Chapter Four
Everything had finally been sorted out with the Watcher's and the Scoobies, Xander had all her new identification papers and a place to live. Xander found it amazing that it took becoming a Slayer to leave the hell hole that had been life at the Harris residence. Now that she could take care of herself there was no need. The important thing was that there was a safe place for her to go now, no more worrying about going to sleep and waking up to his father getting ready to beat him. Xander looked out the side window of Giles car and sighed, everything was so complicated now.
How much more was Xander expected to take in one day, the shocks were beginning to feel like kicks to the nonexistent nuts. Normal guy turned female Slayer, then on top of it all to find out that there would be people that would be coming to take her head. The whole thing was beyond Xander's experience, beyond anyone's experience truth be told. Xander and Giles were silent the entire trip back to Giles' apartment. When they got there they both just walked inside, more like zombies then living people.
While Giles was making tea and a light snack Xander went and sat in the living room, more then anything else Xander wanted to sleep but she was sure that there were things that Giles wanted to talk about. Xander was right of course, about ten minutes later Giles came out of the kitchen with the tea and food his lecture face on. Xander tried to listen, really she did the problem was Xander started thinking about twinkies, that lead to the other meaning of twinkie.
Xander knew that Giles was still talking because his mouth was moving, she assumed words were coming out. Xander was too busy thinking about her impressive rack to pay attention, in retrospect this isn't a bad thing Giles tends to be boring. Suddenly, a thought occurred to Xander and she took off running towards somewhere a little more. private. Xander ran full tilt to Giles' shower, yelling down at him that she needed to clean off and go to bed.
~ Lemon ~ this part removed due to FF.net restriction of NC-17 fics.
~Lemon~
"What are you doing in there Xander? It had better be an obsessive need to be clean." Giles voice starts Xander out of the cocoon of pleasure that she had created herself, the tiny world that she had created consisting solely of herself. "Get out of there before you use the last of the hot water, you've been in that shower for almost an hour and I would like my turn." Xander quickly jumped out of the shower and dried herself off, when she was ready she wrapped a towel around herself and grabbed two spares.
Slowly opening he door Xander peeked out to see if Giles had left, when she saw the coast was clear she dashed to the spare room. Xander quickly dried herself off and jumped into bed, within minutes she was curled up under the blankets fast asleep.
~ DREAM SEQUENCE ~
Almost the instant Xander fell asleep he was dreaming, outside the world
saw him as a female but he still saw himself as male. That translated
itself into his old body, when Xander thought about the things he had
been doing in the shower he began to blush furiously. He knew that if
Giles hadn't interrupted him he would still be there. Unfortunately Giles
had, and now Xander was feeling twice as horny as before. Xander could
her a someone laughing lightly behind him, he instantly recognized the
laughter.
After all he had spent the last year studying everything Buffy, when
Xander turned around he saw Buffy sitting on a bed. The room itself
wasn't one he had seen just a random thought, nothing more. Buffy though
was wearing a beautiful dress that when he saw it, had screamed Buffy.
"You were right this is the perfect dress for me, if I had of know you
had such great taste in women's clothes I would have brought you shopping
more often."
Xander smiled his trademark grin and sat on the bed. "To tell you the
truth, it was more having you in my fantasies so often that I
automatically saw you in the clothes I saw." Buffy smiled they joining
was going smoothly, the two of them had access to almost all of the
others thoughts and memories. Buffy though had much more time on her
hands, not really having much to do besides observe Xander's actions and
situations.
She had been spending her time 'looking' over Xander's memories,
analyzing and storing them away. Some of the things she saw shocked and
disgusted her, Xander's parents for instance. She knew better to bring
the subject up at the moment though, that was something best left for
another time. What she wanted to know was how Xander could have hidden so
much of himself, while showing all that he had.
The two of them stayed looking into each other's eyes for what would have
seemed like hours outside, here though time had no true meaning except
for what Xander and Buffy assigned to it. Neither one of them were in any
hurry to end the moment though, they both knew that they needed to come
to grips with what had occurred in the last day or so. Truly though there
was no hurry, they had eternity after all.
"We need to talk about this." They both said at the same time, two minds
one body and yet so similar it frightened them both. Buffy wanted to know
if he would've made the same choice had he been given time to understand.
Xander wanted to know if Buffy would have made the same choice had she
know what his inner most thoughts were. Both were still just two
frightened and confused teenagers that were forced to grow up all too
soon.
"Ever since I got here it's always been you Xander, helping me. the first
day we met you saved my life. You were always there for me to lean on,
and I never saw the things you gave up to make me feel like a normal
girl." Xander reaches over and slowly stokes Buffy's cheek, bringing her
face gently up so he can look into her eyes. With his thumb he wipes a
tear off her face, his smiles speaks volumes to Buffy.
"Buffy, I showed you what you needed to see. I've always kept myself
locked away, how can I fault you for not seeing the things I kept hidden
away. I love you Buffy, that's as much a fact as life itself to me now. I
always help the people I love Buffy, it's who I am." Buffy nodded slowly,
not waiting to lose contact with Xander for a second. Now that she had
seen him, truly seen Xander she didn't want to let go.
