Disclaimer: Well, I don't own the characters, or the song "I Hate Everything About You" by Three Days Grace. 'Nuff said, don't you think?

Summary: It's a songfic about Draco and Hermione, and their peachy love-hate relationship. R/R!

A/N: Lots of OOC, depending on how you look at it. Not really pairings, just lots of sadness. Review please. I just got those muses working, and we're about rusty...

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Title: Why Do I Love You?

I lay in my bed, trying to drift off to sleep. But, every time I close my eyes I see her. Why is she plaguing me? I don't even love her. For Merlin's sake, she's a damn mudblood, it's forbidden, and frankly disgusting. It was a one-time thing. She was just a good lay. I groaned in frustration and turned over, stuffing my face into the warm pillow. I hope I suffocate. At least then I won't see Granger. i She was just a good fuck, that's all. Yeah, I'm positive that's the whole reason. But, the way she looked. That was amazing. Her back arched so perfectly, and the way she sighed out my name. Gods, I need to stop this...


every time we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that I get
but I haven't missed you yet

every room-mate kept awake
by every sigh and scream we make
all the feelings that I get
but I still don't miss you yet


No matter how much I tried, I still couldn't get her out of my mind. Even during classes, I found myself staring at her across the room. I guess she noticed too. I could tell the way she fidgeted under my silvery gaze. Serves her right. Making me feel this way. I glanced her way again during potions. My blood boiled as she laughed and held that Weasley so caringly. That should be me. I should be the one she's holding, caressing....loving..


only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
why do I love you
I hate everything about you
why do I love you


I swear, if I keep thinking about this too much, I'll rip out my hair and stuff down Weasley's bloody throat! Rumor has it, Granger and him are dating. Why should I care? The mudblood and him should be together! It's not like I need her! It's not like I should give a damn. And you know what else, I don't love her. Not in the slightest. I snorted in disgust. Fucking Granger. I'll make her life so damn miserable. She's made mine unbearable.

I make my way to her dormitory, hoping to get one moment alone with her. I find her, walking out of the portrait and down the winding, ever-changing stairs. I quicken my pace, and I guess she feels a presence, because next thing I know, I'm staring into those deep brown eyes.

"Malfoy. Why are you following me?" she asked, with a puzzled look on her face? I cringe at my last name. I remember she used to call me Draco. In no time, I push her up against the wall, and she yelps in surprise. She's about to shriek out for help, until I smother her screams with a kiss. The deepest kiss I have ever given. It had everything I have ever felt. Pain, love, hate, fear. All my worries poured into one kiss. It was cut short, however. She pushed me away with so much force that I was surprised. A look of astonishment, hurt and disgust filled her eyes. It looked like she was on the verge of tears and she opened her mouth to say something. I interrupted her.

"I love you."

I can't believe I blurted that out. I saw the surprise on her face, but I was on a roll.

"Gran--I mean Hermione, I love you. I know you may think that I'm just saying this, but I'm not. You're everything I think about. I can't get you out of my head. And Merlin knows I tried. I'm sorry I used you like that, I didn't know you would hold such importance in my life. Hell, you are my life."

I rambled on like a drunk man for a couple of more minutes, hoping to convince her. I wouldn't care if she just pitied me and said she loved me. I would give anything to be loved. Especially by her.


only when I stop to think about you,
I know
only when you stop to think about me,
do you know

I hate everything about you
why do I love you
you hate everything about me
why do you love me


A tear slid down her cheek as she walked, closing the distance between us.

"Draco, I loved you once. But, not now. Maybe not ever. Nothing will ever happen between us. I'm sorry, but you need to move on. People change." She kissed me on the cheek gently, and left.

I stayed their awestricken for quite sometime. Unconsciously, I walked back to the Slytherin Tower. Ignoring everyone and everything. Pansy, Crabbe, Goyle, nothing but shadows in my vision. I entered my room, and laid on my bed, staring up at the sickening white ceiling. One tear fell. Probably was my first and last one. I closed my eyes and whispered.

"I hate you. I hate you so fucking much Granger that not even that stupid word love could beat it. I was right before, you were just a good lay…that somehow got out of hand."



I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you