Hey everyone, sorry it took a long time to update but I've been away on a
little vacation! Which is the reason why all my storied haven't been
updated in a while..
Anyway, the song this time is "Ghost of you and me" by BBmak, it's not exactly the kind of music I usually listen to but the lyrics are really fitting here and somehow this song stuck with me.
Send me your reviews!!! I love hearing from you.
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What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
*
Calleigh woke up and rolled over, John was lying with his back to her, still sleeping. She slid in bed and hugged him from behind, pressing her body against his bare back.
He was waiting for her last night when she got off work, leaning against her car in the parking lot.
"I miss you"
He didn't say anything after that, he didn't have to. She handed him her car keys and he drove them to his house in silence. They didn't have sex that night, they simply climbed into bed and went to sleep. Somehow the feel of his strong arms around her, the touch of his skin, made her feel comfortable. She didn't even realize how much she missed him before.
She finally climbed out of bed and made herself some coffee, walking out to the back yard to drink it. She sat down and let the bright morning sun wash over her, warming her up.
But now that she was out of bed and away from John's embrace her troubles flooded her again and this time it wasn't just her father that was troubling her - there was something else.
There was Erik.
*
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over
*
When he got home last night there was another message from her, just like the two nights before. He wasn't answering, he wasn't returning the calls - he was staying true to his decision and staying away from her.
He was trying to keep everything normal at work, still joking around, still exchanging the usual banter. But he was doing his best to avoid any chance of being alone with her - he took cases that paired him up with either Speed or Horatio, made sure to take assignments that would place him in the lab as far away from her gun lab as possible.
She noticed something was wrong - she must have, otherwise she wouldn't be calling him everyday.
He took a shower and went to bed.
*
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
*
John got up without Calleigh in bed, for a minute he was afraid she changed her mind about everything and went home, but then he heard her moving around in the back yard.
He got up and got dressed, joining her with his own cup of coffee.
"We should talk" he told her as soon as he sat next to her
"About us?"
"That's part of it, but I was talking about your dad Call'" he told her as gently as he could "You can't keep going like this, you need to do something"
She didn't say anything so he kept going "It's up to you but you have possibilities, rehab, treatments, but you're the one who's going to have to make the first step - he's not going to do it himself"
"What do you want me to do? Drag him kicking and screaming? He's a grown man John, I can't tell him what to do" She shrugged, not meeting his eyes
"That's not true and you know it Call', you can say something, you have to say something"
"John, please can we just not talk about it?"
"Ok" he gave up "We don't have to talk about it, just promise me you'll think about it ok?"
*
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
*
It's been a month, a whole month. He's watched them from a far, leaving together at the end of the day, going out for lunch, arriving at work together. It was torture - slow and painful death.
The worst of it was the way Calleigh kept looking at him - that quizzical, worried look she kept throwing his way. Like she was trying to figure him out.
The painful thing about that was that she used to have no trouble figuring him out - it used to be like second nature to all of them - knowing what the others were thinking, knowing each other's moods. And now, they were so far apart that for the first time in years she couldn't so that - couldn't figure him out.
One evening she left in a haste again - this time asking Speed to cover for her. When John came by a few hours later asking for her he realized there was only one place Calleigh would disappear to without telling John - it must be her father again
When she didn't come back a few hours later he knew his suspicions were true. She was out dragging him from some bar again.
"It's not your problem anymore Delko" he kept telling himself "She has a boyfriend, if she needs any help he's the one she'll go to"
*
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
*
She brought him back to her apartment again, she probably got there to fast this time, because he wasn't as docile as he was the other times. Probably because he hadn't had a chance to drink as much - he was fighting her all the way out of the bar and screaming at her all the way home.
"You're going to lock me up here again?" he spat when she finally got him through the door. "leave me here while you go back to your important job?"
"I'm not going back to work tonight dad"
"They finally gave you a day off? Let me guess, they let you go so you can take care of your poor old father?" e asked sarcastically "Playing the hero for all those nice people at work are you?"
"No dad."
"Why not? You always did like to show off, show people how smart you were, how enlightened you were - even back in high school."
"Dad, please, let's not bring that up again."