The question that kept running through her head 'How did two assholes
manage to create someone so beautiful and rich as you?'. Xander looked
down for a moment this time a tear glistened in his eye. "It was Willow
really without her I wouldn't have survived. Her friendship has always
meant the world to me, everything I am, everything that I do is because
she was there for me, and I her."
The two of them began drawing closer, drawing strength from the other.
The conversation died off, not because they were done talking, but
because talking was truly unnecessary for the two of them. Instead they
just let the emotions pour out, communicating much better then words ever
could. The kissing began slowly at first, just light pecks. one on the
cheek another on the forehead each one expressing more then it seemed.
Laying there in a world built in a dream they stated making out each of
them sure they had made the correct choices, outside in the so called
real world and here. Here in a world that to both of them seemed more
real then anything had ever felt. They hidden kisses and caress slowly
stopped until the two of them fell asleep a dream within a dream.
Xander woke up completely refreshed and full of energy, muscles that had
been sore and abused the night before felt alive. The enhanced healing
had done its job leaving Xander whole and feeling great, starving for
food and some exercise and yet feeling more alive then ever before.
Xander looked over at the clothes she had used yesterday, dirty and
stained with blood, they were fit only for the garbage.
Xander sighed there was only one person what she knew that could handle a
job like this. No offence to Willow, but Xander wanted to start off
looking good and Sears wouldn't cut it at all. That meant calling.
Cordelia, Swallowing her pride Xander dialed the number and waited.
"Chase residence, Cordelia speaking. How may I help you?"
Xander looked down at the phone for a second confused, the voice was hers
but the attitude seemed missing. "Hey Cordy, I called you because I need
to ask you something." Xander could her a typical Cordelia sigh, the one
that spoke volumes a cross between fine and what do you want. and there
was the attitude.
"Hurry up with it, are you waiting for an invitation or something?"
Xander almost laughed, the attitude was there all right but the sharp
biting edge was gone. It was almost a relief to Xander, knowing that
Cordelia was willing to listen.
"mumble, mumble, mumble"
"Could you speak up Xander I think there's something wrong with the
connection." Cordelia had heard and understood. She just wanted to hear
it again and louder, after all it was funny.
"I need you help shopping, I don't have anything to wear. I've got money
to spend and no idea what to buy, you're the only one I know to call."
"Listen I'll be over in a bit in my car, I'll bring some make-up and an
outfit or two you can have." Cordelia didn't give Xander a chance to
respond. "I'll bring everything to Giles' house see you in about an
hour."
Everything had finally been sorted out with the Watcher's and the Scoobies, Xander had all her new identification papers and a place to live. Xander found it amazing that it took becoming a Slayer to leave the hell hole that had been life at the Harris residence. Now that she could take care of herself there was no need. The important thing was that there was a safe place for her to go now, no more worrying about going to sleep and waking up to his father getting ready to beat him. Xander looked out the side window of Giles car and sighed, everything was so complicated now.
How much more was Xander expected to take in one day, the shocks were beginning to feel like kicks to the nonexistent nuts. Normal guy turned female Slayer, then on top of it all to find out that there would be people that would be coming to take her head. The whole thing was beyond Xander's experience, beyond anyone's experience truth be told. Xander and Giles were silent the entire trip back to Giles' apartment. When they got there they both just walked inside, more like zombies then living people.
While Giles was making tea and a light snack Xander went and sat in the living room, more then anything else Xander wanted to sleep but she was sure that there were things that Giles wanted to talk about. Xander was right of course, about ten minutes later Giles came out of the kitchen with the tea and food his lecture face on. Xander tried to listen, really she did the problem was Xander started thinking about twinkies, that lead to the other meaning of twinkie.
Xander knew that Giles was still talking because his mouth was moving, she assumed words were coming out. Xander was too busy thinking about her impressive rack to pay attention, in retrospect this isn't a bad thing Giles tends to be boring. Suddenly, a thought occurred to Xander and she took off running towards somewhere a little more. private. Xander ran full tilt to Giles' shower, yelling down at him that she needed to clean off and go to bed.
~ Lemon ~ this part removed due to FF.net restriction of NC-17 fics.
~Lemon~
"What are you doing in there Xander? It had better be an obsessive need to be clean." Giles voice starts Xander out of the cocoon of pleasure that she had created herself, the tiny world that she had created consisting solely of herself. "Get out of there before you use the last of the hot water, you've been in that shower for almost an hour and I would like my turn." Xander quickly jumped out of the shower and dried herself off, when she was ready she wrapped a towel around herself and grabbed two spares.
Slowly opening he door Xander peeked out to see if Giles had left, when she saw the coast was clear she dashed to the spare room. Xander quickly dried herself off and jumped into bed, within minutes she was curled up under the blankets fast asleep.
~ DREAM SEQUENCE ~
Almost the instant Xander fell asleep he was dreaming, outside the world
saw him as a female but he still saw himself as male. That translated
itself into his old body, when Xander thought about the things he had
been doing in the shower he began to blush furiously. He knew that if
Giles hadn't interrupted him he would still be there. Unfortunately Giles
had, and now Xander was feeling twice as horny as before. Xander could
her a someone laughing lightly behind him, he instantly recognized the
laughter.
