FYI:
~Personal Thoughts~
~"Inner Voices"~
ESP
%The Written Word%
[Flashback]
"Normal Conversation (Duh)"
* Com Link or Telephone *
*Sound Effects (usually just Kurt's popping)
ROGUE
Ah sat up in mah room with the desk lamp on as Ah tried ta write ta Remy again. Ah held the first letter Ah'd written Thursday in one hand as Ah began a second one ta accompany it.
%Monday, May 10, 2003 (Well, technically it's Tuesday now.)
Dear Remy,
Sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you. Hopefully getting two letters rather than one will make up for it.%
"Luv, some people actually want to sleep tonight." Ah looked over at Betsy who was sheildin' her eyes from the light of the lamp.
"Sorry. Ah'll just go someplace else an' write. Um…Bets, did ya look in the professor's head at all when he was talkin' ta us earlier?"
"No, should I have?"
"It's nothin'." ~It is somethin'. That stuff was hard core that Ah saw.~
"What are you writing anyway?"
"Nothin'."
"Right…and I'm the Queen of England."
"Well, ya highness, Ah'll let ya get some beauty sleep." Ah shut off the lamp as Ah grabbed up the paper an' pen. Ah left the room an' headed downstairs ta the dinin' room ta finish. Ah sat down at the table an' just let may pen glide across the paper as Ah let everythin' Ah'd been fealin' out.
%It's been absolutely crazy here this weekend. Of course S.H.I.E.L.D. is telling us that we can't tell a soul about what really happened, but since you never let anyone see my letters to you, then I guess it won't matter that I spill some beans to you. Where do I even begin?
The alarms I mentioned in the first letter was alerting us to gather in the planning room. We found the professor finishing an interrogation with Mesmero down there. He found out that Apocalypse was planning on turning the entire population of Earth into mutants. Pretty crazy shit if you ask me. Well, the professor decided to try and talk some sense into Apocalypse. We all know that you can't talk sense into an evil super villain who's trying to take over the world so Apocalypse captured the professor and Storm. Everyone was really shocked that they would face the same fate as Magneto. Everyone just started to break down crying and Jean kept blaming herself. Well, I didn't stop her; I was in too pissy of a mood to give a crap as to how she was feeling.
Within hours, Nick Fury, from Shield, showed up telling us that we shouldn't make any rash moves because they had resurrected the Sentinel program to attack Apocalypse and the domes. Remember those things? That's when we first met. Well, the Sentinels failed because Apocalypse called on his four flying horsemen—Magneto, the professor, Storm, and yeah, my loving mother, Mystique. They tore the robots to pieces in no time and we had no choice but to face off with them. Logan split us all up into six different groups.
Staying at the Institute to keep an eye on things: Emma Frost (White Queen), Daniel (Ghost)(A/N: What is her codename? I'm just going to say that its this until someone corrects me.), and Sarah (Marrow—to go with the bone mutation thing.)
Heading to Mexico: Kitty (Shadowcat), Warren (Angel), Betsy (Psylocke), Wanda (Scarlet Witch), Alex (Havok/Scott's little brother), and Roberto (Sunspot)
Off to China: Mister McCoy (Beast), Evan (Spyke), Ray (Beserker), and Bobby (Iceman)
Hitting the sands of Egypt: Jean, Piotr (Colossus), Tabitha (Boom-Boom), Amara (Magma), Jamie (Multiple) and Brian (Captain Britain)
Sphinx Team: Logan (Wolverine), Kurt (Nightcrawler), and Scott (Cyclops)
My team (can't tell you yet what we did, you'll see, Sugar): Me and Sam (Cannonball)
Well, everyone except for those who stayed home, got their butts kicked around the block a few times. We actually thought it was all over because by the time my team got to Egypt to face Apocalypse, the evolution had already begun. You probably noticed the sky getting really dark down there in New Orleans because Apocalypse released all these pyramid Satellites that were going to release all his energy, which he stole from me in the first place.
Well, it took us forever to find the Leeches. Do you remember Dorian, the kid who could shut down all the power in a place? Well, my job was to absorb his powers to shut down Apocalypse. We got there just in the nick of time though and as I went inside the Sphinx, I found Logan getting the crap knocked out of him by Mystique. I knocked her out on my way through absorbing her powers figuring they might come in handy in case I needed a way out of there. Turning into a bug wouldn't be all that bad if it meant living.
I walked into the Eye of Ages to find Apocalypse beginning the final steps in the evolution and was able to shut down his powers just in time. As I approached him he tried to grab at me, I guess to make me panic and turn the power back on or something. Well, I reared back and started slamming it shut on him causing him to be trapped in his own master plan. I turned the power back on thinking he'd be trapped like before simply hibernating through the thousands of years. Wrong!
