting suffering if only I
had the guts to tell you how I feel, if only. Of course I can never do this as
I am afraid that you would reject me and even our friendship will be ruined.
What will I live for if that happens? Is it too bad to adhere on the hope that
you would one day love me back as I do to you?
Does she mean that much to you that you even said that you would do
everything for her? I guess so huh. Life is unfair, well when did life ever
became fair? Right now I'm thinking about the times we spent together
when you don't think of her. Those where the best times of my life.
Suddenly you call my attention. I have not notice that you where there
standing right infront of me as I am too preoccupied with my memories.
You ask me if I'm fine and I answered back. You tell me that you're worried
about me since you always see me alone. I'm glad you still notice even
though not in a way I would prefer too. Maybe there is still hope, maybe or
I am damn to be alone forever.
Author's note: well what do you think? Too mushy ne? Well I'll be waiting for your comments and criticisms. Thank you very much for spending some time in reading my fic. Really thank you. Don't forget to review.
know I really don't own them but can't a girl dream.
Author's notes: I just wrote this out of boredom. Well this is just short so I
don't expect any comments about how short it is. This is just a simple
ficlet.well a POV actually but what the heck. hope you like it. I would
appreciate it if you would review and comment about my mistakes.
Arigatoo.
To Wait Is To Suffer
I stand here all alone watching you from afar. Your every move, your every
word, your smiles, and your foolish acts it bewilders me. I hide behind your
shadow waiting for the time you would eventually notice me, look at me
the way you look at her, protect me like you did her, yes I'm waiting and
waiting. for so long. But as the years gone by you never did yet I am still
waiting. All I am to you is just an ordinary friend. Friend yup maybe more
like a lover but no just a friend-a companion. Oh how I longed to feel your
touch, your lips against mine, your breath on my skin and for you to
whisper congenial and angelic words to my ears, promising me that you
would never leave and you would love me for eternity. But all this os just a
dream, a reverie, a vagary, a conceit, an illusion.
Don't you get the clues I've been giving you. Well of course you're still as
naïve as ever. You're a freaking bastard! How could you do this to me? I
had a simple life but just like that; you intrude in without even asking for
permission. Now you showed me something I want but will be forever out
of my reach. When you smile at me does it mean something? Do you also
have feeling for me? Does it mean that you like me too or even love me?
Tell me, tell me goddamn it! I write here in a corner still watching you. You
flirt too much with her. Do you have the slightest idea how much that hurts
me?
That bitch, one day I'll make her pay though I know I can never possibly do
that as it will hurt you. I do not want to hurt you even if it means my life.
I'm a lamentable loser, I know I could end my disgusting suffering if only I
had the guts to tell you how I feel, if only. Of course I can never do this as
I am afraid that you would reject me and even our friendship will be ruined.
What will I live for if that happens? Is it too bad to adhere on the hope that
you would one day love me back as I do to you?
Does she mean that much to you that you even said that you would do
everything for her? I guess so huh. Life is unfair, well when did life ever
became fair? Right now I'm thinking about the times we spent together
when you don't think of her. Those where the best times of my life.
Suddenly you call my attention. I have not notice that you where there
standing right infront of me as I am too preoccupied with my memories.
You ask me if I'm fine and I answered back. You tell me that you're worried
about me since you always see me alone. I'm glad you still notice even
though not in a way I would prefer too. Maybe there is still hope, maybe or
I am damn to be alone forever.
Author's note: well what do you think? Too mushy ne? Well I'll be waiting for your comments and criticisms. Thank you very much for spending some time in reading my fic. Really thank you. Don't forget to review.