This is a Shaman King fansong. Using Evanescence 'Where will you go?' I
based it on Tao Jun's feelings for Tao Ren. This is Tao Jun's POV
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~*~*
"Ren!" I called. "Ren, are you there?"
"I'm here, Nee-san."
His voice came from his room. Thank goodness, I thought he was out killing other shamans again. "So here you are, Ren," I sad as happily as possible. But my face dropped when I saw he was wearing his battle costume. "You're..."
"Yes, I'm going out." I watched as he grabbed his Basontou.
"Are you going... to..."
Ren looked at me, and then walked out of the room. "You know that I have to do this. I have to be the Shaman King."
"Yes... but... Ren... you're only ten years old. Is this really what you want?"
Ren didn't turn back to look at me. "Yes. I'm very sure, Nee-san." With that he left me as he walked out of the Tao residence with Bason behind him.
I sat down sadly on his bed. My poor little brother... what has the Tao family done to you?
You're too important for anyone You play the rule of what you want to be But I, I know who you really are You're the one who cries when you're alone
But where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself? You can't escape You can't escape...
I bet he doesn't know how much his 'Nee-san' knows so much about him. He doesn't know that his 'Nee-san has been watching over him ever since he was born and because of that, knows his deepest darkest secret that had been planted there by our father.
You think that I can't see right through your eyes
Scared to death you'd face reality No one seems to hear your hidden cries You're left to face yourself alone
But where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself? You can't escape the truth I realise you're afraid But you can't abandon everyone You can't escape and you don't want to escape
I can't contain my feelings anymore. My legs begin to walk out of the room and into the unknown outside. I have to find Ren. He's out there, I know it. I'm his older sister, I can find him.
And when I did, I stare in horror.
Ren looked at me, blood dripping from his hair and clothes. The man that he fought with was mutilated until barely recognizable. I hold my breath. "Ren." I gasp.
"What's wrong, Nee-san?" said Ren, his eyes narrowed. But I saw more than that. I saw something in his eyes that made my heart wrench.
I look down. "Nothing. I've come to bring you home." Without realizing it, I take Ren's hand and hold unto it all the way back. He protested, but I persisted. Maybe he wanted to, maybe he didn't. But the way he held unto my hand so tight, I could feel his sorrow flowing from within. It made me sick.
"I promise you this, Ren," I say. "I'll protect you in case anyone hurts you."
"You're crazy, Nee-san. I'm unbeatable."
I smile. "We'll see."
I am so sick of speaking words that no one understands Is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone? I can hear you in a whisper but you can't even hear me screaming...
I hope that someday you'll save yourself Ren. That somehow you'll find out who you really are and know what you really want instead of listening to our father. I'm sure you'll find yourself Ren...
Just don't be too late.
Where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself? You can't escape The truth I realise that you're afraid But you can't reject the whole world You can't escape You won't escape You can't escape And you don't want to escape.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~*~*
"Ren!" I called. "Ren, are you there?"
"I'm here, Nee-san."
His voice came from his room. Thank goodness, I thought he was out killing other shamans again. "So here you are, Ren," I sad as happily as possible. But my face dropped when I saw he was wearing his battle costume. "You're..."
"Yes, I'm going out." I watched as he grabbed his Basontou.
"Are you going... to..."
Ren looked at me, and then walked out of the room. "You know that I have to do this. I have to be the Shaman King."
"Yes... but... Ren... you're only ten years old. Is this really what you want?"
Ren didn't turn back to look at me. "Yes. I'm very sure, Nee-san." With that he left me as he walked out of the Tao residence with Bason behind him.
I sat down sadly on his bed. My poor little brother... what has the Tao family done to you?
You're too important for anyone You play the rule of what you want to be But I, I know who you really are You're the one who cries when you're alone
But where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself? You can't escape You can't escape...
I bet he doesn't know how much his 'Nee-san' knows so much about him. He doesn't know that his 'Nee-san has been watching over him ever since he was born and because of that, knows his deepest darkest secret that had been planted there by our father.
You think that I can't see right through your eyes
Scared to death you'd face reality No one seems to hear your hidden cries You're left to face yourself alone
But where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself? You can't escape the truth I realise you're afraid But you can't abandon everyone You can't escape and you don't want to escape
I can't contain my feelings anymore. My legs begin to walk out of the room and into the unknown outside. I have to find Ren. He's out there, I know it. I'm his older sister, I can find him.
And when I did, I stare in horror.
Ren looked at me, blood dripping from his hair and clothes. The man that he fought with was mutilated until barely recognizable. I hold my breath. "Ren." I gasp.
"What's wrong, Nee-san?" said Ren, his eyes narrowed. But I saw more than that. I saw something in his eyes that made my heart wrench.
I look down. "Nothing. I've come to bring you home." Without realizing it, I take Ren's hand and hold unto it all the way back. He protested, but I persisted. Maybe he wanted to, maybe he didn't. But the way he held unto my hand so tight, I could feel his sorrow flowing from within. It made me sick.
"I promise you this, Ren," I say. "I'll protect you in case anyone hurts you."
"You're crazy, Nee-san. I'm unbeatable."
I smile. "We'll see."
I am so sick of speaking words that no one understands Is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone? I can hear you in a whisper but you can't even hear me screaming...
I hope that someday you'll save yourself Ren. That somehow you'll find out who you really are and know what you really want instead of listening to our father. I'm sure you'll find yourself Ren...
Just don't be too late.
Where will you go With no one left to save you from yourself? You can't escape The truth I realise that you're afraid But you can't reject the whole world You can't escape You won't escape You can't escape And you don't want to escape.