Review: James and Lucius are working on a dark-detecting-preventing project
as a punishment. Lucius has a thing for Snape but is promised to Narcissa. In the present, Draco & Harry become friends,
then secretly boyfriends. Hermione hates Draco, Ron is accepting. Harry is
studying dark arts and wants to meet with Voldemort.
He's got a hidden agenda that he believes will help him save those he loves.
James and Lucius explain to their friends that they'll be completing the
'project' and express their nervousness, they drink the potion and are suddenly
(and inexplicably) faced with a punishment from McGonagall. In the last 1997
chapter, Harry's missing. Ron and Draco find out Peter Pettigrew is at the edge
of the grounds.
Chapter 18
"That rat. That bloody evil rat! I can't believe he'd be here
again, how could he even, aaaarrrg that bloody
rat!"
Draco stared at this outburst, not sure what was going on. "Weasley, would
you like to tell me about the rat?" he asked in amusement.
After a very rushed and not completely coherent explanation of exactly WHO
Peter Pettigrew was in relation to Harry, and Draco's
admission that he knew Pettigrew as a Death Eater, Draco grabbed Harry's
invisibility cloak (much to Ron's surprise) and the two of them got under it
and started out of the castle toward the edge of the grounds. They were, of
course, headed directly toward the dot marked Peter Pettigrew.
Once they got outside, both boys pulled out their wands and whispered "lumos" so they could continue to watch the map. What they
saw at that time put even more fear into both their hearts. Pettigrew was still
hovering at the edge of Hogwarts grounds not far past the Whomping
Willow. The new problem took the form of the five other dots that were also
flickering off and on the map. Those dots were labeled Arnold Parkinson, Ares Crabbe, Miles Pritchard, Ian Goyle,
Lucius Malfoy and Harry Potter.
Draco and Ron paused in their trek, examining these labels carefully, both
seeming to possess a need to read and re-read these names until they changed.
Unfortunately, the names didn't change. Blue eyes met grey eyes and both of
them realized that this was much bigger and more dangerous than they ever
imagined.
"Should we get Dumbeldore?"
"Honestly," Draco said as he looked at the read-head. "What do
you think Dumbledore can do against seven Death-Eaters?"
"Seven? I only see six there."
"Fine. Six Death-Eaters and one
in training."
"What the bloody hell are you getting at Malfoy?"
Ron's temper was getting out of control at the suggestion that his friend would
be planning to join the rest of that group. He was having a great deal of
trouble keeping his voice down.
"Harry asked me a couple days ago to set up a meeting for him."
"With these people? And you did it?"
"No, with Voldemort. And
I didn't do it. I didn't set this up either, he must
have done it himself."
"But why. . ."
"I don't know, exactly. I've been trying to figure that out. I've noticed
some changes but I didn't think he was this serious about it."
"Malfoy, look!" Ron interrupted, pointing the lit end of his
wand toward the map. The group seemed to have dispersed. Pettigrew and Potter
were the only ones left. They watched closely as the two dots went toward the Whomping Willow and paused. "It looks like they're
talking. I don't understand why Harry would be talking to the man that betrayed
his parents and got them killed. It doesn't make sense. It's like he's under
the Imperio curse or something."
"He's not. You know he can fight that. You've seen him do it."
They stopped speaking again as the map showed Harry walking directly toward
them. Looking out, they saw Harry walk by, pause and look directly at them,
then turn and walk into the castle. Once he was completely gone and the heavy
doors had closed behind him, Ron turned to Draco quietly. "Did he
know..?"
"I think so."
"All right, Malfoy, I think it's time you tell
me exactly what's going on around here."
"Honestly Weasley, I wish I knew." Ron could tell by the look in Draco's eyes and the expression in his voice that he was
being honest. Draco walked away, heading toward the castle and taking the
invisibility cloak with him. Ron stood silently watching the Slytherin leave,
wondering what bizarre things were going on with his best friend, then finally
realized that it was nearly one o'clock in the morning and he was standing
around outside after hours with no invisibility cloak to keep him from getting
caught.
"Shit."
~*_*~
When Draco arrived at his room, he was somewhat surprised to find Harry sitting
leisurely on the edge of the bed, waiting.
"Harry! I thought you'd be asleep by now." He walked over to kiss his
boyfriend, hoping that Harry hadn't actually known they were there. Something
about that meeting and those names had Draco on edge.
Harry returned the kiss somewhat casually (as casually as two hormone ridden
17-year-olds can) and smiled somewhat sadly at the blonde Slytherin. Draco
caught the look and was afraid to mention it, but at the same time felt that he
most definitely should. Before he could get too deeply embroiled in an internal
argument, Harry spoke.
"Why don't you trust me, Dray?"
