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The Best Deceptions: A Cowboy Bebop Fanfic
By: Katie S.
Rated: PG-13/ R ( sexual situations, language)
Category: Romance/ Drama
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Chapter 7: Blood-red Insanity
I never thought it would really happen. It was one of the last things on my mind, and one of the least likely to intromit itself. But how could I not think of it? It was obvious he would be home any day then, but I still let myself get caught up. Spike had this mystery about him, and when I thought about him, that was all I was thinking about, nothing more, nothing less. It was only inevitable it would happen, considering all the heated moments we had been sharing since the moment we met, and all the times I had stopped to think about him. But if it was truly lust that I felt... why did I have this other feeling tugging at my heart? An unknown feeling... something I had never felt before...
Was this love?
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His eyes seethed with the blood-red tint of rage, his whole body trembling with unknown amounts of insanity. He tightened his fists tighter and tighter, blood slowly seeping from his rigid knuckles. I was scared. It was the angriest I had ever seen him. He looked as if he could kill a whole army with just one blow, and nothing was going to stop him. But his eyes were fixed on another target... Spike...
Spike had told me he knew him, but as I watched their eyes flicker with pure hatred, I knew it was so much more than that. The silence between them was penetrating, chilling me down to the very last bone. They weren't moving. Just glaring deeply, as if they were the only last people in the world. I had to break this sooner or later, for fear of denial from both of them...
I swallowed nervously. " V-vicious..." My wandering voice pierced between them, and all their attentions turned to me.
His eyes burned with yet more rage. " Shut-up Bitch!" He quickly pulled his sword out, raising it towards me. Not once, but twice I had a weapon pulled on me that day. I was slowly beginning to panic...
" You stupid slut! HOW COULD YOU! And with this piece of trash?!" He stepped towards me, his trembling body practically shaking the whole room.
Spike slowly stepped forward, pulling out his gun. " Keep her out of this. It's me you want..."
There was another silence as their hated gaze on each other deepened with even more hysteria. Vicious narrowed his eyes sharply. " I thought I killed you..." My eyes widened. It was Vicious. That whole time.... It was him...
" You know you wanted me to live. You wanted me to suffer..." Spike slowly stepped towards him, tightening his grasp on his gun.
Vicious glanced at me with dark eyes, quickly turning back towards Spike. " It seems you've been doing fine... What is this anyways? Is this you're revenge on me? Seducing my lover? That's pretty low..."
Spike smirked. " Maybe. I'm just following your foot-steps..." I clenched my fists tightly, anger surging through my veins All that time... he was using me... FOR REVENGE?! What the hell happened in the first place anyways?!
" She's not dead I hope you know. You can have her back.... but she doesn't love you anyways..."
Spike's eyes filled with delirium, and he aimlessly shot at Vicious, the loud gunshot shattering the silence. " FUCK YOU! Quit drenching me with your lies damn it!!" Vicious quickly dodged his bullets, his cold eyes never leaving Spike.
Vicious smirked evily. " Why run from the truth Spike. Julia never loved you... and you know it..." He swiftly raised his sword towards Spike, letting his eyes dart towards me temporaily. I shivered at his gaze. This was all my fault. Everything was my fault....
" Why don't you stop and listen to your own advice? When are you going to tell your fiance the truth?"
I froze. Truth? What the hell was he talking about? Vicious had nothing to hide from me... Right?
Vicious narrowed his eyes at him, abruptly darting towards him, his eyes glazed with insanity. Spike quickly ducked away, knocking over a shelf in return. My room was way too small to be killing each other in, couldn't they see that? I trembled in fear. Why was this happening? I didn't want anything bad to happen to either of them... but it looked as though they wouldn't stop until death. I had to choose one or the other...
I screamed obtrusively. I couldn't stand it anymore. It had to end, no matter what. I sharply pulled my gun out of my dresser, shakily aiming it at the two men. " STOP IT!!" My shrill voiced echoed throughout the room, causing the two enraged men to glance my way sharply.
My aim slowly teetered between Spike and Vicious. I didn't know what to do. I loved Vicous... but.. Spike had slowly pushed his way inside of me.
" Are you really gonna shoot me baby?" Vicious chuckled slightly. I narrowed my eyes back at him. He was making a joke of this? I wasn't going to let that happen any longer...
My index finger was slowling pulling the trigger... tighter and tighter. " Y-yes... I will.. if you don't stop this."
He chuckled again. " No you won't..."
That was it. I had REALLY had enough. I pulled the trigger tightly, the bullet piercing threw the air in a swift fluid motion. It was like slow motion to me, the bullet twisting in hate as it barely passed by Vicious, shattering a window behind him. I shut my eyes tightly, letting the tears fall.
