Looking back at my past life I realize I have no point in living. My father hates me. I guess he hates me with
a passion. He cares not about my education, my well being nor my feelings. I miss my mother. Although I
don't remember her much, my father always goes to pay his respects to her. Me on the other hand. He
doesn't give me any sort of respect. Ever since I first arrived at Nerv headquarters, I've been hurt in so
many ways I never imagined would ever happened to me. I hop into that cockpit of the Eva and I put my life
on the line for the city. I do this to help out Tokyo 3. But I always end up doing it for my father. The only
reason I was ever brought here in the first place was so he could use me as the 3rd child and be used to pilot
Eva unit 1.
When I met Rei, the 1st child, she seemed nice at first. But it didn't take long for me to realize that she was
one who never talked. I had seen her with my father and she always looked happy around him. She was like
a pet to him, always the favorite. Asuka on the other hand, she seemed to be a real bitch when I first met
her. She always wants everything her way and doesn't seem to care for anyone else's feelings. She always
gets pissed off to easily and mad for no reason at all. I know that these two girls don't like me either. Just
like my father.
When I was offered to stay at Misato's place when I first arrived, she was thrilled to have a new room mate.
OK. I admit that I was a little embarrassing at first. But when I stayed there long enough I knew that I had
become a real member of her house hold. When Asuka had moved in to, that's when things really started to
turn. I had gotten more depressed then when I had 4 days leave. I so badly just wanted to die. No one cared
for me at all. It was like I'm just a figure to them that moves around in their lives, just getting in the way all
the time. That when the time turns now. Now I really want to die.
Shinji lied on his bed looking at the unfamiliar ceiling. He had been thinking through his life for days now.
Sorting out what there actually was to live for. He couldn't find any reason at all why he should have been
born. What was his purpose?
"Hey Shinji! Are you ready for school yet or what???" Asuka called out from the living room. "Yes!" He
called and grabbed his bag and went to find her. As he walked out his door, he turned to gaze at the life he
lives in. He aced Misato whom was still wearing her Pj's and had a can of beer in one hand and a piece of
toast in the other. With her mouth full, Misato called: "Cya guys! Have fun at school and I'll see ya's at
Nerv this afternoon!" Asuka and Shinji both nodded and headed out the door. Shinji closed it slowly while
looking into the life he had entered some months ago.
While walking down the road Shinji was thinking if he should tell Asuka how he felt about life. He then
thought that wouldn't be such a good idea, as she'd just tell him that he's a selfish brat who only thinks of
himself.
At school both Asuka and Shinji sat down in their usual places. Class started and people were chatting
happily. Rei on the other hand was staring out the window with a few bandages wrapped around her arms
and head. Toji and Kensuke were even chatting happily.
After a long day at school. Shinji, Rei and Asuka headed toward Nerv. At a cross road Rei went one way
and Asuka went the other. They didn't say anything and kept walking. Shinji knew this was the time. He
decided to turn around and go back to the school. By then every one had left and he managed to get to the
roof of the main building.
He started intently over the edge, imagining all the pain he would feel if he jumped. He would either die
instantly head first, or break a mass amount of bones and be in server pain. He got up on the ledge and
looked down to find a reasonable place to jump for. By this time it had already been about an hour or so
since Asuka and Rei had arrived at Nerv.
Shinji began to cry out his emotions, not knowing weather it is a good idea to jump and leave everyone
alone, or just go back and head toward Nerv and do as everyone wants him too. He go off the ledge and
cried a little more. Then he wiped away his tears and got back up.
"SHINJI!!!!!" A voice came from behind him. He didn't know if he should go ahead and jump or see who it
is. He closed his eyes and took it as it was only a voice in his head. Moments later, "SHINJI NO!" It was
Misato. She had worried about the fact he hadn't shown up at Nerv and came to see if he was still at school.
"NO MISATO! IMUST DO THIS!!!" Shinji said. He prepared to jump but was held back by the pull of
Misato. She grabbed him off the ledge and he fell to the ground. She knelt down and held him tightly and
cried into his hair. Shinji had a blank expression and realized that Misato had just saved him. She saved him
from killing himself.
