Buffy lay in her room on her bed thinking. Her mother already knew
about the baby that was growing inside her. Buffy was horrified when she
found out, mostly because she didn't know how her mother was going to
react, but strangely she was very calm. She didn't yell, she didn't judge.
She just hugged her daughter. Maybe it was because Buffy had cried when she
found out. Seeing the tears in her daughter's eyes might have been enough
for her to stay calm. Angel had reacted pretty much the same way. He seemed
okay with it, maybe even exited. Three weeks passed and it didn't seem like
Buffy was getting any fatter, at least not yet.
"Buffy, it's time for lunch" Dawn said, coming up to her big sister's room.
"Okay" Buffy said, not moving.
"This is the part where you get up and come downstairs" Dawn joked.
"Uh-huh" Buffy said, still not moving.
"Is something wrong?" Dawn asked.
"I don't know. . .mom says I have to tell dad and gram about the baby too" Buffy said.
"Well yeah, I mean they're gonna find out sooner or later you know" Dawn said.
I know, but. . .how am I gonna tell them? What am I gonna say, 'hey dad, hey gram, I had sex with my boyfriend and now I'm knocked up, what's for dinner?'" she asked sarcastically.
"Are you scared?" Dawn asked, sitting on Buffy's bed. "I mean to be a mom?"
"A little, but I'm kinda exited, I mean, I'm having a baby, god I know it's gonna be hard but. . ." Buffy said.
"What did all your friends say?" Dawn asked.
"I don't know, they're. . .Willow's exited, Cordelia's really exited, being an aunt and all, Xander's, well he didn't really have a reaction, and Angel. . .he's been great" Buffy said.
"What did Angel's parents say?" Dawn asked.
"Uh, they're. . .they don't really like me that much" Buffy said.
"But what did they say about the baby?" Dawn asked.
"They said, and I quote, 'well, she's a seductive little vixen now isn't she' unquote" Buffy said. "Well that was just his dad, his mom just looked at me like a was the devil in carnet."
"So they're upset?" Dawn asked.
"Pretty much, I think they're blaming me, like a seduced him or something" Buffy said.
"Did you, seduce him I mean?" Dawn asked.
"No, he seduced me, and I love him, that's why I gave in, and now I'm pregnant and. . .I don't know what's going to happen" Buffy said. "Mom's really disappointed in me."
"Well, she still loves you, and so do I, Buff, we're here for you" Dawn said.
"Thanks Dawnie" Buffy said.
"Now will you come down for lunch?" Dawn asked.
"Yeah" Buffy said and got up and went downstairs with Dawn.
Angel was sitting in his room thinking of the life he had ahead of him. He had to be mature and grow up so fast. Soon he would be a father, well technically he already was. Cordelia knocked on the door and poked her head in.
"Hey Angel, can I come in?" she asked.
"Sure" he said and she entered his room and sat on the edge of his bed.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
"I don't know, I mean. . .I'm gonna be a father, it's kinda mind blowing" Angel said.
"Yeah it is, but. . .you're gonna be okay, and hey it's actually kinda cool" Cordelia said.
"How? How is this cool?" Angel asked.
"Well you're gonna have a baby, a cute, tiny little baby" Cordelia smiled.
"Yeah, great" Angel grumbled.
"What's the matter?" Cordelia asked.
"I'm the captain of the football team, how is this gonna look on my part, what is this gonna do for my reputation?" Angel asked.
"You love her right?" Cordelia asked.
"Of course I do, more than anything, but. . .I don't know" Angel said.
"Look Angel, you're my twin brother and I love you, but you have to figure out what you're gonna do, I mean you have a huge responsibility on your hands now. You have to raise and care for a child for the rest of your life, it's a big deal" Cordelia said and got up. "If there's anything I can do, let me know." With that she left his room. He laid back in bed and sighed.
Buffy sat at the dining room table and sighed deeply. She didn't know what was gonna happen with her life. She didn't know if her and Angel were gonna get married or what. She just didn't know anything.
"Buffy, sweetheart, you're not eating" Joyce said to he daughter.
"Yeah, I know" Buffy said and put down her fork.
"Is something wrong?" Joyce asked.
"I'm scared mom" Buffy said and looked at her. "I have no idea what I'm doing, no idea how to be a mother."
"Sweetie, it's gonna be okay" Joyce said and took a hold of Buffy's hand. "Every mother is nervous with their first child, I was, it's going to be fine."