Spike's mouth gaped wide open as he stared at me, shocked. Vicious simply smirked in return, lowering his sword and slowly making his way towards me. " Well, that's no way to treat your husband to be..." His cold arm slipped around my waist, pulling my limp body towards him. He softly traced a frigid hand up my body and towards my neck. He grasped my neck tightly, pain surging through me as I fought as hard as I could to breathe... to think... to move. I could see Spike slowly making his way towards us, gun aiming at the back of his head. But before I even gave my mind to think, I raised my gun... but not at the pain I was feeling. Not the man I hated at the moment... but at Spike. Vicious smirked coyly, loosening his grasp on my neck.
" Spike... get away from me... Leave us alone..." My heart wrenched deeply, shattering into a million pieces. I had to choose... one or the other...
Spike eyes widened with pain. His whole body froze as he slowly lowered his gun, never breaking the agonizing gaze he held on me. Even more tears poured down my cheeks... it all felt so wrong...
Vicious pulled his sword out again, but I stopped him, pressing the gun against his head. " No... I want it all to stop. No more..." I pushed the gun farther and farther into Vicious's head as the silence greeted me grieviously. He slowly lowered his sword in return, fixing his eyes on me with a penetrating gaze.
" Faye..." Spike's voice finally arose, drenched in pain and agony. It all felt so wrong...
" Get out of here..." I shut my eyes tightly. This was our good- bye... It came faster than I thought...
I kept the gun on Vicious's head, watching Spike slowly make his way out of my bedroom, never keeping his pleading eyes off of me. It was too easy... he'd be back... someday. They will be fighting each other until the day they die...
I fell to my knees, the gun falling to the floor beside me. Tears streamed from my eyes, and my whole body throbbed with pain. It was over... I had really done it...
" Faye..." Vicious's frigid hand met my neck again, sending shivers down my spine. " Why'd you do it?! Don't you love me?!" He kneeled down beside me, rage still continuing to boil in his cold blue eyes.
" I-I do..." I shut my eyes even tighter. There was nothing to say. I had cheated on him. I was caught in the act, there was no point trying to lie.
" SHUT-UP!" His desolating fist met my tear-stricken face, sending my limp body flailing against the wall. I flinched at the pain slightly, only letting more tears fall in return. I couldn't fight back... It was over...
He violently grabbed my neck again, smashing my thin frame against the wall. " How long has this been going on?!"
I remained silent, shutting my eyes even tighter. I couldn't look at him.... I couldn't fight back...
" ANSWER ME BITCH!!" He smacked me straight across the face, engraving the pain even deeper.
I swallowed nervously. " H-how... how do you know Spike?" The mention of his name filled my heart with hope, but Vicious... his eyes darkened with hate, his grip around my neck tightening ruthlessly.
He remained silent, his cold eyes narrowing at me hatefully. Something was wrong. There was definitely something about Spike and Vicious that I didn't know, but I wanted to know. I was tired of geting left in the dark. I was tired of getting treated like shit. I wanted to be able to live freely... love freely.
I finally opened my eyes, giving Vicious a determined glare. " Who's Julia?"
Shock and bewilderment filled his entire face, his cold blue eyes widening. He slowly loosened his grip, shooting me an indignant glare. " You're lucky I love you Faye... you would've been dead long ago with that attitude..."
I straightened my posture, clenching my fists tightly. " You still haven't answered my question... who is she?" I was getting risky, but at that point, I didn't care. It was all over...
He abruptly grabbed my wrist, throwing me into the full body mirror, glass shatterning everywhere, decorating my limp body resting on the floor. " You WILL love me Faye!! And you WILL stop asking giving me that attitude!" He slowly stood up, brushing his trench coat off as if nothing had happened.
I gritted my teeth tightly, as the blood poured from my wounds. Rage slowly replaced my woe, my eyes darkening as I gazed upon him. My tears were no more... My love was no more... It was over...
He slowly turned around, gazing upon me, his form silhouetting against the bright light pouring in my bedroom. " I will kill him Faye. And you will not get in the way..." He paused pulling his sword out, the cool metal gleaming against the sunlight. " And if you refuse to love me... I will kill you as well..." He slowly turned around, making his way out of my bedroom. I watched as his dark form slowly disappeared out the front door, never turing to look back once. But I didn't want him to. I didn't want to gaze upon those cold eyes. I didn't want to feel the frigid aura around him... Why hadn't I seen this before?
