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would just add to his emotions, right? What you think? Oh, and if you're
waiting for James and Harry to talk, this should give you something.
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Please write more on Imperio soon. I'm anxious and
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Harry and Draco followed their Headmaster in silence. None of them seemed to
notice (or care) that the young men were holding hands as they walked through
the corridors. Harry thought back to the moment he had seen James. He still
felt highly uncomfortable with the fact that he had kissed Lucius. He was still
quite confused as to how James and Lucius came to be there. And he was more
than a bit nervous at the prospect of facing his father again. The swirl of
emotions and thoughts that ran through that room came back to him and Harry
began to worry that he wouldn't be able to handle it again.
"Um, sir?"
Dumbledore stopped and turned to Harry. "Yes?"
"I'm a little, well, I'm concerned about this. I don't want to panic like
last time."
"You know what to expect. That should alleviate your fears, don't you
think?" The familiar twinkle and the tiny smile that was nearly hidden
behind the Headmaster's beard told Harry very clearly that Dumbledore knew
there was more to this, more that Harry wasn't sharing.
"It's not just seeing him, sir." Harry waiting for the nod to continue, a nod that said 'I knew that but I'm glad you're
going to tell me now'. "It's the emotions and thoughts. I felt them, heard
them, all at once. It was very . . . charged."
"You'll need to block that. I could have been working with you if you had
told me you had this ability," Dumbledore paused, obviously thinking about
Harry's habit of keeping information from the others in his life.
"Nevertheless, I've no doubt that you can create a mental shield to limit
the amount of 'leakage' you get from everyone else's thoughts and feelings."
"Yes, sir." Harry was struck by a sudden
reminder of his 5th year, and the confrontation with Snape over the Occlumency lessons. They had managed to patch things up
later on and Harry had continued his studies with Snape until they were both satisfied
with the results. Unbeknownst to others, Harry had been studying Legilimency as well, and that combined with his natural
seer abilities had allowed Harry to gain a great deal of information from Voldemort and his followers last night.
Pushing aside his bad memories of the past, Harry tried again to focus on the
prospect of seeing his father. He knew there must be some explanation for James
Potter and Lucius Malfoy to travel into the future.
He also knew that if he and Draco were being led to meet with their fathers, that meant that Dumbledore knew how and why this
time traveling had occurred.
He tried reaching out to gather information from Dumbledore's mind, but the
older wizard was far more skilled at Occlumency and
obviously had his guard up. Draco's mind would be
easier to access, but his primary thoughts were of relief at Harry's safety,
love for Harry and nerves due to Lucius' presence. To dig into deeper thoughts
would be much too invasive, Harry loved the blond too
much to intrude upon him like that. He could only hope to keep his cool and get
some information from someone else.
"Before we continue," Headmaster Dumbledore paused in the corridor
again, purposely ignoring the giggles from a nearby painting. "I would
like to ask you both to tell me a bit about your new skills."
Harry and Draco paused and looked at each other in something akin to fear. What
if Dumbledore decided their wandless skills were
Dark? What if he was forced to expel them? Harry knew his reasoning and intent
behind each and every bit of magic he did. He felt confident that he knew where
he stood in connection to the Dark side. Draco, however, was less certain. He
felt that he was fighting for the right side, but he knew that many people
connected wandless magic with Dark Arts, no matter
what. Finally, after many silent moments, Dumbledore spoke again.
"I already know more than either of you have
said. There could be much to be gained from recent events, but not if all the
involved parties continue to deny these events. You'll both need to be prepared
to admit your actions, both to yourself and to the others who can help. You do
understand this, don't you? You'll need to admit many actions."
The pointed glance that traveled from Harry's eyes to their clasped hands and
up again to Draco's eyes made it quite clear.
Dumbledore knew about their new skills and their new relationship. More than
that, he expected both of them to talk about it in front of him and their
teenaged fathers.
"Sir, I understand what you're saying," Draco spoke up, knowing more
about the meeting they were about to enter, he felt it important to ask this
immediately. "But will this need to be discussed with everyone in
there? Or just with James and Lucius?"
Harry turned quickly, wondering who else Draco was referring to. How many
people would Dumbledore have pulled into this situation?
"I believe the more the knowledge is spread around, the safer it will be
for all those involved. However, we do have a couple of students, aside from yourselves, who most likely will not be involved for their
own safety. Any revelations to them will be at your discretion. Now, would
either of you like to tell me how strong you are and what you are capable of
doing?"
