Disclaimer: Nothing here is mine...still!
A/N: Nobody reviewed the last chapter! Perhaps because it's been such a short time since I put up the last chapter. Or nobody likes it. Or people are lazy. Or *gasp* nobody read it! Well, that's not nice!
A big, huge thank you is in order to my beta, larrytheguitar, who is betaing my brand new fic as well, which has yet to be named. She's the best, and whips this fic into shape! Yay for larrytheguitar!
October 12, 1976 Library
Dear Journal,
I finally was able to talk to Professor Dumbledore today. I have an appointment on the 16th with James and him to discuss my "necklace" and its proper ownership, namely me, 'Heather Danger'. I should have it back by Sunday, and then I can go home to my friends and family (even if they did lie to me).
As I am sure I will forget, today is Tuesday. I haven't written in a few days because I have been so busy. I haven't even seen Remus. I hope that isn't because he is mad at me over my outburst at James. I'll know tomorrow when I am supposed to meet him in the library to study. I always study with him on Tuesdays because Lucius has detention on Tuesdays. I certainly hope that he isn't being a prat like the rest of those moronic Marauders (a/n: alliteration for me). They are all making comments at me in the hallway, but Remus just looks the other way. I hope that's not a sign! And when he ignored me all day in Charms yesterday, I really hope that was because we were working on a new charm.
On a slightly lighter note, Severus has been pretty nice. He has actually started taking his nose out of a Potions book and has tried making civil conversation. And you know what? He isn't that bad without that permanent snarl on his face. Sometimes we see Lucius lurking around, and Severus has been really good about keeping him away from me; almost like he's protective of me. Earlier, when we were in the common room, he was reading a book and I snuck a glance at him. Did you know, as a kid, he's not that bad looking? I never found him that heinously ugly before (as apposed to what the other girls I know think), but I certainly wasn't going to advertise that. Well, anyways, his nose is normal now. It makes you wonder what will happen. Kind of mysterious. And his hair, for once, does not have a protective film of grease covering it, which is a BIG improvement. Plus, he looks as though he has actually been brushing his teeth. He's not really much compared to Remus, who let me note is a total babe (a/n: remember folks, back in the nineties, people said babe a lot more than now), but he's not bad.
Okay, after writing all of that, I now have a purpose for the 10 different locking charms and passwords I use on this journal. I don't think I would ever live it down if Harry, Ron, Remus, or especially Severus read that I thought he was kind of cute. I can just see the look on their faces if they found out. Harry's of horror, Ron's of anger and disgust, Remus' of betrayal, and Severus' of shock… pure shock. Gosh, I should add a few more passwords tonight… or at least before I go back.
Speaking of going back, things are going to be so weird. I mean, you try explaining to Ron that you, a regular old Gryffindor, were sorted into Slytherin. Or try telling sweet Harry that his father was the biggest prick in the world. And then I have to face Severus and Remus. Things are not going to be normal at all. It's going to be so strange being taught by a man you have been spending time studying with as a kid. And there's Remus. I have been dating him. How do you face someone you have been dating that is now all of the sudden 20 years older than you? And that's if we are still cool. What if he hates me (thanks to James, of course) and we are really weird around each other after that? God, no wonder he has always liked Harry and Ron better. This probably means that he believes James. Oh no! Well, no use getting worked up over it until I have proof. I will just see tonight. Perhaps it's just a guy thing. I sincerely hope so!
~Heather the hopeful
October 12, 1976, Dorm
Dear Journal,
I can't believe it! That stupid prat! I am going to curse James Potter into oblivion! He talked Remus into ignoring me. How terrible is that? And why did he do it? Because he is a stupid, egocentric prick who can't handle the fact that Lily won't go out with him. So now, he wants to make poor Remus miserable, too! Jeez, Harry's parents are such trouble makers.
I feel so guilty not liking Sirius and James, and even worse about blaming this on Lily. It isn't her fault that James can't handle rejection. Plus, she doesn't know that she is part of any of this. And it's really hard knowing that she's going to be viciously murdered in a few years. I shouldn't hate Sirius, either. He just is James' best friend. He didn't do anything to me. Plus, he has such a hard life ahead of him. Poor guy (a/n: I'm taking pity on poor Sirius. He can't die!!! And sorry if I spoiled something for someone, but come on, the book's been out for a while). James I don't want to hate because he's Harry's dad. But he's such a...grrr! I can't think a good enough word for him.
Then, of course, there's Peter. I have hated him ever since I found out the truth. And now that I know what sort of people he hangs out with and tags along with, I hate him more! He's always repeating whatever James or Sirius says about me, like it makes him cool. He just hangs out with them because they are cool and popular. And Sirius and James didn't notice that he was the spy?! Dunderheads!
Okay, I am sounding a lot like Severus right now. Oh, before I forget, note to self: Severus Snape has a heart. He knew to leave well enough alone when I came back to the common room tonight after being stood up. It's like he could tell that I was upset and not in the mood for his comments on Remus. I never thought it possible.
Anyways, there's Remus, too. I am not really that upset with him. He has so many difficulties: being a werewolf, eventually losing all of his friends, and having three total prats for best friends. Plus, I have to admit, James' story is a lot more convincing than mine. I don't really think I would believe me over James.
Well, I should stop now, or I will never get to sleep tonight. I don't so well when my head is swimming with thoughts. Good-night!
~Heather the overheated
A/N: Well, I would be writing reviewer notes here, but instead I am advertising for a really sweet Hogwarts on-line school. Just e-mail me at crazyswimmer27@yahoo.com if you want more information on it. The site address if you want to check it out is: http://hsm.proboards15.com/index.cgi Thanks to all readeds, and please review!!!