"Why are you being so calm and collected about this?" Buffy asked.
"Well what do you want me to do, yell, scream, tell you that you disappointed me?" Joyce asked in jest.
"I just want you to tell me how you really feel" Buffy said and Joyce sighed.
"Okay honey, I will, I'm let down that you went to that level with Angel, that you. . ." Joyce said.
"Had sex with him?" Buffy offered.
"Y-yes, exactly, but sweetie, I know that you love him, and I know that you're scared, and I just want to be here for you all right" Joyce said.
"Thanks mom, I love you" Buffy said.
"I love you too baby" Joyce said and hugged her daughter.
The next day at school Buffy really didn't want to be around any of her friends. She just wanted to be alone, really she didn't want to be in school. But she eventually met up with all of her friends.
"Hey Buffy" Willow said happily.
"Hi guys" Buffy said to her friends. Everyone was there except for Angel. "W-where's Angel? I haven't talked to him since. . .for a while" Buffy asked.
"He wasn't feeling well so he didn't come to school today" Cordelia said. "Buffy are you gonna drop out?"
"Why would I do that?" Buffy asked.
"Well you're a junior in high school, I mean Angel's a senior and he's graduating this year, but are you gonna finish school?" Cordelia asked. "You know, because of the baby?"
"Yes, I'm gonna finish school" Buffy said.
"Well that's good" Willow said. "We'd really miss you here if you didn't come back."
"Uh, I-I have to go, so, see ya" Buffy said and got up and left. She just really didn't want to talk to anyone, well except for Angel. She'd been wanting to talk to him ever since he dropped her off after telling his parents. It seemed like he was avoiding her.
After school Buffy decided to go to Angel's house. She really wanted to talk to him and she didn't care what his parents thought of her. She walked up to the front door and knocked and Angel's mom answered.
"Can I help you with something?" Tina, his mom asked.
"Hi Mrs. Chase, is Angel home?" Buffy asked.
"Liam isn't home right now, he said he had things to take care of" Tina said. Angel's real name was Liam. Sometime in his freshman year of high school his friends, both boys and girls had given him the nickname of Angel because he has saved and helped many of the people he knows.
"Do you know when he'll be back? I really need to talk to him" Buffy asked.
"No, I don't, but I'll tell him you stopped bye" Tina said.
"Okay, thanks" Buffy sighed and walked down the stairs to her car. She drove home and went inside and picked up the phone to call Angel's cell. After she let it ring about a thousand times she gave up and hung up.
"Hi Buffy" Dawn said, coming into the kitchen where she was.
"Hey Dawnie" Buffy said.
"What's wrong?" Dawn asked.
"I need to talk to Angel, and I can't get a hold of him" Buffy said.
"Did you try his cell phone?" Dawn asked.
"Yeah, it's either off, or he's just not answering" Buffy said.
"Maybe Cordelia knows where he is" Buffy said.
"Yeah, maybe" Buffy said. "I'll call her later, I just. . .I don't feel like talking to anyone right now."
"Not even your friends?" Dawn asked.
"Especially not my friends. . .I don't know, I just feel like they're judging me or something, I mean it's not like I asked for this" Buffy said.
"Okay, one, it's a baby not an abomination, and two, what did you think was gonna happen, I mean you had sex, did you even use a condom?" Dawn asked.
"No. . .no, we didn't" Buffy said, looking down. "I'm not trying to say that my baby's an abomination, but. . .I don't know" Buffy said.
"Well, I have homework to do, look Buffy, if there's anything I can do, just ask" Dawn said and went upstairs.
The next day Buffy got up early. She wasn't feeling well and she threw up. He mother told her that she could stay home. At about noon she went out and got the mail and in the pile was a letter for her. It had no return address, but Buffy recognized Angel's handwriting. She took the mail inside and opened the letter and it read:
Dear Buffy
I am so sorry I didn't tell you before I left. Buffy I love you, but I can't stay here. I can't be a father. It just isn't for me. I'm so sorry that I didn't talk to you about it or anything, I just had to get out. This is too much for me to take. I wouldn't be a good father and I didn't want to get in your way. You're going to be a great mom Buff, you don't need me. Anyway I don't know when I'm coming back, or even if I will. Please know that I love you, this had nothing to do with you. I just couldn't take it. Tell Cordy that I love her and tell all our friends that it's all right okay. I know you're probably mad, or hurt, and I'm sorry, I really am. Take care baby, I love you
~Angel~
Buffy stared at the letter in disbelief. She couldn't believe what she had just read.
