A/N: Hi, I just wanted to apologize about removing my story, Secrets Hard
To Keep from fanfiction.net. After recieving all your warm reviews, I was
really encouraged to continue but then I got a really rude review from
someone I wont mention by pen name, and even though it hurt me there was
some truth to it. I decided to delete the story and start over, staying
critical and true to my writing. To this reviewer, I'd like to say
although you were right in your opinions, you lacked any class. For
further notice, don't bother leaving your reviews if you cant give CIVIL
constructive criticism. I dont want to hear it and I dont need it
-especially from someone who doesn't even have the courage to write a story
themselves. To everyone else, I want to say I hope you like this story and
please review if you'd like. I love hearing your opinions and
encouragement. I also wanted to say I dont believe you have to be a writer
to read/review but I think when your not sometimes you can lack the
understanding that it takes a lot of courage for any writer to put
themselves out there in the stories read by strangers. Thanks for your
understanding and enjoy!
Summary: Takes place a month after the incident with Payten/Brooke and Lucas at the party. Only difference is that Haley went on the date with Lucas but he never showed up at her house and the KISS never happened. Since the month, Lucas has been distant from Haley, and Haley has been avoiding any kind of interaction with Nathan. This takes place one night at her house. Lucas and her get into a fight about something that they both cant really understand the full extent of... Gets better next chapter. This is a NALEY trust me but it is gonna take time to get to that point.
And I am still here waiting there to catch you if you fall, I dont know why I care so much when I shouldn't care at all..... -The Ataris
It was one moment she would never forget for the rest of her life. It was the moment she watched him walk away....
They had one of their infamous fights over trivial issues that made no sense to her. Haley had taken the place of opposition but they both knew what they were really arguing about. It had been two weeks since she had noticed the change. It was subtle at first and part of her had allowed herself to deny its very existence... until now.
"Whats your problem, Haley? Tell me how in the hell you can agree with Wiles cutting a varisty player from the next two team games for having a couple of drinks?"
Haley understood where he was coming from. The player and him had become very close ever since Nathan and the rest of the team had opposed Lucas's joining on. In fact, she knew that he was the only one on the team who kept his spirits from crashing down from the non-existent thread they hanged on. Stil, she felt like Lucas was allowing favoritism to seep through rational logic.
"Lucas, I am just saying, the guy had no business drinking on the bus. Rules are rules and you know about the kid last year who got suspended from some school activity for doing the same thing? What makes a basketball player any different in the enforcement of school policy!?"
She watched his neck muscle tense as he shook his head with frustration. A thought pondered her head as she realized the lines that had once never been there between them now where so evident... Team bonding and friendship made sense to her but it was the idea that Lucas believed the team was more important than the average school peer that really pissed her off....
" Hales, you dont get it and for once, I just dont expect you too. The team needs Gavin on it and he made a mistake by getting wasted but so what. He shoudn't have gotten cut for any reason at least not when our final 5 games have started..."
He sighed and carelessly turned away back towards his plight into The Great Gastby. She watched as his eyes focused on the words, blocking out all the world as well as her. She had always hated him doing that. If things didnt go as they were suppose to or to his liking, he just shut down on the spot.
"Lucas, i'm sorry okay. I know you and Gavin have been friends for the last month and I know things are rough now with the team but I think this isn't really the issue at hand between us. I mean ever since that night out with Brooke and Peyton, you have developed this tunnel vision where all you see is the team... and Brooke... and Peyton... and-"
His eyes shot up from the book and she couldnt quite place the look on his face. Haley had never really seen it before. At least not directed at her. It was a look that made her feel really uncomfortable. It was critical and cold, more like a look she'd get from Nathan...
"Haley, its not just about the team and I dont have tunnel vision. I think your wrong about this issue and about me. I know I havent been around lately and things are kind of distant between us but if you dont know me well enough to know that I am not so damn superficial than I wonder if you ever really knew me at all."