Draco spoke again, before Harry had the chance. "I have learned to
levitate and do a few minor curses and hexes without my wand. I can levitate
objects quite well and with accurate movement, but I have a harder time with
levitating myself. I haven't been studying very long, though. I think I can
improve with practice. Harry's been studying much longer and is much more
powerful, sir." He glanced at his boyfriend, wondering how he would take
this news. "He's the most powerful wizard I've ever seen, and he doesn't
even realize it. He can do amazing things without a wand and I believe it would
be completely accurate to say that with just a bit more practice and focus, he
would be able to do absolutely anything. Forgive me sir, but I think Harry's
more powerful than you and Voldemort combined."
Harry scoffed at this notion, still caught up in the idea that he wasn't doing
anything that special. These new skills came to him too easily to be that
powerful and impressive. To his surprise, Dumbledore didn't deny the idea of
excessive power, nor did he get upset with Draco for saying it. He didn't even
seem upset with their private studies. In fact, the Headmaster simply nodded
his head and offered that tiny little, partly-hidden smile again, before
turning and muttering a password to the giggling painting.
As they stepped through the entrance into the unused lounge, Harry felt a rush
of emotion come toward him. Before he could even see anyone he knew his father
was here. He could feel Hermione and Ron here. He was mildly surprised to feel Snape's presence and mildly irritated to feel Lucius'
presence. The group of people gathered here did offer one source of comfort to
Harry. He could use this opportunity and the various minds in the room to
gather the information that people were hiding from him. Honestly, he didn't
see how anyone expected him to be trusting or to accomplish any great victories
if they wouldn't tell him the truth. But now he had the means to take the
truth, and take it he would. He would just have to have one on one time with
everyone. Too many thoughts and emotions at once would not be conducive to his
plans of gathering information. No, that would simply cause a repeat of last
night's disturbing overload.
~*~*~*~
Harry did indeed know how to put up a shield to buffer the emotions and
thoughts that were raging throughout the room. It was a shield no one wanted to
see, however. The only way he knew of, was to tap into his own darker thoughts
and emotions. Those deep-down, private thoughts that were too dark, too twisted
for anyone to know about. The late-night desires to cause pain to everyone who
threatened him, to be cruel to those who worshiped him, to have wild, random
sex with everyone who caught his fancy. Those characteristics of his
personality that he didn't admit to himself until recently were probably the
very things the sorting hat had seen when it tried to place him in Slytherin.
When Harry tapped into those characteristics he became very Snape-like, for
lack of a better term. He expressed anger and disgust, offering a tempestuous
glare to anyone who dared interrupt his train of thought. Deep inside, Harry
knew that this wasn't all there was to him anymore, but it made it so much
easier to pretend he didn't care. Some part of him seemed convinced that if he
stopped showing his concern for others, he would eventually stop having any
concern for them. And if that happened, then he could no longer be hurt by the
torture and death of his classmates, friends and family. It was an appealing
idea, but not a level of apathy he could reach that quickly.
In this Snape-like manner, Harry decided that he was going to take control of
the situation at hand. "I understand that there's something to be gained
from this bizarre turn of events. I presume these benefits have something to do
with Voldemort?" He glanced at the Headmaster
and received a verifying nod. "Since we all know what this will eventually
boil down to, I believe I should gather as much information as possible. I
would like to know which of you are truly involved and speak to you on an
individual basis." He turned to his best friends, ignoring the look of
disbelief from Ron and the pure anger radiating from Hermione. "I know you
probably want to help, but I think research is the best way for you to do that.
Please don't argue with me Ron, I don't have the time or the patience for it.
I'll explain things to both of you later, but right now it looks like you both
need some rest."
Harry waited in silence as Ron and Hermione looked at each other and then
turned to the Headmaster and their Head of House. Both Dumbledore and
McGonagall nodded their heads, prompting the two Gryffindors
to follow Harry's advice (or orders) and head back to the dormitories. Once
they left, Harry headed toward the smaller room as he said "Professor
Snape, follow me, please."
Draco nearly laughed in spite of himself. The incredulous look of shock on Snape's face quickly gave way to a glare of utter contempt.
Draco was a bit surprised to see Harry acting this forceful and demanding, but he
was even more surprised to see that Dumbledore, McGonagall and especially Snape
were not only allowing it to continue, but were following his demands!
