I Wish…

Chapter 2: Not to be despised

Pairing: Ryo/ Jenruki

Takari-san: I cancelled the choosing thing… Here's the second chapter… I decided that this would be a Jenruki but would have an epilogue for Ryouki too… I hope you enjoy and I do not own Digimon…

*Ryo's POV*

I was walking around the forest grounds as I was trying to forget our most recent "quarrel". Yes, it wasn't anything new. We always argued of that sort, ever since the Digimons, ever since the first time we met. You always was irritated with me, hated me even. Sometimes I wonder why, but sometimes I wonder why do I care?

I mean… people are free to decide who they like and who they hate. I guess that is because unexpectedly I fell for you. You made me admire your courage and attitude.

I guess that is because when females come to me that seem to be cool and nice they suddenly get nervous and try to impress me. You were the needle in that hay stack, other than being yourself you were one who actually thought of me as 'just human' not as the perfect person others brand me to be… only a few understood…

Cyberdramon… uncontrollable as he was he is still very important to me… I clenched my fists.

He was also one who knew I was just human; we acted like equals, my partner. I have to admit I miss the presence of Cyberdramon or Monodramon at my side but I must be strong for him… he did promise to come back…

*Flashback*

"So buddy… It's good-bye, huh?" I asked Monodramon, smiling but there were unshed tears seen on my eyes.

The Digimon could not do anything but nod.

"You'll be back, right?" I forced a grin.

"I will try my best…" the little dinosaur Digimon said looking away.

"I'll be waiting then…" I smiled, patting the Digimon's head gently.

"Ryo…" the Digimon murmured.

"It's alright buddy, this is your world we're talking about… you helped me save this world once and it's my duty to let you save yours, I'm just sad that I can't be with you to do so." I smiled weakly a lone tear falling down, "look now I'm crying…"

"Thank you Ryo…" and that was the last thing I could remember before they went away, I guess besides the cries and mourning of everyone…

*End of Flashback*

Pushing off the thought of my best friend, my mind fleeted back to why and how I love Ruki Makino.

Love yes love, I love her attitude and the way she treats me as normal.

Sometimes one may ask why I want to be just normal… I guess it's because when people think of the Legendary Tamer or The Great Ryo Akiyama, they treat me like some sort of god… I want to be treated as an individual, not some branded perfect person.

Yet when you treat me that way I get hurt… it is because you act as if you hate me… no scratch that… you hate me.

I do not know why I do not like people treating me like some sort of god but when you fight with me, I want you to… Funny thing is that I like you because you don't treat me like some sort of god, ironic, isn't it?

Sighing, I ran my hands through my chocolate brown hair, silently from behind a tree I watched as you looked up to the sky, as if wanting something to just fall from it, making your wish come true… I wonder if I could help…

If I help… you will become even more miserable, correct?

I shook my head quickly, of course not! If you feel miserable it will make you twice more miserable if I try to console you, we will end up bickering again… though as I noticed you were most at peace when talking to someone…

Yes, and no matter how much I hate to admit it… you seemed to like him. You were a bit more quiet, not as irritated and calm with him. I guess no one can change that, I mean… How can you not be calm when Jenrya is around? Being around him makes everything around you and you at peace; he has this kind of effect on people.

I watched as Jenrya pretended to read a book… it was obvious to me he was really watching you, I mean, who reads a book upside down? He apparently doesn't notice that, I guess that he was too busy watching you… I mean, who wouldn't? Anyone who can avoid those beautiful amethyst orbs is an idiot, either that or an undead.

Okay… so I'm exaggerating a bit... but don't you see? You can knock out the sanity of Jenrya and me and sadly, you only seem to like Jenrya… I sometimes wonder what I did to enrage you but I guess my ego already explained it all… but can't a guy be cocky for once? Okay… not only once, I was cocky a lot but being arrogant is a part of me.

Watching Jenrya walk towards you, I thought that he finally mustered up the courage to tell you something, anything to make you feel all right. Apparently, I wasn't wrong.

He sat beside you and you guys watched the sky, talking about who knows what… but it seemed to help, you cried, I could see that. It was the first time I saw you cry… Did Jenrya make you cry? No, I don't think so…

Turning my back from you and Jenrya, I laid myself onto the trunk of the tree, I couldn't take this, and no one told me it was such a heart-wrenching sight to see you cry… After a while, I mustered up the courage to see you once more.

It is funny that I'm so courageous to go alone to a world I know not anything of but afraid to see you cry.

