A/N: Sorry for the late update, just been really ....busy. But anyways, I
hope you like this chapter. Please R/R if you have a chance....
"... Here I am pouring my heart on to these rooftops, just a ghost to the world, thats exactly,
exactly what I need... From up here the city lights burn, like a thousand miles of fire and
I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day."- Story Of The Year
From the minute Nathan had put his arm around her, she had avoided Lucas. The party was never ending and a recollection of making it home at 5 am was the only memory she really had of last night... Needless to say, she hadn't gone home with Lucas and the rest of them. Instead, she had went in Nathans car laughing her ass off at his bad driving. It was one of the funniest moments she had ever had and one of the biggest challenges. Both of them had been pretty drunk and driving had not been easy for Nathan at all. The cool air against her face had cleared her head enough to remember where she lived but they got lost at least three times attempting to get out of the woods. She would always remember that reckless night. It had been her first walk on the wildside.
A smile formed on her face as she remembered a conversation with her grandmother when she was about 15 or so...
(FLASHBACK)
"You know honey, your going to be noticed alot as you get older..."
Haley laughed at her grandmother as she stared out of the window. It was always like her to say the most unusual things at the oddest moments. Her grandmother was always giving her advice from her rocking chair. It had become almost a ritualistic thing for Haley. Every last sunday was spent at the retirement home looking out the big glass window as her grandmother gave sound advice for her adolescent dilemas.....
"Grandma, you know thats never going to happen..."
Her grandmother smiled softly and returned to her book only looking up every once in awhile to stare at Haleys features.
"No... I'm pretty sure. You have my genes. - We James women always get noticed even if a little late.... but be careful, because not all attention is the best. Some attention can be dangerous. Just remember, Haley... your not that girl... you know which one I'm talking about too so don't make that face... Your not her, dont ever be..."
(End of Flashback)
Haley grimaced as she remembered that moment in her life. It was hard because last night had awakened something in her she had been sure for most of her life was never really there.... It was always a routine for herself to believe that she couldnt be like them, so carefree and reckless. In fact, Lucas and her had always prided themselves in being above that level of immaturity... but now, Haley wasn't really sure who she was or what she was becoming. Everything just didn't make sense to her anymore. In fact, her whole life was beginning to unravel in the worst of ways......
Haley grabbed her bag and jetted out the screen door making sure to go out the back to avoid her not so happy mother. When she had come in to the hous at 5 this morning, her mother just gave her an annoyed look and muttered a few rants of "being irresponsible"... "grounded for life" and then headed for bed. Haley knew she was in some deep shit but wanted to wait until after school to deal with it. Right now, her head and heart was focused on making it through the day without having to deal with Lucas or Nathan.
TWENTY MINUTES LATER....
She wasn't even in the hallway yet before she noticed the unusual vibe from her peers. Everywhere she turned she got the funniest looks and quite frankly, it bothered her. One girl had scoffed at her and walked past her muttering something she couldn't make out. While another guy just winked at her like she was some piece of meat but the worst.... the worst of them all..... was the look she was now recieving from Lucas....Her gut told her to deal with it later so she made her way through the opposite end of the hall hoping he wouldn't attempt to interact with her...
Relief came over her as she watched Lucas stare for a minute and then turn to Peyton. She watched from the corner of her eye as he grabbed Peyton's hand and gestured towards their class....
Haley smiled to herself as she convinced herself all was going to be okay in her now drama filled world(at least thats what she hoped.).... right now, it was all up in the air, and who the hell knew what really was going to go down today...
FORTY MINUTES LATER AFTER HER LAB.....
"Haley!"
Haley whipped around and felt a pair of arms embrace her as all the heat in her body rushed to her head. She glanced up at a towering Nathan who had a gleam in his eye that made her wonder when the last time she had seen it was....
"Do you know I have been waiting all morning to see you. I just had to suffer through one of Tidmen's really bad lectures..."