"Shinji! Oh god Shinji! Please tell me why! Why were you going to do this??" Misato cried. "I'm not wanted
here…" Shinji stated. "BULL SHIT! Shinji, you are very important to us at Nerv and we NEED you!"
Misato said, upset yet pissed off at the same time. "That's it. YOU people need me for your own reasons. I
have no reason but for that." Shinji said and closed his eyes. "Oh Shinji! We do care about your life as well
you know! Come on…I'll take you home." Misato said and took Shinji by the hand and led him out to he
car.
When they got home, Misato put Shinji to bed and mad him some Miso soup and some tea. "Here you eat
this and drink this then get some rest. We'll talk in the morning about what happened. Please don't do any
thing harmful. I got to get back to Nerv OK. Bye Shinji." Misato said and left.
"Who does she think she is?! She doesn't care about me! She only cares that I'm in suitable condition to
pilot an Eva." Shinji threw the hot soup across the room. Doing this he spilt the boiling hot tea on his arm.
"ARGH FUCK!!!" Shinji cried and went to put cold water over the blistering skin. "What am I doing? Its
not like I should care for my injuries. No one wants to help me." Shinji turned the tap off and went to
Misato's store room. From there he got out a piece of rope. He then went to the kitchen and got the
sharpest knife he could find.
Going back to his room he noticed a few hooks and poles in the ceiling. He worked out a way to loop up the
rope and tied a noose on the end. "Perfect." He sat on his bed and looked at the noose dangling from his
roof. He then looked at the knife beside him. "Hmmmmm the knife or the noose? Which would be better?
But there is always the window. And cars or even trucks, maybe even the train. Hey that sounds interesting,
a train. But then there is always the bath and electrical stuff. Nah, I have the noose tied up. I could always
use the knife as well." Shinji thought out loud.
He got up on his chair he had placed underneath the noose. He held the knife in his hand and gazed and the
blade for a while. He held out his arm and put the blade to his wrist. With out much thought he took it away
from his wrist and cut a 20cm cut up his fore arm. He hadn't pressed it to hard either but because the blade
had been so sharp, the skin had cut easily. He dropped the knife and watched as the cut oozed out blood. It
began to form together as a stream of blood then it dripped fast onto the floor. Shinji felt no pain as this was
his anger, expressed though self harm. This cut represents the emotional hurt inside.
After a while he looked at the noose that was dangling in front of him as he stood on the chair. He put the
noose around his neck and had another look at his arm with blood dripping to the floor. At the moment he
closed his eyes his door burst open. At that minute he thought, ' I should of locked it…' but at the same
time of this thought, the surprise of the door flying open shocked him and he fell from the chair, thus
hanging him self.
"SHINJI!!!!" Misato had been the one who burst in. At this moment he had not quite hung himself, but the
lack of blood flow to the brain has caused him to pass out. Misato took the blood covered knife on the floor
and got on the chair and cut down the rope. Shinji fell with 'flop' like a dummi. Misato loosened the rope
from his neck and felt his weak pulse. "Asuka!!!!! Call the ambulance!!! NOW!!!!!!" Misato cried out and
grabbed some sheets off Shinji's bed and tore it to make a dressing for his arm. She nursed him in her lap
and hugged him tight.
Around about 10 or so minutes later, the ambulance arrived to get Shinji. Misato left Asuka to look after the
house as she went with Shinji to the hospital.
At the hospital Shinji got tubes and things all hooked up to him and his cut bandaged up. He was then
stabilized and put into a ward to heal up. He was in the town hospital, as Misato thought it was best that his
father didn't know yet about his condition. Misato stayed by his bed side for more than over 3 hrs and then
thought she should go and see Asuka.
"So, what happened to the 'big cry baby'?" Asuka thoughtlessly asked. "Asuka!! Shinji was badly hurt!"
