Another chapter, I think one more to go. Done again to Linkin Park lyrics and not all of them. Some were deleted to make more sense.

These are not all the lyrics, just the ones that fit. I do not own Linkin Park or any thing related. I do not own Gundam Wing either,

Even the Perfect Soldier Cries

Chapter Four: Don't Stay

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Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I need you to go

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About several days passed by since Heero was sent to the mental ward of the hospital, and it was here his healing had begun. Besides the many Preventer psychiatrists that gave him the guidelines and what to do to put the past behind him, and learn to deal with his vast emotions, his friends stopped by everyday, and gave him the courage to finally leave it all and move on ahead. Still part of him, perhaps the perfect soldier, nagged at him sometimes, saying he should just disappear and have no further contact with these people. But he would ignore those thoughts that droned in the back of his head, and set his mind on getting well.

Lying in the hospital bed, he thought. Now that he decided that he was going to live, no matter what the perfect soldier said, it was time to think over everything. It was time to put everything behind, like everyone had said to him and he believed it. But again every time he thought about this, the perfect soldier inside told him otherwise.

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Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay

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He thought more as he layed there in the darkness of the room, battling himself in his head against the perfect soldier he used to be. Nothing seemed to make a valid aurgement with the perfect soldier, but he wouldn't give in again. 'No, I had so much to live for,' he thought, 'my friends, Relena, my future.' But there was that voice again, telling him otherwise, giving him every aurgemnt against staying with these people, and just laying down dying. 'The little girl and her puppy, everyone you ever thought wants you dead. You deserve to die and rot in hell with what you have done', argued this voice, showing him all the painful memories that where kept hidden from others, from himself and caused pain once more. 'No! I'm not dying! I'm not giving in!' , he shouted in his mind. And that was it, the perfect soldier gave up finding his new self was not be reckoned with.

A short chapter, just to give you some insight on how he beat his mind. Another chapter. Next!