I shakily stood up, blood dripping from my wounds. It all seemed unreal to me. I felt as if I was in some kind of nightmare, and that I would be waking up to the beautiful sunlight once again. But deep inside... I knew that wasn't the case. But even so, I wouldn't let my heart believe it. I was stuck, with no turning back, and no where to run. I had ruined it... all of it. It would be the last time I saw Spike. The last time I could love Vicious. The last time I could feel love... It all had passed me by like a rapid blur, and it was over.... It was all over...
I shuffled my weak body into the bathroom, collapsing to the cold, tile floor on my knees. I rested my head against the edge of the tub, clutching my wounds tightly. Why hadn't I seen it before. I really truly loved Vicious... but why couldn't I see his hate... his madness. His eyes never had seemed so cold to me. They were warm and loving. But that was when I loved him. I did not love Vicious anymore... I did not feel that warmth inside my heart for him... But then again... did I ever?
I reached over and turned the faucet on, letting the cool water cleanse my bloodied hands. I shakily stood up, peeling my clothing off as gently as I could. Wincing at the pain, I slowly stepped in the frigid water, letting my weak body collapse in its density. I shivered as the cold water stung my skin, but I quickly forced it away. I did not want to feel warmth. I wanted to feel the coldness, for that is what I felt in my heart. That is what I felt when I thought of my life. I would no longer feel that happy, warmth when I awoke, and I would no longer dream anything but nightmares when I slept at night. This was reality. And it was litterally beating me into bloody mass of nothingness...
I glanced down at the crystal water, my own blood mixing with its purity, leaving it a seething red tint. He had done this to me. He was my love, my future. Yet he was the one who had inflicted so much pain. Why didn't I kill him? Why did I threaten my only hope... Spike? He would've helped me end the nightmare, but I cowardly let the threatening values of life catch up with me. I made him leave... forever. I was truly the one to blame for this nightmare...
It was over...
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Short, but sad chapter... I was even shedding a few tears, and I know what's gonna happen at the end of this story, lol. Well, I'm also a very emotional person, so I guess that doesn't really count, right?
Anyways... Did you like it? What will happen next? Don't know... You've got to reveiw... and then I'll type the next chapter... And THEN you'll find out lol.
Oh, BTW, thank you for the great reviews, they've really inspired me to keep this piece of crap fan fiction going. But it's all for the love of Spike and Faye, right?
Right....
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The Best Deceptions: A Cowboy Bebop Fanfic
By: Katie S.
Rated: PG-13/ R ( sexual situations, language)
Category: Romance/ Drama
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Chapter 7: Blood-red Insanity
I never thought it would really happen. It was one of the last things on my mind, and one of the least likely to intromit itself. But how could I not think of it? It was obvious he would be home any day then, but I still let myself get caught up. Spike had this mystery about him, and when I thought about him, that was all I was thinking about, nothing more, nothing less. It was only inevitable it would happen, considering all the heated moments we had been sharing since the moment we met, and all the times I had stopped to think about him. But if it was truly lust that I felt... why did I have this other feeling tugging at my heart? An unknown feeling... something I had never felt before...
Was this love?
~*~
His eyes seethed with the blood-red tint of rage, his whole body trembling with unknown amounts of insanity. He tightened his fists tighter and tighter, blood slowly seeping from his rigid knuckles. I was scared. It was the angriest I had ever seen him. He looked as if he could kill a whole army with just one blow, and nothing was going to stop him. But his eyes were fixed on another target... Spike...
Spike had told me he knew him, but as I watched their eyes flicker with pure hatred, I knew it was so much more than that. The silence between them was penetrating, chilling me down to the very last bone. They weren't moving. Just glaring deeply, as if they were the only last people in the world. I had to break this sooner or later, for fear of denial from both of them...
I swallowed nervously. " V-vicious..." My wandering voice pierced between them, and all their attentions turned to me.
His eyes burned with yet more rage. " Shut-up Bitch!" He quickly pulled his sword out, raising it towards me. Not once, but twice I had a weapon pulled on me that day. I was slowly beginning to panic...
" You stupid slut! HOW COULD YOU! And with this piece of trash?!" He stepped towards me, his trembling body practically shaking the whole room.
Spike slowly stepped forward, pulling out his gun. " Keep her out of this. It's me you want..."
There was another silence as their hated gaze on each other deepened with even more hysteria. Vicious narrowed his eyes sharply. " I thought I killed you..." My eyes widened. It was Vicious. That whole time.... It was him...
" You know you wanted me to live. You wanted me to suffer..." Spike slowly stepped towards him, tightening his grasp on his gun.