The Eye of Ages came whirring back to life and disappeared into another time and another place. I've got a bad feeling he'll be back and seeking vengeance for what I did to him. Can you blame him? He got his ass kicked, well kind of, by a teenage girl and never got to create mass chaos on Earth.
As I left the Sphinx behind with Kurt, I watched as the pyramids fall from the sky. They looked awful pretty and a lot like shooting stars if you didn't know any better. Well, our nice little sibling moment got trashed by Mystique pulling herself out as well. She actually had the balls to try and tell us that she was sorry. For once, Kurt told her to get lost as well. I feel a little better now that we both seem to have the same opinion of her.
You'd think it'd all be over there. Well, it's not…not in the slightest. The professor said that he saw a bunch of images of the future and more specifically the future of the X-Men. I seemed to be the only one there, out of all the psychics!, to take the liberty to search his head as he gave us a speech about the future. I saw what he had seen. Images of us when we were older, more attacking Sentinels, anti-mutant protestors, and all that kind of stuff. Would you believe me if I told you that even you were there. Well, actually that part I don't know if it was really the future, or just the professor's wishful thinking. I'd ask him but I'm a little embarrassed to admit I was reading his mind when it's something I complain about so much. I really don't know what to think about the future anymore.
Well, there was one good thing that came out of this whole mess. I can touch now, anyone and everyone. With Dorian's powers I can negate my own allowing me to touch. During training and fights, I can just reverse the negation and fight like usual, but the rest of the time I'm…normal. It's amazing to actually be able to wear normal clothes everyday without having to worry about my powers hurting or even killing someone. It's simply amazing, you don't realize how great something is until it's taken away from you.
Well, enough about me. I wish I could help you Remy. I really do, but there's nothing I can do unless you're willing to tell me everything. Obviously you aren't going to do that, so I can't help. Sorry.
Rogue
P.S. Can't you see that you lie to yourself, You can't see the world through a mirror, It won't be too late when the smoke clears, 'Cause I am still here—'Too Much To Ask' Avril Lavigne
P.S.S. Cute, real cute. I didn't keep any of your clothes, for your information. And when will people start taking me seriously when I'm upset?%
Ah'd just finished writin' mah letter when Logan came inta the room carryin' a paper. ~Mah God, is it already six in the mornin'? Guess so.~ "Morning Stripes." He poured out a cup of coffee for himself then poured one for meh as well. He handed it ta meh as Ah finished foldin' the letter up an' puttin' it inta an envelope. "How long have you been down here?"
"A while. Thanks." Ah took a sip of the bitter liquid likin' the way it made meh warm up from the inside. He raised an eyebrow at meh as he sat down ta start readin'.
"And how long is that?"
"Ah don't know. Couldn't sleep, an' Ah was keepin' Bets up with the light, so Ah came down here." He folded down the corner of the paper ta look at meh from over the top.
"You've been down here all night?"
"Maybe…" He growled somethin' under his breath 'bout teenage girls an' they're crazy antics but just then a bunch of kids came in for breakfast. Ah grabbed mah letter up an' headed out the door leavin' the commotion behind.
"Pass the toast."
"Kurt! Get off the table!"
"Keety, stop killing ze eggz."
"I'm like not killing them. They're like already dead." The door fell shut blockin' out the rest of the hectic conversation. As Ah passed through the main foyer Ah dropped mah letter inta the pile ta be mailed an' went back ta mah room ta get dressed.
GAMBIT
~Just anot'er morning at de LeBeau home.~ I walked int' de kitchen t' find Tante Mattie making somet'ing f' breakfast. "Morning Remy. What can I make f' y'?"
"Not'ing, Remy's not hungry."
"Y've got t' eat."
"Non, Remy's not hungry." She glared at me and I t'rew my hands up in defeat. "Fine, fine. Remy'll have some eggs." She glared at me f' a moment. "S'il vous plaît."
"Now dat's better." She cracked two eggs and tossed dem int' de frying pan. "Still waiting on dat girl's letter?"
"Non, why would Remy do dat?" I gave her an innocent smile as she placed de plate of eggs down in front of me. "Merci." She smiled as she sat down across from me.
"Good t' see y' remember some of y' manners." I gave her a shocked expression.
"Remy be a perfect gentleman!" She shook her head amused as she turned serious again.
"If y' really care 'bout dis girl, y' should go back."
"Y' know Remy can't do dat." I pushed de eggs 'round mon plate breaking de yolk and watching de egg bleed yellow. "If Remy leaves now, he can' ever come back."
"Do y' really want t'?" I gave up trying t' play innocent wit' her and looked up shocked.
"Dis is where Remy's family is! He can' just leave dem."
"Y' not happy here, but everytime a letter comes from dat girl, y' brighten up even if it's only f' a few hours." I glared down at mon eggs as if dere would be an answer in de golden yolk.
"Oui, but Remy's got responsibilities here and now." She tisked as she stood up taking de plate from me.