Misato said, on the verge of crying. "But what happened? Its not like he was in his Eva helping out Rei and I
to protect the city from the angels." Asuka said with annoyance in her voice. "Listen!!! Shinji is very
depressed!" Misato started to weep tears from her eyes. "Depressed? HA! That twerp is just selfish and
thinks nothing but himself around this place. Just because some people would like him to help out…"
"ASUKA! HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF!!" Misato blurted out and cried. "Huh? Kill himself?" Asuka
said with shock in her voice. "Yes he tried to kill himself this morning I caught him at the school about to
jump off the main building and then I took him home to let him have some rest and to think about what he
was doing. I came back to Nerv, and just before I went into his room to make sure he was OK and I found
him about to hang himself, I guess I shocked him and he fell from the chair. He even cut him self with a
knife!" Misato yelled at the shameless Asuka.
Asuka stood their emotionless. 'I guess that twerp snapped or something?' She thought to herself. Asuka
left Misato to cry and went off to her room. She put on some music and lied down on her bed. "Reminds me
of my Muma… how I found her… but….that bitch was crazy…" Asuka thought depressing thought all that
night and herd Misato's sobs in the room near her.
Early that morning, Asuka got up and went to Shinji's room. Everything was how it was. Blood on the floor
where blood dripped from his knife cut arm. The noose was still there on the ground where Misato had
removed it from Shinji's neck. Asuka eyed the noose for a moment and looked at knife Misato had used.
"Why me? Why? Why AM I alive? Maybe the brat actually has a point to make…" Asuka whispered and
picked up the knife. She went out to the balcony and looked at the early morning look of the city. She held
the knife to her throat and closed her eyes. "I truly think the brat and my Muma have a point, no one really
cares for us…we are just used for the purpose and benefit of others. Its NOT fair!" Asuka's whispers turned
into a small yell and awoke Misato.
Unfortunately Misato was too late for Asuka. Misato came to the balcony to find drops of blood on the
ground, with the knife shinji had in his room. The railing of the balcony was smeared with blood and hand
prints and a few strands of long red hair. Misato's eyes were wide open as she stepped slowly towards the
balcony's edge. She cupped her mouth with her hands and peered over the edge to see the limp body of
Asuka lying helplessly on the ground with blood splattered out around her. Because it was so early in the
morning no one was about to see the carcass.
"ASUKA!!! OH FUCK ASUKA!!" Misato trembled with fear and fell weak at the knees and fell to the
ground crying. After about 10mins of total insanity and confusion, Misato got to her feet and rung the
ambulance. Another 10 or so minutes the ambulance arrived to pick up the body. Misato awed at them
placing her blood ridden body in the body bag and zipping it up. Misato sat in the back of the ambulance
next to the lifeless Asuka bag. "Please Ma'am, may I please ask what happened?" An officer was in the back
with her, trying hard to comfort her. "I..I..I'm sorry, I don't get it. Yesterday the other child I'm looking
after attempted suicide. And…n..now… the other child has succeeded in her suicide! I' so very confused! I
don't know the reason behind their sudden depression!" Misato couldn't hold in her tears any more. And she
cried on the officers shoulder.
When they arrived, Asuka was taken away to the morgue. At the this time Misato thought it would be best if
she went and saw how Shinji was doing. She went as quickly as she could to his ward and opened it up. No
one but a doctor with his book and notes in his hand was standing in his room. Shinji's bed was empty and
Misato began to drip tears onto the floor. "Um…Excuse me doctor…" Misato managed to spit out. "Yes?"
The doctor said curiously. "Um *ahem* What happened to the patient Shinji Ikari?" "Oh him, I'm sorry
ma'am he tried again to attempt suicide. He's in a more serious condition now, up in room 607, you may go
and see him, but I doubt you'll be able to talk to him yet." The doctor said pointing to the direction of
Shinji's ward. "Thank you…" Misato said and rushed to the ward. She knocked and walked in.