Vicious glanced at me with dark eyes, quickly turning back towards Spike. " It seems you've been doing fine... What is this anyways? Is this you're revenge on me? Seducing my lover? That's pretty low..."
Spike smirked. " Maybe. I'm just following your foot-steps..." I clenched my fists tightly, anger surging through my veins All that time... he was using me... FOR REVENGE?! What the hell happened in the first place anyways?!
" She's not dead I hope you know. You can have her back.... but she doesn't love you anyways..."
Spike's eyes filled with delirium, and he aimlessly shot at Vicious, the loud gunshot shattering the silence. " FUCK YOU! Quit drenching me with your lies damn it!!" Vicious quickly dodged his bullets, his cold eyes never leaving Spike.
Vicious smirked evily. " Why run from the truth Spike. Julia never loved you... and you know it..." He swiftly raised his sword towards Spike, letting his eyes dart towards me temporaily. I shivered at his gaze. This was all my fault. Everything was my fault....
" Why don't you stop and listen to your own advice? When are you going to tell your fiance the truth?"
I froze. Truth? What the hell was he talking about? Vicious had nothing to hide from me... Right?
Vicious narrowed his eyes at him, abruptly darting towards him, his eyes glazed with insanity. Spike quickly ducked away, knocking over a shelf in return. My room was way too small to be killing each other in, couldn't they see that? I trembled in fear. Why was this happening? I didn't want anything bad to happen to either of them... but it looked as though they wouldn't stop until death. I had to choose one or the other...
I screamed obtrusively. I couldn't stand it anymore. It had to end, no matter what. I sharply pulled my gun out of my dresser, shakily aiming it at the two men. " STOP IT!!" My shrill voiced echoed throughout the room, causing the two enraged men to glance my way sharply.
My aim slowly teetered between Spike and Vicious. I didn't know what to do. I loved Vicous... but.. Spike had slowly pushed his way inside of me.
" Are you really gonna shoot me baby?" Vicious chuckled slightly. I narrowed my eyes back at him. He was making a joke of this? I wasn't going to let that happen any longer...
My index finger was slowling pulling the trigger... tighter and tighter. " Y-yes... I will.. if you don't stop this."
He chuckled again. " No you won't..."
That was it. I had REALLY had enough. I pulled the trigger tightly, the bullet piercing threw the air in a swift fluid motion. It was like slow motion to me, the bullet twisting in hate as it barely passed by Vicious, shattering a window behind him. I shut my eyes tightly, letting the tears fall.
Spike's mouth gaped wide open as he stared at me, shocked. Vicious simply smirked in return, lowering his sword and slowly making his way towards me. " Well, that's no way to treat your husband to be..." His cold arm slipped around my waist, pulling my limp body towards him. He softly traced a frigid hand up my body and towards my neck. He grasped my neck tightly, pain surging through me as I fought as hard as I could to breathe... to think... to move. I could see Spike slowly making his way towards us, gun aiming at the back of his head. But before I even gave my mind to think, I raised my gun... but not at the pain I was feeling. Not the man I hated at the moment... but at Spike. Vicious smirked coyly, loosening his grasp on my neck.
" Spike... get away from me... Leave us alone..." My heart wrenched deeply, shattering into a million pieces. I had to choose... one or the other...
Spike eyes widened with pain. His whole body froze as he slowly lowered his gun, never breaking the agonizing gaze he held on me. Even more tears poured down my cheeks... it all felt so wrong...
Vicious pulled his sword out again, but I stopped him, pressing the gun against his head. " No... I want it all to stop. No more..." I pushed the gun farther and farther into Vicious's head as the silence greeted me grieviously. He slowly lowered his sword in return, fixing his eyes on me with a penetrating gaze.
" Faye..." Spike's voice finally arose, drenched in pain and agony. It all felt so wrong...
" Get out of here..." I shut my eyes tightly. This was our good- bye... It came faster than I thought...
I kept the gun on Vicious's head, watching Spike slowly make his way out of my bedroom, never keeping his pleading eyes off of me. It was too easy... he'd be back... someday. They will be fighting each other until the day they die...
I fell to my knees, the gun falling to the floor beside me. Tears streamed from my eyes, and my whole body throbbed with pain. It was over... I had really done it...
" Faye..." Vicious's frigid hand met my neck again, sending shivers down my spine. " Why'd you do it?! Don't you love me?!" He kneeled down beside me, rage still continuing to boil in his cold blue eyes.
" I-I do..." I shut my eyes even tighter. There was nothing to say. I had cheated on him. I was caught in the act, there was no point trying to lie.
