Warnings: One-sided B/R, suicide mentions, dark themes. And a twist end.
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I wanted to be your angel.
To hold and love you, I wanted to be your escape. Your light in the dark.
It didn't work out like that. No matter what I did, no matter how much I opened myself to you you refused to be saved.
I failed.
I failed.
I couldn't help you. Couldn't do anything.
I tore myself apart and laid my heart out to you.
And you didn't even notice.
I held you after I took away the knife that night, you slept in my arms. You look like an angel when you sleep you know that?
I emptied the pill bottles, I destroyed the gun.
Every time you try to harm yourself I stopped you.
But I just couldn't stop you enough.
They saw the bruises from when you fell from the chair when I walked in, and you got knocked out… I having to untie the rope from the rafter as you lay there. I praised the gods that I had found you in time.
Then the cutting; I'd gotten rid of everything you could have used yet you still found a way. Marring soft moonlit skin that should have embodied perfection. I didn't' know what you cut yourself with or where you were when you did. All I knew was that scars covered your body.
The moment my eyes left you I worried, wondering if you wouldn't come back and I'd hear of your death the next day.
I worried about you. It was my duty to protect you. One I assigned to myself and one you resisted at every turn.
Even when the depression ebbed I worried. Especially when I smelt the cigarettes on your breath.
A new addiction that was likely to kill you.
I tried to talk to you and you lied and made excuses. But I still knew, how could I not?
Well they didn't know, not even Yugi figured out what was happening. And he has the best intuition around.
Except me I guess.
You get worse, than get better, then the knives come out again and so do the tears in my eyes. You may be alive but your soul is still dying.
You drank. You partied. Malik and Marik became your dark sanctuary.
You chose so many things over me. But I still waited, hoping you'd realize I was the one you should be with. I was the one who could save you.
But it was just a dream, it was your life and if you wanted to screw it up and kill yourself there was only so much I could do.
And so, despite all I did, all I tried, the love I wanted to give you…it hasn't worked, I see you spiraling down into the abyss, nearing the crash point. And nothing I can do will stop you.
I feel so helpless. So weak.
Yami no Bakura isn't supposed to be weak.
Why do you do this to me Ryou?
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