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SEVERUS SNAPE:
Yes, I followed the boy into the other room. It was in no way an act of weakness,
nor was it an example of bowing to a child. He was right. As much as I may have
disliked Potter in the past, the respect he had garnered from me was
well-deserved. And in this situation, there was no doubt that it would be
useful for us to share information and work together leading up to a final
confrontation. We all knew - those of us from this time period - that Potter
would be the key figure in that final confrontation. So, in a flash of
comprehension and acceptance beyond his seventeen years, Potter had come to
this conclusion and was preparing himself. That's why I followed the boy into
the other room.
As we sat I saw that he gave a quick glance and a mild wave of his hand toward
the door. I knew at once that he had placed a locking charm and silencing charm
on the room. I could still feel the power radiating from him, but the surges
weren't as high as they had been the night before. 'His powers are connected
to his emotions, of course. That's why it's not as strong now.'
"Why don't you start by telling me your version of what's going on around
here?" Harry's question was spoken with the casual tone expected of an
equal, but still held a touch of respect, as one might offer to a mentor. That
thought frightened me a bit. I couldn't imagine anything I had done in my life
to deserve a mentor position in anyone's life. He sat there quietly, waiting
for me to answer. A nagging feeling in the corner of my mind told me there was
something I should be paying attention to, but I ignored it for the moment.
"Well, I'm extremely curious about your involvement with the Dark Lord and
his followers. I'd like to know how long you've been in contact with Pettigrew
and where you learned those skills."
"Sev, I asked you to tell me what's going on
here, not question me on my own dealings. I'll answer all your questions in
time, but right now I need to know what you know."
"I know very little. James and Lucius arrived here last night. I was
called to the meeting shortly afterwards. I came back with you little more than
an hour ago. I can tell you that considering the strength of magic in both
James and Lucius, having their assistance could very well prove beneficial in
overpowering Voldemort."
"Thank you, Severus. I appreciate your honesty. Please ask Professor McGonagall
to come in next."
With that, Harry waved his hand again to unlock the door and I knew I had been
dismissed.
MINERVA McGONAGALL:
Young Mr. Potter and his friends have been among my favorite students in all my
years at Hogwarts. It's never been any secret that Harry Potter was destined
for great things, and once he and Draco Malfoy
reached their second year I began to see the power that Albus
had mentioned so long ago. I had nearly forgotten about that time travel
project until I was faced with the very sons of those two boys. Of course,
realizing that Harry was the force that had been foreseen, the very reason that
James Potter and Lucius Malfoy were here, that was
something that I found extremely disturbing. Harry Potter has more power than
our world knows how to deal with. His power and strength is a result of many
things including his ancient ancestry, the strength of his parents, the power
transferred to him from He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, and most recently - if Albus was right - his bond with Draco Malfoy.
I worried about it. Power of that magnitude is not something you want to have
on the opposing side.
"Professor McGonagall, would you please tell me what you know about this
situation?"
'I feel like I'm being interviewed by someone at the Ministry.' I took a
deep breath and tried to speak to him as an equal. It's not easy. He may be a
great wizard, but he is still seventeen years old. "The elder Misters
Potter and Malfoy were transported here through a
potions project gone wrong." I couldn't tell him that we sent those two
into the future to stop him from following the wrong path. "The Headmaster
and I have determined that they may be able to supplement your power in
preparation for your next meeting with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. We thought it
a good idea for you to work with them whilst we determine the best way to send
them back to their own time."
He looked at me simply for a moment, as if he were trying to evaluate my
answer. Apparently satisfied with his conclusions, he smiled.
"Do you have any specific knowledge as to why Dumbledore would think these
two can help me fight Voldemort? At their current
ages, I dare-say they've never faced him, not once."
"I believe you're right about that. In 1976 there wasn't any reason for
either of them to have faced him yet. However, the magic that runs through both
families has made you and Draco Malfoy two of the
most powerful wizards of our time. Your fathers are extremely powerful as
well."
"So you think Draco and I should work with our fathers to combine our
magic and this will be enough to defeat Voldemort?"
"I think it's a good possibility and it wouldn't hurt to make use of the
opportunity while we work out how to send them back."
"Thank you professor. I'm sure I'll be speaking
with you again later on. I'd like to speak to the Headmaster now."
