Disclaimer: see 1st part.
**I'm sorry for the bad formatting before. I saw it a short time after I uploaded it, but I simply had no time to change it in the file and upload it again since I got my school report/diploma and after that there was a ball. and yesterday morning I went to my aunts birthday. I came back a few hours ago and had to deal with over a hundred emails because I forgot to change my mailinglists to no mail. so here is the new format. I hope it's better now.**
A/N: I somehow lost contact with my beta (I send this part over a month ago and never got an answer. it makes me wonder whether she got the mail at all.). therefore this part is NOT beta read yet. but since so many asked I decided to post this unbetaed.
A/N 2: I am not satisfied with this part. I am also not sure whether I should leave it as it is or add a bit more. for now it will remain that until I have a betaed version. for news you might want to go to my group (address is in my bio).
For Harry
Tom Riddle watched the man kneeling before him. He could feel the fright the man projected. Fear for his life. Severus Snape had come back again, although he must have known that his position as a spy for Dumbledore was revealed. So why did he return?
"Tell me, Severus, why should I believe that you are willing to rejoin my forces and did you think that it would be that easy and painless? You already betrayed the cause once. Who tells me that you won't do it again and most importantly why should I believe you? Why should I trust you? How did you plan to convince me of your sincerity?" asked the man known as Lord Voldemort.
He watched the Potion Master in front of him. He watched the man in front of him straightening up and directing his focus on his former master.
Tom could see the tension in the eyes of the man. Fear of the punishment for his betrayal and determination. He was curious what Severus had to say to convince him of his return. He could see the man prepare himself for his speech. He could see the structure of the man's defence build. He never ceased to be amazed at Severus self control. While he did know everything about his other followers Severus Snape stayed a mystery to him. He prided himself to know the motives behind everyone. Even the ones behind Lucius Malfoy, but every time he thought he finally figured out the motives behind the man in front of him the Potion Master did something that did not fit. For a short moment he thought that maybe Harry Potter did. But he doubted that the boy would ever tell him. He had learned what it meant to keep secrets and why they are important. It could give one advantages and the example of his parents' death showed that you could never be sure who might be a spy.
Severus had composed himself in the meantime and started to defend himself, the only thing that stood between him and his death.
"I could not stand to watch children and other bystanders in this war getting tortured and killed. I hated it even more doing it myself and I still do. Back than I did not realise that you might have other uses for me. That's why I went to Dumbledore. I did not realise that it would not change things. I did not realise that Dumbledore would be able to manipulate me into believing everything he told me. He used my guilt to make me do things I never wanted to do. I got a letter from Harry earlier today. It made me realise that Dumbledore only used me. It led me to believe that he must have known that you were not truly defeated and he would need a spy again. Would he have known that you would not be able to return he most probably would have left me to rot in Azkaban. Please forgive me for being so blind. I know that Harry does not like torture much and that made me think that I should have talked with you about my hate of the torturing sessions. It made me realise that I still could have served you without watching or even taking part in the torture. I have come to ask you for forgiveness for my blindness. I realised in how many ways I could serve you without having to watch how someone gets tortured. I do not fear to use torture to get to information that would be useful since the person know about the risk and have done they're share of crimes in the war. I also could brew every potion you need and I could research old potions long forgotten or create new ones. I would be willing to do the same with curses, hexes and charms that might be useful to you. I could help you to prepare the newly initiated Death Eaters in the rules and strategy needed for the raids. Would I have realised all that before I broke your trust in me I surely would have never gone to Dumbledore.
I will never betray you as long as Harry is on your side. And he realised that the wizarding world needs to be changed. Something you always had in mind. I could never fight against Harry. He made me realise that even the so called side of Light kills and tortures those they believe to be against them and even those they want to recruit for their fight.
I was too blinded by my guilt and Dumbledore, who only made me feel even more guilty, to realise my mistake. It took me until Harry's letter to see my wrong."
'Now that he mentions it he always showed some reluctance to go to the torture sessions as he so nicely calls them. Maybe I should have paid more attention. Why does he have to have a point in his defiance? Who allowed him to make sense?' Tom Riddle thought a little disappointed.
His disappointment quickly turned into glee when he realised that he still could punish the potions master while still being able to let him rejoin his forces. He did betray him and that was a good reason for punishment and he also seemed sincere enough about wanting to rejoin. And he could need someone willing to do research. It gave an advantage to use spells and potions either forgotten or newly invented. The enemy is not prepared for them. Although Harry already worked on it he did not exactly finish school. And two persons researching would be useful. It brings new ideas and point of views one did not think about which sped research up. And he did know that Harry missed his soul mate. 'He feels guilty for betraying Severus. It definitely would make him more enthusiastic and he would have someone else besides me he would be willing to torture his so called relatives with. After all you can't call them innocent.'
Tom Riddle did not believe that the Potions Master would mind much torturing them after what they did to his soul mate.
tbc.