Shinji was lying on the bed hooked up with more stabilizing wires and tubes. Misato saw two bandages
wrapped around his wrists with blood seeping through. "Must of been deep…" Misato said lightly. With
those words Shinji awoke and turned to see Misato. "Hi Misato…" Shinji said and gave a small smile. "Hi
Shinji, listen because of your careless actoins, Asuka…Asuka.." Misato began. "What? Asuka? What
happened?" Shinji's small weak smile turned into a frown. And he saw Misato's eyes fill with tears. "She's
hurt herself?" Shinji asked with worry. "Oh Shinji!! Asuka has killed herself!" Misato cried and gently
hugged him. "Asuka…" Shinji whispered and lied still as Misato Hugged him cried on him.
Since that day, Shinji hadn't said a word to anyone. Its been about 2 weeks and Shinji was about to be set
out of hospital. An appointment had been made for him to see his father and Ritsuko at Nerv Headquarters
about his attempt at suicide and why Asuka had done it.
When he arrived the Nerv officials and Majors of Nerv corporation were all set out and watched Shinji walk
in. "Shinji, why is it you decided to do what you had done? You have caused Asuka to attempt and succeed
in suicide. This is VERY major here at Nerv as it is hard to find appropriate pilots for the Eva's." Shinji
stared at his father with a serious and evil look on his face. He hated him so much, with a passion. He
wondered why the lives of 14yr old children only matter to him when they are concealed inside the Eva's, to
help the city? He doesn't even care if these children die as a consequence.
Shinji did not answer. He didn't want to make any initial contact really. He swore not to say a word, and
when he gets the chance he will do just as Asuka had achieved. Leave this life…
Well thats all ihave time for to write 2day ppl, I hope you enjoyed it!(^-~) Please R&R and tell me what you
think. I thought it was ok, very disturbing and very unexpected I think…this wasnt planned at all, its what
ever came to mind as I wrote. Some feeling are really what I feel, but I turned that into shinji's character.
Any ways I'll up date ASAP, feel free to give me any tips or ideas too!
Ja-Ne
~*Juggalo Son Pan*~
a passion. He cares not about my education, my well being nor my feelings. I miss my mother. Although I
don't remember her much, my father always goes to pay his respects to her. Me on the other hand. He
doesn't give me any sort of respect. Ever since I first arrived at Nerv headquarters, I've been hurt in so
many ways I never imagined would ever happened to me. I hop into that cockpit of the Eva and I put my life
on the line for the city. I do this to help out Tokyo 3. But I always end up doing it for my father. The only
reason I was ever brought here in the first place was so he could use me as the 3rd child and be used to pilot
Eva unit 1.
When I met Rei, the 1st child, she seemed nice at first. But it didn't take long for me to realize that she was
one who never talked. I had seen her with my father and she always looked happy around him. She was like
a pet to him, always the favorite. Asuka on the other hand, she seemed to be a real bitch when I first met
her. She always wants everything her way and doesn't seem to care for anyone else's feelings. She always
gets pissed off to easily and mad for no reason at all. I know that these two girls don't like me either. Just
like my father.
When I was offered to stay at Misato's place when I first arrived, she was thrilled to have a new room mate.
OK. I admit that I was a little embarrassing at first. But when I stayed there long enough I knew that I had
become a real member of her house hold. When Asuka had moved in to, that's when things really started to
turn. I had gotten more depressed then when I had 4 days leave. I so badly just wanted to die. No one cared
for me at all. It was like I'm just a figure to them that moves around in their lives, just getting in the way all
the time. That when the time turns now. Now I really want to die.
Shinji lied on his bed looking at the unfamiliar ceiling. He had been thinking through his life for days now.
Sorting out what there actually was to live for. He couldn't find any reason at all why he should have been
born. What was his purpose?