I watched as he released the charms on the door, then
walked out to pass that message on to Albus. I hoped
Mr. Potter would be able to calm himself soon. The magic radiating from him
nearly crackled through the air and the cold, heartless attitude he was
presenting was disconcerting to say the least.
ALBUS DUMBLEDORE:
As I faced Harry, I found myself thinking how sorrowful I felt because he had
to deal with so much tragedy and pressure. He'd grown up much sooner than any
child deserved to. Nevertheless, the boy was handling it better than most.
"Sir," Harry said. "Is there anything you feel you should tell
me?"
I smiled at him. I'm certain my eyes were twinkling. Oh yes, I know about that
twinkle. I know that it bothers a great many people. I know that my staff,
especially the more dour members of my staff, find it
highly irritating that I seem to be amused by so many events. The reality of
the situation is that I am amused by many events. I have an uncanny
ability to find humor in all but the gravest of situations and I encourage that
within myself because I believe that some sense of levity is important to good
quality of life. At this moment, I found it interesting to see that the boy
seemed to be using one of my tactics on me. He didn't want to ask me any
specific questions until he had some idea what information I had to offer. Quite wise of him.
"My dear boy, I'm sure there more pointed questions you would like to
ask."
"Perhaps. But this is the one I'm asking."
"Well then, Harry, the answer is yes. I feel that I should tell you that I
have every confidence that things will be made right. As my seer skills are
limited, even with Minerva's cooperation, I cannot be more specific. I can,
however, assure you that the appropriate measures have already been put into
place to ensure that all will be as it should. Any actions you take now will
only alter themselves to fit into the solution."
"You realize, Headmaster, that your answer doesn't really make any sense
to me, don't you ?"
"Yes, my boy, but it will. Someday."
With that, I stood and walked toward the door.
"I presume you would like to see Lucius Malfoy
next?" I could feel the crackle in his aura that told me he was
ever-so-slightly irritated that I had retained any semblance of control.
LUCIUS MALFOY:
He's just staring at me. He's sitting there, staring at me and it's highly
disconcerting. It's amazing how much he looks like James. Oh, I've come to
realize during our work together that James is not a complete loss as a person,
despite his friends and his Gryffindor status. He seems to be growing out of
his childish prankster phase. If only he would leave Severus alone, I could
even imagine considering him among my own friends. But this boy, Harry, from
what I can tell, his similarity to James begins and ends with his looks.
He's distant, and angry. He seems to have more similarities to the Severus of
this time when comparing their attitudes. That's another thing I don't
understand. What in Merlin's name could have happened to make Severus so closed
off. And why does he look at me so strangely?
"Potter," I said.
"Call me Harry. I think it will be easier if we all use first names, since
there are currently two Potters and two Malfoys
here."
"All right, Harry. Can you tell me something?"
"Perhaps."
"Am I dead?"
"It's my understanding that you and James were brought here by a potions
project gone wrong. Seems odd that a Malfoy
could screw up a potion that badly." He smirked at me. I wanted so
badly to correct him, to explain that I most certainly did not screw up a
potion, and in fact that McGonagall and Dumbledore seemed highly impressed with
the advanced work that James and I had done together. I couldn't, though. I
wasn't supposed to tell him that, or the reason they sent us here in the first
place.
"No, I mean, in this time. Am I dead in this time? Will I die in the next
21 years?"
He honestly seemed surprised. "No, why would you think that?"
"The way people are looking at me, behaving around me, it seems like
they've never seen me, or not seen me in many years. It's not quite as drastic
as people seeing James, but it's still there. My own son," I had to pause
a moment. I still couldn't get used to the idea that I would have a son. I'd been
hoping I wouldn't actually have to marry Narcissa.
"My own son won't even look me in the eye. And Severus barely speaks to me
either. He seems to have an evil heartless thing going on, but every once in a
while, he looks at me, and there's a deep sadness hidden somewhere underneath
it all. He's my best friend. I want to know, if I'm not dead, then what else
could make him - and Draco - act like this around me?"
"Draco doesn't look you in the eye because he's not supposed to."
If this boy thought that would answer my question, he was severely mistaken.
And that smirk! That insolent little smirk just proved that he knew exactly
what was happening here and simply refused to tell me. Unless maybe he was told
that he couldn't tell me, just as I wasn't supposed to tell him the truth.
"Why is he not supposed to? Is this something I - his father, the future
me - taught him?"
