Author: Kityye
AN: Two bad words.
Summary: It was a happy episode, wasn't it?
Disclaimer: I still don't own them.
Spoilers: Season 3, episode 5
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10/26/03
Hmm… Vaughn is not dead or brain-damaged. Lauren is insane (the look on her face as we chased that van!), Marshall needs to get out more (but he always has needed to get out more, and he is still sweet), and Weiss imparted wisdom about guitar-playing when you can't play guitar. I haven't had such a relaxed week in forever! I mean look at all the good things that happened to me… I was only in angst for a few hours each day! Just worry about Vaughn, some worry about Sloane, and then seeing Vaughn and Lauren together in the hospital hurt. But, I can't remember the last time I had such a good week. It might have been Thanksgiving where Francie was engaged and we had dinner as a group, and Dad showed up at the end. Well, that is the other extremely happy time I remember, anyway, that doesn't directly involve Vaughn, because our first kiss was also a special moment, and then our first date… and hockey playing… and now I'm going to cry.
I still love him, no matter how much I deny it to myself. I still feel pain when he's with *her*. I'm not trying to pretend he doesn't exist or that we don't have history. That would be stupid, especially when I work with his wife. She is a dare-devil, by the way. Her driving totally freaked me out, but the look on her face was one of pure exhilaration. At least I could think, but not about the road or the other cars as we flashed by with only inches to spare on either side. Instead, Walker called, which reminds me – I need to call him back, and I had a nice chat with him. I wonder why Lauren never got field rated. I guess she wasn't that bad a driver.
Why we even bothered to chase Sloane, I don't know. I suppose I started it, and Lauren followed my lead. Of course, I thought they were going to shoot somebody other than Sloane, so I pulled my gun, but then they kidnapped the bastard, and I tried to stop them, I mean we were there to talk to him. Obviously I suffered from brain-damage somewhere, because normally I wouldn't have done such a thing. He is so conning us, and we're so letting him!
Marshall is such a geek. I prepped him as best I could on the plane. The Texas drawl was his idea. Getting rid of his constant five o'clock shadow was mine. Even though we were on a mission, it was awesome to watch him win and win and win! I have fun on missions, but not usually that type of fun. I know why Carrie loves him so much, although he can get a little irritating after a while. He is the most innocent CIA member I know. Although, I could have killed him after he slapped my ass. I didn't mean for him to get *that* into his character! He is such a geek! I wonder what the baby will turn out to be like.
It felt so right, bantering with Weiss, Lauren, and Vaughn. I've missed it; it was so much like me, Francie, and Will, before we lost our innocence. I miss Francie. I hope Will's doing all right.
Julia's gone back into my mind where she came from. Soon, the CIA will bring in Walker, and we can figure her out. It'll be nice to know, for a change.
I haven't been this peaceful and content in a long time. I'd almost forgotten that I could enjoy living. It's nice to know I still can.
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AN: Do you like the rambling journal style better, or when she's focused more on exactly what happened in the epp?
AN: Two bad words.
Summary: It was a happy episode, wasn't it?
Disclaimer: I still don't own them.
Spoilers: Season 3, episode 5
~:~:~:~
10/26/03
Hmm… Vaughn is not dead or brain-damaged. Lauren is insane (the look on her face as we chased that van!), Marshall needs to get out more (but he always has needed to get out more, and he is still sweet), and Weiss imparted wisdom about guitar-playing when you can't play guitar. I haven't had such a relaxed week in forever! I mean look at all the good things that happened to me… I was only in angst for a few hours each day! Just worry about Vaughn, some worry about Sloane, and then seeing Vaughn and Lauren together in the hospital hurt. But, I can't remember the last time I had such a good week. It might have been Thanksgiving where Francie was engaged and we had dinner as a group, and Dad showed up at the end. Well, that is the other extremely happy time I remember, anyway, that doesn't directly involve Vaughn, because our first kiss was also a special moment, and then our first date… and hockey playing… and now I'm going to cry.
I still love him, no matter how much I deny it to myself. I still feel pain when he's with *her*. I'm not trying to pretend he doesn't exist or that we don't have history. That would be stupid, especially when I work with his wife. She is a dare-devil, by the way. Her driving totally freaked me out, but the look on her face was one of pure exhilaration. At least I could think, but not about the road or the other cars as we flashed by with only inches to spare on either side. Instead, Walker called, which reminds me – I need to call him back, and I had a nice chat with him. I wonder why Lauren never got field rated. I guess she wasn't that bad a driver.
Why we even bothered to chase Sloane, I don't know. I suppose I started it, and Lauren followed my lead. Of course, I thought they were going to shoot somebody other than Sloane, so I pulled my gun, but then they kidnapped the bastard, and I tried to stop them, I mean we were there to talk to him. Obviously I suffered from brain-damage somewhere, because normally I wouldn't have done such a thing. He is so conning us, and we're so letting him!
Marshall is such a geek. I prepped him as best I could on the plane. The Texas drawl was his idea. Getting rid of his constant five o'clock shadow was mine. Even though we were on a mission, it was awesome to watch him win and win and win! I have fun on missions, but not usually that type of fun. I know why Carrie loves him so much, although he can get a little irritating after a while. He is the most innocent CIA member I know. Although, I could have killed him after he slapped my ass. I didn't mean for him to get *that* into his character! He is such a geek! I wonder what the baby will turn out to be like.
It felt so right, bantering with Weiss, Lauren, and Vaughn. I've missed it; it was so much like me, Francie, and Will, before we lost our innocence. I miss Francie. I hope Will's doing all right.
Julia's gone back into my mind where she came from. Soon, the CIA will bring in Walker, and we can figure her out. It'll be nice to know, for a change.
I haven't been this peaceful and content in a long time. I'd almost forgotten that I could enjoy living. It's nice to know I still can.
~:~:~:~
AN: Do you like the rambling journal style better, or when she's focused more on exactly what happened in the epp?