Dude u guys! Guess what! I'm alive! And here's the deal. The last one I
updated, was Home is Where the Hurt is, so the one with the next amount of
reviews is Silent Screams (Which is why I'm updating it) After that I'll
either do HIWTHI OR I'll do Somebody love me, and than unfated love. It
depends where my inspiration takes me..
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". . . And we should feel extremely honored to have Miss Higurashi attending our school." The teacher completed the introduction by motioning to an empty chair. "Go ahead and take a seat Kagome."
The girl did as she was bid, sliding into a seat next to the girl that white haired boy had had lunch with. She noticed that the majority of the students looked bored. It had been her fourth introduction that day.
"I'm Sango." The girl introduced herself, after a prodding look from the teacher.
"Kagome." She responded automatically, turning her attention to her desk.
The teacher cleared her throat and continued with class after the two had finished the required greetings. Kagome immediately spaced out. At her previous school they had already covered most of the material the students were learning here, so there was no reason for her to pay attention. She wasn't daydreaming, when her eyes glazed over. It was more like pushing away thoughts than creating any. She completely stopped thinking, allowing herself the brief luxury of nothingness for a while. But she was quickly interrupted by a whisper coming from behind her.
"Hey! Kagome!" It was one of the white haired boy's friends, the one with dark hair in a high ponytail. She ignored him and stared straight ahead.
"Don't bother." Inuyasha's voice was snide. "She's too good to talk to the likes of YOU, Kouga." The way he said it made it anything but a compliment.
She didn't even have to try to stop herself from turning around. People had done far more to get her attention, and she had never lost. But than. . .
She felt something. . . .
Stroking her?
"MIROKU!!!!" The girl sitting next to her, Sango, whirled around and smacked a dark haired boy across the head. "I can't believe you! You are such a perv!"
The boy massaged his chin gingerly and managed a sly smile. "If it makes you feel any better Sango dear, you're much more fun."
Kagome had turned around as soon as she felt the hand, and now she was facing the two boys next to Miroku.
"Hey, I'm Kouga." He flashed her a smile.
She met his gaze without expression.
He coughed lightly. "And uh, you get to be my woman."
Everyone turned to see what her reaction would be. Kouga was one of the most popular guys in school, AND he had killer good looks. Most girls would either blush and accept, or blush and reject him.
Kagome didn't even flinch.
"I don't think so." Her voice was calm, almost dead. She turned back around and faced the room. From behind her, she could hear Inuyasha's mocking voice.
"I don't think so." He mimicked. "Filthy wench. She probably thinks she's too important for us. She has her perfect little life in her perfect little world and she doesn't need us to ruin things for her." He leaned forward. "Isn't that right, princess?" His breath was hot against her ear.
She closed her notebook forcefully and raised her hand. The teacher nodded, without pausing her lecture, and Kagome left the room. Behind her, she could hear someone's mocking laughter.
Perfect.
Her life was anything but perfect.
She almost wanted to laugh at the irony of it, but she had given up on laughing long ago. That boy. . . he had called her 'princess'. Her dad had called her that. . . a long time ago. . . a lifetime ago.
Daddy's little princess.
She had watched him die. . .watched him as he killed himself. A broken man who had completely given up on life and on family.
Daddy's little bloody princess.
And than she was there, reliving her memory. He hadn't stopped. Their eyes had met, and he'd held her gaze even as he pulled the trigger.
The sound was so loud it had scared her. She heard the gunshot an eternity before she felt the warm sticky fluid strike her face. She felt the blood long before she saw the dark red trails dripping down her cheeks and onto her floral print dress. She had seen the blood moments before she screamed.
She had never stopped screaming.
She had silenced her mouth, but the scream continued to vibrate in her soul echoing in her very consciousness. Every ordeal with her mother, every worry about her brother, every unshed tear, fueled that scream.
That day, after her mom had found them, she had still been screaming. Her voice had become hoarse, but she couldn't stop. . . until her mom slapped her. At her mother's bidding, she cleaned herself up and greeted the police officers with a sad smile. Everyone talked about how brave that little girl was, how strong she was for her family.
If she hadn't have been strong she'd have ended up like her dad, according to her mom. Terrified, she had obeyed. And now she couldn't stop. It was like some form of twisted pride. . . she didn't want anyone to know what she had undergone. She didn't want anyone to pity her.
In the dirty girls bathroom, Kagome stared at her reflection. Her eyes were dead. . . empty. The idea played with her mind, begging to be written down in lyrics. Music had always been her sanctuary. She pushed the thought to the back of her mind, forcing her inspiration to wait until after school hours.
When she arrived back in class, she felt amber eyes boring onto her, but she refused to meet his gaze. She slid into her seat, eyes widening when she saw the note folded onto her desk. 'Kagome', it read in scribbled handwriting.
Knowing she was breaking one of her own rules, she opened the note.
' Baby.'
One word. She didn't even have to hear the snort from behind her to know who had written it.
She didn't crumple it up, or throw it away. Instead she did something more foolish, and more insane, than anything she had ever done in her life. She turned around.