" SHUT-UP!" His desolating fist met my tear-stricken face, sending my limp body flailing against the wall. I flinched at the pain slightly, only letting more tears fall in return. I couldn't fight back... It was over...
He violently grabbed my neck again, smashing my thin frame against the wall. " How long has this been going on?!"
I remained silent, shutting my eyes even tighter. I couldn't look at him.... I couldn't fight back...
" ANSWER ME BITCH!!" He smacked me straight across the face, engraving the pain even deeper.
I swallowed nervously. " H-how... how do you know Spike?" The mention of his name filled my heart with hope, but Vicious... his eyes darkened with hate, his grip around my neck tightening ruthlessly.
He remained silent, his cold eyes narrowing at me hatefully. Something was wrong. There was definitely something about Spike and Vicious that I didn't know, but I wanted to know. I was tired of geting left in the dark. I was tired of getting treated like shit. I wanted to be able to live freely... love freely.
I finally opened my eyes, giving Vicious a determined glare. " Who's Julia?"
Shock and bewilderment filled his entire face, his cold blue eyes widening. He slowly loosened his grip, shooting me an indignant glare. " You're lucky I love you Faye... you would've been dead long ago with that attitude..."
I straightened my posture, clenching my fists tightly. " You still haven't answered my question... who is she?" I was getting risky, but at that point, I didn't care. It was all over...
He abruptly grabbed my wrist, throwing me into the full body mirror, glass shatterning everywhere, decorating my limp body resting on the floor. " You WILL love me Faye!! And you WILL stop asking giving me that attitude!" He slowly stood up, brushing his trench coat off as if nothing had happened.
I gritted my teeth tightly, as the blood poured from my wounds. Rage slowly replaced my woe, my eyes darkening as I gazed upon him. My tears were no more... My love was no more... It was over...
He slowly turned around, gazing upon me, his form silhouetting against the bright light pouring in my bedroom. " I will kill him Faye. And you will not get in the way..." He paused pulling his sword out, the cool metal gleaming against the sunlight. " And if you refuse to love me... I will kill you as well..." He slowly turned around, making his way out of my bedroom. I watched as his dark form slowly disappeared out the front door, never turing to look back once. But I didn't want him to. I didn't want to gaze upon those cold eyes. I didn't want to feel the frigid aura around him... Why hadn't I seen this before?
I shakily stood up, blood dripping from my wounds. It all seemed unreal to me. I felt as if I was in some kind of nightmare, and that I would be waking up to the beautiful sunlight once again. But deep inside... I knew that wasn't the case. But even so, I wouldn't let my heart believe it. I was stuck, with no turning back, and no where to run. I had ruined it... all of it. It would be the last time I saw Spike. The last time I could love Vicious. The last time I could feel love... It all had passed me by like a rapid blur, and it was over.... It was all over...
I shuffled my weak body into the bathroom, collapsing to the cold, tile floor on my knees. I rested my head against the edge of the tub, clutching my wounds tightly. Why hadn't I seen it before. I really truly loved Vicious... but why couldn't I see his hate... his madness. His eyes never had seemed so cold to me. They were warm and loving. But that was when I loved him. I did not love Vicious anymore... I did not feel that warmth inside my heart for him... But then again... did I ever?
I reached over and turned the faucet on, letting the cool water cleanse my bloodied hands. I shakily stood up, peeling my clothing off as gently as I could. Wincing at the pain, I slowly stepped in the frigid water, letting my weak body collapse in its density. I shivered as the cold water stung my skin, but I quickly forced it away. I did not want to feel warmth. I wanted to feel the coldness, for that is what I felt in my heart. That is what I felt when I thought of my life. I would no longer feel that happy, warmth when I awoke, and I would no longer dream anything but nightmares when I slept at night. This was reality. And it was litterally beating me into bloody mass of nothingness...
I glanced down at the crystal water, my own blood mixing with its purity, leaving it a seething red tint. He had done this to me. He was my love, my future. Yet he was the one who had inflicted so much pain. Why didn't I kill him? Why did I threaten my only hope... Spike? He would've helped me end the nightmare, but I cowardly let the threatening values of life catch up with me. I made him leave... forever. I was truly the one to blame for this nightmare...
It was over...
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Short, but sad chapter... I was even shedding a few tears, and I know what's gonna happen at the end of this story, lol. Well, I'm also a very emotional person, so I guess that doesn't really count, right?
Anyways... Did you like it? What will happen next? Don't know... You've got to reveiw... and then I'll type the next chapter... And THEN you'll find out lol.
Oh, BTW, thank you for the great reviews, they've really inspired me to keep this piece of crap fan fiction going. But it's all for the love of Spike and Faye, right?
Right....