Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, Lucius Malfoy, or the song Gone by *N SYNC. I do however own the character of Luke Potter, but he doesn't show up until the next chapter so ignore him for now.

A/N: I was listening to this song on the bus ride home and I just got this idea in my head so I had to write it. For any of my fans of Dragonheart I will be continuing that, its just taking a little time to get my muse back for that one. It flew out when I was laughing at AlwaysHopeful's reaction to the second chapter. You should have seen it. Lol. I am in denial about Sirius' death so in all of my stories he's alive so of course he's in here, alive, and gay! Muhahahahahahahaha!

There's a thousand words that I could say to make you come home, yeah

Seems so long ago you walked away and left me alone

And I remember what you said to me, you were acting so strange

And maybe I was too blind to see that you needed a change

Was it something I said to make you turn away

To make you walk out and leave me cold

If I could just find a way to make it so that you were right here, right now

(Chorus)

I've been sitting here

Can't get you off my mind

I'm trying my best to be a man and be strong

I drove myself insane wishing I could touch your face

But the truth remains, you're

Gone

Now I don't wanna make excuses, baby

Won't change the fact that you're gone

But if there's something that I could do, won't you please let me know

The time is passing so slowly now, guess that's my life without you

And maybe I could change my everyday, but baby I don't want to

So I'll just hand around and find some things to do

To take my mind off missing you

And I know in my heart, you can't say that you don't love me too

Please say you do, yeah

Chorus-repeat

What will I do if I can't be with you

Tell me where will I turn to, baby who will I be

Now that we are apart, am I still in your heart?

Baby why can't you see that I need you here with me?

Chorus-repeat- Gone (*NSYNC)

Gone

Lucius' pov

Lucius Malfoy lay on his bed, his long blonde hair spread out on the pillow. The once shining locks now dull and grimy from neglect. Lucius stared blankly at the ceiling, he had no immediate plans to move. He moved his hand slowly and he picked up a picture that sat next to the bed. A tear leaked down his face as he looked at the picture.

It had been two years since his heart had walked out on him, and Lucius still didn't know why he left. Lucius wondered if it had been something that he had said to make the love of his life leave him. Lucius looked at the picture, seeing himself sitting with his arms around a younger man with messy black hair, emerald green eyes hidden behind glasses, and an unusual scar on his forehead, shaped like a lightening bolt.

Yes that's right, Lucius' heart was Harry Potter and Harry had left him without a word, while Lucius had been at work. Naturally, with the Malfoy fortune and the ministry's thank you rewards to both The Boy Who Lived To Defeat The Dark Lord and his Spy For The Light Side lover, Lucius didn't need to work. However Lucius liked being active, so he was in charge of running the Ministry's employee hiring team.

It had been Harry himself that had freed Lucius from Azkaban by giving testimony that Lucius had been a spy since before he married Narcissa. And it had been his 'loving' girlfriend that convinced Lucius to join with Voldemort. And because a Malfoy never displeases their girl/boyfriend, Lucius had done it. Then regretted it the moment the Mark was on his arm.

So he had gone to Dumbledore and had joined the Order of the Phoenix. For the twenty years after that he had lived a fine line, secretly hating everything he had to do when with the Death Eaters, acting hateful at home when all he wanted to do was curl up and cry sometimes. The only part of the whole thing that Lucius never regretted was his Draco. Lucius would do it again four times over for his son. Then there was Harry, his Harry.

The first time Lucius had ever seen Harry Potter was when Harry was about seven months old. The entire Order of the Phoenix had been called in and many were surprised to see Lucius there. Lucius' best friend was the first to welcome him, and after that, everyone followed Arthur Weasley's example. After all, the Weasley/Malfoy rivalry was legend. The Potters, Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, and Peter Pettigrew were some of the first as well. Peter was surprised to say the least. After the meeting, Lucius had removed the memory of Lucius being a spy from the rat's mind.

Anyway back to Harry, during the meeting a very wobbly Harry walked over to Lucius. He looked up at the man with huge emerald eyes and Lucius picked him up and put him on his lap. The twenty-six year old man just fell completely under the boy's spell. He talked to Harry until the boy fell asleep in his arms. Only after the baby was asleep did Lucius really pay attention to the meeting.

After that day, Lucius would visit with Lily, James, and Harry often. It was during that time that Lucius saw what a real marriage should be. What Lucius had with Narcissa was exactly what his parents had, so Lucius had no clue that it was lacking in several things, namely love. Arthur and his family would come over also, so Lucius got to know his best friend's family as well.