"Hey Shinji! Are you ready for school yet or what???" Asuka called out from the living room. "Yes!" He
called and grabbed his bag and went to find her. As he walked out his door, he turned to gaze at the life he
lives in. He aced Misato whom was still wearing her Pj's and had a can of beer in one hand and a piece of
toast in the other. With her mouth full, Misato called: "Cya guys! Have fun at school and I'll see ya's at
Nerv this afternoon!" Asuka and Shinji both nodded and headed out the door. Shinji closed it slowly while
looking into the life he had entered some months ago.
While walking down the road Shinji was thinking if he should tell Asuka how he felt about life. He then
thought that wouldn't be such a good idea, as she'd just tell him that he's a selfish brat who only thinks of
himself.
At school both Asuka and Shinji sat down in their usual places. Class started and people were chatting
happily. Rei on the other hand was staring out the window with a few bandages wrapped around her arms
and head. Toji and Kensuke were even chatting happily.
After a long day at school. Shinji, Rei and Asuka headed toward Nerv. At a cross road Rei went one way
and Asuka went the other. They didn't say anything and kept walking. Shinji knew this was the time. He
decided to turn around and go back to the school. By then every one had left and he managed to get to the
roof of the main building.
He started intently over the edge, imagining all the pain he would feel if he jumped. He would either die
instantly head first, or break a mass amount of bones and be in server pain. He got up on the ledge and
looked down to find a reasonable place to jump for. By this time it had already been about an hour or so
since Asuka and Rei had arrived at Nerv.
Shinji began to cry out his emotions, not knowing weather it is a good idea to jump and leave everyone
alone, or just go back and head toward Nerv and do as everyone wants him too. He go off the ledge and
cried a little more. Then he wiped away his tears and got back up.
"SHINJI!!!!!" A voice came from behind him. He didn't know if he should go ahead and jump or see who it
is. He closed his eyes and took it as it was only a voice in his head. Moments later, "SHINJI NO!" It was
Misato. She had worried about the fact he hadn't shown up at Nerv and came to see if he was still at school.
"NO MISATO! IMUST DO THIS!!!" Shinji said. He prepared to jump but was held back by the pull of
Misato. She grabbed him off the ledge and he fell to the ground. She knelt down and held him tightly and
cried into his hair. Shinji had a blank expression and realized that Misato had just saved him. She saved him
from killing himself.
"Shinji! Oh god Shinji! Please tell me why! Why were you going to do this??" Misato cried. "I'm not wanted
here…" Shinji stated. "BULL SHIT! Shinji, you are very important to us at Nerv and we NEED you!"
Misato said, upset yet pissed off at the same time. "That's it. YOU people need me for your own reasons. I
have no reason but for that." Shinji said and closed his eyes. "Oh Shinji! We do care about your life as well
you know! Come on…I'll take you home." Misato said and took Shinji by the hand and led him out to he
car.
When they got home, Misato put Shinji to bed and mad him some Miso soup and some tea. "Here you eat
this and drink this then get some rest. We'll talk in the morning about what happened. Please don't do any
thing harmful. I got to get back to Nerv OK. Bye Shinji." Misato said and left.
"Who does she think she is?! She doesn't care about me! She only cares that I'm in suitable condition to
pilot an Eva." Shinji threw the hot soup across the room. Doing this he spilt the boiling hot tea on his arm.
"ARGH FUCK!!!" Shinji cried and went to put cold water over the blistering skin. "What am I doing? Its
not like I should care for my injuries. No one wants to help me." Shinji turned the tap off and went to
Misato's store room. From there he got out a piece of rope. He then went to the kitchen and got the
sharpest knife he could find.
Going back to his room he noticed a few hooks and poles in the ceiling. He worked out a way to loop up the
rope and tied a noose on the end. "Perfect." He sat on his bed and looked at the noose dangling from his
roof. He then looked at the knife beside him. "Hmmmmm the knife or the noose? Which would be better?
But there is always the window. And cars or even trucks, maybe even the train. Hey that sounds interesting,
a train. But then there is always the bath and electrical stuff. Nah, I have the noose tied up. I could always
use the knife as well." Shinji thought out loud.