"I make y' a good decent breakfast and y' destroy it. What am I going t' do wit' y', boy?"
"Don' know, t' be honest. Remy be a handful, non?" I shot her a grin as she simply shook her head trying her best not t' laugh.
"Don' try t' get 'round it boy. Y' know dat eventually y' gonna have t' decide."
"Oui, but hopefully not t' soon." I heard a door slam as someone came int' de house. I turned 'round in mon chair t' see Bella walk int' de room briskly. "Bella, what y' doing here?"
"We need t' talk, now."
"Okay…" She grabbed mon wrist and yanked me out of de room and away from Tante Mattie. "What's dis 'bout?"
"Julien told me dat y' tried t' kill him again." I blinked in surprise but quickly hid it.
"What? Non! Remy did non such t'ing." I put mon hands up in mock innocence knowing full well what she was talking 'bout. "Y' brot'er started in on Remy and he was only defending himself."
"So y' try and blow him up?"
"NON! He be exaggerating, Remy only meant t' shake him up a bit." She tossed her blonde hair over a shoulder as she continued t' glare at me.
"Well, I don't appreciate it one bit. He's my brother f' God's sake Remy! Try and be a li'l more civil."
"Well, according t' y' brot'er dat's impossible since Remy's a mutant." I could feel mon eyes getting hot wit' de memory of Julien's comments burning fresh.
"I don't care what he says. If something happens, they're going t' look at y' first. They'll kill you first then start asking the questions about what really happens."
"Didn' know y' cared so much." Dere was a sarcastic edge t' mon words and she t'rew her hands up in defeat.
"I honestly don' know what I'm going t' do with y'! Y' impossible, y' hear me?"
"Oui, but dat's because Remy be a mutant, just scum of de eart'." She spun on her heel and stormed back out of de house.
"If that's how y' feel, then maybe I shouldn' be married t' such scum."
"Dat's a good idea." She was half way down de walk when she turned 'round t' look at me.
"What did y' say?"
"Maybe we shouldn' be married. It ain't working out f' us, so we should just quit before we kill each ot'er or somebody else in de process."
"It's y' funeral."
"Dat be Remy's choice t' make." She turned and walked down de street leaving me in de doorway t' realize what I'd just said. ~Mon Dieu, what am I t'inking?~ I turned t' go back in de house when I saw de mailman coming. I waited 'til he put de mail int' de box den walked down t' see if a letter had come yet from Marie. ~If I could use a letter from her, now would be de time.~ I smiled as I found an extremely fat letter wit' no return address. ~Dat would be it.~ I grabbed de rest t' drop unceremoniously on de table inside de door as I went t' mon room t' read it.
De letter just gave me a lot of relief t' know dat she was fine from her fight wit' Apocalypse. ~So I was right, she did do it. Pretty much by herself t'.~ I puzzled over de scenes of de future she mentioned wondering what dey possibly meant. ~Does she want me back? I can't ever seem t' tell from dese letters. Better hope so, 'cause if I do get dis divorce, I'll be needing t' get far, far away from N' Awlins.~ I gazed out de window t' see dat de sky was clear and de sun was shining but inside de house it seemed dat night had fallen early for all de gloom and doom dat seemed t' hover in de air. Dere was a knock at de door and I turned t' find Tante Mattie standing in de doorway.
"Y' alright, boy?"
"Oui, just reading de mail." I held up de letter f' her t' see. ~No use even trying t' hide dem from her anymore.~
She sat down next t' me on de bed and gazed at de letter from over mon shoulder. "She seems like a sweet girl. Dey say people will write down deir true feelings in a letter before dey will actually say dem out loud." I looked up at her trying t' understand what she was saying. "Maybe she's been t' shy t' tell y' before or maybe she hasn't but I t'ink dis girl really dose love y'. Don' know anyone else crazy enough t' send 'le diable blanc' dis long of a letter wit' out any deat' treats in it." I smiled as I looked back at de letter. I was holding de last page on de top and Tante Mattie pointed t' de musical lyric. "What's dis?"
"Une of her favorite songs."
"I t'ink it means more den dat." She stood up and walked away leaving me t' puzzle over her cryptic meaning again. ~Does dat woman always have t' leave me t'inking? F' once I'd like her t' explain somet'ing.~ I read de lyric again and again. ~It won't be t' late, 'cause I'm still here.~ It hit me like a ton of bricks. ~She's waiting f' me t' finally decide what de hell I'm going t' do wit' mon life. She's wasting her time t' wait on me, t'ough. I've got t' much t' figure out before I can hope t' go back.~
I realized I was in no mood t' write back right away. ~Don' want t' send her a letter full of moaning and whining. I'll just wait 'til dis bad mood lifts. Dat could take a while.~
By de time I felt better 'bout mon argument wit' Bella Donna, two days had passed.