He took what he learned home, and he was much warmer with his little Draco than he had before. So much that, when Draco was ill on Halloween, he ignored both his master's call and Dumbledore's owl. It wasn't until Narcissa Apparated into the nursery that Lucius knew something was wrong. His always-proper wife was mussed and she had dirt and soot all over her. In urgent tones, Narcissa told him that the Potters were dead and young Harry Potter defeated the Dark Lord. And Lucius, being very smart for a blonde (A/N: No offense for blondes, besides I can't talk. I'm such a ditz), knew to only express concern for his master and not for his friends; at least in the presence of his wife.

It was nearly two weeks before he was able to find out where Harry was taken. And Lucius used the trademark sneer for the first time and he meant it. Lily's sister wasn't fit to raise a plant, much less a young wizard. And it wasn't because she was a muggle; it was because she was a nasty woman that wouldn't be able to raise her dead sister's son the way he deserved to be raised. Loved.

It was ten years after that incident that Lucius even heard the name Harry Potter again. He really should have known better than to take Draco to Diagon Alley on Harry's birthday. It didn't occur to Lucius that July 31st was Harry's birthday until he heard Draco talking about the boy he met in Madam Malkin's Robes for All Occasions. Lucius had only known that July 31st was the deadline for the students at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry to confirm that they were going to the school.

Lucius was quite proud of his Draco, Draco had kept the image of being a junior Death Eater up so well that even Harry who knew Draco very well from school, Quidditch, and Order meetings didn't know what Draco's personality was. Draco was always the spoiled brat image that he had perfected for when he was in public. It was only after Narcissa was arrested and given the Dementor's Kiss that Draco was finally able to be himself and announce his engagement to Harry's best friend Hermione Granger. The two married right after graduating and they have two children already. Lucius was sure that the Malfoy line would prosper in the hands of his son and his children. After all, Lucius was gay and it was a rare occurrence when a gay man had a child. It wasn't unlikely though, because Remus and Sirius were the proud fathers of twins, who were just like Sirius to Remus' dismay sometimes. And Lucius would have no more children. The only man he would even consider having a child with had left him.

Anyway, Lucius was getting off track. His first meeting with Harry had been…intresting to say the least. The meeting in Flourish and Blotts wasn't exactly the way that he would have liked to have met the enchanting teenager again. If Harry and the Weasleys had been in a more private place than the bookshop filled with Gilderoy Lockhart fans, than Lucius and Draco may have been able to be themselves. As it was, it was very hard for him to insult his best friend to his face, making cracks on his family. He believed that it had been something like "red hair, vacant expressions, tatty second hand books, you must be the Weasleys". It actually hurt to see the children that he had played with were looking at him with expressions of hate. Lucius freely admitted he shouldn't have blamed himself for the Potter's dying. He had been a good father, staying with his beloved son when he was sick. But Lucius knew that if he had gone with the Death Eaters to the Potter's home, he could have prevented their death. And even if he wasn't able to, he could have exposed Peter as the traitor.

After the meeting and seeing Harry up close once again, Lucius realized that the boy had been in the bookshop in Knockturn Alley when Draco and Lucius had been in there. Lucius recognized the citrus smell of his cologne. That first glimpse of Harry had Lucius almost thinking that James was standing there, and Lucius almost looked around for Lily. Until Lucius saw the green eyes that had captured him when he was 26. At the end of Harry and Draco's second year, after Harry set Lucius' favorite house elf Dobby free, Lucius had spouted off some nonsense about Lily and James. But it was the look on Harry's face that captured Lucius once again. It was that moment that he realized that Harry was a beautiful boy and Lucius vowed to watch the boy closer over the years.

Lucius watched over Harry's progress very carefully, watching his abilities. He was surprised when in his fourth year, Harry was chosen for a school champion in the Triwizard Tournament. However it shouldn't have surprised him that Voldemort had a hand in it. It nearly broke his heart when Lucius felt the Mark burn on his arm that night, especially when Narcissa and he had to leave the party they were having followed by most of their guest list. Then it did break his heart when he saw Harry tied to a headstone in the graveyard. Lucius secretly helped Harry get away from the Death Eaters after Harry and Voldemort's brother wands connected and it drained both of their magic.