"What?" Standing by the bed, wrapped in Harry's loose but comforting
embrace, Draco hadn't expected such straight-forward confrontation.
"I said, why don't you trust me, Dray?"
"I heard you; I just don't understand what you meant."
"Okay, it would seem that you have a lack of faith in me for some reason.
It's rather odd, I must say considering you're the one named 'bad faith'.
Anyhow, I would like to know what has caused this absence of trust."
"Stop trying to show off like your bookworm friend, Potter," Draco
kept his tone light and teasing, hoping to avoid this conversation, but he
could see from the determination in those green eyes that he was to have no
such luck. "I do trust you. Why would you think I didn't?" He failed
to realize that his nerves and concern for the raven-haired Gryffindor were
causing his voice to drop to a near-whisper.
"Because you were outside looking for me earlier."
"Have you developed a Mad-Eye Moody ability to see through
invisibility cloaks now?" Draco knew that was really of little relevance
and was as good as a point-blank admission that Harry was right, but he was
still anxious to delay or avoid this conversation by any means necessary. He
had suddenly decided that he didn't give a good God damn what his boyfriend was
doing in the woods with six Death Eaters in the middle of the night. He didn't
want to know. He really didn't.
"Not quite," Harry smirked. 'Merlin, he's really starting to look
cruel when he does that,' Draco thought uncomfortably. "I just knew. It's
one of those 'seer' things, I can tell when people are
watching me. What I thought was really odd is that Ron was with you. Since when
are you two civil enough to be under the same cloak together?"
"Since he came here worried about his best friend and dragged me out of
the castle muttering something about a rat that you needed to stay away
from."
"Oh, so he had the map with him?"
"Yes."
"I'll need to make sure to keep that away from him in the future. I can't
have him looking for me all the time. It's not safe."
"Harry, we saw you, we saw who you were with. I don't. . ."
"Wait," Harry interrupted him with a finger on his lips. "Don't
bother to ask, I'm not going to tell you. I can't. It's not safe."
"SAFE!!!!!!!! How DARE you talk about what's SAFE when you're running
around in the middle of the night with Voldemort's
cronies!!!"
"Please Dray, just don't ask. Just trust me, please?" Silver eyes
filled with anger and fear met with pleading emerald eyes. Draco took a deep
breath and felt tears of frustration beginning to pool in the corners of his
eyes. Blinking quickly and looking around the room he attempted to calm himself down.
"Fine." The response was so quiet, so calm,
that it sounded like surrender.
Harry tightened his embrace and pulled the Slytherin close for a kiss. When
their lips met, Draco felt the anxiety begin to fade away. He found himself
simultaneously comforted by the contact and disturbed by the ease with which
his worries disappeared while he was in Harry's arms.
"C'mon, Dray. Let's get some sleep." Harry kicked off his shoes and
pulled Draco onto the bed with him.
"You're not worried about staying here all night? What about your dormmates?"
"I'll deal with that tomorrow. It's not like they'd turn me in, so there's
no problem. Unless you don't want me to?"
"I do. I'd really like it." Draco smiled, probably his first
genuine smile since Ron first knocked on the door, and kicked off his shoes as
well. Too tired to worry with changing clothes, the raven-haired Gryffindor and
his platinum blonde, Slytherin boyfriend, simply collapsed on the bed and fell
asleep in mere minutes, still wrapped in each other's arms.
~*_*~
Breakfast was a rather uneventful time, despite the angry and worried looks
Harry kept getting from his best friend. Ron wouldn't dare mention his
knowledge or his company of the previous evening - not in front of Hermione -
but he could certainly give Harry some looks that expressed exactly how he
felt.
Harry was pleasantly distracted from Ron's glare when the post arrived and
Hedwig dropped a letter from Remus on the table. He wondered briefly why she
flew away so quickly (Hedwig always stayed for a treat and bit of petting, but
today she still seemed angry with him, even more than before) but was too
intent on reading the letter to think on it long.
Son of Prongs,
I am well, and missing you greatly. Don't worry with the rat, it will fall into a trap eventually.
I would love to hear more about this relationship of yours. You seem very unsure of it in your letter. You know, don't you, that you can tell me anything. It doesn't matter how you feel, who you feel it for, or what you do, I'll still love you. I don't know why you feel that you can't talk to your friends about it, but I'm glad you can talk to me. I'm also glad to know that it's not extremely intimate just yet. I don't think you need to rush into anything. Don't get embarrassed by my saying that, it's my duty as an authority figure, you know.
I've had word from Fawkes as well. I'll be working on the mission, but doubt I'll be able to come visit at this time. Please take care of yourself, remember who your parents are and that you make them proud by being yourself. Think long and hard about decisions, it's important.
Moony
Harry read and re-read the letter, wondering if it was his
imagination or if Remus was hinting that he knew things Harry hadn't told him.