"Baka." The insult was out of her mouth before her mind registered what she would say. Her eyes widened as his narrowed. *Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid!* She cursed herself mentally.
"Wench." He didn't bother lowering his voice.
"Inuyasha!" The teacher's voice cut across the classroom angrily. "Would you be so kind as to pay attention?!"
"What's in it for me?" He asked cockily, his eyes never leaving Kagome's. There was something about them, so defiant, yet so lost.
"Maybe a chance of graduating?" The teacher's voice was dry.
He grunted and the teacher resumed her lecture. Kagome forced herself to blink, shocked with how long she had maintained eye contact. "I think you should leave me alone." She said the words calmly, knowing he would laugh at her and never bother her again.
She really didn't know him very well.
"Why?" He raised an eyebrow.
"You really hate me, right?"
"Ya think?!"
"And it's because I'm the Senator's daughter?"
"Among other things."
"Well, I hate me to, so you're not needed to make me miserable."
"What if I just enjoy it?" He forced himself not to think about her hating herself. And he absolutely refused to think about how beautiful her eyes were even when they were expressionless.
She surprised them both by smiling a little. It wasn't much, but it was enough to make his heart stop. "Than I suppose it can't be helped." She sighed. "But if I were you. ." Was it just him, or did her eyes twinkle, just a little? "I'd watch my back."
He stared at the back of her head long after she had turned her attention back to the front of the class. She had just challenged him! For a second, he couldn't get over his shock. But than a slow smile spread over his features.
This was gonna be fun!
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"Yeah, I was hoping to try out for basketball. I hope the coach will let me! Some people are picky about transfers, like we're not loyal or something." There was a pause, and than Souta's voice continued. "Exactly! But what can you do?" He listened to someone for a second, and burst out laughing. "That's plan B Kohaku!"
He had been on the phone all afternoon, three-waying two of his new friends. The basketball star Kohaku, and a girl named Rin.
Kagome didn't mind. If he was on the phone, he wouldn't ask her about her day. She didn't know what she'd say. What had POSESSED her to do that!? She had broken every rule for survival she had ever come up with and all because she got annoyed with him? Stuff like that didn't happen to her! It was all that stupid Inuyasha's fault! She'd make him pay.
And a small part of her. . .
Albeit a small part. . .
A very small part. . . .
Was looking forward to it.
Her life had never been this complicated.
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Okay okay okay, I know y'all hate me! (Or if you don't, you're saints) But I've been soooo busy! I was at my friends house for four days, than we downloaded matrix reloaded to my comp and had ppl over to watch it, than we did other stuff. . . I could go on forever. I wrote this as fast as I could, and I PROMISE, more updates soon!!!! Really this time! ;o)
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". . . And we should feel extremely honored to have Miss Higurashi attending our school." The teacher completed the introduction by motioning to an empty chair. "Go ahead and take a seat Kagome."
The girl did as she was bid, sliding into a seat next to the girl that white haired boy had had lunch with. She noticed that the majority of the students looked bored. It had been her fourth introduction that day.
"I'm Sango." The girl introduced herself, after a prodding look from the teacher.
"Kagome." She responded automatically, turning her attention to her desk.
The teacher cleared her throat and continued with class after the two had finished the required greetings. Kagome immediately spaced out. At her previous school they had already covered most of the material the students were learning here, so there was no reason for her to pay attention. She wasn't daydreaming, when her eyes glazed over. It was more like pushing away thoughts than creating any. She completely stopped thinking, allowing herself the brief luxury of nothingness for a while. But she was quickly interrupted by a whisper coming from behind her.
"Hey! Kagome!" It was one of the white haired boy's friends, the one with dark hair in a high ponytail. She ignored him and stared straight ahead.
"Don't bother." Inuyasha's voice was snide. "She's too good to talk to the likes of YOU, Kouga." The way he said it made it anything but a compliment.
She didn't even have to try to stop herself from turning around. People had done far more to get her attention, and she had never lost. But than. . .
She felt something. . . .
Stroking her?
"MIROKU!!!!" The girl sitting next to her, Sango, whirled around and smacked a dark haired boy across the head. "I can't believe you! You are such a perv!"
The boy massaged his chin gingerly and managed a sly smile. "If it makes you feel any better Sango dear, you're much more fun."
Kagome had turned around as soon as she felt the hand, and now she was facing the two boys next to Miroku.
"Hey, I'm Kouga." He flashed her a smile.
She met his gaze without expression.
He coughed lightly. "And uh, you get to be my woman."
Everyone turned to see what her reaction would be. Kouga was one of the most popular guys in school, AND he had killer good looks. Most girls would either blush and accept, or blush and reject him.
Kagome didn't even flinch.
"I don't think so." Her voice was calm, almost dead. She turned back around and faced the room. From behind her, she could hear Inuyasha's mocking voice.
"I don't think so." He mimicked. "Filthy wench. She probably thinks she's too important for us. She has her perfect little life in her perfect little world and she doesn't need us to ruin things for her." He leaned forward. "Isn't that right, princess?" His breath was hot against her ear.