It had almost been a relief to go to Azkaban the year after Voldemort's return. In Azkaban, Lucius could let go of the act he had been playing for years. In the prison he could let go of Lucius Malfoy and just be Luc as his friends had called him. With the dementor's defection to Voldemort Ministry wizards were watching the prison. Some of the wizards would hassle him but not many, it was well known that Lucius Malfoy was a very powerful wizard. Lucius was in Azkaban for nearly two years, he missed the final battle with Voldemort but he heard that Draco had done wonderful. Draco, Hermione, and Harry had teamed up to rid the world of the filth known as Voldemort. Then in the basement of Riddle Manor, young Tom Riddle was found wrapped in rags and shaking. The entire wizarding world was shocked to find out that Voldemort was not Tom Riddle like they thought. He was in fact Tom's older brother Herbert. Tom was put under a spell that kept him young and under Herbert's control. Herbert had stolen Tom's entire identity, including the whole 'I am Lord Voldemort' being an anagram of Tom Marvolo Riddle. The diary was in fact Tom's, he had been writing in it while under the control of Herbert and Herbert found it and carried out a plan to rid the world of Harry Potter. Once Tom was freed from Herbert's control, it was revealed that Tom was in fact a very sweet boy and very respectful.

Tom had gone to Hogwarts for a couple years to refresh himself of what he had learned while in school before. Harry, Draco, and Tom actually ended up competing for top boy in their years. Tom actually ended up Head Boy for the second time in his life. Slytherin was just happy to have the Head Boy in their house again. Since, Draco had already graduated by the time that Tom did so they couldn't have competed for Head Boy in the same year.

Now for the question that's probably on your mind, how Harry and Lucius got together. Well the first time they saw each other since the incident at the Ministry where Bealliax Lestrange fell through the Veil while dueling with Harry's godfather Sirius, was at Lucius' trial. Lucius was shocked to say the least to see his son, Harry, and Hermione all looking much older and mature. The entire Weasley family somehow lived through the war and they were all present at the trial.

Lucius was brought to the defendant chair and he wasn't restrained which surprised him. He had expected to be treated like the criminal he was. The first person to speak for him was Draco, who swore under various truth potions that Lucius was a spy for the light. That followed several times with members of the Order and the Ministry, including Arthur, Percy Weasley, a recently pardoned Sirius as Peter was found dead after the last battle, Potions Master, professor at Hogwarts, and fellow spy Severus Snape, Mad Eye Moody. Then finally the biggest hero of the war, Harry Potter, killer of the Dark Lord, came to the witness stand. He told all he knew about Lucius' activities during the first war then the helpful information that Lucius gave. He had compiled a list of all the Death Eaters which as Voldemort's second he had access to. Lucius had even gotten a hold of Voldemort's computer and had copied all of the files for the Light side. Then after Harry's winning testimony came Albus Dumbledore's and he put the cap on Lucius' pardon.

After Lucius was pronounced innocent, he had to go and hug those that helped him get released. When he finally reached Harry Lucius hesitated. The man before him wasn't what he had expected when he finally saw Harry again. The beauty that had been apparent when Harry was twelve had blossomed into a gorgeous man that Lucius found very attractive. Lucius was no stranger to admiring glances so he recognized the admiring gleam in Harry's eyes, as they looked him over. Lucius smiled and he pulled Harry into a hug, breathing in the citrus cologne.

Harry had waited a month before calling Lucius for a date. Their dates came quickly upon each other, it seemed like they were going out every night. It didn't take either of them long to fall in love. It was a mere two months after they began dating that Harry moved into Malfoy Mansion. Draco and Hermione encouraged it after hearing the two talk about each other all the time. Draco had never seen someone with the ability to make his usually silent father babble, but babble Lucius did when talking about Harry. Harry did the same and it made Hermione giggle sometimes when Draco would catch Harry talking about Lucius in bed. The faces that Draco would make made Harry want to talk about Lucius more just so Draco would make those faces.


They were together five years before Harry walked out on Lucius. Lucius thought they had a great relationship but apparently Harry thought differently. Harry had been extra tender when he made love to Lucius the night before, a new thing that Lucius loved, which Harry had introduced. It had always been Lucius that made love to Harry before that. Lucius knew now that Harry had been saying goodbye.

