I'd like to say that I just heard the news of Jonathan Brandis' passing
yesterday. I wanted to write this as soon as I heard, but shock and grief
prevented me from it. He was my idol and celebrity crush for quite some
time. I never met him, but I will still miss him.
So here is my tribute. The song is Tears In Heaven, By Eric Clapton.
Nathan Bridger looked around the empty quarters that used to belong to the intelligent teenager Lucas Wolenczak. It felt like so long ago that Bridger last saw the boy smile, and he would give anything to see it again. But he new that was impossible. Lucas had committed suicide 2 weeks ago.
*Would you know my name,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*Would it be the same,*
*If I saw you heaven?*
*I must be strong and carry on,*
*Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven.*
There was a suicide note, but all it said was this:
Captain,
By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead. However, there are a
Couple things I still need you to know. Firstly, I'm sorry. I want
You to know that its not your fault I did this. It's not anyone's
Fault really, I just felt that I needed to get away, for good, so
Don't blame yourself for this, please.
Secondly, I wanted to thank you. You're the closest thing to a
father I ever had. You cared about me in a way that nobody else
ever has. And I'm grateful for that in so many ways.
Love always,
Lucas
Bridger had read it over so many times he had I memorized. Even so, he still wasn't sure the exact reason Lucas did what he did. Just mere 2 weeks ago Lucas was the happy, bright eyed boy that everybody loved. Why?
*Would you hold my hand,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*Would you help me stand,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*I'll find my way, through night and day,*
*Cause I know I can't stay here in heaven.*
Bridger wondered into the small room and sat on the bed. Everything had been left exactly the way Lucas had left it. The bed was unmade, dirty and clean laundry littered the floor and it still held the young man's presence.
"Am I interrupting anything?" Kristin Westphalen stood in the doorway.
"No, come in." He whispered.
*Time can bring you down,*
*Time can bend your knee,*
*Time can break your heart,*
*have you begging please.*
*Begging please.*
Kristin walked in and joined Bridger on the bed. They sat silently for a moment, taking time to remember all the times the had with Lucas, good or bad.
"Its not fair is it?" Kristin broke the silence. "He had so much going for him. He could have been anything he wanted to be."
"All we can do is hope he's happy where he is now." Bridger said softly.
"I guess your right." She replied.
*Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure.*
*And I know they'll be no more tears in heaven.*
The tears started to flow silently down Bridger's cheeks and Kristin soon joined him. He would never know the exact reason why Lucas decided to take his own life, but he did know that he would always remember him as Lucas Wolenczak: Beloved friend to many.
*Would you know my name,*
*If I saw you heaven?*
*Would it be the same,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*I must be strong, and carry on,*
*Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven.*
Dedicated to Jonathan Gregory Brandis. May you rest in peace Jon.You will live on in the hearts of many.
So here is my tribute. The song is Tears In Heaven, By Eric Clapton.
Nathan Bridger looked around the empty quarters that used to belong to the intelligent teenager Lucas Wolenczak. It felt like so long ago that Bridger last saw the boy smile, and he would give anything to see it again. But he new that was impossible. Lucas had committed suicide 2 weeks ago.
*Would you know my name,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*Would it be the same,*
*If I saw you heaven?*
*I must be strong and carry on,*
*Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven.*
There was a suicide note, but all it said was this:
Captain,
By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead. However, there are a
Couple things I still need you to know. Firstly, I'm sorry. I want
You to know that its not your fault I did this. It's not anyone's
Fault really, I just felt that I needed to get away, for good, so
Don't blame yourself for this, please.
Secondly, I wanted to thank you. You're the closest thing to a
father I ever had. You cared about me in a way that nobody else
ever has. And I'm grateful for that in so many ways.
Love always,
Lucas
Bridger had read it over so many times he had I memorized. Even so, he still wasn't sure the exact reason Lucas did what he did. Just mere 2 weeks ago Lucas was the happy, bright eyed boy that everybody loved. Why?
*Would you hold my hand,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*Would you help me stand,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*I'll find my way, through night and day,*
*Cause I know I can't stay here in heaven.*
Bridger wondered into the small room and sat on the bed. Everything had been left exactly the way Lucas had left it. The bed was unmade, dirty and clean laundry littered the floor and it still held the young man's presence.
"Am I interrupting anything?" Kristin Westphalen stood in the doorway.
"No, come in." He whispered.
*Time can bring you down,*
*Time can bend your knee,*
*Time can break your heart,*
*have you begging please.*
*Begging please.*
Kristin walked in and joined Bridger on the bed. They sat silently for a moment, taking time to remember all the times the had with Lucas, good or bad.
"Its not fair is it?" Kristin broke the silence. "He had so much going for him. He could have been anything he wanted to be."
"All we can do is hope he's happy where he is now." Bridger said softly.
"I guess your right." She replied.
*Beyond the door, there's peace I'm sure.*
*And I know they'll be no more tears in heaven.*
The tears started to flow silently down Bridger's cheeks and Kristin soon joined him. He would never know the exact reason why Lucas decided to take his own life, but he did know that he would always remember him as Lucas Wolenczak: Beloved friend to many.
*Would you know my name,*
*If I saw you heaven?*
*Would it be the same,*
*If I saw you in heaven?*
*I must be strong, and carry on,*
*Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven.*
Dedicated to Jonathan Gregory Brandis. May you rest in peace Jon.You will live on in the hearts of many.