Through my eyes

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Ch. 4: No more hating you. Well maybe.

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I was in the common room doing my Charms homework when Diana and Esmeralda came up to me.

"Hey," I said to them. I could feel them staring at me. I was trying to ignore them, but I couldn't.

"What are you guys staring at?" I demanded.

"We heard what you told James," Diana told me.

"Oh," I replied.

"He's really upset," Esmerelda added.

"Oh," I said again. And note to self, stop saying oh.

"Oh? Only oh? The only thing you can think of is 'oh'?" Diana asked me.

"What do you want me to say?" I replied to her. For I really didn't know what to say. Why is this happening to me?

"Well, you can tell me why all of a sudden you said those things to him," Diana told me.

"He wanted to know why I didn't want to go out with him," I explained to them, "and I told him why. I told him everything I thought,"

"I guess the truth does hurt then," Esmeralda said.

"I should talk to him, shouldn't I?" I don't know why I asked that question. I know I should, even if I didn't want to. I hurt him bad.

"I think you should Lil," Esmeralda told me as she rubbed my shoulder.

"Ok," I got up.

"He's at the lake," Diana announced.

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Once I got to the lake, I saw him sitting on the grass. He was just looking straight ahead of him. It looked like he was in a trance. Once I was near him I asked: "May I sit here?" all he did was nod.

I kept my eyes on the water when I told him: "I'm sorry James,"

"Don't be," he said. Then he turned to be and said, "You just called me James,"

"What? Oh, I mean Potter," I said quickly. We were silent for a moment, until he spoke.

"I'm the one who should me sorry. You were right. If actually listen to you, I would know you. You deserve to hate me," he admitted. I think it's time to break this sad moment.

"I don't hate you. I loathe you," I said with a small smile on my face.

"Well that makes me feel better," he replied sarcastically, but he had a small smile on his face too.

I couldn't help but smile more. Maybe I can become friends with him but remember, I said maybe.

"So you're not going to hate me anymore?" he asked me.

"Ha! Of course I'll still hate you. But I can probably develop not to hate you," I answered him.

"I can deal with that," he said.

"But starting over is a start though," I told him.

"Starting over how?" he asked me.

"Like 'Hi, my name is Lily Evans I still hate you but will probably not hate you later on'," I said.

"Ok. So my name is James Potter and I will try not to annoy you anymore," he told me with a grin. Except this time, his grin didn't irritate me.

"Very good," I complimented him. "Now, tell me your birthday, favorite color, and who your parents are,"

"February 4th, blue, and my parents are Larissa and Benjamin Potter,"

"You are getting better and better," I told him.

"Now it's my turn. What is your most embarrassing moment?" he asked me.

"I am not telling you," He must be crazy to think I will ever tell him.

"Oh, but you have to in order for me to get to know you," he said while he tried to hold back laughter.

"I hate you," I told him and glaring at him playfully.

"I know you do," he said with a big smile on his face. I don't know why, but I burst out laughing and he joined in too.

We talked for about an hour, and I never told him what my most embarrassing moment was. We started to head back to the Great Hall for dinner when he told me that Sirius had liked Esmeralda ever since the end of 5th year.

"And one night, we heard Sirius say he liked Esmeralda more than food. We started to laugh hysterically," he said laughing himself.

"Is it even possible for Sirius to like something or someone for than food," I replied laughing also.

"With Sirius, everything is a surprise," he told me. We finally reached the Great Hall. I was about to tell him that I actually enjoyed talking to him, when he beat me to it.

"I had a good time talking to you," he told me truthfully.

"Same here," I agreed.

"I'll get you to go out with me later," he said with a little smirk. I gave him a look that meant 'in your dreams'. He gave me a small laugh that was actually charming. Whoa! And there I go again with that word.

"Well, goodbye… James,"

He smiled at me and said: "Bye Lily,"

I went to go sit with Diana and Esmeralda. When I got there the attacked me with questions. Be fore I answered them; I looked at James and saw that he was in the same situation. He saw me and smiled at me and I smiled too.

Who knows what the future may bring. It might actually be a good future. And I think I might actually enjoy it too. And what in the hell did I just say there. All I was trying to say was that- ugh never mind.

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A/n: hey. And all I can think of right know is hey. Oh and please review. Gracias.