Things Harry hadn't told anyone, with the exception of Draco.
At the thought of his new boyfriend, Harry looked up to find those grey- blue
eyes looking directly at him. They smiled at each other across the Great Hall
and Harry found himself wondering how Draco would react to being kissed
senseless in front of the entire staff and student body of Hogwarts. After a
quick wink and a brief nod to Draco, Harry excused himself from the table and
left the room, headed directly for the Observation room of the Astronomy tower.
As she watched him go, Hermione was finally able to put a meaning to the
strange feeling she'd been having. She looked at the Boy-Who-Lived, or Harry as
she preferred to call him, and wondered when and why the Harry she'd known and
loved like a brother for six years was suddenly gone.
"Ron?"
"Yes?"
"Would you mind terribly if I asked you to come back to my room with
me?"
Ron took the briefest of moments to ponder the way most teenaged boys would
react to that question coming from the mouths of their girlfriend, no, fiancée.
He realized in that brief moment that the war had indeed had a strong affect on
him and his fellow students. They had been forced to mature mentally much
earlier than most children would. He could hardly imagine most 11-year-olds
going through the myriad of obstacles that he, Harry and Hermione had faced in
their first year, not to mention the battles and losses they'd endured since
then. Snapping himself back to attention, he smiled at Hermione and reached
over to give her hand a reassuring squeeze. "Of course
not." As an afterthought, he tried to lighten her mood by adding,
"if we stay there long enough I can skip
transfiguration." It worked, almost. She did smile a bit.
Once inside her room, however, Ron realized that the smile was fleeting. His
initial thought that Hermione had something very serious on her mind was right.
"Something's wrong with Harry."
"Why do you think that?" Ron looked at her carefully, trying to hide
his feelings as much as possible. He knew that if Hermione were to find out who
Harry had been meeting with last night, she would be more than upset. So much
more than upset that he didn't even know a word for it.
"I don't think it, Ron, I know it. There's something not right about him.
His aura's changed. His energy is sparking and zapping
all over the place. His moods are weird. And don't even let me get started on
the insanity of him being FRIENDS with Malfoy."
"Okay, I'll admit to the moods and the whole Malfoy
thing being a little unusual, but . . ."
"Stop. Sweetie, listen to me. Remember how Harry used to be? How he was
silly and fun and pretty much, for Harry anyways, NORMAL?
Remember on the train this year, how he was trying to hide from the first years
because they kept staring at him? How he's always just been Harry and it seemed
like the fame and the power was just a side effect or something, but he never
acted like he was better than others? Remember that?"
Ron nodded.
"Close your eyes and think back to the last time you hung around Harry,
just a normal average friendly conversation."
Ron closed his eyes and thought, and thought and thought. Finally he was able
to remember a fun evening playing Chess with Harry. It was late September or
early October. 'Wow, I didn't realize it had been that long,' Ron thought. They
had been discussing the next Hogsmeade trip and the
pranks they wanted to buy from the twins' shop while they were there. It was an
all together relaxing time and Ron felt better just thinking about it.
Hermione could sense the change in Ron's moods. She knew that his memory was
relaxing and enjoyable, which is just what she'd been hoping for. "Now,
pay attention to the energy you feel from Harry in that memory, how does it
feel just to be in his presence."
Ron thought, he visualized the game board, the empty
sweets wrappers around them, the smile on Harry's face as he laughed at a joke.
It felt good. It was comfortable, like your favorite slippers and
light-hearted, like a really good joke that would just leave you in a good
mood. It was cool, Harry calmed people. Ron, immersed in this memory, had a
sudden image of being surrounded by a calming, comfortable blue-green light.
"Now, think about Harry at breakfast today and tell me how it felt to be
in his presence then."
Ron switched his brain to remember breakfast, Hermione's downcast eyes, his own
anger and worry for Harry, the letter that Harry didn't even talk about.
"It feels cold, bleak. Like there's something big, like there used to be a
really big fireplace with a roaring fire in it and it gave off lots of warmth
and comfort and now it's been put out and the fireplace is boarded up and the
cold wind and snow have crept in and if you stay there too long. . ."
He opened his eyes in shock. "I never knew you could do that, that I could
do that!! I actually felt it, the energy. Can I do that with other people
too?"
Hermione smiled slightly at his enthusiasm. She kissed him sweetly and nodded,
"yes, once you know you have the ability. I always thought you would. But
about Harry, what were you saying?"
"He feels cold," Ron repeated. He didn't want to think about it too
much. It was a very uncomfortable feeling.
"You said 'if you stay there too long' but you didn't finish it. What
would happen if you stay there too long?"
Ron stared very pointedly at an apparently obvious invisible spot on the floor.