He got up on his chair he had placed underneath the noose. He held the knife in his hand and gazed and the
blade for a while. He held out his arm and put the blade to his wrist. With out much thought he took it away
from his wrist and cut a 20cm cut up his fore arm. He hadn't pressed it to hard either but because the blade
had been so sharp, the skin had cut easily. He dropped the knife and watched as the cut oozed out blood. It
began to form together as a stream of blood then it dripped fast onto the floor. Shinji felt no pain as this was
his anger, expressed though self harm. This cut represents the emotional hurt inside.
After a while he looked at the noose that was dangling in front of him as he stood on the chair. He put the
noose around his neck and had another look at his arm with blood dripping to the floor. At the moment he
closed his eyes his door burst open. At that minute he thought, ' I should of locked it…' but at the same
time of this thought, the surprise of the door flying open shocked him and he fell from the chair, thus
hanging him self.
"SHINJI!!!!" Misato had been the one who burst in. At this moment he had not quite hung himself, but the
lack of blood flow to the brain has caused him to pass out. Misato took the blood covered knife on the floor
and got on the chair and cut down the rope. Shinji fell with 'flop' like a dummi. Misato loosened the rope
from his neck and felt his weak pulse. "Asuka!!!!! Call the ambulance!!! NOW!!!!!!" Misato cried out and
grabbed some sheets off Shinji's bed and tore it to make a dressing for his arm. She nursed him in her lap
and hugged him tight.
Around about 10 or so minutes later, the ambulance arrived to get Shinji. Misato left Asuka to look after the
house as she went with Shinji to the hospital.
At the hospital Shinji got tubes and things all hooked up to him and his cut bandaged up. He was then
stabilized and put into a ward to heal up. He was in the town hospital, as Misato thought it was best that his
father didn't know yet about his condition. Misato stayed by his bed side for more than over 3 hrs and then
thought she should go and see Asuka.
"So, what happened to the 'big cry baby'?" Asuka thoughtlessly asked. "Asuka!! Shinji was badly hurt!"
Misato said, on the verge of crying. "But what happened? Its not like he was in his Eva helping out Rei and I
to protect the city from the angels." Asuka said with annoyance in her voice. "Listen!!! Shinji is very
depressed!" Misato started to weep tears from her eyes. "Depressed? HA! That twerp is just selfish and
thinks nothing but himself around this place. Just because some people would like him to help out…"
"ASUKA! HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF!!" Misato blurted out and cried. "Huh? Kill himself?" Asuka
said with shock in her voice. "Yes he tried to kill himself this morning I caught him at the school about to
jump off the main building and then I took him home to let him have some rest and to think about what he
was doing. I came back to Nerv, and just before I went into his room to make sure he was OK and I found
him about to hang himself, I guess I shocked him and he fell from the chair. He even cut him self with a
knife!" Misato yelled at the shameless Asuka.
Asuka stood their emotionless. 'I guess that twerp snapped or something?' She thought to herself. Asuka
left Misato to cry and went off to her room. She put on some music and lied down on her bed. "Reminds me
of my Muma… how I found her… but….that bitch was crazy…" Asuka thought depressing thought all that
night and herd Misato's sobs in the room near her.
Early that morning, Asuka got up and went to Shinji's room. Everything was how it was. Blood on the floor
where blood dripped from his knife cut arm. The noose was still there on the ground where Misato had
removed it from Shinji's neck. Asuka eyed the noose for a moment and looked at knife Misato had used.
"Why me? Why? Why AM I alive? Maybe the brat actually has a point to make…" Asuka whispered and
picked up the knife. She went out to the balcony and looked at the early morning look of the city. She held
the knife to her throat and closed her eyes. "I truly think the brat and my Muma have a point, no one really
cares for us…we are just used for the purpose and benefit of others. Its NOT fair!" Asuka's whispers turned
into a small yell and awoke Misato.