~CrazySwimmer27
A/N: Nobody reviewed the last chapter! Perhaps because it's been such a short time since I put up the last chapter. Or nobody likes it. Or people are lazy. Or *gasp* nobody read it! Well, that's not nice!
A big, huge thank you is in order to my beta, larrytheguitar, who is betaing my brand new fic as well, which has yet to be named. She's the best, and whips this fic into shape! Yay for larrytheguitar!
October 12, 1976 Library
Dear Journal,
I finally was able to talk to Professor Dumbledore today. I have an appointment on the 16th with James and him to discuss my "necklace" and its proper ownership, namely me, 'Heather Danger'. I should have it back by Sunday, and then I can go home to my friends and family (even if they did lie to me).
As I am sure I will forget, today is Tuesday. I haven't written in a few days because I have been so busy. I haven't even seen Remus. I hope that isn't because he is mad at me over my outburst at James. I'll know tomorrow when I am supposed to meet him in the library to study. I always study with him on Tuesdays because Lucius has detention on Tuesdays. I certainly hope that he isn't being a prat like the rest of those moronic Marauders (a/n: alliteration for me). They are all making comments at me in the hallway, but Remus just looks the other way. I hope that's not a sign! And when he ignored me all day in Charms yesterday, I really hope that was because we were working on a new charm.
On a slightly lighter note, Severus has been pretty nice. He has actually started taking his nose out of a Potions book and has tried making civil conversation. And you know what? He isn't that bad without that permanent snarl on his face. Sometimes we see Lucius lurking around, and Severus has been really good about keeping him away from me; almost like he's protective of me. Earlier, when we were in the common room, he was reading a book and I snuck a glance at him. Did you know, as a kid, he's not that bad looking? I never found him that heinously ugly before (as apposed to what the other girls I know think), but I certainly wasn't going to advertise that. Well, anyways, his nose is normal now. It makes you wonder what will happen. Kind of mysterious. And his hair, for once, does not have a protective film of grease covering it, which is a BIG improvement. Plus, he looks as though he has actually been brushing his teeth. He's not really much compared to Remus, who let me note is a total babe (a/n: remember folks, back in the nineties, people said babe a lot more than now), but he's not bad.
Okay, after writing all of that, I now have a purpose for the 10 different locking charms and passwords I use on this journal. I don't think I would ever live it down if Harry, Ron, Remus, or especially Severus read that I thought he was kind of cute. I can just see the look on their faces if they found out. Harry's of horror, Ron's of anger and disgust, Remus' of betrayal, and Severus' of shock… pure shock. Gosh, I should add a few more passwords tonight… or at least before I go back.
Speaking of going back, things are going to be so weird. I mean, you try explaining to Ron that you, a regular old Gryffindor, were sorted into Slytherin. Or try telling sweet Harry that his father was the biggest prick in the world. And then I have to face Severus and Remus. Things are not going to be normal at all. It's going to be so strange being taught by a man you have been spending time studying with as a kid. And there's Remus. I have been dating him. How do you face someone you have been dating that is now all of the sudden 20 years older than you? And that's if we are still cool. What if he hates me (thanks to James, of course) and we are really weird around each other after that? God, no wonder he has always liked Harry and Ron better. This probably means that he believes James. Oh no! Well, no use getting worked up over it until I have proof. I will just see tonight. Perhaps it's just a guy thing. I sincerely hope so!
~Heather the hopeful
October 12, 1976, Dorm
Dear Journal,
I can't believe it! That stupid prat! I am going to curse James Potter into oblivion! He talked Remus into ignoring me. How terrible is that? And why did he do it? Because he is a stupid, egocentric prick who can't handle the fact that Lily won't go out with him. So now, he wants to make poor Remus miserable, too! Jeez, Harry's parents are such trouble makers.
I feel so guilty not liking Sirius and James, and even worse about blaming this on Lily. It isn't her fault that James can't handle rejection. Plus, she doesn't know that she is part of any of this. And it's really hard knowing that she's going to be viciously murdered in a few years. I shouldn't hate Sirius, either. He just is James' best friend. He didn't do anything to me. Plus, he has such a hard life ahead of him. Poor guy (a/n: I'm taking pity on poor Sirius. He can't die!!! And sorry if I spoiled something for someone, but come on, the book's been out for a while). James I don't want to hate because he's Harry's dad. But he's such a...grrr! I can't think a good enough word for him.
Then, of course, there's Peter. I have hated him ever since I found out the truth. And now that I know what sort of people he hangs out with and tags along with, I hate him more! He's always repeating whatever James or Sirius says about me, like it makes him cool. He just hangs out with them because they are cool and popular. And Sirius and James didn't notice that he was the spy?! Dunderheads!
Okay, I am sounding a lot like Severus right now. Oh, before I forget, note to self: Severus Snape has a heart. He knew to leave well enough alone when I came back to the common room tonight after being stood up. It's like he could tell that I was upset and not in the mood for his comments on Remus. I never thought it possible.
Anyways, there's Remus, too. I am not really that upset with him. He has so many difficulties: being a werewolf, eventually losing all of his friends, and having three total prats for best friends. Plus, I have to admit, James' story is a lot more convincing than mine. I don't really think I would believe me over James.
Well, I should stop now, or I will never get to sleep tonight. I don't so well when my head is swimming with thoughts. Good-night!
~Heather the overheated
A/N: Well, I would be writing reviewer notes here, but instead I am advertising for a really sweet Hogwarts on-line school. Just e-mail me at crazyswimmer27@yahoo.com if you want more information on it. The site address if you want to check it out is: http://hsm.proboards15.com/index.cgi Thanks to all readeds, and please review!!!
~CrazySwimmer27