~Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself~

I sighed and slid down into my chain. It was time for another boring lesson. My thoughts drifted away and focused on the image of a girl; the very girl I had hurt so much. She had often been the subject of my merciless taunting and icy glares. She would always smile good naturedly and life would go on. I never thought she would take it seriously.

~Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears~

But every cruel remark, relentless insults, angry glances, she took it all so seriously. She had failed to see my mask and believed every bitter word I said. I never guessed that all those smiles were faked, almost like the disguise I hid behind. But I had hurt her. My careless comments had caused her to shed too many tears.

~I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know there's much more to come~

Oh the irony of it all. My whole being had been formed on one thought; avoid pain. I had entered an alternate reality where my anger would prevent sorrow. Little did I know that my perfect little world would cause the very thing I was trying to prevent. I had betrayed myself and wounded the people who had tried to help me

~Don't turn away
Don't try to hide
Don't close your eyes
Don't turn out the lights~

But my cruelty had come back to haunt me, to get its revenge. I had never imagined that I would see that girl sobbing in the bathroom all because of me. I see the truth now. My whole world has come crashing down and there is nothing I can do to stop it. I have been living a lie, ignoring the monster I had become.

~Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices in my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear~

But to make matters worse, this girl was changing. She was becoming me. As much as I hated to admit this, it was true. I could see it in her eyes, the same bitter rebellion that was a mirror image of myself. Every harsh word had fed her inner demon and it had overpowered her as it had done me.

~This truth drives me
Into madness~

I had to stop it. I wouldn't let her suffer the same fate I had. No one had been there to help me, stop my horrifying transformation. But I could save her.

~I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
If I will it all away~

I could push aside my pride and embrace her. Apologize for my wrongdoing and beg for forgiveness. But would she accept it? What if I didn't get through to her? What if it was too late?

~Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end~

No. I wasn't too late, for her or myself. If I could make myself like this I could surely undo it. I could stop her from receiving the torture that I had been through. I would stop it all.

~I can stop the pain if I will it all away
If I will it all away~