"Oh my god" she said. "Angel left me."
"Buffy, it's time for lunch" Dawn said, coming up to her big sister's room.
"Okay" Buffy said, not moving.
"This is the part where you get up and come downstairs" Dawn joked.
"Uh-huh" Buffy said, still not moving.
"Is something wrong?" Dawn asked.
"I don't know. . .mom says I have to tell dad and gram about the baby too" Buffy said.
"Well yeah, I mean they're gonna find out sooner or later you know" Dawn said.
I know, but. . .how am I gonna tell them? What am I gonna say, 'hey dad, hey gram, I had sex with my boyfriend and now I'm knocked up, what's for dinner?'" she asked sarcastically.
"Are you scared?" Dawn asked, sitting on Buffy's bed. "I mean to be a mom?"
"A little, but I'm kinda exited, I mean, I'm having a baby, god I know it's gonna be hard but. . ." Buffy said.
"What did all your friends say?" Dawn asked.
"I don't know, they're. . .Willow's exited, Cordelia's really exited, being an aunt and all, Xander's, well he didn't really have a reaction, and Angel. . .he's been great" Buffy said.
"What did Angel's parents say?" Dawn asked.
"Uh, they're. . .they don't really like me that much" Buffy said.
"But what did they say about the baby?" Dawn asked.
"They said, and I quote, 'well, she's a seductive little vixen now isn't she' unquote" Buffy said. "Well that was just his dad, his mom just looked at me like a was the devil in carnet."
"So they're upset?" Dawn asked.
"Pretty much, I think they're blaming me, like a seduced him or something" Buffy said.
"Did you, seduce him I mean?" Dawn asked.
"No, he seduced me, and I love him, that's why I gave in, and now I'm pregnant and. . .I don't know what's going to happen" Buffy said. "Mom's really disappointed in me."
"Well, she still loves you, and so do I, Buff, we're here for you" Dawn said.
"Thanks Dawnie" Buffy said.
"Now will you come down for lunch?" Dawn asked.
"Yeah" Buffy said and got up and went downstairs with Dawn.
Angel was sitting in his room thinking of the life he had ahead of him. He had to be mature and grow up so fast. Soon he would be a father, well technically he already was. Cordelia knocked on the door and poked her head in.
"Hey Angel, can I come in?" she asked.
"Sure" he said and she entered his room and sat on the edge of his bed.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
"I don't know, I mean. . .I'm gonna be a father, it's kinda mind blowing" Angel said.
"Yeah it is, but. . .you're gonna be okay, and hey it's actually kinda cool" Cordelia said.
"How? How is this cool?" Angel asked.
"Well you're gonna have a baby, a cute, tiny little baby" Cordelia smiled.
"Yeah, great" Angel grumbled.
"What's the matter?" Cordelia asked.
"I'm the captain of the football team, how is this gonna look on my part, what is this gonna do for my reputation?" Angel asked.
"You love her right?" Cordelia asked.
"Of course I do, more than anything, but. . .I don't know" Angel said.
"Look Angel, you're my twin brother and I love you, but you have to figure out what you're gonna do, I mean you have a huge responsibility on your hands now. You have to raise and care for a child for the rest of your life, it's a big deal" Cordelia said and got up. "If there's anything I can do, let me know." With that she left his room. He laid back in bed and sighed.
Buffy sat at the dining room table and sighed deeply. She didn't know what was gonna happen with her life. She didn't know if her and Angel were gonna get married or what. She just didn't know anything.
"Buffy, sweetheart, you're not eating" Joyce said to he daughter.
"Yeah, I know" Buffy said and put down her fork.
"Is something wrong?" Joyce asked.
"I'm scared mom" Buffy said and looked at her. "I have no idea what I'm doing, no idea how to be a mother."
"Sweetie, it's gonna be okay" Joyce said and took a hold of Buffy's hand. "Every mother is nervous with their first child, I was, it's going to be fine."
"Why are you being so calm and collected about this?" Buffy asked.
"Well what do you want me to do, yell, scream, tell you that you disappointed me?" Joyce asked in jest.
"I just want you to tell me how you really feel" Buffy said and Joyce sighed.
