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Chapter 7-Red Go
Walking along the concrete path littered with painful tears and memories, to him, my heart flutters. My steps light and carefree, unaware of what I'm really feeling. What we have dreamed about for years was now coming true, what we had worked for together, side by side. The many awkward moments alone in the isolation of the warehouse, which I wouldn't trade for anything, vivid in my mind tumbling around each second finally amounting to something more than just our inseparable love. All the darkness in my life has begun to vanish, momentarily, leaving me a glimmer of light through my hollow sight, until I see him again or should I say the grassy spot on the cold rocky ground claiming him.
As soon as my sparkling eyes saw the place where I go everyday, they became dull once more, restraining the oncoming tears of misery. Forgetting about the blessed takedown of SD-6 that will take place in one day, I remember him. I remember everything that every day I wish I will just forget. My heart cries out for him, a huge hole that I never knew he had filled until he was gone, plucked from my garden of withering roses, now all dead.
A sound far away snaps my head in every direction. I feel a pair of eyes staring at me deeply, but I can't see them. Looking at every angle possible, I see nothing except the occasional leaf, dead and decayed, blowing by in the troubling wind. I can hear my heart pounding slightly harder and faster as I resist the desire to search the cemetery for the origin of the mysterious sounds that emerge from the dimness of nothing. I return my deadened eyes, black no longer a welcoming brown, to who I came for; I come back to an obscure reality different from the cruel one I live in.
Staring at him, laying peacefully, I can still recall the way make stomach would do flip-flops when we touched. I can still smell the luring scent of his cologne lingering in the warehouse entranceway, enticing me to run in and talk to him. Closing my eyes, I inhale the sweet smell I had conjured in my own little world causing me to go light-headed for a split second.
Wiping away the tears that suddenly
began to creep their way up to the surface, I realize that I don't care about
the raid except that I will be free. Free from everything, from life. My horrible
job full of deceit and misery is almost done and through the excitement I feel
the same pain. I have no one to share it with, even though I know Will will be just as happy, but he is not who I am thinking
about, not even remotely. He has not been the person I have been yearning for
limitlessly for years.
I open my mouth, trying to
tell him the unbelievable news, but can't. The words caught in my throat,
coarse and scratched. Every time I tried and retried to force the simple
thoughts into sounds, they came out has strangled cries. I will never be able
to tell him like this. I could feel the darkness encompass me and swallow me
into its shadowy way of life. I can't live like this. I finally have an idea
that I can speak, that I can tell him, which I can smile from. I don't have any
second thoughts or regrets in my mind.
"Hi, I have news to tell you, but I don't think I can tell you out here out loud, but you won't believe it. You won't, I know you won't." I was grinning, teasing him, and telling him something that I know I can't say out in the open. I began to feel flushed. "I know you will be happy when I tell you, but I don't think I will be able to tell you like this. I will tell you though, soon." Laying down the pink tulips I picked out by a nearby florist, I didn't cry. For once, not a single tear fell down in despair, for I know I will see him shortly. "I love you Michael, I love you so much." A tear of love and hope fell from my gleaming eyes. Picking up my things, my tattered purse, I walk out of the cemetery, calm for once, and look up to make sure he saw me.
The wind rustling the fallen leaves and my hair, blowing in every direction, I sense someone watching me again and can hear a faint cry, but quickly dismiss it. I am too focused on what I have to do. A rare smile quickly spreads across my face realizing that I will soon be with him. A block away from here there is a stoplight which I will wait for a red light. Once I see the yellow light signaling me to get ready, I will go. I won't look back; I won't think back, I will just keep focused on the red light.
Rolling my car window down, I know what I must do. I see the brilliant green light, like his dazzling eyes, telling me to stop becoming yellow then red. Pressing harder on the gas pedal, I run through the red light screaming at me to go, not to stop. I close my eyes afraid and nervous, not sure of what I'm doing, never letting up on the gas. Crashing into another car, I spin fast and out of control. I can hear the screeching of my tires grinding on the rough tar, burning. My head strikes the wheel, which my white knuckles are gripping onto tightly, sweaty. I am plunged into a world of an unfamiliar darkness, no sound, no sight, not feeling the weight of the car crushing up against my helpless body.
I could only feel the pressure of someone's horrified eyes pressed onto me, crumpled and bleeding in the heap of cracked metal as my meaningless life begins to slip away.
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