Haley smiled and pushed back a little, leaving some space between them. When he had hugged her, he had held on to her which made her feel so much in such a little amount of time. Her heart was content but she was somewhat uncomfortable with the display of public affection. It was making a statement she wasn't sure she was ready to make.... The movement hadn't gone unoticed by Nathan either and she could sense a bit of hurt in his eyes...
"Whats going on? Did I do something..... I mean between last night and my bad driving, that can't possibly be it, right?"
The tension eased up a bit and Haley smiled and lightly put her hand on his arm, clinging to it.
"No thats not it, I - its nothing... I kind of have to go though... I mean, I am late to my tutoring appointment but we'll talk later."
He nodded rather silently and they parted ways. She turned slowly watching him interact with his friends. Sadness came over her as she realized things were how she wanted them to be but the whole situation with Lucas was holding her back right now.... She really needed to talk to Lucas. No matter what happened at least in the end things could get resolved either way....
OUTSIDE - TEN MINUTES LATER:
"Lucas! Come on, are you really not going to say ANYTHING to me? I mean, I just explained it to you and your just standing there!"
Haley was about to lose it. She had just spent the last ten minutes talking to a nonchalant Lucas who refused to make any action that acknowledged her presence or even the one-sided conversation that was taking place....
She watched him with intensity as he leaned on his car staring straight ahead, not even willing to look at her. It reminded her of a time when they were both nine and she had accidently recked his gameboy by spilling juice on it. He had pouted for a week, refusing to even look at her....
"Fine. You can be a little kid about this all you want but your bieng really selfish because all I want is to be happy and-"
She hadnt been able to finish her sentence before he was off the car and turning towards her. His dark blue eyes burning into her heart...
"You think he can make you happy? Is that what your telling me?"
His voice was low and edgy. She gulped hard trying to stay true to her resolve....
"Yes."
She muttered the words trying to keep her shoulders from slumping due to the scrutiny of his gaze.
"He won't but its okay. I'm over it. Everything is fine. You have him, I have Peyton. Lets just let things play out as they will. I have class, see ya."
Haley walked towards her next class in a bit of a daze. Her conversation with Lucas had NOT gone as planned. In fact, his too-cool-for- school attitude kind of scared the hell of her. It just wasnt him and part of her wondered if it was the way he was dealing with it all....
She must of not been paying attention because one minute she was walking and then the next minute she was bumping into Peyton, literally.
"Wow. Walk much?"
Haley muttered an apology and was about to keep walking when she felt herself being ushered towards a nearby bench.
"Can we talk for a minute. I kind of need some advice... about Lucas."
Haley glanced at Peyton who took out a Newport and began smoking, looking out at the vacant parking lot.
"Yeah but I don't know if I can help. I mean right now Lucas and I are not really talking..."
"I know."
Haley looked down at her shoes as she was contemplating on what to say next when Peyton just started in with a tone mixed with anger and hurt.
" You know I think thats why everything was so messed up last night between me and him.... In fact, I think your the problem. It really wasn't suppose to be like that between me and him. His focus was off and afterwords, he just became so distant... He wouldn't talk or anything. He just left the car and said goodnight. I mean he was an ass, plain and simple and I've never seen him like that. I just felt kind of cheap and yet I really do like him.. I don't what I am suppose to do or feel right now, I just want you to know what happened so mabye you can get a clue and let him go so mabye this thing between him and me can have a chance.."
Haleys eyes shot up at Peyton with utter shock.... nothing was about to prepare her for what came next.... nothing.
"Last night, Lucas and I had sex."
