Second in the Drops of Jupiter Series.

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

All we were supposed to do was meet another race, like we do on every other mission, but of all things these people had to be using what they learnt on their enemies, the least it could have been was Gou'ld. Jack is never impressed when Daniel plays ambassador, he feels we'd have fewer problems if he talked to them, but then we'd have more enemies and probably end up destroying them.

Jack and I have had this secret relationship for the past month, I'm surprised to whole base doesn't know already but Daniel, Teal'c and Janet know, I'm still not sure how General Hammond would react if he heard what was going on between us. But its lasted like this for the past month, I'm sure we can survive a yelling match.

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I can hear him pleading for Daniel to live, I know I shouldn't be thinking this but I wish I could hear him say those words I've dreamed about all most the moment I met him. How could I think about my feelings for my CO while a really close friend of mine is dying. I can still remember what it was like when my mother died and I blamed my dad, I have gotten over how I used to feel, it wasn't dad's fault it was the driver who hit her. Though still it is completely different, I'm older and have more experience with dead.

We would have never met if it hadn't been for Daniel, we'd have missed out on the adventures of our lives though sometimes we don't think so, we have live like this for too long to go back to the way we used to live and miss out on everything I've experienced in the past 6 years.

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Janet doesn't think Daniel will survive, I see in her eyes she hopes he dies quickly, not because she doesn't like quiet the opposite actually. But keeping him like this hurts him more than us. We have no idea what it feels like to slowly die like that. There is nothing we can do to lessen the pain. The Tok'ra are supposed to arrive later, to see if they can do anything for Daniel.

As much as we prayer for Daniel to survive, if he did I think it would change everything, for obvious reasons. As much as Jack's upset with what's happened to Daniel, he's pissed that Daniel didn't try to protect himself better, he feels like he's failed Daniel.

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I hold him as his body shakes, though I may not know the strength of the bond between him and Daniel, I do know its hurt him badly to let Daniel go. Hell it going to hurt everyone on base, somehow he seemed to wiggle his way into everyone's heart. It would have been easier on us if a Gou'ld had killed him. But Daniel died trying to do what he did best trying to save everyone else including the enemy even if it meant his death. I need to say goodbye.

It shouldn't have ended like this, I don't understand why Jack told dad to stop but he did, it was like Daniel didn't want to come back to us like he was happier where he was. But I'm not happy with the way it's ended, we have to replace Daniel in SG-1, but no one will ever replace him in our hearts.

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

I hope we will find away to bring him back, with everything we've seen as SG-1 I'm sure we'll be eventually be able to bring Daniel back to us.

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