"I don't know.
What words I can say,
The wind has a way,
To talk to me.
Flowers sleep, a silent lullaby,
I pray for reply, I'm ready.
Quiet, day calms me,
O serenity,
Someone, please
Tell me, mmmm,
What is it they say?
Maybe I will know one day"
-Melfina, Outlaw star
If you want to fight, I have to fight you. Those defense guys force me. Yet they allow my brother to abuse me, yet they want to win the gundam fights. Did I miss something? Is abuse part of training? If so, how come dad never mentioned it? If so, how come dad was so healthy? If so, how did Phia Philadel ever win the second gundam fight? If so, how come Niko isn't a better fighter than me? If so.. okay, I'll stop. Anyway.wait, one more random off topic comment, if wine is fine but whiskey's quicker, then where does beer fall in that category? I love to watch T.V.; I wish I could just watch "Shoujo Kakuemi Utena" all day, why can't I just revolve in a perpetual circle of nothingness like Utena and Anthy? Why am I not popular like Nanami? Is there something I'm missing? Oh well, I can't, because "Utena" is a made up story. I can't be a beautiful rose princess in real life. I mean really, I've got my dad's chin and his pointy nose, which definitely doesn't look good on a girl. Oh well, Ruki has it worse, she inherited her dad's eyebrows, well.. not really, but hers are really thick, also she's really well built, she's femininely muscular with great boobs and a nice butt. Now, I have better boobs and a better butt, but still, I'm scrawny otherwise. Ruki also has a literal prince charming, a steady boyfriend, infact she's engaged to him. I'm not married or engaged.because I've got a constant need for sexual attention from men. But I really do love D.J., we're sort of married, but that's a secret which is why I said I'm not married, don't tell anyone! My brother was married, but his wife got mad because he cheated her, I always warned Roan that he wasn't too good to be tied down to one woman, especially since he's named after a breed of horse. Roan, what a dumb name, at least my dad's name was creative. "Chibodee" and my mom's name too. "Millenia". Oh, I just remembered, my sister, Aira, is a lesbian and my sister Freya is all alone, she wants someone to love but she pretends not too. She's sort of mean, but still, everyone deserves to be loved. Even Shirley. Even Roan. Even all those men who paid Shirley so they could rape me. Even Bunny, Wong, Ulube, Domon, Allenby, Janet, Cath, and all the other people I don't like. I really wish me and D.J. were the only people in a universe of perpetual revolution, revolving in an endless circle, naked and at peace. So serene.. And peaceful. Endless revolution, I wonder if that's possible. To live endlessly in a perpetual circle of darkness, smelling romantically of roses.. "Let go of me, take my revolution" *sigh* so romantic. I want D.J. to be my prince, and I, his rose bride. But rose brides and rose princes aren't real either. Sometimes I wonder why we exist.is any of this for real? What else is out there. Sometimes late ate night, when I'm in my bed, I feel pressure on my body, and I hear a male voice saying "Take my hand and find out". What could be happening? Am I the victim of some sex-starved demon? It'd be hot if I was, but I love D.J., so I can't love a demon too, but then, I don't necessarily have to love someone who rapes me in the middle of the night for it to be hot, but I don't like being raped, so maybe it isn't so hot..or..could I be turning into a depraved female rapist pervert? That'd really suck, because I'm already a whore and a stripper, I don't think I need to make things worse, do you? I though not. But..well..I..I guess I'm a little revolutionary myself..the revolutionary, evolutionary Neo American babe, Clover Crocket!
"But then.I fell in love with you."
-Millenia, GrandiaII
What words I can say,
The wind has a way,
To talk to me.
Flowers sleep, a silent lullaby,
I pray for reply, I'm ready.
Quiet, day calms me,
O serenity,
Someone, please
Tell me, mmmm,
What is it they say?
Maybe I will know one day"
-Melfina, Outlaw star
If you want to fight, I have to fight you. Those defense guys force me. Yet they allow my brother to abuse me, yet they want to win the gundam fights. Did I miss something? Is abuse part of training? If so, how come dad never mentioned it? If so, how come dad was so healthy? If so, how did Phia Philadel ever win the second gundam fight? If so, how come Niko isn't a better fighter than me? If so.. okay, I'll stop. Anyway.wait, one more random off topic comment, if wine is fine but whiskey's quicker, then where does beer fall in that category? I love to watch T.V.; I wish I could just watch "Shoujo Kakuemi Utena" all day, why can't I just revolve in a perpetual circle of nothingness like Utena and Anthy? Why am I not popular like Nanami? Is there something I'm missing? Oh well, I can't, because "Utena" is a made up story. I can't be a beautiful rose princess in real life. I mean really, I've got my dad's chin and his pointy nose, which definitely doesn't look good on a girl. Oh well, Ruki has it worse, she inherited her dad's eyebrows, well.. not really, but hers are really thick, also she's really well built, she's femininely muscular with great boobs and a nice butt. Now, I have better boobs and a better butt, but still, I'm scrawny otherwise. Ruki also has a literal prince charming, a steady boyfriend, infact she's engaged to him. I'm not married or engaged.because I've got a constant need for sexual attention from men. But I really do love D.J., we're sort of married, but that's a secret which is why I said I'm not married, don't tell anyone! My brother was married, but his wife got mad because he cheated her, I always warned Roan that he wasn't too good to be tied down to one woman, especially since he's named after a breed of horse. Roan, what a dumb name, at least my dad's name was creative. "Chibodee" and my mom's name too. "Millenia". Oh, I just remembered, my sister, Aira, is a lesbian and my sister Freya is all alone, she wants someone to love but she pretends not too. She's sort of mean, but still, everyone deserves to be loved. Even Shirley. Even Roan. Even all those men who paid Shirley so they could rape me. Even Bunny, Wong, Ulube, Domon, Allenby, Janet, Cath, and all the other people I don't like. I really wish me and D.J. were the only people in a universe of perpetual revolution, revolving in an endless circle, naked and at peace. So serene.. And peaceful. Endless revolution, I wonder if that's possible. To live endlessly in a perpetual circle of darkness, smelling romantically of roses.. "Let go of me, take my revolution" *sigh* so romantic. I want D.J. to be my prince, and I, his rose bride. But rose brides and rose princes aren't real either. Sometimes I wonder why we exist.is any of this for real? What else is out there. Sometimes late ate night, when I'm in my bed, I feel pressure on my body, and I hear a male voice saying "Take my hand and find out". What could be happening? Am I the victim of some sex-starved demon? It'd be hot if I was, but I love D.J., so I can't love a demon too, but then, I don't necessarily have to love someone who rapes me in the middle of the night for it to be hot, but I don't like being raped, so maybe it isn't so hot..or..could I be turning into a depraved female rapist pervert? That'd really suck, because I'm already a whore and a stripper, I don't think I need to make things worse, do you? I though not. But..well..I..I guess I'm a little revolutionary myself..the revolutionary, evolutionary Neo American babe, Clover Crocket!
"But then.I fell in love with you."
-Millenia, GrandiaII