//Lucius rolled over in the mussed bed, reaching for the body of his lover. He frowned when he didn't feel it there, but he relaxed when he heard movement in the bathroom. He sat up and he gaped at the clock. It read Almost Late so Lucius passed on a shower and instead used a cleaning charm on his body, hair, and teeth. He waved his wand and clean clothes were on his body. As he left the room he called to Harry, "Bye love. I'm going to be late. I love you!" he called. As he Apparated out of Malfoy Manor he could have swore he heard Harry mutter to himself.

Nine hours later Lucius walked into the library of Malfoy Manor, looking for his lover. He had looked everywhere else in the Manor and Harry couldn't be found. "Harry!" he called, looking around the room. The room was empty. "Harry!" he screamed, looking frantically around. "DOBBY!" he screamed again, calling the elf that was in Harry's service. When another elf popped into the room instead of the one he wanted, Lucius knew the devastating truth. His Harry had left him. Lucius fell to the floor in a dead faint.//

The house elves had transported him to his room and they summoned a doctor for Lucius. The head elf had been the one to talk to the doctor, telling him that Master Harry had asked for his belongings packed up that morning and he and Dobby had left shortly before noon. The doctor had assured the elf that it was just shock that made the man faint.

And now two years later, Lucius barely got out of bed. He only bathed when the same house elf that had cared for him when he was ill insisted. Draco and Hermione would bring their kids around but even his grandchildren failed to get a reaction out of the almost comatose man.

"Master Lucius?" asked the elf whose name was Blinkin (stole the name blatantly from Robin Hood: Men in Tights. I love Mel Brooks) asked timidly. Lucius turned his head to look at the elf. "There's someone here to see you, sir," Blinkin said. Lucius nodded slightly. The elf grinned and she let in a tall man with a long white beard and white hair, both long enough that he could tuck them inside his belt (It's true, read the description in the first book). The man was Albus Dumbledore, Headmaster of Hogwarts.

"Ahh Lucius I'm glad that you agreed to see me because I'm very afraid I might have hurt your very loyal elf because I was determined to see you either way." Dumbledore sat down in the chair that was next to the bed. Blinkin used it to stand on while she fed Lucius. Lucius looked at Albus as if to say 'get on with it man. I want to get back to my moping.' "Well I'm afraid this isn't a completely social visit. Your office, who literally begged me to bring you back, sent me. I'm afraid that your assistants are quite lost without you. Albus had perfected his image of being all knowing and at least this time he knew very well why Lucius refused to set foot out of the home he had shared with Harry. "I got an owl from Harry the other day. He said that Egypt was much more suited to his tastes than rainy England. Hmm…he said that his dating life was much improved out there. Can't imagine what he meant by that though," Albus said, nonchalantly. Lucius' eyes popped open at that.

"He's…dating?" he croaked, his voice brittle from disuse.

"Why of course-oh! Oh my, I didn't mean to-!" Albus said, flustered that he had revealed Harry's dating in front of Lucius. He secretly smiled when Lucius sat up in the bed and began to get out of the bed.

"Well if you'll excuse me, I have a job to return to. I can't believe I let myself mope about that little-" Lucius said, bustling about. "I'll show him, leaving a Malfoy then dating other people. Good day Albus," he said, entering his bathroom.

Dumbledore let himself out of the room, smiling to himself again. This was going better than he had thought it would. Lucius was out of bed and ready to get back to work. "Professor Dumbledore sir, how can Blinkin thank you? You got Master Lucius out of bed and ready to go back to work. Blinkin must thank you sir."

"I have just one thing to ask, do not let Lucius reach the state he was in again." Dumbledore smiled at the elf and he walked out of the Manor.

"I'll show that ungrateful little mutt. I'll show him what happens to people that make Malfoy's fall in love with them then leave. I'll show him…" Lucius promised himself as he shampooed his hair for the third time.

An hour later, a very clean Lucius Malfoy walked out of the front door of his mansion, his black coat with silver snakes intact. His walking stick/wand was in his head complete with the snake handle. Lucius was the picture of elegance that he always had been. After all, a Malfoy never appears outside the Manor without the proper clothes on.

2nd A/N: So what do you think of the first chapter of Gone??? If Lucius seems a little OOC remember the Lucius that we all love to hate or just plain love in my case from the books is a façade and this is the real Lucius. And for all you Draco fans, he'll be making an appearance in the third chapter. Or if I get many reviews, he may show up in Harry's chapter aka chapter 2. Just click on the little purple button and make me very happy. Please. *bats eyelashes*