"I believe so. It's a sign of respect among the ranks."
"Ranks? I'm in a military group?"
"You could say that."
"Is Draco afraid of me? He seems so much more at ease with other people,
even other adults, even James. I can't imagine that I would be a parent who
would instill that much fear in a child."
"I don't think he's afraid of you, but he might well be afraid of your
master, and the orders you might be given."
"Master?"
He didn't say anything. I suddenly have the feeling that I could stare at him
all day long and he still wouldn't expand on that statement. Not unless he
decided he was bloody good and ready to. This young Potter is definitely one
for standing firmly by his decisions, it seems. I continued running that last
sentence through my mind, the words flipping and twirling around each other in
the jumble of other thoughts I was already dealing with. Suddenly, something
clicked and everything seemed to fall into place.
"You can't honestly be telling me that I'm going to join that psychotic
dark wizard and do his bidding?"
"I don't recall telling you that."
"It's true, isn't it?"
"Yes." How could he be so calm about it, so nonchalant, as if he
hadn't just given me this horrible image of my future? A future serving a dark
wizard, married to a woman I would never like, not to mention couldn't love and
raising a son who seemed caught between fearing and hating me. Oh, this was not
how I'd imagined my life going.
"You're involved with Draco, aren't you?"
"I'm sorry, sir. I'm sure this is because of the way I - er - greeted you last night. I am so sorry for that, I hope
you understand. . ."
"Harry," I knew if I didn't interrupt him, he could have gone on and
on. "It's quite all right. I can understand the confusion. It was a bit
confusing for all of us. But, you haven't answered my question. Are you and
Draco involved?"
"Yes, just recently."
I smiled. I was beginning to feel like a father, oddly enough. I was pleased to
hear that my son had found, would find - whichever -
someone to care for. My thoughts turned to Severus again. It was apparent that
I would have to marry Narcissa after all, I certainly didn't want to give up having a son. But my
thoughts of last night were expanding. After that brief kiss and my initial
thoughts of Sev, I had decided that once I got back
to my time, I was going to make sure another day didn't go by without me
letting Sev know that I found him to be the
equivalent of sex on legs. What would happen after that, I could only guess -
and hope. Now, however, I was beginning to think one night would never be
enough, that it would only make me ache for something I could never have again.
Snapping myself back to the present, or future as it
were, I looked back to Harry.
"Did you have any questions for me? I thought this was supposed to be a
chance for you to gather some sort of information for this big 'mission'."
"No, thank you, Lucius. You've told me more than
you know." He gave me that little sly smile that made me realize he meant
exactly what he was saying, which of course left me to wonder what I might have
revealed without realizing it.
"Could you please ask Draco to come in next?"
DRACO MALFOY:
I sat in that room, watching as each of our professors went in to talk to
Harry, then came out and told someone else he had asked to see them. After Snape
came out and joined the rest of us, I saw some strange looks pass between him
and Lucius. I've seen Snape with my father many times, but I've never seen
anything like this. I've never seen Snape like this, he seems a little softer.
Well, softer in Snape terms, which primarily means
that he seems like he might have once had a heart hidden underneath that cold
exterior that he portrays to everyone.
Lucius, this young version of my father, confuses me as well. I've tried to
watch him a bit when he's not paying attention to me. I've gotten fairly good
at this after watching the full grown version of him for years. This Lucius is
different. He seems human, almost like me, or at least, like I would be if I
weren't afraid of my parents' reactions. My mother - she's really the dominant
one. I think I've always known that on some level, but could she really be so
dominant that she turned my father from a normal teenaged boy who seems decent
and genuine, into a cold-hearted Death Eater who kisses Voldemort's
robes and lets him make plans for me?
After waiting through McGonagall and Dumbledore, Lucius went in to meet with
Harry. It's hard not to wonder what's
going on in that room. Now that he's
come out and I'm finally going to get the chance to talk to Harry, I'm
ecstatic. I need to see him alone, need to find out what he's trying to do
here. That mask of his bothers me. I don't think I've ever seen Harry so
distant and cold. It's a deeper, darker version of the old darkness that I used
to find exciting. It seems impossible to believe that so much has happened
within the last week or two. I'm sure it was just a few days ago that I was
thinking of how exciting and sexy he seemed when he behaved in that forceful
mildly dark manner. Now I'm sitting across from him in an unused meeting room
and I'm seeing the darkest, coldest, angriest look on his face. It reminds me
so much of Snape on his worst days, or my father, or Pansy's father - yes
that's it. He reminds me of Pansy's father - full of hatred and disdain, ready
to severely injure anyone who crosses him.
