this is a story about Sakura who was rapped by Syaoran at the age of 17. The thing is, he doesn't know it and 'fell in love' with someone else leaving her alone with a son, XiaoLong. Now, Syaoran is back and single, Sakura is unsure whether she should tell him the truth- that he is the father of Xiao Long- or let him think she is a s***?!

Pls note: this is written out of boredom and i will only continue it if you tell me to. Sakura - 23 yrs,Syaoran - 25 yrs,Xiao Long (Syaoron) - 6yrs

Disclamer: I don't own CCS! Quit askin me!

I loved you, still do

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"Mummy? Why don't you eva talk bout Daddy?" a young boy at the age of six asked his mother. He stared into her emerald eyes with his own brown ones, all clouded with confusion. This was new to Sakura, Xiao Long has never asked about his father, he never thought he had one. Well, she assumed so anyway. So she was taken aback.

"What made you ask such a question sweetie?" she asked him. "Well, in school today we learned bout fam-ly n evaryone has a daddy, so I wus thinking, how come we dun have one? I thought be-cus you dun talk bout him," he replied. (A/N: he's only six so he can't speak real well)

"Well sweetie, you look just like your daddy and he was a very wonderful man," she said as her thoughts drifted.... He was a wonderful man and she loved - no, love - him. Then that fateful night came.... She shook her head, there was no need for that anymore, " Next time when your daddy comes, I'll tell you who it is, okay?" "Kay.Goodnight mummy," was the reply.

She kissed him on the forehead and whispered goodnight, then went to bed. Where the past huanted her in her dreams.......

+++++Dream+++++

*Flash!*

"No! Li-kun! No!" she screamed, but he was drunk, very drunk. He started to peel her clothes off and kiss her. "I luurrvveee youuu Saaakuraaa..." his voice slurred. "No!" she screamed again, it was no use. She was now in his apartment and no one else was around. His lips trailed from her cheek down to her shoulders, and it went lower... (A/N: you guys know what i mean)

*Flash!*

It was morning and two naked people are on the bed.(A/N: covered with a blanket mind you! don't be so hentai!) Sakura woke up and looked at her surroundings. She felt something on top of her, it was Syaoran. Slowly, she pushed his body aside, changed and left in silence.

*Flash!*

They were at Penguin park. "Syaoran! Why are you doing this?" she cried. "I told you not to disturb Mira! Now I have no choice. We're leaving for Hong Kong to get married!" he replied, his voice as cold as ice. "Goodbye Sakura.." he turned and left.

*Flash!*

She was 18 years of age and is walking along the pavement. She remembers the doctor telling her that she is pregnant... 'Now what am I to do?' she thought to herself. She then thinks of the shock that her onii-chan and otou-san will face. +++++End Dream+++++

She wakes up in sweat and she hears herself panting. 'I have not dreamt of this since I had Xiao Long. Why am I having it now? Is it a sign?'

Little did she know that a hundred miles in the air, a brown haired young man was having somewhat the same dream that she had....

So whaddaya think? Like? Hate? Continue? Don't continue? Onegai review and tell me! press