Yes I did decide to continue this after so many people e-mailed me too.
Also because I have been sick from school for the past two days. I don't
own Gundam Wing or any associated with it.
I do like the first chapter better than this one but hey I don't feel like rewriting it at the moment. Please R&R!
This story is now dedicated to my sis Terry!
Even the Perfect Soldier Cries Chapter 2: One Step Closer
****** I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss is ignorance ******
"Look I told you I'm fine!" Heero yelled as he headed towards his room, everyone chasing after him.
"Then what was outside all about?" Duo asked, concerned for his friend.
"Come on Heero, let us help you." Quatre pleaded
" I'm fine now leave me alone!" Heero slammed the door shut.
******
Less I hear the less you say
But you'll find that out anyway
Wu Fei crossed his arms and frowned. Trowa stood back and leaned against the hallway wall, watching their useless attempts at getting Heero to talk to them.
"Let us help you!" Duo yelled as he slammed his fists against the door.
No response
Quatre took a calmer approach. "Heero we are here to help you. Please explain to us why you did what you did to the window, why you tried to shot yourself, why...why you were crying."
Still no response from the other side of the door. Heero had become very annoyed at the pilots. Why couldn't they leave him alone? They never wanted to help him fight the demons in his head before, fight himself. Why start now? He lie down on the bed and buried his head in the pillow, trying to drown them out.
"Fine be that way." Duo said annoyed at the door as they left the hallway.
******
Just like before
******
Later on that day, the rest of the pilots were fixing the window and cleaning up the shattered glass and blood.
"Why couldn't that bastard come out here and help us fix the mess his caused?" Wu Fei said through clenched teeth as he finished the last of repairs.
"Let him have a bit more time to himself. He'll come and tell us what's bothering him when he wants to." Quatre replied.
"I agree" Trowa said. Duo looked over to the doorway, which lead outside. Sitting on the ground in the gardens was the familiar brown haired pilot. "He's out" Duo said.
******
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break
*******
Heero sat outside. Being in that room brought back to many mixed feelings from that night. He stopped seeing his past in front of his eyes, but it still roamed around inside the back of his. He stared at the arrangement of flowers in the garden, trying to take his mind off things. Suddenly her heard footsteps behind him. He turned his head to find that Quatre and Duo were approaching him. From inside, Trowa and Wu Fei watched.
"Leave me alone." Heero said rather emotionless.
"Heero, please tell us what's wrong." Quatre pleaded once more.
"Yeah we probably know how you feel." Duo added.
*********
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break
*********
Heero stood up, becoming once again very annoyed at them and now extremely pissed off. They wouldn't help him out before when they saw him hurting and why should they start now?
"You don't know..." Heero hissed. "You don't know how I feel. You wouldn't because you don't know anything about my past"
Trowa and Wu Fei could both this encounter might take a turn for the worse. They stood outside, ready to restrain Heero incase he became violent.
"Heero let us help. Talk with us" Quatre took a step towards Heero. "We know how you feel about what went on in the past."
"You're wrong! You don't know. You never had been treated the way I was when I was younger. You didn't go through what I did. You didn't kill someone that had cared somewhat about you. You never had your humanity taken away in the blink of an eye. You don't know!" he stormed off and back towards the house.
Duo and Quatre stood there in shock. They had never head any feeling in that voice before, you any emotion in that face. And just now, they heard and saw fear, pain and sorrow coming from him. Heero walked past Trowa and Wu Fei. He saw that Wu Fei had a look of pity on his face.
"Bakayoru." Heero muttered as he walked by and into the house.
*********
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
********
He found his way back into his room and sat down on the bed. He felt mad at himself so acting so pathetic out there. Heero looked around his room and then shook his head. In front of him was the little girl again. She looked at him with her big blue eyes. The look in her eyes asked the question, 'why did you let the mobile suit fall on my apartment building.' He grabbed a shoe and tossed it at her. He had missed and the window shattered.
"Quit torturing me!" he screamed
*********
Over and over again
*********
Everyone heard Heero screaming and saw the window shatter.
"Not again." Duo looked up at all the noise. They all ran back into the house and down the long hallways.
"That's it he's going to talk to us this time." Wu Fei said as they continued down another hall.