She closed her notebook forcefully and raised her hand. The teacher nodded, without pausing her lecture, and Kagome left the room. Behind her, she could hear someone's mocking laughter.
Perfect.
Her life was anything but perfect.
She almost wanted to laugh at the irony of it, but she had given up on laughing long ago. That boy. . . he had called her 'princess'. Her dad had called her that. . . a long time ago. . . a lifetime ago.
Daddy's little princess.
She had watched him die. . .watched him as he killed himself. A broken man who had completely given up on life and on family.
Daddy's little bloody princess.
And than she was there, reliving her memory. He hadn't stopped. Their eyes had met, and he'd held her gaze even as he pulled the trigger.
The sound was so loud it had scared her. She heard the gunshot an eternity before she felt the warm sticky fluid strike her face. She felt the blood long before she saw the dark red trails dripping down her cheeks and onto her floral print dress. She had seen the blood moments before she screamed.
She had never stopped screaming.
She had silenced her mouth, but the scream continued to vibrate in her soul echoing in her very consciousness. Every ordeal with her mother, every worry about her brother, every unshed tear, fueled that scream.
That day, after her mom had found them, she had still been screaming. Her voice had become hoarse, but she couldn't stop. . . until her mom slapped her. At her mother's bidding, she cleaned herself up and greeted the police officers with a sad smile. Everyone talked about how brave that little girl was, how strong she was for her family.
If she hadn't have been strong she'd have ended up like her dad, according to her mom. Terrified, she had obeyed. And now she couldn't stop. It was like some form of twisted pride. . . she didn't want anyone to know what she had undergone. She didn't want anyone to pity her.
In the dirty girls bathroom, Kagome stared at her reflection. Her eyes were dead. . . empty. The idea played with her mind, begging to be written down in lyrics. Music had always been her sanctuary. She pushed the thought to the back of her mind, forcing her inspiration to wait until after school hours.
When she arrived back in class, she felt amber eyes boring onto her, but she refused to meet his gaze. She slid into her seat, eyes widening when she saw the note folded onto her desk. 'Kagome', it read in scribbled handwriting.
Knowing she was breaking one of her own rules, she opened the note.
' Baby.'
One word. She didn't even have to hear the snort from behind her to know who had written it.
She didn't crumple it up, or throw it away. Instead she did something more foolish, and more insane, than anything she had ever done in her life. She turned around.
"Baka." The insult was out of her mouth before her mind registered what she would say. Her eyes widened as his narrowed. *Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid!* She cursed herself mentally.
"Wench." He didn't bother lowering his voice.
"Inuyasha!" The teacher's voice cut across the classroom angrily. "Would you be so kind as to pay attention?!"
"What's in it for me?" He asked cockily, his eyes never leaving Kagome's. There was something about them, so defiant, yet so lost.
"Maybe a chance of graduating?" The teacher's voice was dry.
He grunted and the teacher resumed her lecture. Kagome forced herself to blink, shocked with how long she had maintained eye contact. "I think you should leave me alone." She said the words calmly, knowing he would laugh at her and never bother her again.
She really didn't know him very well.
"Why?" He raised an eyebrow.
"You really hate me, right?"
"Ya think?!"
"And it's because I'm the Senator's daughter?"
"Among other things."
"Well, I hate me to, so you're not needed to make me miserable."
"What if I just enjoy it?" He forced himself not to think about her hating herself. And he absolutely refused to think about how beautiful her eyes were even when they were expressionless.
She surprised them both by smiling a little. It wasn't much, but it was enough to make his heart stop. "Than I suppose it can't be helped." She sighed. "But if I were you. ." Was it just him, or did her eyes twinkle, just a little? "I'd watch my back."
He stared at the back of her head long after she had turned her attention back to the front of the class. She had just challenged him! For a second, he couldn't get over his shock. But than a slow smile spread over his features.
This was gonna be fun!
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"Yeah, I was hoping to try out for basketball. I hope the coach will let me! Some people are picky about transfers, like we're not loyal or something." There was a pause, and than Souta's voice continued. "Exactly! But what can you do?" He listened to someone for a second, and burst out laughing. "That's plan B Kohaku!"
He had been on the phone all afternoon, three-waying two of his new friends. The basketball star Kohaku, and a girl named Rin.
Kagome didn't mind. If he was on the phone, he wouldn't ask her about her day. She didn't know what she'd say. What had POSESSED her to do that!? She had broken every rule for survival she had ever come up with and all because she got annoyed with him? Stuff like that didn't happen to her! It was all that stupid Inuyasha's fault! She'd make him pay.
And a small part of her. . .
Albeit a small part. . .
A very small part. . . .
Was looking forward to it.
Her life had never been this complicated.
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Okay okay okay, I know y'all hate me! (Or if you don't, you're saints) But I've been soooo busy! I was at my friends house for four days, than we downloaded matrix reloaded to my comp and had ppl over to watch it, than we did other stuff. . . I could go on forever. I wrote this as fast as I could, and I PROMISE, more updates soon!!!! Really this time! ;o)