Unfortunately Misato was too late for Asuka. Misato came to the balcony to find drops of blood on the
ground, with the knife shinji had in his room. The railing of the balcony was smeared with blood and hand
prints and a few strands of long red hair. Misato's eyes were wide open as she stepped slowly towards the
balcony's edge. She cupped her mouth with her hands and peered over the edge to see the limp body of
Asuka lying helplessly on the ground with blood splattered out around her. Because it was so early in the
morning no one was about to see the carcass.
"ASUKA!!! OH FUCK ASUKA!!" Misato trembled with fear and fell weak at the knees and fell to the
ground crying. After about 10mins of total insanity and confusion, Misato got to her feet and rung the
ambulance. Another 10 or so minutes the ambulance arrived to pick up the body. Misato awed at them
placing her blood ridden body in the body bag and zipping it up. Misato sat in the back of the ambulance
next to the lifeless Asuka bag. "Please Ma'am, may I please ask what happened?" An officer was in the back
with her, trying hard to comfort her. "I..I..I'm sorry, I don't get it. Yesterday the other child I'm looking
after attempted suicide. And…n..now… the other child has succeeded in her suicide! I' so very confused! I
don't know the reason behind their sudden depression!" Misato couldn't hold in her tears any more. And she
cried on the officers shoulder.
When they arrived, Asuka was taken away to the morgue. At the this time Misato thought it would be best if
she went and saw how Shinji was doing. She went as quickly as she could to his ward and opened it up. No
one but a doctor with his book and notes in his hand was standing in his room. Shinji's bed was empty and
Misato began to drip tears onto the floor. "Um…Excuse me doctor…" Misato managed to spit out. "Yes?"
The doctor said curiously. "Um *ahem* What happened to the patient Shinji Ikari?" "Oh him, I'm sorry
ma'am he tried again to attempt suicide. He's in a more serious condition now, up in room 607, you may go
and see him, but I doubt you'll be able to talk to him yet." The doctor said pointing to the direction of
Shinji's ward. "Thank you…" Misato said and rushed to the ward. She knocked and walked in.
Shinji was lying on the bed hooked up with more stabilizing wires and tubes. Misato saw two bandages
wrapped around his wrists with blood seeping through. "Must of been deep…" Misato said lightly. With
those words Shinji awoke and turned to see Misato. "Hi Misato…" Shinji said and gave a small smile. "Hi
Shinji, listen because of your careless actoins, Asuka…Asuka.." Misato began. "What? Asuka? What
happened?" Shinji's small weak smile turned into a frown. And he saw Misato's eyes fill with tears. "She's
hurt herself?" Shinji asked with worry. "Oh Shinji!! Asuka has killed herself!" Misato cried and gently
hugged him. "Asuka…" Shinji whispered and lied still as Misato Hugged him cried on him.
Since that day, Shinji hadn't said a word to anyone. Its been about 2 weeks and Shinji was about to be set
out of hospital. An appointment had been made for him to see his father and Ritsuko at Nerv Headquarters
about his attempt at suicide and why Asuka had done it.
When he arrived the Nerv officials and Majors of Nerv corporation were all set out and watched Shinji walk
in. "Shinji, why is it you decided to do what you had done? You have caused Asuka to attempt and succeed
in suicide. This is VERY major here at Nerv as it is hard to find appropriate pilots for the Eva's." Shinji
stared at his father with a serious and evil look on his face. He hated him so much, with a passion. He
wondered why the lives of 14yr old children only matter to him when they are concealed inside the Eva's, to
help the city? He doesn't even care if these children die as a consequence.
Shinji did not answer. He didn't want to make any initial contact really. He swore not to say a word, and
when he gets the chance he will do just as Asuka had achieved. Leave this life…
Well thats all ihave time for to write 2day ppl, I hope you enjoyed it!(^-~) Please R&R and tell me what you
think. I thought it was ok, very disturbing and very unexpected I think…this wasnt planned at all, its what
ever came to mind as I wrote. Some feeling are really what I feel, but I turned that into shinji's character.
Any ways I'll up date ASAP, feel free to give me any tips or ideas too!
Ja-Ne
~*Juggalo Son Pan*~