"Harry?"
"Yes?"
"Did you need to talk to me, or were you just going to sit there staring
at me?"
No answer. All I wanted was to bring the Harry I love back to the surface.
"The surface of what?"
"Harry, I hate it when you do that. Do you really have to answer my
thoughts?"
"I'm sorry. I'll try not to do that. It's difficult at times, especially
right now. I'm trying to…" he trailed off. I watched in awe as that mask
began to crumble away. The firm set of his jaw softened a bit. The tightness in
his lips seemed to loosen up. His shoulders sagged just a bit, then shook a little. But it was the eyes where I could
really see the change. The cold hatred seemed to dissolve, bringing a bit of
that familiar light back into his eyes. The anger and disdain went away, to be
replaced by a sadness that made me want to cry. The depth of emotions suddenly
swirling in those emerald orbs was breathtaking. The overall transformation was
so distinct, so incredibly complete that I had the odd feeling I was watching
him morph into a completely different person.
"Oh Dray, what am I going to do?"
I nearly ran the few steps between us and knelt in front of him, resting my
hands on his thighs. "Harry what is it? What's going on?" I was
completely unprepared for the broken look in his eyes when they met mine. I
can't imagine what sort of mental anguish would create a look like that. I'm
not sure I want to know, but for Harry, I'll have to.
"I'm sorry Dray, you don't have to do this."
"I'm going to pretend you didn't just respond to my thoughts against my
explicit wishes. A person wouldn't need to be a mind-reader to understand and
recognize that you're in pain Harry. I love you. I want to be here. I want to
help, if that's possible."
"I don't think it is," his whisper sounded so dejected and defeated.
"I don't think anything can help anymore. I have to face him, Dray. I have
to sit here and talk to my father like it's the most normal thing in the world.
And then I have to take all this information and put it together to form a plan
for killing Voldemort. And then, presumably, I have
to face losing my father all over again. I can't talk to the only people who've
been friends to me for most of my life, because there's no way they can
understand half of what's going on here. And Dumbledore, that old coot is just
getting battier by the day. Oh sure, he's got some great knowledge of something
wonderful and detailed, but I can't get at it and he won't offer it to me, no
matter that it might be necessary to make this work. No matter that I have a
plan of my own and I might need that information to make sure that my plan
works as it should. No matter that I deserve to know."
I reached around, wrapping my arms firmly around his torso and pulled him close
to me until my head could rest against his chest. He seemed extremely tense,
but slowly relaxed into the embrace and wrapped his arms around me in return.
"You can rely on me, Harry. I know it's hard to believe you can trust
people, I know you don't want to care about people. . ."
"How could you possibly know that?"
"Because I know you, and I can tell. But I can
also tell that you do care, in spite of yourself, just as I care about
you, just as your friends care about you. And your father cares about
you."
"My father's dead, Draco. That boy in there is not yet my father, and if
anything goes wrong, he never will be and I'll cease to exist."
I pulled my head up to face him, seeking contact with his eyes, hoping he would
see the truth in mine. "He may not be your father, yet. But you are
already his son and he recognizes that. I've talked to him. Harry, those
visions of yours, when you thought your seer skills were going wonky, that was you seeing this. Your father and I,
working together, talking together. If we're all going to work together
to defeat Voldemort, then your father and I will have
to practice together and discuss things. And this morning, before you came
back, we discussed you. He cares, Harry. It's true. And, for the record, he
knows that I love you, and he's glad."
"Really?"
"Yes, Harry, really. You should talk to him. No masks, no hiding,
just talk to him. Everything else will work out in the end. Somehow, it's all
going to be made right, I can sense it."
"You know, Dumbledore said the same thing."
"As much as I've talked about him, I've always known he's a smart man. And
we know I'm of superior intelligence." I flashed him my best grin, "so you should believe us both."
I was rewarded with the tiniest of smiles as Harry leaned in to capture my
mouth with his own. As with our previous kisses, it seemed that all coherent
thought flew directly out of my head the moment our lips touched. The power
that surged between us was almost frightening. In that emotionally charged moment,
I felt a connection to Harry on a deeper level than we had ever had before. In
fact, it seemed that the connection went a little deeper in this manner each
and every time.