**I'm sorry for the bad formatting before. I saw it a short time after I uploaded it, but I simply had no time to change it in the file and upload it again since I got my school report/diploma and after that there was a ball. and yesterday morning I went to my aunts birthday. I came back a few hours ago and had to deal with over a hundred emails because I forgot to change my mailinglists to no mail. so here is the new format. I hope it's better now.**
A/N: I somehow lost contact with my beta (I send this part over a month ago and never got an answer. it makes me wonder whether she got the mail at all.). therefore this part is NOT beta read yet. but since so many asked I decided to post this unbetaed.
A/N 2: I am not satisfied with this part. I am also not sure whether I should leave it as it is or add a bit more. for now it will remain that until I have a betaed version. for news you might want to go to my group (address is in my bio).
For Harry
Tom Riddle watched the man kneeling before him. He could feel the fright the man projected. Fear for his life. Severus Snape had come back again, although he must have known that his position as a spy for Dumbledore was revealed. So why did he return?
"Tell me, Severus, why should I believe that you are willing to rejoin my forces and did you think that it would be that easy and painless? You already betrayed the cause once. Who tells me that you won't do it again and most importantly why should I believe you? Why should I trust you? How did you plan to convince me of your sincerity?" asked the man known as Lord Voldemort.
He watched the Potion Master in front of him. He watched the man in front of him straightening up and directing his focus on his former master.
Tom could see the tension in the eyes of the man. Fear of the punishment for his betrayal and determination. He was curious what Severus had to say to convince him of his return. He could see the man prepare himself for his speech. He could see the structure of the man's defence build. He never ceased to be amazed at Severus self control. While he did know everything about his other followers Severus Snape stayed a mystery to him. He prided himself to know the motives behind everyone. Even the ones behind Lucius Malfoy, but every time he thought he finally figured out the motives behind the man in front of him the Potion Master did something that did not fit. For a short moment he thought that maybe Harry Potter did. But he doubted that the boy would ever tell him. He had learned what it meant to keep secrets and why they are important. It could give one advantages and the example of his parents' death showed that you could never be sure who might be a spy.
Severus had composed himself in the meantime and started to defend himself, the only thing that stood between him and his death.
"I could not stand to watch children and other bystanders in this war getting tortured and killed. I hated it even more doing it myself and I still do. Back than I did not realise that you might have other uses for me. That's why I went to Dumbledore. I did not realise that it would not change things. I did not realise that Dumbledore would be able to manipulate me into believing everything he told me. He used my guilt to make me do things I never wanted to do. I got a letter from Harry earlier today. It made me realise that Dumbledore only used me. It led me to believe that he must have known that you were not truly defeated and he would need a spy again. Would he have known that you would not be able to return he most probably would have left me to rot in Azkaban. Please forgive me for being so blind. I know that Harry does not like torture much and that made me think that I should have talked with you about my hate of the torturing sessions. It made me realise that I still could have served you without watching or even taking part in the torture. I have come to ask you for forgiveness for my blindness. I realised in how many ways I could serve you without having to watch how someone gets tortured. I do not fear to use torture to get to information that would be useful since the person know about the risk and have done they're share of crimes in the war. I also could brew every potion you need and I could research old potions long forgotten or create new ones. I would be willing to do the same with curses, hexes and charms that might be useful to you. I could help you to prepare the newly initiated Death Eaters in the rules and strategy needed for the raids. Would I have realised all that before I broke your trust in me I surely would have never gone to Dumbledore.
I will never betray you as long as Harry is on your side. And he realised that the wizarding world needs to be changed. Something you always had in mind. I could never fight against Harry. He made me realise that even the so called side of Light kills and tortures those they believe to be against them and even those they want to recruit for their fight.
I was too blinded by my guilt and Dumbledore, who only made me feel even more guilty, to realise my mistake. It took me until Harry's letter to see my wrong."
'Now that he mentions it he always showed some reluctance to go to the torture sessions as he so nicely calls them. Maybe I should have paid more attention. Why does he have to have a point in his defiance? Who allowed him to make sense?' Tom Riddle thought a little disappointed.
His disappointment quickly turned into glee when he realised that he still could punish the potions master while still being able to let him rejoin his forces. He did betray him and that was a good reason for punishment and he also seemed sincere enough about wanting to rejoin. And he could need someone willing to do research. It gave an advantage to use spells and potions either forgotten or newly invented. The enemy is not prepared for them. Although Harry already worked on it he did not exactly finish school. And two persons researching would be useful. It brings new ideas and point of views one did not think about which sped research up. And he did know that Harry missed his soul mate. 'He feels guilty for betraying Severus. It definitely would make him more enthusiastic and he would have someone else besides me he would be willing to torture his so called relatives with. After all you can't call them innocent.'
Tom Riddle did not believe that the Potions Master would mind much torturing them after what they did to his soul mate.
tbc.