(A/N: I do not own Star Wars, or any of the unrecognized characters either.
they are my friends. That goes for the entire story. This chapter is rated
PG13 for mild language )
I had to fight Vader in a duel (A/N duels are fun!) today. I kicked his ass!
He's got it in for me, I think. I have a burn on my shoulder from that lightsaber of his.
Han came to my quarters. He rubbed bacta on the burn. I love him, but somehow I don't think he's doing so well in his studies. They do make the stormtroopers learn things other than fighting.
He makes me feel better, and yet it's too good to last.
Palpatine knows. Stars, I hope he keeps liking Han. I'm sure I'm the only reason Han's still here.
Mara
We went too far. We were drunk. I think I got knocked up, I'm late anyway. Palpatine knows, too. I'm not going to tell anyone. I mean I'm only 15. What would the admirals think? I can hear the Holonet's announcement now, "Emperor's Hand Pregnant." Even thought they're not supposed to know I exist. Maybe they'll think I'm Palpatine or Vader's concubine if they found out.
Mara
Thank the Force, it was a nightmare.
Too drunk to know the difference. Han doesn't remember any such thing.
Sometimes I wish---
No. I have too much on my hands without a baby. Or anything that might cause one. Han knows.
Besides, I've probed myself with the Force. No way is anything growing in me.
What would I do with a kid? Where would it stay? I can't have a kid, yet anyway. I would have to leave the empire. I don't want to leave the Emperor.
Mara
I'm gonna kill him! I'm going to KILL Han. He lied to me. He remembers that night. We did, for lack of a better word, canoodle. He just didn't want to be responsible if I was pregnant.
He wants to be an Imperial officer. If the Emperor had found out it was he, he would kill Han. I will instead, Palpatine doesn't have to worry about that.
Mara
He thinks its FUNNY!
Han Solo thinks its funny to jerk me around like that! He says now he was kidding. I can't trust him.
The Force, I love him, but he can't keep doing this to me! Am I pregnant or not?
Stars curse him!
I'm fifteen. I'm never drinking again. I hate not knowing!
Tell me, Han, please!
By the Force, just TELL me.
Mara
All right.
Who the Force is Bria Tharen?
Did he torture her like this?
If he did, I'm going to find her and tell her to help me scare the shit out of him. He won't leave me alone! And I'm tired of having to project a different image of me to anyone who passes by. What if I forget? What if someone sees me with him? It would ruin my life!
The Emperor knows, of course, but what if the admirals find out? I would die, literally.
Mara
I had to fight Vader in a duel (A/N duels are fun!) today. I kicked his ass!
He's got it in for me, I think. I have a burn on my shoulder from that lightsaber of his.
Han came to my quarters. He rubbed bacta on the burn. I love him, but somehow I don't think he's doing so well in his studies. They do make the stormtroopers learn things other than fighting.
He makes me feel better, and yet it's too good to last.
Palpatine knows. Stars, I hope he keeps liking Han. I'm sure I'm the only reason Han's still here.
Mara
We went too far. We were drunk. I think I got knocked up, I'm late anyway. Palpatine knows, too. I'm not going to tell anyone. I mean I'm only 15. What would the admirals think? I can hear the Holonet's announcement now, "Emperor's Hand Pregnant." Even thought they're not supposed to know I exist. Maybe they'll think I'm Palpatine or Vader's concubine if they found out.
Mara
Thank the Force, it was a nightmare.
Too drunk to know the difference. Han doesn't remember any such thing.
Sometimes I wish---
No. I have too much on my hands without a baby. Or anything that might cause one. Han knows.
Besides, I've probed myself with the Force. No way is anything growing in me.
What would I do with a kid? Where would it stay? I can't have a kid, yet anyway. I would have to leave the empire. I don't want to leave the Emperor.
Mara
I'm gonna kill him! I'm going to KILL Han. He lied to me. He remembers that night. We did, for lack of a better word, canoodle. He just didn't want to be responsible if I was pregnant.
He wants to be an Imperial officer. If the Emperor had found out it was he, he would kill Han. I will instead, Palpatine doesn't have to worry about that.
Mara
He thinks its FUNNY!
Han Solo thinks its funny to jerk me around like that! He says now he was kidding. I can't trust him.
The Force, I love him, but he can't keep doing this to me! Am I pregnant or not?
Stars curse him!
I'm fifteen. I'm never drinking again. I hate not knowing!
Tell me, Han, please!
By the Force, just TELL me.
Mara
All right.
Who the Force is Bria Tharen?
Did he torture her like this?
If he did, I'm going to find her and tell her to help me scare the shit out of him. He won't leave me alone! And I'm tired of having to project a different image of me to anyone who passes by. What if I forget? What if someone sees me with him? It would ruin my life!
The Emperor knows, of course, but what if the admirals find out? I would die, literally.
Mara