"Lets see what's going on first." Trowa said.
Meanwhile Heero made his way from his room to the bathroom. He knew that they were coming for him. He knew that they were going to try and make him talk. He flipped the light switch on and turned on the faucet. He cupped his hands under the water and splashed it at his face. The cool water seemed to calm him down again. Heero dried his face off with a towel and looked at the mirror. He was staring into the eyes of his younger self. He blinked and shook his head, the reflection in the mirror returning to the way if was suppose to be. He heard the other pilots talking down the hall and figured that they were heading here. Frantically, Heero searched threw the many drawers in the vanity until he saw a razor blade. He stared at it. The voices were coming down the hall were louder now.
"I'll put an end to the visions, and end to my existence. Then no one else will suffer." He said to himself.
He held out his arm and quickly and swiftly ran the razor blade across his wrist and then up to the middle of his forearm. It began to bleed almost immediately. He felt a sense of peace was over him as he felt the warm blood pool up and run down his hand, dripping on the floor. Heero quickly ran the razor across the other wrist and then dropped the razor on the counter top. He was growing weaker quickly and stumbled to the doorway. He felt dizzy and faint. He knew that any minute the pilots would be here and find him dead on the ground. Heero smiled and he fell down in the doorway, half in the bathroom and halfway in the hallway.
"I'm...free..." he whispered and passed out.
Trowa, Duo and Wu Fei looked in Heero's room as Quatre looked down the other hallway.
"Kuso! Where could he have gone?" Wu Fei cursed after finding out Heero was not there.
"Maybe he went back outside. I mean there are so many doors here." Duo replied.
Trowa stepped out of the doorway and looked around. "Lets keep looking" he said.
Suddenly they heard Quatre scream which caused everyone to jump. Duo and Wu Fei ran out into the hallway. "What's wrong Quatre?" Duo yelled.
There was silence for a minute "C..Come here." Quatre yelled back.
They ran down the hall and saw Quatre. The looked at what Quatre was staring at. The gasped.
"Why did you do this to yourself Heero?" Duo asked himself.
Yes I know a cliffhanger. But don't worry. I will put chapter three up soon.
I do like the first chapter better than this one but hey I don't feel like rewriting it at the moment. Please R&R!
This story is now dedicated to my sis Terry!
Even the Perfect Soldier Cries Chapter 2: One Step Closer
****** I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss is ignorance ******
"Look I told you I'm fine!" Heero yelled as he headed towards his room, everyone chasing after him.
"Then what was outside all about?" Duo asked, concerned for his friend.
"Come on Heero, let us help you." Quatre pleaded
" I'm fine now leave me alone!" Heero slammed the door shut.
******
Less I hear the less you say
But you'll find that out anyway
Wu Fei crossed his arms and frowned. Trowa stood back and leaned against the hallway wall, watching their useless attempts at getting Heero to talk to them.
"Let us help you!" Duo yelled as he slammed his fists against the door.
No response
Quatre took a calmer approach. "Heero we are here to help you. Please explain to us why you did what you did to the window, why you tried to shot yourself, why...why you were crying."
Still no response from the other side of the door. Heero had become very annoyed at the pilots. Why couldn't they leave him alone? They never wanted to help him fight the demons in his head before, fight himself. Why start now? He lie down on the bed and buried his head in the pillow, trying to drown them out.
"Fine be that way." Duo said annoyed at the door as they left the hallway.
******
Just like before
******
Later on that day, the rest of the pilots were fixing the window and cleaning up the shattered glass and blood.
"Why couldn't that bastard come out here and help us fix the mess his caused?" Wu Fei said through clenched teeth as he finished the last of repairs.
"Let him have a bit more time to himself. He'll come and tell us what's bothering him when he wants to." Quatre replied.
"I agree" Trowa said. Duo looked over to the doorway, which lead outside. Sitting on the ground in the gardens was the familiar brown haired pilot. "He's out" Duo said.
******
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break
*******
Heero sat outside. Being in that room brought back to many mixed feelings from that night. He stopped seeing his past in front of his eyes, but it still roamed around inside the back of his. He stared at the arrangement of flowers in the garden, trying to take his mind off things. Suddenly her heard footsteps behind him. He turned his head to find that Quatre and Duo were approaching him. From inside, Trowa and Wu Fei watched.
