Getting Selphie

Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own Final Fantasy VIII ;_; But I do own this story because I wrote it!

Chapter One: Lost Love

I sat alone on a bench outside Balamb Garden. I couldn't believe what I had done. I couldn't believe I let her go. I wish I could wake up and realize it was all just a dream. But I knew that wasn't going to happen. I wish I could turn back time… I wish I would have told her my true feelings for her. It all happened about a week ago… When I lost the only person I truly loved. She was the only one for me… But I didn't realize she had someone else in her life.

"Hey Irvine!" Selphie grabbed my hat and stuck it onto her head. She looked so cute with it on. She grinned and I took the video camera from her. I didn't exactly know which way to hold the thing, but I knew I was holding it wrong. She showed me which way it was supposed to go and I felt silly. I laughed at my own stupidity. Ha ha. I turned around and waved to the girls sitting at the table next to me. Selphie wasn't too happy…

Then we saw Zell stuffing his face with hotdogs. He was sitting with his girlfriend from the library. I knew what was going to happen next. He started choking on a hotdog because he ate it too fast, and there was nothing there for him to drink. Selphie and Quistis tried to help him. Zell seemed pretty upset because his girlfriend left the table. Then he threw a hotdog at the camera and nearly knocked it out of my hands. Moments later, I got the camera working again.

Selphie and Quistis were walking around, and we saw Angelo running by. Rinoa must have let her dog loose. It was quite funny. Selphie then looked out to the balcony and pointed. With what was left of the battery, I got a shot with Rinoa smiling. Suddenly the battery died.

"Um… Selphie," I yelled to Selphie, "I think your camera is dead." I laughed as she walked over to me.

"No silly," she replied, "the battery just died… That's all, tee hee!" She was so cute. I wish I could have told her right then and there, but I didn't. She smiled and took the video camera from my hands. Her hands were so soft, I just wanted to hold them. I grinned and pulled the hat off of her head.

"Hehe, I knew that," I replied. I tucked my hat back onto my head and she smiled sweetly. There wasn't one thing that I disliked about her. I loved her personality, and attitude towards things. She was the one who kept me going. Without her, I wouldn't know what to do. I wouldn't be able to go one without her. She was the light in my life.

"C'mon!" she laughed, "Let's go dance!" She took my hand in hers and pulled me out to the dance floor. "It's a party! We should all be dancing!" she smiled up at me and grabbed my other hand. We danced for the entire song. I wanted that dance to last forever. I want to be with Selphie forever. With Selphie by my side, I feel happy. All of my worries slip from my mind when I am around Selphie. There is just something about her. She can make anyone happy, just by being in the room. I guess it's the atmosphere around her.

Before I knew it, the night was over. I wished it lasted forever. I was going to tell Selphie my feelings for her that night, but I decided to wait until the next day. "Good night Irvine!" she said to me with a big smile on her face.

I hugged her and replied, "Good night to you too." She giggled and then left to her dorm. I have all the time in the world to tell her my true feelings for her. I can wait until tomorrow to tell her.

Before I knew it, days turned into weeks, and weeks into months. I still hadn't told her. Occasionally, Quistis or Rinoa would ask me if I still like Selphie. I replied with, "Of course I do! I love her with all my heart." Then they would reply with, "Then why don't you tell her that?" It's not like she had another guy in her life. I had plenty of time to tell her. I kept telling myself, tomorrow… Tomorrow I will tell her. And finally, one day I had the courage to tell her. I got Quistis to tell Selphie to meet me at the front gate.

"Hey Irvine!" Selphie greeted me at the front gate. "Is there something you wanted?" I looked at her and she had a big smile on her face. She always had a smile.

"Oh… Yeah," I replied. "Isn't it a nice day?" Damn it Irvine! Just tell her!!

"Is that all you wanted to say?" she responded. She looked at me oddly, then grinned again, "It is a nice day!" I breathed in deeply, then paused for a moment to find the words to say.

"Selphie," I said, "I brought you here to um… tell you something."

"Oh, alright," she replied. I continued talking.

"Well, you see um… I uh…" I stalled. Come on Irvine! Just say it! You love her! Say it! "I… I love… I love that perfume you wear!" I am such an idiot!! Why couldn't I just say those three words??

"Really?" she said her face kind of sunk a little. "Is that all you wanted to say?"

I covered my face with one hand and shook my head and said, "Yeah…" I am so stupid. I had my chance, and I blew it. I blew it big time. But I can always tell her tomorrow…

"Well, I guess I better get going back then…" she told me and walked away. I sat on the ground and felt stupid. Why didn't I just come out and say it? Why? I put my face in my hands and thought for a while. I vowed to myself that later tonight I would tell Selphie my feelings for her. I am going to tell her, and nothing is going to stop me. Nothing!

Later that night, I couldn't find Selphie. I encountered Zell, so I asked him if he had seen Selphie. "Oh yeah, she was with some guy… In the Quad probably," Zell answered. She was with someone? A guy? Oh no… No… She couldn't be…? I thanked Zell and then headed over to the Quad. Sure enough, there was Selphie, with some guy.

"Hey Irvine!" she yelled to me. "I'd like you to meet someone!" I took a deep breath. She couldn't possibly have another guy in her life. Selphie and I were destined to be with each other. I was going to tell her my feeling about her tonight. I continued walking down the stairs, and finally got to Selphie and her friend.

"Hey Selphie," I grinned.

"Hey Irvy!" she replied with a big smile. "I'd like you to meet Matt. He is one of my good friend's from Trabia! He came all the way from Trabia just to ask me to come back!" she looked at him and they smiled at each other.

"Well, not just for that reason," Matt said.

"Oh yeah! And he also asked me out too, and now we are dating!" she said. "Isn't that great Irvine?" What she said broke my heart. Inside, I felt a part of me, a big part of me die. My whole world crumbled… My heart shattered into a million pieces. "I'm going back to Trabia to stay!"

"Oh," I stuttered, "that's uh… great… news Selphie." I tried to smile.

"Is something wrong Irvine?" she asked.

"Oh, no!" I quickly replied.

"We should get going Selphie," Matt said. "The train is leaving soon!" Selphie nodded. They held hands and smiled.

"I am finally going back to Trabia, and staying there for good!" Selphie cheered. "But don't worry Irvine, I'll come and visit, and who knows, maybe you'll decide to visit someday! I hope you do!" She smiled and her and Matt left. At that moment, I knew I would never have Selphie… Ever… I missed my chance. I waited too long…

And here I am, a week later. I sat up on the bench and took a deep breath. Sure, there were a lot more women out there, but none of them like Selphie. There was something special about Selphie. Matt is very lucky, I envy him. I wish I could have Selphie. I was so stupid. I waited too long. My life will never be the same without her…

A/N: Okay, I decided to do more with this story. It was originally going to just be a one shot fic, but since some people wanted me to continue the story, I decided to. I changed the name, and the description a little. I know this is really short, but I promise there will be longer chapters!! Stick around to see what happens next =)