His words hit home straight to her heart and she felt like someone had stabbed her in the back. Of course she knew him... better then he knew himself. Sadness creeped in as she realized that things had really changed between them... He wasnt the same person he had used to be... The same boy who would wake her up in the early hours of the morning to take a walk and talk about his mom and his books. He wasnt that guy anymore. His friends at the court hadnt seen him for over a month and although his heart hadnt changed, his image had... he just didnt know it yet. Yep, things had defintley changed and although she could see him evolving into something mabye he was destined to be, she didn't see herself evolving with him.
"Lucas."
His eyes once again met hers and she could see that his frustration was building.
"I got to go, Hales. We have an early practice tomorrow and I still have to study for my chem class. So I better get going..."
Hales face brightened a little as a thought crossed through her mind...
"We could study it together. I think I remember the test you are gonna take from last semester. I could give you some pointers and-"
She saw him squirm a little and then get up from his relaxed position off the couch.
"Actually, I cant. I promised Payten that I would study with her tonight for the test. Im kind late so I better get going. I'll see ya tomorrow, okay?"
Less than audible, she muttered a yes and watched leaving out the back. As he walked across the lawn, her heart started to break. It wasnt that he wasnt staying, it was where he was going that killed her. It was symbolic of a choice he made, not of another girl, which was true, but of another life she had no place in. A life of games, parties, sex.... everything that she didnt want to know at least not now in her life. She rubbed her now aching eyes and turned towards the stairs and her room of solace....She lied down on her bed and stared up at the ceiling as faint sounds of MEST played from her cd player....
Time goes by, I just try... To hold my head up high
People try to deny... Classify, or just hide...
The feelings, what's inside...Broken hearts, and hard times
Don't let life break you down this time...
Tears ran down her face as she thought of this weekend and what was in store for her. Before their fight, Lucas had made her promise she'd go with him to the teams annual camp-out up North. She knew he had wanted her to go for support but she didnt know if he really needed it anymore.... now that he had Payten and the team....
I'm sitting here, crying here...You're alone and dying
There waiting for bad news..Like walking on broken glass
Nowhere just others ask who are all alone..
Cuz you know that I'd give my life for you..Time can be nothing but our enemy
Don't give up just hold on, Is the pain just too strong
To hold on...Sometimes we're wrong when we think we're right
Tonight will be the night...You'll break free from this fight
Dont let life break you down this time
Haley James sighed as weariness got the best of her and her fears came crashing down on her pillow. She slept that night with many questions she only hoped would be answered this weekend. Did Lucas and her still have a friendship? Would things ever be the same?... Did she really feel what she felt when she was Nathan that night? More importantly, did he?...................
A/N: Okay, guys! See ya later, hoped you like it. Please review if you have time.
Summary: Takes place a month after the incident with Payten/Brooke and Lucas at the party. Only difference is that Haley went on the date with Lucas but he never showed up at her house and the KISS never happened. Since the month, Lucas has been distant from Haley, and Haley has been avoiding any kind of interaction with Nathan. This takes place one night at her house. Lucas and her get into a fight about something that they both cant really understand the full extent of... Gets better next chapter. This is a NALEY trust me but it is gonna take time to get to that point.
And I am still here waiting there to catch you if you fall, I dont know why I care so much when I shouldn't care at all..... -The Ataris
It was one moment she would never forget for the rest of her life. It was the moment she watched him walk away....
They had one of their infamous fights over trivial issues that made no sense to her. Haley had taken the place of opposition but they both knew what they were really arguing about. It had been two weeks since she had noticed the change. It was subtle at first and part of her had allowed herself to deny its very existence... until now.
"Whats your problem, Haley? Tell me how in the hell you can agree with Wiles cutting a varisty player from the next two team games for having a couple of drinks?"
Haley understood where he was coming from. The player and him had become very close ever since Nathan and the rest of the team had opposed Lucas's joining on. In fact, she knew that he was the only one on the team who kept his spirits from crashing down from the non-existent thread they hanged on. Stil, she felt like Lucas was allowing favoritism to seep through rational logic.
"Lucas, I am just saying, the guy had no business drinking on the bus. Rules are rules and you know about the kid last year who got suspended from some school activity for doing the same thing? What makes a basketball player any different in the enforcement of school policy!?"