"Leave me alone." Heero said rather emotionless.
"Heero, please tell us what's wrong." Quatre pleaded once more.
"Yeah we probably know how you feel." Duo added.
*********
I need a little room to breathe
'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break
*********
Heero stood up, becoming once again very annoyed at them and now extremely pissed off. They wouldn't help him out before when they saw him hurting and why should they start now?
"You don't know..." Heero hissed. "You don't know how I feel. You wouldn't because you don't know anything about my past"
Trowa and Wu Fei could both this encounter might take a turn for the worse. They stood outside, ready to restrain Heero incase he became violent.
"Heero let us help. Talk with us" Quatre took a step towards Heero. "We know how you feel about what went on in the past."
"You're wrong! You don't know. You never had been treated the way I was when I was younger. You didn't go through what I did. You didn't kill someone that had cared somewhat about you. You never had your humanity taken away in the blink of an eye. You don't know!" he stormed off and back towards the house.
Duo and Quatre stood there in shock. They had never head any feeling in that voice before, you any emotion in that face. And just now, they heard and saw fear, pain and sorrow coming from him. Heero walked past Trowa and Wu Fei. He saw that Wu Fei had a look of pity on his face.
"Bakayoru." Heero muttered as he walked by and into the house.
*********
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
********
He found his way back into his room and sat down on the bed. He felt mad at himself so acting so pathetic out there. Heero looked around his room and then shook his head. In front of him was the little girl again. She looked at him with her big blue eyes. The look in her eyes asked the question, 'why did you let the mobile suit fall on my apartment building.' He grabbed a shoe and tossed it at her. He had missed and the window shattered.
"Quit torturing me!" he screamed
*********
Over and over again
*********
Everyone heard Heero screaming and saw the window shatter.
"Not again." Duo looked up at all the noise. They all ran back into the house and down the long hallways.
"That's it he's going to talk to us this time." Wu Fei said as they continued down another hall.
"Lets see what's going on first." Trowa said.
Meanwhile Heero made his way from his room to the bathroom. He knew that they were coming for him. He knew that they were going to try and make him talk. He flipped the light switch on and turned on the faucet. He cupped his hands under the water and splashed it at his face. The cool water seemed to calm him down again. Heero dried his face off with a towel and looked at the mirror. He was staring into the eyes of his younger self. He blinked and shook his head, the reflection in the mirror returning to the way if was suppose to be. He heard the other pilots talking down the hall and figured that they were heading here. Frantically, Heero searched threw the many drawers in the vanity until he saw a razor blade. He stared at it. The voices were coming down the hall were louder now.
"I'll put an end to the visions, and end to my existence. Then no one else will suffer." He said to himself.
He held out his arm and quickly and swiftly ran the razor blade across his wrist and then up to the middle of his forearm. It began to bleed almost immediately. He felt a sense of peace was over him as he felt the warm blood pool up and run down his hand, dripping on the floor. Heero quickly ran the razor across the other wrist and then dropped the razor on the counter top. He was growing weaker quickly and stumbled to the doorway. He felt dizzy and faint. He knew that any minute the pilots would be here and find him dead on the ground. Heero smiled and he fell down in the doorway, half in the bathroom and halfway in the hallway.
"I'm...free..." he whispered and passed out.
Trowa, Duo and Wu Fei looked in Heero's room as Quatre looked down the other hallway.
"Kuso! Where could he have gone?" Wu Fei cursed after finding out Heero was not there.
"Maybe he went back outside. I mean there are so many doors here." Duo replied.
Trowa stepped out of the doorway and looked around. "Lets keep looking" he said.
Suddenly they heard Quatre scream which caused everyone to jump. Duo and Wu Fei ran out into the hallway. "What's wrong Quatre?" Duo yelled.
There was silence for a minute "C..Come here." Quatre yelled back.
They ran down the hall and saw Quatre. The looked at what Quatre was staring at. The gasped.
"Why did you do this to yourself Heero?" Duo asked himself.
Yes I know a cliffhanger. But don't worry. I will put chapter three up soon.