He didn't want to continue this conversation. He didn't want to continue this
line of thought. On the other hand, he knew what he'd felt and he knew Hermione
felt it too. Surely others had, would? Something would need to be done,
something could help Harry and in the past it had always been him and Hermione
to help Harry when he was in danger. They could do it again, right? But only if he were willing to face up to the facts. He
raised his head slowly, looking deep into Hermione's chocolate brown eyes. He
saw her love for him reflected there, and her concern for Harry. His own blue
eyes began to water as he took a deep breath to prepare himself for what he
needed to say, if only to hear it spoken aloud. "if
you stay there too long, you'd die."
~*_*~
After one very passionate snogging session in the
Astronomy tower, two hours of potions with the Slytherins,
three reminders from Draco that they had detention with McGonagall that
evening, four excuses to Ron to get out of Exploding Snap, five more classes
that were way to boring to concentrate on and six concerned looks from
Hermione, Harry was beginning to feel like he was trapped in a Muggle Christmas
song.
"C'mon Dray, let's fly a little."
"Harry! It's freezing out there! Are you daft?"
"No, I'm not crazy, I just want a little fresh
air. And there's no one more fun to fly with than you," he added with a
slightly suggestive tone.
"Would you be terribly upset if I turned down the invitation? It's just,
we've got that detention in an hour and I'm falling behind in my homework
thanks to all the time I spend with lips attached to yours."
"Well, if you insist. On one condition,"
"What's that?"
"That we meet in the Transfiguration classroom a few minutes early so you
can attach those beautiful lips to mine before McGonagall gets there."
"You've got a deal! And then after detention we can go. . ."
"I can't. I have a meeting after. . . er 'Mione and I are meeting to
study tonight." Harry mentally kicked himself for that near slip. It would
do no good for Draco to worry about him again and go off looking for him.
"I'll see you in an hour."
"Sure." Draco watched as Harry took off running toward the front
entrance.
~*_*~
Having spent his 'study' time reviewing the minor dark skills he'd begun to
pick up, Draco was rather pleased with himself. Levitating, both of himself and
of objects, had become nearly second nature to him
now. Glancing out his window, he watched the distant silhouette emerging from
the broom shed and knew that it was time to meet Harry for a quick snog and a boring detention. He nearly ran down the
corridors, anticipating the rush of Harry's lips on his.
~*_*~
Harry rushed into the castle, hoping to get there before McGonagall did. He'd
spent a little more time flying than he had intended to, but it was such a
freeing experience, second only to kissing Draco.
Turning into the Transfiguration room, he saw the familiar silver-blonde hair
and paused to take notice of the fact that it seemed to be just a bit longer. 'Must be a trick of the lights in here.' Harry never noticed
the person standing in the other corner of the room, nor did he realize that
someone was quickly walking toward that room with a smile on his face. Harry's
eyes were focused solely on the young man with the platinum hair that held his
attention.
He quietly walked over to the Slytherin, a sly smile on his face, and waited
until he was directly behind him to speak. "Malfoy"
he said softly, almost teasingly.
Malfoy turned and his mouth was instantly captured by
the soft lips of the Gryffindor. The blonde was slightly shocked, but didn't
resist immediately. The kiss was broken, however by two shocked voices behind
them.
"Lucius!" James said at the same time as. .
.
"Harry!?" Draco's
voice was obviously a little hurt, but as he heard the other name his facial
expression changed to one of shock and confusion and more than a little fear.
"Draco?" Harry was confused, he'd been kissing Dray, but suddenly the
boy was in the doorway of the room.
"James, I, uh" Lucius frantically searched his brain for an
explanation that wouldn't involve James knowing who Lucius THOUGHT he was being
kissed by, or for that matter, who Lucius WISHED he was being kissed by.
The room went deadly silent as the four young men looked around at each other.
As each of them took in the appearances of the ones they didn't know, three of
them began to form conclusions. Harry, however, had lost all ability to think.
He was staring across the room, unable to believe his eyes. His breath came in
short, uneven rasps, his throat felt as if he had swallowed a quaffle, his legs felt like he'd been put under the
jelly-legs jinx and his eyes became suddenly blurry as they began to fill with
tears. When he spoke, his voice was filled with emotions, every emotion he'd ever
known and some he'd always missed were pressed together into the only word he
could form.
"James?"
~*~*~*~*~*
Okay, please don't think I'm evil, but I'm (once again) at work and was DYING
to get this posted. It's now 6:37 (I
got off at 5:00) and I'm starving and
want to go home, but I can't bare to leave without
posting this, sooooooooooo, I'm not replying to any
reviews tonight. I'll make up for it in the next chapter. I hope you all liked
this one. I've been waiting for weeks to get to the point when Harry would see
James.
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