She watched his neck muscle tense as he shook his head with frustration. A thought pondered her head as she realized the lines that had once never been there between them now where so evident... Team bonding and friendship made sense to her but it was the idea that Lucas believed the team was more important than the average school peer that really pissed her off....
" Hales, you dont get it and for once, I just dont expect you too. The team needs Gavin on it and he made a mistake by getting wasted but so what. He shoudn't have gotten cut for any reason at least not when our final 5 games have started..."
He sighed and carelessly turned away back towards his plight into The Great Gastby. She watched as his eyes focused on the words, blocking out all the world as well as her. She had always hated him doing that. If things didnt go as they were suppose to or to his liking, he just shut down on the spot.
"Lucas, i'm sorry okay. I know you and Gavin have been friends for the last month and I know things are rough now with the team but I think this isn't really the issue at hand between us. I mean ever since that night out with Brooke and Peyton, you have developed this tunnel vision where all you see is the team... and Brooke... and Peyton... and-"
His eyes shot up from the book and she couldnt quite place the look on his face. Haley had never really seen it before. At least not directed at her. It was a look that made her feel really uncomfortable. It was critical and cold, more like a look she'd get from Nathan...
"Haley, its not just about the team and I dont have tunnel vision. I think your wrong about this issue and about me. I know I havent been around lately and things are kind of distant between us but if you dont know me well enough to know that I am not so damn superficial than I wonder if you ever really knew me at all."
His words hit home straight to her heart and she felt like someone had stabbed her in the back. Of course she knew him... better then he knew himself. Sadness creeped in as she realized that things had really changed between them... He wasnt the same person he had used to be... The same boy who would wake her up in the early hours of the morning to take a walk and talk about his mom and his books. He wasnt that guy anymore. His friends at the court hadnt seen him for over a month and although his heart hadnt changed, his image had... he just didnt know it yet. Yep, things had defintley changed and although she could see him evolving into something mabye he was destined to be, she didn't see herself evolving with him.
"Lucas."
His eyes once again met hers and she could see that his frustration was building.
"I got to go, Hales. We have an early practice tomorrow and I still have to study for my chem class. So I better get going..."
Hales face brightened a little as a thought crossed through her mind...
"We could study it together. I think I remember the test you are gonna take from last semester. I could give you some pointers and-"
She saw him squirm a little and then get up from his relaxed position off the couch.
"Actually, I cant. I promised Payten that I would study with her tonight for the test. Im kind late so I better get going. I'll see ya tomorrow, okay?"
Less than audible, she muttered a yes and watched leaving out the back. As he walked across the lawn, her heart started to break. It wasnt that he wasnt staying, it was where he was going that killed her. It was symbolic of a choice he made, not of another girl, which was true, but of another life she had no place in. A life of games, parties, sex.... everything that she didnt want to know at least not now in her life. She rubbed her now aching eyes and turned towards the stairs and her room of solace....She lied down on her bed and stared up at the ceiling as faint sounds of MEST played from her cd player....
Time goes by, I just try... To hold my head up high
People try to deny... Classify, or just hide...
The feelings, what's inside...Broken hearts, and hard times
Don't let life break you down this time...
Tears ran down her face as she thought of this weekend and what was in store for her. Before their fight, Lucas had made her promise she'd go with him to the teams annual camp-out up North. She knew he had wanted her to go for support but she didnt know if he really needed it anymore.... now that he had Payten and the team....
I'm sitting here, crying here...You're alone and dying
There waiting for bad news..Like walking on broken glass
Nowhere just others ask who are all alone..
Cuz you know that I'd give my life for you..Time can be nothing but our enemy
Don't give up just hold on, Is the pain just too strong
To hold on...Sometimes we're wrong when we think we're right
Tonight will be the night...You'll break free from this fight
Dont let life break you down this time
Haley James sighed as weariness got the best of her and her fears came crashing down on her pillow. She slept that night with many questions she only hoped would be answered this weekend. Did Lucas and her still have a friendship? Would things ever be the same?... Did she really feel what she felt when she was Nathan that night? More importantly, did he?...................
A/N: Okay, guys! See ya later, hoped you like it. Please review if you have time.