After all he had spent the last year studying everything Buffy, when
Xander turned around he saw Buffy sitting on a bed. The room itself
wasn't one he had seen just a random thought, nothing more. Buffy though
was wearing a beautiful dress that when he saw it, had screamed Buffy.
"You were right this is the perfect dress for me, if I had of know you
had such great taste in women's clothes I would have brought you shopping
more often."
Xander smiled his trademark grin and sat on the bed. "To tell you the
truth, it was more having you in my fantasies so often that I
automatically saw you in the clothes I saw." Buffy smiled they joining
was going smoothly, the two of them had access to almost all of the
others thoughts and memories. Buffy though had much more time on her
hands, not really having much to do besides observe Xander's actions and
situations.
She had been spending her time 'looking' over Xander's memories,
analyzing and storing them away. Some of the things she saw shocked and
disgusted her, Xander's parents for instance. She knew better to bring
the subject up at the moment though, that was something best left for
another time. What she wanted to know was how Xander could have hidden so
much of himself, while showing all that he had.
The two of them stayed looking into each other's eyes for what would have
seemed like hours outside, here though time had no true meaning except
for what Xander and Buffy assigned to it. Neither one of them were in any
hurry to end the moment though, they both knew that they needed to come
to grips with what had occurred in the last day or so. Truly though there
was no hurry, they had eternity after all.
"We need to talk about this." They both said at the same time, two minds
one body and yet so similar it frightened them both. Buffy wanted to know
if he would've made the same choice had he been given time to understand.
Xander wanted to know if Buffy would have made the same choice had she
know what his inner most thoughts were. Both were still just two
frightened and confused teenagers that were forced to grow up all too
soon.
"Ever since I got here it's always been you Xander, helping me. the first
day we met you saved my life. You were always there for me to lean on,
and I never saw the things you gave up to make me feel like a normal
girl." Xander reaches over and slowly stokes Buffy's cheek, bringing her
face gently up so he can look into her eyes. With his thumb he wipes a
tear off her face, his smiles speaks volumes to Buffy.
"Buffy, I showed you what you needed to see. I've always kept myself
locked away, how can I fault you for not seeing the things I kept hidden
away. I love you Buffy, that's as much a fact as life itself to me now. I
always help the people I love Buffy, it's who I am." Buffy nodded slowly,
not waiting to lose contact with Xander for a second. Now that she had
seen him, truly seen Xander she didn't want to let go.
The question that kept running through her head 'How did two assholes
manage to create someone so beautiful and rich as you?'. Xander looked
down for a moment this time a tear glistened in his eye. "It was Willow
really without her I wouldn't have survived. Her friendship has always
meant the world to me, everything I am, everything that I do is because
she was there for me, and I her."
The two of them began drawing closer, drawing strength from the other.
The conversation died off, not because they were done talking, but
because talking was truly unnecessary for the two of them. Instead they
just let the emotions pour out, communicating much better then words ever
could. The kissing began slowly at first, just light pecks. one on the
cheek another on the forehead each one expressing more then it seemed.
Laying there in a world built in a dream they stated making out each of
them sure they had made the correct choices, outside in the so called
real world and here. Here in a world that to both of them seemed more
real then anything had ever felt. They hidden kisses and caress slowly
stopped until the two of them fell asleep a dream within a dream.
Xander woke up completely refreshed and full of energy, muscles that had
been sore and abused the night before felt alive. The enhanced healing
had done its job leaving Xander whole and feeling great, starving for
food and some exercise and yet feeling more alive then ever before.
Xander looked over at the clothes she had used yesterday, dirty and
stained with blood, they were fit only for the garbage.
Xander sighed there was only one person what she knew that could handle a
job like this. No offence to Willow, but Xander wanted to start off
looking good and Sears wouldn't cut it at all. That meant calling.
Cordelia, Swallowing her pride Xander dialed the number and waited.
"Chase residence, Cordelia speaking. How may I help you?"
Xander looked down at the phone for a second confused, the voice was hers
but the attitude seemed missing. "Hey Cordy, I called you because I need
to ask you something." Xander could her a typical Cordelia sigh, the one
that spoke volumes a cross between fine and what do you want. and there
was the attitude.
"Hurry up with it, are you waiting for an invitation or something?"
Xander almost laughed, the attitude was there all right but the sharp
biting edge was gone. It was almost a relief to Xander, knowing that
Cordelia was willing to listen.
"mumble, mumble, mumble"
"Could you speak up Xander I think there's something wrong with the
connection." Cordelia had heard and understood. She just wanted to hear
it again and louder, after all it was funny.
"I need you help shopping, I don't have anything to wear. I've got money
to spend and no idea what to buy, you're the only one I know to call."
"Listen I'll be over in a bit in my car, I'll bring some make-up and an
outfit or two you can have." Cordelia didn't give Xander a chance to
respond. "I'll bring everything to Giles' house see you in about an
hour."