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AN: Okay, I know what your thinking and yes, most of you might not like what I just did. Thats fine but I see the overall picture so please TRUST ME on this. Lucas isnt going to be an ASS or anything there is more to it and I am trying to be real here because we all know that guys act out differently and this kind of can be realistic since Peyton and him are TOGETHER as a couple... so.. dont FLAME me... just stop reading if you want or you can continue which I WOULD LOVE.. but I just know what I am doing.. hopefully =)
"... Here I am pouring my heart on to these rooftops, just a ghost to the world, thats exactly,
exactly what I need... From up here the city lights burn, like a thousand miles of fire and
I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day."- Story Of The Year
From the minute Nathan had put his arm around her, she had avoided Lucas. The party was never ending and a recollection of making it home at 5 am was the only memory she really had of last night... Needless to say, she hadn't gone home with Lucas and the rest of them. Instead, she had went in Nathans car laughing her ass off at his bad driving. It was one of the funniest moments she had ever had and one of the biggest challenges. Both of them had been pretty drunk and driving had not been easy for Nathan at all. The cool air against her face had cleared her head enough to remember where she lived but they got lost at least three times attempting to get out of the woods. She would always remember that reckless night. It had been her first walk on the wildside.
A smile formed on her face as she remembered a conversation with her grandmother when she was about 15 or so...
(FLASHBACK)
"You know honey, your going to be noticed alot as you get older..."
Haley laughed at her grandmother as she stared out of the window. It was always like her to say the most unusual things at the oddest moments. Her grandmother was always giving her advice from her rocking chair. It had become almost a ritualistic thing for Haley. Every last sunday was spent at the retirement home looking out the big glass window as her grandmother gave sound advice for her adolescent dilemas.....
"Grandma, you know thats never going to happen..."
Her grandmother smiled softly and returned to her book only looking up every once in awhile to stare at Haleys features.
"No... I'm pretty sure. You have my genes. - We James women always get noticed even if a little late.... but be careful, because not all attention is the best. Some attention can be dangerous. Just remember, Haley... your not that girl... you know which one I'm talking about too so don't make that face... Your not her, dont ever be..."
(End of Flashback)
Haley grimaced as she remembered that moment in her life. It was hard because last night had awakened something in her she had been sure for most of her life was never really there.... It was always a routine for herself to believe that she couldnt be like them, so carefree and reckless. In fact, Lucas and her had always prided themselves in being above that level of immaturity... but now, Haley wasn't really sure who she was or what she was becoming. Everything just didn't make sense to her anymore. In fact, her whole life was beginning to unravel in the worst of ways......
Haley grabbed her bag and jetted out the screen door making sure to go out the back to avoid her not so happy mother. When she had come in to the hous at 5 this morning, her mother just gave her an annoyed look and muttered a few rants of "being irresponsible"... "grounded for life" and then headed for bed. Haley knew she was in some deep shit but wanted to wait until after school to deal with it. Right now, her head and heart was focused on making it through the day without having to deal with Lucas or Nathan.
TWENTY MINUTES LATER....
She wasn't even in the hallway yet before she noticed the unusual vibe from her peers. Everywhere she turned she got the funniest looks and quite frankly, it bothered her. One girl had scoffed at her and walked past her muttering something she couldn't make out. While another guy just winked at her like she was some piece of meat but the worst.... the worst of them all..... was the look she was now recieving from Lucas....Her gut told her to deal with it later so she made her way through the opposite end of the hall hoping he wouldn't attempt to interact with her...
Relief came over her as she watched Lucas stare for a minute and then turn to Peyton. She watched from the corner of her eye as he grabbed Peyton's hand and gestured towards their class....
Haley smiled to herself as she convinced herself all was going to be okay in her now drama filled world(at least thats what she hoped.).... right now, it was all up in the air, and who the hell knew what really was going to go down today...
FORTY MINUTES LATER AFTER HER LAB.....
"Haley!"
Haley whipped around and felt a pair of arms embrace her as all the heat in her body rushed to her head. She glanced up at a towering Nathan who had a gleam in his eye that made her wonder when the last time she had seen it was....
"Do you know I have been waiting all morning to see you. I just had to suffer through one of Tidmen's really bad lectures..."
