Disclaimer….Nah…how can someone like me own Saiyuki?!!!!!!
Sanzo: Stop singing to those stupid Evanescence songs and type….I want this to be over a.s.a.p…Ch! The things you make think in this fic…..
Kenren Taishou: *teasingly singing to My Last Breath* Hold on to me love, you know I can't stay long….
Goku: *joins in* All I wanted to say was I love you….
Gojyo: *joins in too*…And I'm not afraid…..
Goku/Gojyo/Kenren: Can hear me….Can you feel me in your arms…Holding my last breath….
Sanzo: *vein popping out and pointing shoureiju at them* You will hold your last breath it you don't stop right now!!!!!!
Kenren: *gulps* OK…..Thanks for anyone that has reviewed
To Fuuei: Thanks for correcting me on my "bonzou" spelling…sorry but I never studied Japanese. I sent you that email again so if you don't find it by the time you read this chapter let me know again so that I upload it for you as the very last chapter of this fanfic. Don't know if Nataku's mother was human…I don't think so though or else I think he would have been treated far worse than he already was, I always got the impression that he was sort of looked down upon because of his golden eyes but as I said before I'm not 100% sure.
To UltraM2000: I tend to use a lot of ellipses (…) to me they denote a pause in thoughts which is much longer than the pause used between sentences or phrases that's why I prefer them to comas and full stops in my writing (especially when I'm writing down the thoughts or when I need to create suspense) But thanks for the critique anyway!!!! Shows you actually bothered to read thoroughly instead of just skimming through the thing.
To Magmagenta: Sorry my Nataku fanfic was so short. I'm not really good at writing very long fanfics, I'm afraid I tend to make the content less deep when I write at length but I'll give your suggestion some thought. The problem is Nataku features so little in the first 50episodes *that's as far as they've shown on the channel* that you don't really get to know him that well & it gets hard to write something about him without repeating the same thoughts and feelings over and over again but I promise to try to get the idea for another chapter…after all Nataku is one of the most interesting characters in Saiyuki!
N.B.…By the way, no matter what, this fic has no Yaoi implications- I don't believe Goku & Sanzo are lovers so whatever Sanzo says and thinks, he doesn't mean it in that way for sure!!!!
Here goes Chapter 3!!!!
Enjoy!!!!! (^ ﻥ ^)
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Mixed Feelings
Hyo
Why hadn't she told me, the woman I met that day? If she knew about Sana, she must have known about the child…about our child! Why had she kept such an important part of the truth hidden from me? I suddenly wanted to be close to him, to be a part of his life…to call him my son…My son…it's almost what I used to call her – my sun…I never knew him. Never knew he even existed. And yet…he reminds me so much of her! Should I tell him the truth? Would he acknowledge me as his father? I had missed out on so much! Could we make up for the time lost?
I heard his voice in the distance calling out a name, almost affectionately…in the same way she did…I felt a sudden twitch of jealousy. It should be my name that he's calling! He called his name again…
"Sanzo!"
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Hakkai
This place…such a wonderful place…so full of life and energy, it almost gives you a sense of well-being and yet…it still lacks something…in its essence. I don't know what it is but it can be felt, in every tree and every rock and every blade of grass. It seems to me, that I had seen it too, in Hyo's eyes…I found him sitting alone on a rock in a clearing in the woods, but his eyes now betrayed something more…Confusion?
He sighed as if to relieve his soul of some heavy burden.
"Is something bothering you?" I sat down beside him and he looked at me in an oddly familiar way, "You don't really have to tell me…sorry for asking"
"No. It's better if you know…no good ever came out of hiding the truth…The boy that's traveling with you?"
"You mean Goku?"
He looked me in the eyes and said: "He's my son"
He left me there dumbfounded. I couldn't believe my own ears and yet what he said, in some awkward way, made sense…No, it made a lot of sense!!
I walked back to the spot where I had left the others; only Sanzo was still there, smoking a cigarette.
"Sanzo..." he pretended to ignore me but I knew he was listening 'Sanzo, Hyo just told me that…I think he could be Goku's father."
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Sanzo
I walked away from Hakkai, my soul a troubled sea of emotions…Goku…that was the only thing I could think of…The son of a mountain spirit and a demon, the result of a union and a love prohibited…The story might have seemed fantastic…too unbelievable…some kind of sick fairy tale. But it wasn't. Both mountain spirits and demons existed; and Goku and Hyo…they resembled each other too much for everything to be the product of a lunatic's mind.
….Goku and Hyo…
I don't know why but the thought of it almost made me sick
…………………..
I don't know why but I suddenly didn't want him anywhere near Goku!
... What am I thinking?!!....
I had grown used to him, attached to him in some strange way. I had practically raised the …………boy…given him a new life when I freed him from that cave!
….But nevertheless….
We where not bound by anything; Goku was free to leave any time he pleased
….But would he try to take him away from me?
Would Goku choose Hyo over me?
What if he did?!
I felt more confused then before. My head ached. I heard his voice calling me in the distance and I walked away from the voice that had once drawn me to that isolated cave in the mountains.
I moved way this time because
I don't think I could bare it if he chose Hyo over me!
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Sanzo: This is sooooooo OOC!!!
Kenren: Really?! Well…in that case I'm adopting Goku…
Sanzo: What?!!! You can't? I won't let you!! I'm his guardian!
Kenren: *sarcastically* So my writing is soooo OOC…
Sanzo: You little !#$&*!!!
Kenren: Chapter 4 is on the way!!! So stay tuned and just in case that what Mr. Blondie Monk here said is true…I'm really really sorry!!!!! But I still don't think the oh-so-cold Sanzo-sama would have remained indifferent at the prospect of having his little pet taken away from him