I looked at you guys once more but the sight I saw wasn't the one that you were crying, you were actually smiling, smiling so sweetly. At first, I was in bliss then I remembered that smile wasn't for me. Jenrya left after a few moments, going back to his watch tower and you gazed at the sky once more.

You never smiled that way to me…

I was burning up in jealousy, my heart beating faster… You could smile so sweetly for Jenrya but not even a simple smile cannot be given to me?

At that moment I thought the impossible, maybe I could go there and comfort you… I laughed at myself for a moment… but the idea then thoroughly struck me, I mean… can't I?

I was your friend, forced or not… I guess… a smile formed on my face and soon I found myself walking towards you…

"So… what are you doing?" I asked trying to force my usual cocky grin to be on my face as I sat down on the meadow, beside you…

"Watching the sky, if you're really that dumb not to notice." You retorted glaring at me angrily.

"I guess I'm not that dumb, huh?" I grinned, though forcing it.

"Maybe you are…" you muttered looking down at the ground…

Do you really hate me so that you can't even bear look at me?

"I know it's not my business but why were you cloud-gazing?" I grinned mischievously. I had become a master of facades just for you not to see me vulnerable.

"I just had nothing to do, is there something wrong with that?" you replied glaring at me. I had a feeling your blood pressure was rising… Oh God, please don't make me the reason of your death with a heart attack.

"Iie, of course not… I was just wondering why… you seemed to be thinking of something…" I replied. Great recovery by the Ryo-master!

"I never knew you had a heart in there… I thought some sort of arrogance organ replaced it…" you noted looking at me. I'm not really that arrogant, am I?

"Of course I do!" I exclaimed in aghast, "I just wanted to let you know that whenever you need me I'm there…" I said suddenly in a serious tone of voice.

"W-What the hell are you talking about?" you stuttered surprised, I could tell by you eyes widening.

"I… I really want to help you…" I said nervously when you suddenly laughed…

"What get a heart attack?" you laughed, apparently amused.

"No… not really…" I replied looking down at the ground, apparently you didn't understand.

"Hey!" you glared at me, your blood pressure gone up again…

"Oh well… just remember… I'm always there…" I said standing up.

"Yeah, to piss me off…" you glared at me before I walked away.

******

You soon said you wanted to go home, I watched you leave and soon left as well… what point was staying when only Takato, Jeri, Kenta and Kazu were around not minding him? Jenrya and Suzie went away when you did so I just decided to follow his example… I followed you, since we were on the same path home. I was at your back, trying my best not to make you notice me there…

I watched as your Auburn hair mixed with the light of the sunset, it was a breath-taking sight… We were about to cross the road, you crossed first… I suddenly noticed there was a truck heading straight towards you…

Oh God, no…

I ran with all my might, the truck was about to hit you… luckily I pushed you away right in time but thing is… I was hit…

I coughed out blood, the driver soon stopped when he hit me, you turned around to find me and your eyes widened in fright… all these things seemed insignificant since I was hanging on to my dear life already…

I would never be able to make you like me…

You walked towards me muttering some words like 'baka', tears flooding down you cheeks…

I just wished for you not to despise me but I can't stop that now…

"Ryo… why did you do it?" you whispered stroking my hair, my idle body in your arms…

"I love you Ruki…" I said, "I love you…"

"Ryo…" you whispered, "You shouldn't have done it then… so I could have figured out my feelings as well… and what about when Monodramon comes back?"

"Please tell him that I'm sorry I wasn't able to wait… he's my best pal… I really treasured my friendship with him… I wish I could see him but it's too late now…" I said when I realized what you said, "Y-You don't hate me?" I stuttered, even if I was in my death bed I seemed so happy…

"Of course not…" you cried, "Don't go away yet… please…"

My wish is fulfilled… I am not despised any longer…

"I'm sorry Ruki… but I can't anymore…" I whispered as the numbness took over me and I closed my eyes, "You have someone else out there… at least I'm happy knowing I protected you…" and that was my final word as I fled to eternal rest, never to wake up again…

*tsuzuku*

Takari-san: Gomen… *sniff* I killed Ryo… but he was a martyr… he was patriotic and he was happy when he died… *sniff*

Preview:

Chapter Three: Not to be Alone…

Ruki's POV, she was shattered in Ryo's death, her past confusion revealed and at the end of the chapter Jenrya comes, set in Ryo's funeral…

Takari-san: Character Death is bad for my health… If you're wondering how I'm going to make an epilogue that is Ryouki when Ryo is dead, I'm going to make it Jenruki and Ryouki at the same time…  but read and find out when I update when I do it…  ^___^ R/R!