Haley smiled and pushed back a little, leaving some space between them. When he had hugged her, he had held on to her which made her feel so much in such a little amount of time. Her heart was content but she was somewhat uncomfortable with the display of public affection. It was making a statement she wasn't sure she was ready to make.... The movement hadn't gone unoticed by Nathan either and she could sense a bit of hurt in his eyes...
"Whats going on? Did I do something..... I mean between last night and my bad driving, that can't possibly be it, right?"
The tension eased up a bit and Haley smiled and lightly put her hand on his arm, clinging to it.
"No thats not it, I - its nothing... I kind of have to go though... I mean, I am late to my tutoring appointment but we'll talk later."
He nodded rather silently and they parted ways. She turned slowly watching him interact with his friends. Sadness came over her as she realized things were how she wanted them to be but the whole situation with Lucas was holding her back right now.... She really needed to talk to Lucas. No matter what happened at least in the end things could get resolved either way....
OUTSIDE - TEN MINUTES LATER:
"Lucas! Come on, are you really not going to say ANYTHING to me? I mean, I just explained it to you and your just standing there!"
Haley was about to lose it. She had just spent the last ten minutes talking to a nonchalant Lucas who refused to make any action that acknowledged her presence or even the one-sided conversation that was taking place....
She watched him with intensity as he leaned on his car staring straight ahead, not even willing to look at her. It reminded her of a time when they were both nine and she had accidently recked his gameboy by spilling juice on it. He had pouted for a week, refusing to even look at her....
"Fine. You can be a little kid about this all you want but your bieng really selfish because all I want is to be happy and-"
She hadnt been able to finish her sentence before he was off the car and turning towards her. His dark blue eyes burning into her heart...
"You think he can make you happy? Is that what your telling me?"
His voice was low and edgy. She gulped hard trying to stay true to her resolve....
"Yes."
She muttered the words trying to keep her shoulders from slumping due to the scrutiny of his gaze.
"He won't but its okay. I'm over it. Everything is fine. You have him, I have Peyton. Lets just let things play out as they will. I have class, see ya."
Haley walked towards her next class in a bit of a daze. Her conversation with Lucas had NOT gone as planned. In fact, his too-cool-for- school attitude kind of scared the hell of her. It just wasnt him and part of her wondered if it was the way he was dealing with it all....
She must of not been paying attention because one minute she was walking and then the next minute she was bumping into Peyton, literally.
"Wow. Walk much?"
Haley muttered an apology and was about to keep walking when she felt herself being ushered towards a nearby bench.
"Can we talk for a minute. I kind of need some advice... about Lucas."
Haley glanced at Peyton who took out a Newport and began smoking, looking out at the vacant parking lot.
"Yeah but I don't know if I can help. I mean right now Lucas and I are not really talking..."
"I know."
Haley looked down at her shoes as she was contemplating on what to say next when Peyton just started in with a tone mixed with anger and hurt.
" You know I think thats why everything was so messed up last night between me and him.... In fact, I think your the problem. It really wasn't suppose to be like that between me and him. His focus was off and afterwords, he just became so distant... He wouldn't talk or anything. He just left the car and said goodnight. I mean he was an ass, plain and simple and I've never seen him like that. I just felt kind of cheap and yet I really do like him.. I don't what I am suppose to do or feel right now, I just want you to know what happened so mabye you can get a clue and let him go so mabye this thing between him and me can have a chance.."
Haleys eyes shot up at Peyton with utter shock.... nothing was about to prepare her for what came next.... nothing.
"Last night, Lucas and I had sex."
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AN: Okay, I know what your thinking and yes, most of you might not like what I just did. Thats fine but I see the overall picture so please TRUST ME on this. Lucas isnt going to be an ASS or anything there is more to it and I am trying to be real here because we all know that guys act out differently and this kind of can be realistic since Peyton and him are TOGETHER as a couple... so.. dont FLAME me... just stop reading if you want or you can continue which I WOULD LOVE.. but I just know what I am doing.. hopefully =)