After we separated, we realized we were surrounded by sparks and crackles of light.
Streaks like blue lightening seemed to light the entire room for a few moments,
then it dimmed into a pale blue glow around us. I looked at Harry, somewhat
grateful to see that my amazement was reflected on his face. "What just
happened?"
"I don't know, Dray. I've never seen anything like it."
"We should ask Dumbledore about it."
Ooh, that brought the bitterness back into his face. "Why? So he can hide
something else from me? I see no need for it."
"Harry, just trust him. Or at the very least, trust me? We can talk to Dumbledore, you can talk to your father, please Harry."
He put one finger over my lips. It's funny how people do that to get others to
stop talking. As if I couldn't very well keep talking around his finger, or
move away from his hand and keep talking out of his reach. As if one little
finger pressed against my lips could . . . but, it did. I stopped the moment he
touched me. Not due to force, but desire. Not sexual desire, but his desire for
me to stop.
"Okay, Draco. I trust you. I - we should - I should do this - now, I mean.
You should go back out there and I should talk to my - talk to James now."
"Sure, Harry. I'll tell him." With the briefest and lightest of
touches, I pressed my lips to his and turned to leave the room.
JAMES POTTER:
Oh, I'd been waiting for this. I walked into the room, not having a clue what
to expect. I can't even begin to explain how nerve-wracking it was to sit in
that outer lounge, waiting, wondering, anticipating.
Oddly enough, it seemed that everyone else in there was waiting just like I
was. They didn't talk - about anything. I would have expected Dumbledore to
discuss something with his staff members, or talk to the younger of us about
what we could expect. Something about the situation, the plans, the reason
Harry was taking control like this and no one was arguing with him.
I'm still amazed by how much he looks like me, but those eyes. He definitely
has Lily's eyes, but I hope I never have to see such pain in hers. I wish I
didn't have to see it in his. Of course, since I'm going to be dead before he
grows up, I'm not supposed to be seeing it, am I? I can't help wondering what's
going to happen to take me away from my family. I've always wanted a son. A few children, actually. Lily and I have joked about having
our own Quidditch team. I wonder if we ever got to have any other children. If
only Lily had survived, maybe Harry wouldn't have had such a hard life.
I've learned a lot about him and his past from Ron, Hermione and Draco. It's
unbelievable that someone so young has gone through so much. He's fought so
many battles, lost so many friends and loved ones, and yet - somehow - he's
survived.
He's survived, but he seems - strange. Sitting across from him, I get the sense
that he's a bit nervous, but you could never tell it by the look on his face.
He looks guarded, distrustful and extremely cynical.
"So, are you feeling better today?"
He offers a sad smile and nods quietly. I wonder what I've been brought in here
for if he doesn't want to talk to me. For that matter, I wonder why he doesn't
want to talk to me. I can understand the shock from our first meeting, but now
that he's had a little time to get used to it, I wish he could relax a bit so
we can just talk. I want to know him. I want him to know me, even though I'm
sure I'm not the same person I will be by the time he's born. I don't even know
how old he was when we. . .
"A year."
"What?" That must be the most arbitrary statement I've ever
heard spoken.
"A year. I haven't seen you since I was a year
old." Merlin, can he read minds? "I'm sure no one's given you any
details, but it appears you already know about your death."
"I figured it out."
"I'm sorry."
"No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry we weren't there for you. Can I ask where you
grew up? Do you have godparents?"
"A godfather, but I didn't get to meet him until the end of my third year
here. I grew up with the Dursleys."
"Who?"
"Petunia Evans and her husband."
"Oh, I've only met Petunia once, and it was very brief. It wasn't
entirely pleasant either, did she get better?"
"No."
"Why didn't you get to meet your godfather? Why wouldn't you have been
living with him?" I was wondering who I would someday offer that position
to. I can't imagine anyone but Sirius, though. He's like the brother I never
had. I would think Sirius would take something like that seriously (no pun
intended) and make sure he was around to fulfill the duties. I can't imagine
leaving my son in the care of someone who would disappear for thirteen years.
"He was in Az. . . he
was unavailable."
"Azkaban? Were you about to say your godfather
was in Azkaban?"