"Okay honey, I will, I'm let down that you went to that level with Angel, that you. . ." Joyce said.
"Had sex with him?" Buffy offered.
"Y-yes, exactly, but sweetie, I know that you love him, and I know that you're scared, and I just want to be here for you all right" Joyce said.
"Thanks mom, I love you" Buffy said.
"I love you too baby" Joyce said and hugged her daughter.
The next day at school Buffy really didn't want to be around any of her friends. She just wanted to be alone, really she didn't want to be in school. But she eventually met up with all of her friends.
"Hey Buffy" Willow said happily.
"Hi guys" Buffy said to her friends. Everyone was there except for Angel. "W-where's Angel? I haven't talked to him since. . .for a while" Buffy asked.
"He wasn't feeling well so he didn't come to school today" Cordelia said. "Buffy are you gonna drop out?"
"Why would I do that?" Buffy asked.
"Well you're a junior in high school, I mean Angel's a senior and he's graduating this year, but are you gonna finish school?" Cordelia asked. "You know, because of the baby?"
"Yes, I'm gonna finish school" Buffy said.
"Well that's good" Willow said. "We'd really miss you here if you didn't come back."
"Uh, I-I have to go, so, see ya" Buffy said and got up and left. She just really didn't want to talk to anyone, well except for Angel. She'd been wanting to talk to him ever since he dropped her off after telling his parents. It seemed like he was avoiding her.
After school Buffy decided to go to Angel's house. She really wanted to talk to him and she didn't care what his parents thought of her. She walked up to the front door and knocked and Angel's mom answered.
"Can I help you with something?" Tina, his mom asked.
"Hi Mrs. Chase, is Angel home?" Buffy asked.
"Liam isn't home right now, he said he had things to take care of" Tina said. Angel's real name was Liam. Sometime in his freshman year of high school his friends, both boys and girls had given him the nickname of Angel because he has saved and helped many of the people he knows.
"Do you know when he'll be back? I really need to talk to him" Buffy asked.
"No, I don't, but I'll tell him you stopped bye" Tina said.
"Okay, thanks" Buffy sighed and walked down the stairs to her car. She drove home and went inside and picked up the phone to call Angel's cell. After she let it ring about a thousand times she gave up and hung up.
"Hi Buffy" Dawn said, coming into the kitchen where she was.
"Hey Dawnie" Buffy said.
"What's wrong?" Dawn asked.
"I need to talk to Angel, and I can't get a hold of him" Buffy said.
"Did you try his cell phone?" Dawn asked.
"Yeah, it's either off, or he's just not answering" Buffy said.
"Maybe Cordelia knows where he is" Buffy said.
"Yeah, maybe" Buffy said. "I'll call her later, I just. . .I don't feel like talking to anyone right now."
"Not even your friends?" Dawn asked.
"Especially not my friends. . .I don't know, I just feel like they're judging me or something, I mean it's not like I asked for this" Buffy said.
"Okay, one, it's a baby not an abomination, and two, what did you think was gonna happen, I mean you had sex, did you even use a condom?" Dawn asked.
"No. . .no, we didn't" Buffy said, looking down. "I'm not trying to say that my baby's an abomination, but. . .I don't know" Buffy said.
"Well, I have homework to do, look Buffy, if there's anything I can do, just ask" Dawn said and went upstairs.
The next day Buffy got up early. She wasn't feeling well and she threw up. He mother told her that she could stay home. At about noon she went out and got the mail and in the pile was a letter for her. It had no return address, but Buffy recognized Angel's handwriting. She took the mail inside and opened the letter and it read:
Dear Buffy
I am so sorry I didn't tell you before I left. Buffy I love you, but I can't stay here. I can't be a father. It just isn't for me. I'm so sorry that I didn't talk to you about it or anything, I just had to get out. This is too much for me to take. I wouldn't be a good father and I didn't want to get in your way. You're going to be a great mom Buff, you don't need me. Anyway I don't know when I'm coming back, or even if I will. Please know that I love you, this had nothing to do with you. I just couldn't take it. Tell Cordy that I love her and tell all our friends that it's all right okay. I know you're probably mad, or hurt, and I'm sorry, I really am. Take care baby, I love you
~Angel~
Buffy stared at the letter in disbelief. She couldn't believe what she had just read.
"Oh my god" she said. "Angel left me."