%Saturday, May 8, 2003
Dearest Marie,
I'm sorry that it's taken me so long, but I thought you'd appreciate it if I wrote back in at least half-spirits. Things haven't been going very well down here. I'm glad to hear that you are okay after your encounter with Apocalypse. Things will get better, and even if he does come back, that is in the future. Live for today, not the past and not even the future. Just do what you feel like doing because there is no better time then the present. Ha! I should listen to mon own advice some time. I think I'd take it better though if it came from someone else. I don't have to much faith in mon judgement right now.
I'm also glad to hear you've got control over your powers now. That's great news, Chére. You can act just like a normal teenage girl now. Kitty and Betsy will have to take you to the mall to do some flirting and picking up some phone numbers. Trust me from experience, that's the best place to go to pick up girls…er…I mean guys in your case.
Three nights ago, I had a nice little confrontation with Julien, mon sweet brother-in-law. That's a joke and a half. He was drunk and stumbling around the bar when I found him and he decided that then was a good time to get some things off his chest. He ran down a list of things that I'd done wrong to his sister and their family ever since the LeBeaus had adopted me. This went on for nearly half an hour while I sat there at the bar taking it all. Of course he had several of his thugs there who were all completely sober so that if I tried something I'd find myself pretty badly bruised up.
For a while, I took it. But finally I just got pissed off and grabbed him by the collar. Well, you know what happens when you're angry and I lost control of mon powers slightly and began to charge up his coat. He panicked and tried to back away from me before I had a chance to uncharge him. Well, his goons started swinging at me so there I was holding mon brother-in-law in one hand not daring to let go for fear of blowing him to smithereens and trying to defend myself with the other hand. I failed at the latter but after a while was able to concentrate on uncharging Julien before he panicked enough to get himself killed. It was a long night and that wasn't even the end of it.
As if Julien and his goons weren't bad enough I had to face some grumbling from mon own guild. There was a big job that was going down that night. I don't and shouldn't need to tell you what that means. Well, there was some animosity, to put it nicely, about a mutant working on the job. Most of de guild no longer trusts me because of so much of the anti-mutant stuff going on right now. I knew that it was bad, but I never dreamt that it would cause mon own family (the guild) to turn on me as well.
The fight between Julien, or should I say his goons, and me seemed to prove their point that the mutant freak, le diable blanc couldn't keep his cool and shouldn't be trusted on this big of a job. I was forced to sit it out because mon pere feared that if I didn't that it would cause fighting inside the guild itself. I honestly don't know why I'm staying to put up with all this anymore.
The next morning, Bella came storming in her demanding to talk to me. She accused me of trying to kill her brother, which I hadn't, I was just pissed to no ends with him. I can barely remember what else was said, just what we said towards the end. I said something about how I was mutant scum and she shot back that she wouldn't let herself be married to scum. I told her she was right and that maybe a divorce was just the right thing to do. Last thing she said to me was, "It's your funeral." Coming from one of the assassins guild that's not a joke, that's a threat and a promise. I don't know how I'm going to get myself out of this mess.
Tante Mattie thinks you be a wonderful person. She found your letters and she thinks that you're one of those people who finds it easier to write your feelings rather than say them. Is that true? You trying to tell me something in these letters? Because, if you are, you're going to have to be a little clearer since this Cajun can be a little thick some times. And if that lyric means what I think it does, you're wasting your time waiting around on me. You should be out having fun like a normal teenager, not waiting for some dumb ass to figure out what he's doing first.
You want the honest truth from me, Chére. I miss you, I miss the institute, I miss everything about that tiny little town of Bayville. But mostly I just miss you. You were always there for me, you made me feel that I could do no wrong for you. No matter what happened you were always there to defend me and stand up for me even when I was reluctant to do so for myself. There's nothing here that's worth sticking around for and I'm trying my best to find a way out so I can go back to you.
Love Always and Always,
Remy
P.S. I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon, After all I knew it had to be something to do with you, I really don't mind what happens now and then, As long as you'll be my friend at the end—'Kryptonite' Three Doors Down
P.S.S. I always take you seriously! Well, maybe not always, but you're so gosh darn cute when you're mad. I know, 'I'm one dead Cajun right now'.%
I sighed as I folded de letter up and walked outside t' put it int' de mailbox. ~I feel bad f' dropping dis kind of a bomb on her, but she wanted de trut', so dat's what she's getting.~ I looked up at de sky which had grown dark and smiled as the stars started t' twinkle. One shot across de sky as I watched and I closed mon eyes like a li'l child and made a wish. ~I wish dat I could hold Marie at least une more time.~
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Wow, that was pretty long too. Jeez, I'm starting to get into super long chapter writing. Ain't it cute how Remy's getting all soft and Rogue's getting soft too even if she doesn't want to admit it? Tell me what you think!