"Damn." He seemed to be mentally kicking himself now, obviously
thinking he shouldn't have allowed that slipup. "Well, Dumbledore is
planning to obliviate your memory before you go back,
anyway, so I suppose I might as well tell you. He was in Azkaban because he was
wrongly accused of murdering 13 Muggles and one Wizard, as well as being in
league with Voldemort and betraying two other
wizards. He escaped in my third year so he could protect me from . . ." he
seemed unsure how to finish the sentence. "From a
rat."
A rat? I didn't bother asking any questions. I could
tell he wasn't going to give me any more information on that subject, not now
anyway.
"Is there anything you want to know about me? Or your
mum?"
"How did you get here?"
I blinked. I was expecting much more personal questions, but I suppose it was a
matter of importance, and there was work to be done.
"I took a potion that Malfoy and I were working
on together."
"Why were you and Malfoy working on a potion
together? Are you friends?"
I had to think about that for a minute. Would I consider Lucius Malfoy my friend? I wouldn't have before, but somewhere in
the midst of the hours spent working on this project, I had come to respect
him, or something like that. And something about traveling forward in time and
meeting up with your sons, well, that brings people closer together in ways you
never would have imagined. So did that make him my friend? Harry seemed disturbed
by my hesitation.
"Gods, please don't tell me you and Lucius Malfoy
are involved!!"
I couldn't help it, I laughed. "No. Absolutely not.
I'm madly in love with Lily, and I've got a sneaking suspicion that Lucius is
interested in someone as well. But to answer your earlier questions, we were
working on it as part of a detention, and I'm not sure we're friends, but I
think we might be one day. How about you and Draco? I understand that you used
to fight a lot?"
"You could say that, but we don't anymore - as much."
"You do still fight?"
"Well, we disagree on things, he disagrees with some of the things I do,
or plan to do."
"Is it true that you were trying to join Voldemort's
army last night?"
"Yes."
"Why?"
"I can't tell you anything about that just yet. It's for your own
safety."
I can't help but see the irony in that, my son, keeping information from me in
the name of my safety, despite the fact that to him I've been dead for sixteen
years.
"Is there any other information you needed from me, I mean, in regards to this. . . mission, or whatever?"
"No, I don't think so, unless you have some ideas on how we can accomplish
this."
"I don't, yet. But I'm sure once we all put our heads together, we can
come up with something. Harry, are you all right?"
"Yes, why?" Oh yeah, that was believable.
"Just asking. Do you, I mean, can I talk to you
for a minute?"
"Certainly." He hardly seems interested, but
I have no way of knowing if I'll get this chance again.
"I just want you to know, even though it seems a little odd and it's taken
some getting used to, I do think of you as my son. I.
. . care about you, it's automatic, like breathing. That's how I've always
imagined I would feel about my kids, just something deep in my soul telling me
that they're important and wonderful and valuable. I was planning to propose to
Lily on her birthday, in February. I spontaneously jumped that gun right before
I came here and she accepted. We've been very happy together and we've talked
about our kids, just hypothetically, of course. But those talks have always
brought images of lots of love and happiness. It's really hard to believe that
I won't get to see you grow up, and I won't get to give you that love and
happiness while you're a child, but I can now. I can tell you now that I love
you, Harry. Draco told me about you, and how you're brave and kind-hearted. He
told me about your friends and how close you are to them. It reminds me of my
friends. I'm glad you have that. I'm glad you have Draco, too. He really loves
you. I know that nothing can make up for the things in your past, but if you
hold on to that love from Draco and your friends, and even from me if you'll
accept it, I think it might make your future a happy one. I know you're
powerful, and I probably don't know the half of it, but if you use that power
to enforce those good things, to bring out the love in those around you and let
that overpower the darkness, I think maybe everything will be all right. Just
don't let the sadness and anger twist your intentions, Harry. You're better
than that. I can tell."
I'd been looking down at the floor during most of that
rambling, feeling a bit embarrassed to be saying these things to someone my own
age. Looking up at Harry again, it's quite surprising to see that he's been
silently crying. It's instinct. I pull him out of that chair and into a hug.
It's an odd thought for me to be hugging my son, but I can tell by the sudden
shudders that the emotions run much deeper for him. Of course! This has to be
hard for him to accept, to understand. But I hope he finds it to be a good
thing as well.
"Thank you . . ." he whispers. Then, even quieter
and very hesitantly, "dad".
Wow, now that was intense. I only wish I would be allowed to remember this
moment.
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