Yes! Frasier premieres tonight! Excellent. So here's an update, for those
of you who care to read.
PS: Becky... I'm sorry. I let you down, and it breaks my heart. *sniffle* haha
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Dear Frasier,
There are some things that need to be said about the sudden break in our friendship. Being as forward as I usually am, you would think that I'd be able to just pick up the phone. Well, I can't. I've tried, but I can't. There is so much that I need to say, and I'll never be able to get it all out without interruption, or breaking into tears. So, I've decided to write you this letter, hoping that you won't rip it up into shreds as soon as you see my name on the return address.
It's been three months since I've talked to you. Since then, my whole life has changed. I'm always working, or taking care of Alice. I never go out anymore. I hardly have any friends. It's not like me. I don't see Daphne, I don't see Niles..... but I don't care, 'cause the only one I care about is you.
You are the only one that I've always been able to count on. You're the one who has stood by me through everything. You held me as I cried about my latest breakup, laughed with me as we reminisced about old times, encouraged me when I was too scared to go after something I wanted, and consoled me each time I was shot down. You were my best friend, my angel, my savior. You were my rock, my ground to stand on. Now I am falling.
I'm not going to pretend that I don't need you or that I don't miss you, because I do, so much. My life without you is almost empty. My reason to keep going is my beautiful daughter, Alice. Looking back, the only way I got through that pregnancy was because of you.
I love you.
And not in the way that I've said it all these years. I don't mean it in the friendly sort of way. I really mean it. I love you. I always have. I just haven't realized it before.
All of those times when we almost, and the one time that we did; they weren't mistakes. They kept happening because of my feelings for you, the ones I never knew were there.
I don't expect anything from you. You've already given me so much. I just want you to know one thing: I didn't give you that ultimatum because I wanted to get rid of Julia (although, I really do hate her, and I still think she's all wrong for you - not that I'm not). I gave you the ultimatum because I wanted you to choose me, and really choose me. I guess on some level, I figured that you would. I'm not sure why.
I'll leave you with this: if you want to, you can call me. You can write me, you can email me, or, you can rip this up and act like you never read it, I don't care. I'm just glad that you finally know. I'm not sure if you'll care or not, but the fact that you know is enough. Thank you so much for everything, and thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you don't regret it.
Oh, and one more thing.....
I'm sorry.
-Roz
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I put down the letter in shock.
This can't possibly be from her. Roz? The most stubborn woman in the world? The one who hasn't spoken to me in three months?
She suddenly loves me? And she always has? I can't take this. This is too much.
Call her? What would I even say? I mean, she just walked out of my life, leaving no obvious reason. She made me choose between her and someone else! She left her job hasn't contacted me in months, and now what, she sends me a letter and it's like it's all okay! Like I won't still be mad, like it doesn't matter! I mean, who does she think she is?!
Just then, a picture falls out of the envelope. It's been ripped in two. When I look close, I see that it's the same picture I ripped just days ago. I pick up the two halves and look at them. I see her, this gorgeous woman, her smile like an angel. And I see me, looking just as happy as she is.
I know who she is.
She's the woman I love.
******
Somebody ought to take you in, try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel when they're under your skin
Never once did you think that they would lie when they're holding you
You wonder why they haven't called when they said they'd call you
You start to wonder if you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think you were born blind
-Hand Me Down, Matchbox 20
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It's short, but whatever. Hope you liked it. Please review! And watch Frasier tonight!!
PS: Becky... I'm sorry. I let you down, and it breaks my heart. *sniffle* haha
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Dear Frasier,
There are some things that need to be said about the sudden break in our friendship. Being as forward as I usually am, you would think that I'd be able to just pick up the phone. Well, I can't. I've tried, but I can't. There is so much that I need to say, and I'll never be able to get it all out without interruption, or breaking into tears. So, I've decided to write you this letter, hoping that you won't rip it up into shreds as soon as you see my name on the return address.
It's been three months since I've talked to you. Since then, my whole life has changed. I'm always working, or taking care of Alice. I never go out anymore. I hardly have any friends. It's not like me. I don't see Daphne, I don't see Niles..... but I don't care, 'cause the only one I care about is you.
You are the only one that I've always been able to count on. You're the one who has stood by me through everything. You held me as I cried about my latest breakup, laughed with me as we reminisced about old times, encouraged me when I was too scared to go after something I wanted, and consoled me each time I was shot down. You were my best friend, my angel, my savior. You were my rock, my ground to stand on. Now I am falling.
I'm not going to pretend that I don't need you or that I don't miss you, because I do, so much. My life without you is almost empty. My reason to keep going is my beautiful daughter, Alice. Looking back, the only way I got through that pregnancy was because of you.
I love you.
And not in the way that I've said it all these years. I don't mean it in the friendly sort of way. I really mean it. I love you. I always have. I just haven't realized it before.
All of those times when we almost, and the one time that we did; they weren't mistakes. They kept happening because of my feelings for you, the ones I never knew were there.
I don't expect anything from you. You've already given me so much. I just want you to know one thing: I didn't give you that ultimatum because I wanted to get rid of Julia (although, I really do hate her, and I still think she's all wrong for you - not that I'm not). I gave you the ultimatum because I wanted you to choose me, and really choose me. I guess on some level, I figured that you would. I'm not sure why.
I'll leave you with this: if you want to, you can call me. You can write me, you can email me, or, you can rip this up and act like you never read it, I don't care. I'm just glad that you finally know. I'm not sure if you'll care or not, but the fact that you know is enough. Thank you so much for everything, and thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you don't regret it.
Oh, and one more thing.....
I'm sorry.
-Roz
******
I put down the letter in shock.
This can't possibly be from her. Roz? The most stubborn woman in the world? The one who hasn't spoken to me in three months?
She suddenly loves me? And she always has? I can't take this. This is too much.
Call her? What would I even say? I mean, she just walked out of my life, leaving no obvious reason. She made me choose between her and someone else! She left her job hasn't contacted me in months, and now what, she sends me a letter and it's like it's all okay! Like I won't still be mad, like it doesn't matter! I mean, who does she think she is?!
Just then, a picture falls out of the envelope. It's been ripped in two. When I look close, I see that it's the same picture I ripped just days ago. I pick up the two halves and look at them. I see her, this gorgeous woman, her smile like an angel. And I see me, looking just as happy as she is.
I know who she is.
She's the woman I love.
******
Somebody ought to take you in, try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel when they're under your skin
Never once did you think that they would lie when they're holding you
You wonder why they haven't called when they said they'd call you
You start to wonder if you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think you were born blind
-Hand Me Down, Matchbox 20
******
It's short, but whatever. Hope you liked it. Please review! And watch Frasier tonight!!