"You like to shame me don't you? Show everyone how much better you are then your old man?" he was screaming at her by now "I should have taught you some humility when I had the chance, put you across my knee and give you a serious woopin'"
"You tried dad, trust me you tried!"
"So now I'm also a bad father am I?" he spat at her "Well that's one thing you can't claim to do better then me! Look at you! A grown woman, not married, no kids, you don't know the first thing about being a parent! And why should you? You women today think that having a job is somehow going to make you important, going to make you better! You don't have a clue! You're nothing little girl, nothing! And no 'oh so important' job is going to change that!"
She stood there for a minute and looked at him, shocked. He was smirking, like he actually just won some prize. Finally she just turned around and took off, not even bothering to lock the door behind her this time - if he wanted out, let him go, she couldn't care less.
*
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
*
He opened the door and found her there, sitting crossed legged on the floor, her face buried in the palms of her hands. She's been crying.
"Call? What are you doing here?" he kneeled next her "Call', talk to me! Is everything ok?"
"No, nothing is ok!" she was suddenly on her feet again, her face red with anger "You want me to talk to you? All of the sudden you want to talk? Where were you the last couple of weeks huh? Where were you?"
"Calleigh what's wrong?"
"Everything is wrong! Everything! My dad is an old mean sonofabitch but he's drunk. You're my best friend - what's your excuse?"
*
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
*
Erik stood in front of her dumb struck, not knowing what to say. In the end he simply shrugged and turned away from her. "You're upset, you should just go home"
"That's all you have to say?" she was burning with anger now. She walked up to him and grabbed him by the shoulders, spinning him to face her "Look at me Erik, look at me!"
With out thinking he grabbed her back pinning her against the wall "I can't!" he screamed "I can't look at you ok?"
She was so close, he could feel her body against him. Something inside him just snapped and he couldn't hold back anymore - he simply leaned in and kissed her.
*
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
*
Later when she thought about that moment she couldn't remember if she kissed him back or not. It all happened so fast.
He let go of her after only a few seconds, moving back to lean against the opposite wall, breathing hard.
She didn't know what to say, what to think.
Instead she just ran.
*
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Anyway, the song this time is "Ghost of you and me" by BBmak, it's not exactly the kind of music I usually listen to but the lyrics are really fitting here and somehow this song stuck with me.
Send me your reviews!!! I love hearing from you.
*
What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
*
Calleigh woke up and rolled over, John was lying with his back to her, still sleeping. She slid in bed and hugged him from behind, pressing her body against his bare back.
He was waiting for her last night when she got off work, leaning against her car in the parking lot.
"I miss you"
He didn't say anything after that, he didn't have to. She handed him her car keys and he drove them to his house in silence. They didn't have sex that night, they simply climbed into bed and went to sleep. Somehow the feel of his strong arms around her, the touch of his skin, made her feel comfortable. She didn't even realize how much she missed him before.
She finally climbed out of bed and made herself some coffee, walking out to the back yard to drink it. She sat down and let the bright morning sun wash over her, warming her up.
But now that she was out of bed and away from John's embrace her troubles flooded her again and this time it wasn't just her father that was troubling her - there was something else.
There was Erik.
*
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over
*
When he got home last night there was another message from her, just like the two nights before. He wasn't answering, he wasn't returning the calls - he was staying true to his decision and staying away from her.
He was trying to keep everything normal at work, still joking around, still exchanging the usual banter. But he was doing his best to avoid any chance of being alone with her - he took cases that paired him up with either Speed or Horatio, made sure to take assignments that would place him in the lab as far away from her gun lab as possible.
She noticed something was wrong - she must have, otherwise she wouldn't be calling him everyday.
He took a shower and went to bed.
*
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
*
John got up without Calleigh in bed, for a minute he was afraid she changed her mind about everything and went home, but then he heard her moving around in the back yard.
He got up and got dressed, joining her with his own cup of coffee.
"We should talk" he told her as soon as he sat next to her
"About us?"
