Poem for English
I hung up the phone, hands shaking, Replaying the conversation over in my mind I could feel her presence, Her calm inflicting me with fear, and doubt, How could she be so calm? Over and over I heard the word that chills the soul and demolishes hope, The word which people see everyday, but are shocked by it when it comes to them, It shocked me. I did not see it coming. How could I? How? Why? When? Why her? So many questions that needed answers, So many answers that none can find, So much darkness lying in wait, For an unexpecting stranger to pass by, As a stranger to trauma it was hard for me to understand, I could not hear sadness in her voice, But I saw it in her eyes.
Sinking to the floor all hope was lost, So alone, so afraid of what lay ahead, I screwed up my whitened face, ready to give in to tears, But they did not come, For a while I sat there, on the linoleum, unable to think, The lump in my throat rising up to drown my sorrow, Glad to be alone, Had not the heart to tell, Didn't know how, Fear had its troops lay siege upon my heart, and its inhabitants fled, A white flag, I raised, my morale was low, they surrendered after a long battle, But something stirred, something still lived.
I eventually told someone, I watched myself do it, So casually, it was not me, up there, telling, Every visit I watched her weaken, It broke my heart to see more of her go away, Helpless, I couldn't do anything to make her stay, I saw pain in those eyes, but no defeat, My heart had long since been overshadowed by doubt, But a tiny belief still remained, To fight the day out.
Every day I watch her grow, and recover, But emotions stir from deep inside, Mourning for the person who was left behind.
I hung up the phone, hands shaking, Replaying the conversation over in my mind I could feel her presence, Her calm inflicting me with fear, and doubt, How could she be so calm? Over and over I heard the word that chills the soul and demolishes hope, The word which people see everyday, but are shocked by it when it comes to them, It shocked me. I did not see it coming. How could I? How? Why? When? Why her? So many questions that needed answers, So many answers that none can find, So much darkness lying in wait, For an unexpecting stranger to pass by, As a stranger to trauma it was hard for me to understand, I could not hear sadness in her voice, But I saw it in her eyes.
Sinking to the floor all hope was lost, So alone, so afraid of what lay ahead, I screwed up my whitened face, ready to give in to tears, But they did not come, For a while I sat there, on the linoleum, unable to think, The lump in my throat rising up to drown my sorrow, Glad to be alone, Had not the heart to tell, Didn't know how, Fear had its troops lay siege upon my heart, and its inhabitants fled, A white flag, I raised, my morale was low, they surrendered after a long battle, But something stirred, something still lived.
I eventually told someone, I watched myself do it, So casually, it was not me, up there, telling, Every visit I watched her weaken, It broke my heart to see more of her go away, Helpless, I couldn't do anything to make her stay, I saw pain in those eyes, but no defeat, My heart had long since been overshadowed by doubt, But a tiny belief still remained, To fight the day out.
Every day I watch her grow, and recover, But emotions stir from deep inside, Mourning for the person who was left behind.