Disclaimer: Neither the song nor the characters are mine, I'm merely taking them out to play... -pout- don't sue? -winsome smile-
AN: Normally I'd put this at the end, but I think it's more appropriate here. I was just skimming through my previous work, and this jumped out of the page and smacked me on the noggin'. I modified it to suit EnishiKaoru, as I've always wanted to write something on them, the Romeo and Juliet of RK, as I like to call them.
On the song lyrics: I know that it's confusing with the name Aubrey there, but it's the actual part of the lyrics so I couldn't exactly change it right? It's so disrespectful to the original singers and composer! [Btw, the song is 'Aubrey' by 'Bread'] So please note, the song is an actual reflection t and Aubrey refers to Kaoru!
For the Love that wouldn't Bloom
There she was. Sitting at the dojo steps, watching the world go by her.
And Aubrey was her name
She wasn't a particularly quiet girl, articulate at times, and very opinionated. But today...
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who's to blame?
I've been noticing her these few days, she has lost her sparkle. Makes me wonder where it has been.
Most of the time she's rushing around, running to do something, or to find someone, but this time, she's just sitting there.
What's she thinking about?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
There. That expression. The one that she has when she doesn't think that anyone is looking.
She's forlorn, tucking her knees underneath her chin, finding warmth on such a sunny day.
She's alone, in more ways than one.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn't mean a thing.
The world rushes pass her, but she doesn't notice it. She's looking but not seeing. Couples and friends chatter around her, playing cards, or just bantering. Why isn't she with anyone?
She's frowning.
What memories are plaguing her now?
The girl who never seems to be truly happy.
And Aubrey was her name.
Her friends walk up to her as I clench my fists. I wanted to do that.
Calming myself, I quietly observed her from my corner.
She's smiling again. That smile that never reaches her eyes. Why? Why does she torture herself so?
We tripped the light and danced together to the moon,
But where was June.
They seem to be pulling her, asking her to go somewhere. It made me anxious. I only had this time to be with her, were they going to take it away from me?
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Relaxing, I noticed that she shook her head adamantly, although the smile never left her face.
I remember her friend telling her 'you smile too much'. What fools. She's never smiled before.
Never smiled before.
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Catching all the words, but then the meaning going past,
As her friends left, she seated herself back on the porch, our favourite place.
No, she never knew that I was here, but my knowing it was more than enough. I was here to protect her, the girl who never smiled.
If only I could make her happy, if only I could make her laugh, if only I could make her see that pretending was never really as good as the real thing...
But God I miss the girl,
And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.
Alas, she belonged to the light, and I would forever skulk in the shadows.
My girl, my girl of light.
And Aubrey was her name
She's reminiscing. I can tell. When she leans into the concrete steps and gaze out with that look on her face, I know she's thinking about the past. She's always doing that. Thinking about the things that happened, the things that she can't change, the things that remind her of him.
I never knew her, but I loved her just the same,
I loved her name.
How I wish that I could erase him away. Wash away the pain that he gave her, and start anew.
He stole her from me. Stole more than just her heart, he stole the sparkle in her eyes, the smile from her lips, the bounce in her step, made her who she is today, a mere lonely shell, and then he left her.
'That heartless bastard! He'd never gain atonement if he makes this angel cry!'
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
Snarling at the thoughts that were filling my mind, I took a deep breath and continued my observation of the girl.
The light that would never be mine, the only light that I'd ever want.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can't have the one I want, I'll do without the best.
The bell has rung. It's time to go.
She stood up, dusting herself off and turned around, back into the dojo I presume.
I sighed, looking at the floor, my time with her was up.
Today was the last day I would be here with her, I was to return to China, Japan held more memories and pain than that of my sister, and that which I can bear. But...
How would her tomorrows be?
How would my tomorrows be without her?
But how I miss the girl
Bowing my head even lower, I did not want to stand up. I did not want to get up from this spot.
Dear God, just give me a minute to compose myself. So that I can leave here with my head high, even if I'm to be in the dark henceforth.
And I'd go a million times around the world
"Hey."
A voice broke me from my reverie.
Looking up, I could not see the face to which the voice belonged to as the sunlight was streaming in from behind.
Light.
"Aren't you going to come in?"
She turned to one side and my breath hitched.
It was her.
Reaching for her outstretched hand, I picked myself up from the floor.
"K-Kaoru? How did you -"
My first stutter.
"...Know that you're here?"
Her first true answer.
Cocking her head to one side, she regarded me seriously.
Just to say
"Haven't you been here all the time?"
We stood there, sizing each other, neither willing to break the silence between us.
"Thank you, Enishi."
She spoke softly, gently, just like I imagined she would.
"For what?" I asked quizzically. All I did was to sit with her.
"For being there. Just for being there."
Turning to me, she flashed me the most brilliant of smiles that I have ever witnessed.
She had been mine for a day.
Tugging my hand, she pulled me towards the gate. And as I entered her life, I wasn't in the dark any longer.
~Owari~
Another A/N: So here it is, I'd love to think that there aren't such things as OOC, only different POVs, as I read from some where else, but if you'd like to dispute with me, please leave a Review! And if there's anything anything at all that you don't like, Review too! And if there's something you do like, Review! [yes, a shameless way to garner attention and Reviews, but this unworthy author doesn't really care! Lol]
~Haruko