"That's part of it, but I was talking about your dad Call'" he told her as gently as he could "You can't keep going like this, you need to do something"
She didn't say anything so he kept going "It's up to you but you have possibilities, rehab, treatments, but you're the one who's going to have to make the first step - he's not going to do it himself"
"What do you want me to do? Drag him kicking and screaming? He's a grown man John, I can't tell him what to do" She shrugged, not meeting his eyes
"That's not true and you know it Call', you can say something, you have to say something"
"John, please can we just not talk about it?"
"Ok" he gave up "We don't have to talk about it, just promise me you'll think about it ok?"
*
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
*
It's been a month, a whole month. He's watched them from a far, leaving together at the end of the day, going out for lunch, arriving at work together. It was torture - slow and painful death.
The worst of it was the way Calleigh kept looking at him - that quizzical, worried look she kept throwing his way. Like she was trying to figure him out.
The painful thing about that was that she used to have no trouble figuring him out - it used to be like second nature to all of them - knowing what the others were thinking, knowing each other's moods. And now, they were so far apart that for the first time in years she couldn't so that - couldn't figure him out.
One evening she left in a haste again - this time asking Speed to cover for her. When John came by a few hours later asking for her he realized there was only one place Calleigh would disappear to without telling John - it must be her father again
When she didn't come back a few hours later he knew his suspicions were true. She was out dragging him from some bar again.
"It's not your problem anymore Delko" he kept telling himself "She has a boyfriend, if she needs any help he's the one she'll go to"
*
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
*
She brought him back to her apartment again, she probably got there to fast this time, because he wasn't as docile as he was the other times. Probably because he hadn't had a chance to drink as much - he was fighting her all the way out of the bar and screaming at her all the way home.
"You're going to lock me up here again?" he spat when she finally got him through the door. "leave me here while you go back to your important job?"
"I'm not going back to work tonight dad"
"They finally gave you a day off? Let me guess, they let you go so you can take care of your poor old father?" e asked sarcastically "Playing the hero for all those nice people at work are you?"
"No dad."
"Why not? You always did like to show off, show people how smart you were, how enlightened you were - even back in high school."
"Dad, please, let's not bring that up again."
"You like to shame me don't you? Show everyone how much better you are then your old man?" he was screaming at her by now "I should have taught you some humility when I had the chance, put you across my knee and give you a serious woopin'"
"You tried dad, trust me you tried!"
"So now I'm also a bad father am I?" he spat at her "Well that's one thing you can't claim to do better then me! Look at you! A grown woman, not married, no kids, you don't know the first thing about being a parent! And why should you? You women today think that having a job is somehow going to make you important, going to make you better! You don't have a clue! You're nothing little girl, nothing! And no 'oh so important' job is going to change that!"
She stood there for a minute and looked at him, shocked. He was smirking, like he actually just won some prize. Finally she just turned around and took off, not even bothering to lock the door behind her this time - if he wanted out, let him go, she couldn't care less.
*
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
*
He opened the door and found her there, sitting crossed legged on the floor, her face buried in the palms of her hands. She's been crying.
"Call? What are you doing here?" he kneeled next her "Call', talk to me! Is everything ok?"
"No, nothing is ok!" she was suddenly on her feet again, her face red with anger "You want me to talk to you? All of the sudden you want to talk? Where were you the last couple of weeks huh? Where were you?"
"Calleigh what's wrong?"
"Everything is wrong! Everything! My dad is an old mean sonofabitch but he's drunk. You're my best friend - what's your excuse?"
*
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
*
Erik stood in front of her dumb struck, not knowing what to say. In the end he simply shrugged and turned away from her. "You're upset, you should just go home"
"That's all you have to say?" she was burning with anger now. She walked up to him and grabbed him by the shoulders, spinning him to face her "Look at me Erik, look at me!"
With out thinking he grabbed her back pinning her against the wall "I can't!" he screamed "I can't look at you ok?"
She was so close, he could feel her body against him. Something inside him just snapped and he couldn't hold back anymore - he simply leaned in and kissed her.
*
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
*
Later when she thought about that moment she couldn't remember if she kissed him back or not. It all happened so fast.
He let go of her after only a few seconds, moving back to lean against the opposite wall, breathing hard.
She didn't know what to say, what to think.
Instead she just ran.
*
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me